"Spring will come to spring, flowers and flowers will ......bloom again" Zhang Lan sat at the computer, idle and bored watching videos, I don't like to watch TV series, the old movies are almost old, and I don't want to watch the new ones.

I feel bored reading books, and I don't want to study any skills when I have nothing to do, so I just listen to songs and gossip when I'm in a panic.

Look at the articles of those people who are running trains in beautiful countries and just after the plane.

No matter what kind of software it is, at the beginning, it may be sticking to the original intention, doing what it should do, and the software that it wants to do.

But as time goes by, as more and more users come along, they will slowly face all kinds of temptations.

It is often said that the enclosure is self-sprouting, and there is also a premise that the organizer can afford to grow the losses year after year, day after day.

In the beginning, maybe everyone's heart is good, but as time goes by, it will gradually change.

Money and silk are moving, and everything cannot stand the test. There are selfless people in this world, and there are also people who give everything to their ideals. But more people are just in the fly camp doggy.

Including Zhang Lan herself, she has never been a selfless person, but after reading books for more than ten years, she has a little bit of a moral bottom line.

There is persistence and a moral bottom line in his heart, which prompts Zhang Lan to control the desires in his heart when he has no strength. And when you have the strength, you can also restrain yourself.

Zhang Lan is neither a strong man wielding a knife, nor a weak man wielding a knife. Most of the time, it's just that there are too many concerns in this world, which can make people have some awe and scruples.

As for what he is in awe of, what he is afraid of, Zhang Lan in the past was for his family, and now Zhang Lan is also for his family, as for Zhang Lan himself, he smiled slightly, he never felt that there was anything worth scrupling in this world.

The Bodhisattva is afraid of the cause, the sentient beings are afraid of the effect, and what Zhang Lan is in awe of is the people around him.

seems to be cold, but in fact, most of the time, Zhang Lan is still an old-fashioned old master who pays attention to the rules in his bones.

Get up and sit on the recliner, the sun outside the window shining on your face, squinting into the distance, what is the purpose of human life?

For the sake of children? For the sake of the family? For friends? When is it for yourself?

Zhang Lan's thoughts flew into the distance leisurely, what did he want to break?

Zhang Lan doesn't have too much appetite, and until now, when eating, she still likes to eat Chinese cabbage, scrambled eggs with garlic, and eat a bowl of rice.

Eat noodles, eat preserved egg and lean porridge, and eat beef and tofu soup. Home-cooked meals are enough, and as for delicacies from the mountains and seas, there is no special preference.

What do you like best? At first, the clinic was opened to earn a living and earn merit, but then I got used to it, not for money, not for merit, but purely to find something to do and make myself look less boring.

After I am free, I have nothing to do for a day or two, a month or two months, and a game for seven or eight months for half a year, but no matter how long the time is, I can't always stop working and not working.

It's not that Zhang Lan hasn't done this, there was a time when he stayed in a rental house for nearly two years, and it was not that he didn't see anyone, but after making some money, he nested in the rental house, got himself a computer, pulled the Internet cable, and started playing games.

At the beginning, I was very happy, and I was confident that I would make money by playing games. Five open ten open and so on, while earning money, you also play games.

After a long time, I learned that it is never easy for anyone who can make money.

In those two years, Zhang Lan almost played herself to waste. It's the kind of guy who snuggs up in a rental house all day, plays games during the day and at night, and occasionally goes out to the street for a meal, or goes to the vegetable market to buy something and make it himself.

Day after day, the whole person's thinking becomes different. Doesn't communicate with people all day and becomes more and more reluctant to talk to people.

At the beginning, Zhang Lan insisted on getting up early in the morning to run, and taking time to go out for fitness at night. Slowly, after a long time, it becomes going out during the day and occasionally going out during the day. Go out at night and occasionally at night.

In the end, I basically go out to the supermarket every few days in the evening to buy some groceries, and come out late at night to buy a supper.

The result is that when Zhang Lan realized that he was wrong and was about to pick up his previous job again and find a company code, he found that the interface and keyboard he was once familiar with became so unfamiliar, as if he had never learned it.

After knowing his decadence, Zhang Lan spent three months just to restore the skills and state when he first resigned.

When the brain is rested and not used, it is really the same as the machine, and it will become more and more rusty.

Even the three-month recovery state only means that Zhang Lan can do the job, not that Zhang Lan can be the same as before. The kind of inspiration that used to be like a spring, a word of command, without saying anything for a long time to do a good job of what was ordered above, this state is really impossible to go back.

Practice makes perfect, but more often than not, it's just cooking, and that makes perfect is completely inadequate.

As we get older, some things are growing. But more importantly, once something or opportunity is missed, it is too difficult to find it back or redeem it.

Or can't do it at all, time waits for no one, some words seem to be simply put there, and I don't feel anything when I read it, maybe I will add a few sentences in order to write an essay when I am young, but when I really understand it, that unforgettable feeling, young people are playing, and the elderly are looking at themselves when they were teenagers. When I start to reminisce about the past frequently, it shows that I am really ...... Downcast?

When she thought of this, Zhang Lan suddenly sat up from the recliner, what was the thought that flashed to her just now? When you start to reminisce about the past frequently, it means that this person is now very depressed?

Are you depressed now? Zhang Lan asked herself in her heart. The game panel appeared in front of him, and his right hand was stretched out, and a small jade gourd of jade appeared.

I have a magic weapon, a game panel, a plug-in from the sky, and the only transcendent person in the current era of the end of the law in Blue Star, and I suddenly feel very down?

Zhang Lan got up and walked to the window in disbelief, looking at the figure reflected in the glass, Zhang Lan fell into silence, so is he really down?

It's been a few years since I had a game panel, and the children weren't born at the beginning, but now the children are already in kindergarten, what have I done in the past few years? Has it changed the world? No.

So what have you changed? changed the fate of his family and some people around him, treated some people, taught some people a lesson, and saved a natural disaster. But what about other than that? (End of chapter)