Tang Qianying packed up her things, stood over and tilted her head to look at it for a while, and said, "The majestic meaning is enough, but the charm always feels weird." ”

Qingyun nodded in agreement, and wrote it twice, but it still didn't work.

"Or, that's it?"

Zhuo Lang felt that it was a waste of time.

He couldn't see the difference at all.

Qin Manman was not happy, "No! To do it, you have to do it to be the best! ”

"Fifth brother, I can't waste your hard work." Qingyun stretched and looked at Nezha on the wall in a daze.

Zhuo Lang shrugged his shoulders helplessly.

No way.

Obviously, Qin Manman understood him better than these brothers.

After being stunned for a while, Qingyun turned his head to look at the classmates behind him, "You guys go back first, I'll be alone for a while, I need to find a feeling." ”

"They go back, and I'll accompany you." Qin Manman immediately stood by his side.

Tang Qianying bit her lip, "Xiao Yunzi, my sister also stayed with her." ”

Qingyun shook his head and smiled, "You guys are here, I can't write it." ”

Qin Manman was stunned when he heard this.

The people who were packing up their things also looked puzzled.

Tang Qianying seemed to understand something, and retreated with a smile.

Catching a glimpse of such an action out of the corner of his eye, Qin Manman felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.

What does it mean?

You know him better than I do!

Looking at Qin Manman's somewhat resentful eyes, Qingyun was also a little crying and laughing, "There is a little bit of sadness and indignation missing in this word, when you were by my side, I didn't feel this way." ”

When Qin Manman heard this, he immediately smiled like a flower.

Count you as acquaintances!

I didn't have a 'we' word!

But...... Then she frowned.

Zhuo Lang touched his chin and sighed, "If that's the case, old man, if you want to be sad and angry, I have a way." ”

"What's the solution? Say it! ”

Qin Manman's tone was very anxious.

Although she understood what Qingyun meant, she was by his side, and he felt that the world was happy.

However, she didn't want to put him in that state of mind again.

If you have to relive your memory to write those words.

She would rather finish writing.

She had put herself in Qingyun's situation, imagining what happened to him, and the feeling of not seeing a little light in the darkness made her cry all night.

This is also the reason why she didn't kill Tang Qianying.

Whether it is reasonable, or from Qingyun's feelings, she can't kill her at this time.

So when Zhuo Lang proposed that there was another way, she was more concerned than anyone else.

Zhuo Lang was taken aback by Qin Manman, who was so anxious, he scratched his head,

"That...... I mean, why don't you shout 'Laozishu Dao Mountain' with Sister Ying? ”

The crowd burst into laughter.

This......

I'm afraid that not only will I be sad and angry, but my courage will be frightened.

Qin Manman couldn't cry or laugh when he heard this, but his eyes were green when he looked at Qingyun.

Hehe!

Sima Zhao's heart is known to passers-by, right?

Zhuo Lang also realized that it didn't seem right, and hurriedly added, "One is a girlfriend, the other is a sister, isn't there a charm of grief and indignation in the old man?" ”

Tang Qianying held a large compass in her hand and gave him a blank look, "Bad idea!" ”

After that, he pulled Qin Manman and left, "Let's go!" He's already out and it's fine. ”

Qin Manman snorted secretly in his heart, of course it's okay.

With such a memory, most of them will think of your light again in the end!

Scheming frogs!

However, she didn't stop.

Since he wants to do it perfectly, let him do it.

As for the back, just clean it up later!

When the crowd dispersed, Qingyun simply sat on the ground, holding his head and looking at the painting on the wall in a daze.

A generation has a generational memory.

Regarding Nezha, the deepest memory of his generation is not Nezha when the demon boy came into the world.

But Qingyun has a deeper resonance with the magic boy Nezha, and when it was released, he, a man in his 30s, cried in the movie theater.

Before going to school, he was like Nezha in the Demon Boy who came into the world, and he was not treated well.

Nezha, the magic boy, wants to play with the local children, and the children have no prejudice against him, but the child's parents scold him for being a monster.

