"Psychiatrist?"

Wang Ge shook his head, "No, it's not a big problem. ”

His own situation, he himself is actually very clear.

It is useless to find a psychiatrist.

He was born with memories of his previous life, rich experience and complete three views.

But these can't be seen, so from birth, he put on a thick disguise.

To disguise himself as a baby, to be held every day, to be fed three meals a day, bored can only sleep or in a daze, and even excretion can not be solved by himself.

This is definitely a difficult thing for an adult with a mature mentality, dignity, and a sense of shame to accept.

So he was tormented and miserable.

And when he was a baby, he had to be nervous all the time, and most of the time every day except for sleeping, he was crying.

Only in the dead of night can he look out the window into the darkness and be himself for a moment.

At that time, he was a baby who had just been born for a short time, and the most he thought in his heart was: It is better to die directly.

If you want me to go through it, why start from scratch, can't you just travel to high school or college?

Why don't you want to find a way to kill yourself? At least not so much torture.

But his body is not developed, and even if he has suicidal thoughts, he has no ability to commit suicide.

Banging your head against a wall? Let's not talk about whether he has a chance to collide, even if he has a chance, but his body has no strength at all, his bones have not developed, and he can't stand up, how can he collide?

Biting your tongue and killing yourself? He doesn't even have teeth, so should he bite his tongue with his gums?

There was a chance to cut his wrists, but how could his parents let him touch the knife.

Human cubs are such weak creatures.

All he can do is accept reality and numbly pretend to be a baby.

In the long run, he actually had some problems in his psychology for a long time.

Fortunately, as time passed, his body gradually developed and he was finally able to take care of himself.

I gradually got used to camouflage, and this gradually got better.

But because he was still under the nose of his parents, he couldn't take off his disguise to save himself, so he could only try not to let the psychological problems expand.

After going to kindergarten, away from his parents and receiving less attention, he finally had the opportunity to take off his disguise for a short time and silently shrink in the corner alone to lick his wounds.

But this was regarded as withdrawn, which made his parents worry for a while, and found him a psychiatrist.

Helplessly, he had to put on his disguise again, show an innocent smile, and go to play with those children of the same age.

This was also an extremely painful thing for him at that time.

Although it was much easier than when I was a baby, the psychological problems gradually expanded.

He began to become irritable and irritable, unconsciously getting angry and completely uncontrollable.

It must be very interesting to look at the children playing around him, and he will want to take something and smash it on their heads, and watch their heads bleed.

When I am alone, I become withdrawn, silent, my brain is empty, I am tired, and I have no thoughts.

Lying in bed looking at the ceiling, I thought to myself if only the ceiling could fall and kill me......

However, Wang Ge is not a person who will sit still after all.

He knew very well that if he continued like this, he would have to hold back some kind of mental illness.

He didn't want to go to a psychiatric hospital.

So he began to try to save himself.

Originally, the best way to save yourself is undoubtedly to get rid of the disguise and be true to yourself.

But when he wanted to do so, he sadly found that this layer of disguise could not be removed.

Because the camouflage has been pretended for too long, it has long been a habit, even instinct, and it is difficult to peel it off

Therefore, he can only temporarily block and forget the adult part of himself, so that he can truly become a child and feel the joys, sorrows and sorrows of children.

The camouflage can't be removed, so turn that layer of camouflage into your own flesh and skin.

In this way, the psychological problems were indeed alleviated, but he himself seemed to be schizophrenic.

Just as Li Zhimeng said, the children's part was happily playing with the children, and the blocked adult part was watching from the side, sneering indifferently.

It's just that this was a symptom many years ago.

Now, after so many years of hard work, he has mixed the two parts together.

Formed him with a somewhat weird personality now.

He couldn't tell whether he was naïve or mature now.

But it doesn't matter, at least psychologically healthy.

It's like a rag doll that has been tinkered with many times, although its body is full of patches and some small flaws, but it is finally completely repaired.

Overall harmless.

However, although Li Zhimeng said that the symptoms were many years ago, Wang Ge was still a little surprised that she could see it in such a short time.

"Did you study psychology?" Wang Ge asked her.

"No, I'm learning a foreign language." Li Zhimeng said.

Wang Ge was puzzled: "Then how can you see that I have a problem?" ”

Li Zhimeng suddenly crossed his waist and looked proud: "Of course it's because I'm amazing!" ”

Wang Ge: "......"

Seeing Wang Ge's speechless expression, Li Zhimeng grabbed his hair and said with a smile: "Hehe, it's actually because I've seen more people." ”

"I grew up in a welfare home, and in the past two years, I have seen too many of them, both adults and children."

"A child's eyes will be clear and innocent, but an adult's eyes will be a little cloudy and indifferent, and the bigger they are, the more indifferent they will be, and then they may become old and clear again."

"But brother, you are different from everyone else."

Li Zhimeng stretched out his little hand and gestured, "Your eyes, most of the time are completely superimposed on these two and show them together, and the remaining small part of the time will be like a child, with only innocence in the eyes, and no indifference from adults at all." ”

"Well, that's what happened when you were playing with the kids just now."

Wang Ge sighed, "If you observe so carefully, you can't fall in love with me, right?" ”

"Don't be narcissistic."

Li Zhimeng snorted, "It's just because your eyes are different from others and you're more curious, so I pay extra attention to you." ”

"Well, I thought I was so charming that I was fascinated by you." Wang Ge said casually.

He didn't really want to talk about it, and he felt like he was being stripped naked, so he deliberately pulled the topic away.

"Very attractive indeed, brother."

Li Zhimeng obviously saw this, and she had always been considerate, and she smiled and gave Wang Ge a thumbs up, "This kind of innocent eyes is a killer for those experienced big sisters, no big sister can refuse someone like you." ”

"I'm willing to call you a big sister killer!"

Li Zhimeng's shaping has just begun, don't worry, you have to come one by one

(End of chapter)