He was the same.

was scolded as a child without a father and mother, and the children were not allowed to play with him.

The demon boy Nezha went to catch monsters and wanted to do the right thing for heaven, but they framed Nezha for all the bad things, and they hit him with wooden sticks indiscriminately on the beach.

He was the same.

At the age of 6, he caught a snake that slipped into the pigsty, but it was said that he threw the snake into it, and all the mischievous things were buckled on him.

It wasn't until he went to school that he became a 'child of someone else', and his reputation in the village immediately changed.

The parents of all the little ones let the children play with him.

Regarding "Nezha in the Sea", the most impressive scene of Qingyun is not Nezha's trouble in the East China Sea, pumping dragon tendons, and beating the third prince of the Dragon King, but when the Dragon King of the Four Seas flooded Chentang Pass, the dark clouds rolled, the turbid waves were surging, and Nezha was forced to swing his sword to kill himself.

On the one hand, his father forced him to die, and on the other hand, the dragon king asked him to give his life, and Nezha was only 7 years old at that time, which was the most terrifying time in his life, no one stood by his side, Nezha was cold and sad.

But even if he was scared and afraid, Nezha still chose to be a hero and carried all this alone.

He pointed at the dragon king and said, "Old demon dragon, listen, I will do things by myself, and you will not be allowed to harm the people!" ”

He looked back at his father and uttered the tear-jerking words: "Daddy! I will give you back your flesh and bones, and I will not bother you! ”

In that generation, many children were cried by Nezha's cut flesh and returned to their mothers, and their bones were returned to their fathers.

Why is this happening?

Because in the beating and scolding of our parents, in the beating and education of our parents, we love and hate them.

And you are born of them, and they are kind to you, and they cannot hate their parents, so they only want to give their flesh back to them, and they will never owe each other.

This is a rebellion against patriarchy, and it is also the strongest flame in the heart of a rebellious child.

At that time, the friends who were sitting in the courtyard of other people's houses watching cartoons cried to death one by one, but Qingyun looked at them and smiled.

You also have parents who beat and scolded.

What about me?

That night, Qingyun hid alone in the quilt, crying silently.

At that time, he was desperate to find his biological parents, so he made a detailed plan for this, and left as soon as he saved enough money.

If nothing else, just throw your report card in front of them and let them see how good the doll they abandoned back then is.

However, when he had saved enough money a year later, he didn't want to look for it.

There's no need for it.

I don't know which TV series in the school or in the mailroom taught him a truth.

It's better to raise than to live.

In fact, from another point of view, his biological father and mother were a delivery person, and they sent him to his grandfather, who regarded him as his grandson and son.

After thinking through everything, he threw the clues left by his parents into the firewood and burned them to ashes.

At that time, Qingyun's mentality was peaceful and peaceful.

The county authorities and units always come to organize veterans to go out for a walk and have a look.

Grandpa always said that he had been a soldier all his life, where had he never been?

I went abroad, and I didn't need any passports at that time.

His English is his grandfather, and the enlightenment book is a simple mimeographed book.

"Friends are annoyed by killing Langde! You are surrounded now！

Donte Ankett! Don't act！

Shout Zhi Ah Po! Hands up！

Kill the eggs Del Quekri! Surrender quickly！ ”

This passage, Qingyun was asked by his grandfather to memorize it well, saying that he would be able to use it sooner or later in the future.

After studying in the county junior high school for half a year, he laughed at his grandfather, now he doesn't have to fight, he doesn't need to memorize that.

Grandpa didn't listen, and always said that imperialism would not die.

As a descendant of the Qing family, he must be ready to go to war.

At that time, Qingyun, who had seen the world in the county, couldn't cry or laugh.

The only idea is to get into a good university with his grades, get ahead, and travel the world with this stubborn grandfather to tell him that the world is at peace.

Later, he was admitted to Jincheng No. 4 Middle School.

Jincheng No. 4 Middle School is very good, the people in the village don't know, but they know that this is a key high school in the provincial capital.

Uncle De, who sent Qingyun to take the exam for students from other places, came back and said that he heard that entering this high school means entering a key university.

At that time, the village was boiling, and the grandfather was smiling from ear to ear.

The people in the village even think that Qingjiagou Huanglian Village is about to produce a big official.

Because there was a high school student in the village, he became a township cadre.

This future key university student, when he comes out, he must not be a provincial cadre?

At that time, there were no university student village officials.

The 80-year-old village elder opened the ancestral hall and told the ancestors, and there were successors to the Qing family.

That's right, he's a member of the Qing family.

The 300 sons and daughters went out of Sichuan to the country, and only 7 people returned to the Qing family.

Later, his grandfather died, and he became an orphan again.

Emmm…… Not an orphan either.

One more godsister.

Thinking of this, Qingyun laughed, it was this godsister who always wanted to be his mother-in-law.

However, at that time, he actually didn't have much feeling for Tang Qianying.

In other words, at that time, his heart was full of pits and valleys full of the girl named Qin Manman.

Grandpa left, fortunately he was 17 years old and didn't have to go to the orphanage, and the whole village told the Civil Affairs Bureau that they had raised the child.

However, Qing Yue, a high school student and township cadre who walked out of this village, said that the original adoption procedures were not legal, and Qingyun was a fraudulent black household.

Qing Yue is worthy of being a high school student of that era, and he directly grabbed Qing Yun's life as soon as he made a move.

The hukou system has been the core system of the state for thousands of years.

No matter how good Jincheng No. 4 Middle School is, under this system, it will not be able to intervene.

When looking at other people's stories, people will always believe more in the darkness, and when it happens to themselves, they believe in the light.

If there really are so many things that are above the system, where do they get the keyboard?

How can there be any statement that the principal of a key middle school can suppress everything.

In a system that absorbs more than 90% of China's elite, two different systems, two different divisions, if you buy it, it would be too anti-intellectual.

Therefore, Qingyun can only fight a lawsuit, which is a reasonable plot.

Qingyun has lived for 17 years, and for the first time knows that he has no identity at all in this world.

In fact, it is not a big deal that the black household can go up again.

However, the one-to-one matching student status with the household registration cannot be kept.

Although it does not affect Qingyun's entrance to university, he can no longer go to public high schools, and all the preferential treatment he enjoyed before must be cancelled.

Because of all this, itself is based on the identity of Grandpa Qingyun's special meritorious hero.

Now, the two are no longer connected, and they are naturally invalid.

It's a dead end.

Fortunately, in this world, there is still the existence of 'people on people'.

With the Jincheng No. 4 Middle School Alumni Association, especially Qin Tianchuan's action, the whole incident came back to life.

Jincheng No. 4 Middle School is a strong liberal arts school, which means that its students are large in the judicial and legal circles.

The team of lawyer seniors who can be called a luxury group came out, and the judge who struck the hammer was also a little trembling.

Although everything is developing in a good direction, although Qingyun finally retains his identity in this world, he was confused at that time.

Grandfather......

The world is really big.

Grandfather......

After you are gone, this world is really strange.

He and the township cadre have no grievances, why did they attack him so viciously?

In fact, counting from the blood relationship, grandpa is gone, Qingyue is his closest relative, and he still calls him uncle.

He still remembered that Qing Yue taught him to write.

"Horizontal and vertical are all wind bones, skimming and flying is blood!"

High school students of that era, every one placed in the back was at least the existence of 211.

Qing Yue's words, Qing Yun has always remembered.

Therefore, he has a special paranoia about practicing calligraphy.

In order to save paper, he really used tree branches to practice strokes and brushstrokes on the loess scattered sand.

Therefore, he has developed the habit of writing without regrets, how can there be such a luxury as drafts.

In his previous life, agreeing to be Qin Manman's contract boyfriend was the starting point of his life in the next 20 years.

He started a high-rise building and sat in the position of vice president of Hopu Group in just 4 years.

His building collapsed, and his college graduates were statistically unemployed.

He went to graduate school, he took the Ph.D., he stayed in school, he taught.

In fact, he still can't tell whether it was Qin Tianchuan's bad taste of being a 'human being' at that time.

Because I'm too small.

He didn't believe that Qin Tianchuan couldn't see his talent in business, but Qin Tianchuan just didn't give him a chance at all.

All-round suppression without dead ends.

No matter what industry he is in, he can't pass the resume level.

The Qin family is too big.

Even if you open a noodle restaurant yourself, you can't open it.

You can only surrender and admit defeat.

Combined with Qin Manman's words in this life, he realized that in his previous life, he was calculated by the two fathers and daughters and became her spare tire.

A spare tire for the scientific cause of the Motherland.

Sounds pretty noble.

It's just that as a man, it's too aggrieved.

In his previous life, Qin Manman never even gave him a chance to be on it.

Blame him?

If it weren't for the toss she calculated and calculated in her junior year of high school, would the two of them be like this?

How many people in this world can have her 'Qin Cao's scheming?

And Tang Qianying is even more excessive.

kept saying 'Bai Yueguang', what 'I don't want to lose, and I don't want him to lose'......

If you have the ability, don't run away with the ball!

To put it bluntly, I just want to make cinnabar moles!

And Qin Tianchuan, he is a good entrepreneur, for the country and the people, a good father, and his daughter Qin Manman is endlessly favored......

But on what basis did he decide his fate!

Qingyun's breathing became heavy, and he closed his eyes.

The emotions of indignation and grievance were suppressed, lingering, and colliding in his chest, and even his body trembled.

He looked back on the 38 years of his previous life in his heart, just like Nezha reviewed his life through the playback function of the Tongtian Pig.

A review is when we look back at the earlier state of the event.

At this time, we will find some different perspectives, and we will see that the so-called truth is the result of choices and actions.

Backtracking is a three-step process:

First: discover yourself

Second: Accept yourself

Third: Enlightenment in all things

When the work becomes more and more confused, and that sense of powerlessness appears, it is time to seriously look back on the past.

From the time when I have a memory, I started to look back and re-understand myself, what is the thing that interests me the most?

Perhaps the most done is an act.

We can think carefully about why we were so interested in that event at that time, and so happy after doing it?

That's your true heart.

When we finally know ourselves, we must begin to accept ourselves, the most authentic self, what we need is really not too ambitious, but that is the true self of the original intention.

What is Qingyun's original intention?

In other words, in this life, what is his original intention?

It's very simple, people are on people.

At this time, we have come to the third step of backtracking, which is the closest step to the present.

Awaken to all things.

What does that mean?

It is to combine our original intention with this complex world.

Let the two have a sense of agreement, and only when they agree with the world, that sense of powerlessness will basically disappear.

is still like the demon boy Nezha, who likes to attack as soon as he is born.

Attack everything, this is the real Nezha.

But for a long time, he couldn't accept this himself, so he always gave up on himself.

It wasn't until later that he realized that he was actually transformed by a magic pill, and completely accepted himself as a man who liked to attack, and began to exert great destructive power.

Only by accepting it can we awaken and become aware of all things.

What do you mean?

When he saw the truth that his father was willing to sacrifice his life for himself, he had a certain realization;

When he saw that the villagers were about to be killed, he came to his senses again.

That's why I said that sentence: My life is up to me

That's when I started to fight against the powerlessness that had always been in my psyche.

No one is perfect, but everyone is whole, and everyone has both good and evil sides.

When we discover the truth of a higher dimension, beyond the good of good and evil, what kind of life we want to live, there will be a lot more choices all of a sudden.

Only by knowing who I am can we better accept ourselves and become aware of all things.

The corners of Qingyun's mouth curled.

My fate is up to me......

My life is up to me.

My life is up to me!

He snapped his eyes open and got up.

The blocks in his chest were gone, and they turned into monstrous battle intent.

Yes, it's very mid-second.

Wine, flowers, applause, beauty.

In this life, fight for it.

Pen.

Dip in ink.

Wave.

And that's it.

(End of chapter)