Chapter 12: The Buddha's Heart
I ran with my keel in my arms, trying to find a "clean" place to bury Elaine's only "relic".
The mage intercepted me, I couldn't do anything, it was said that my eyes were already horribly scarlet. The chipmunk, Lan trembled with fear, and was reluctant to run after me.
I was "caught" by him.
But not killed.
He told me not to move.
I asked the mage why he was so ruthless in killing Elaine. I didn't know I was carrying anger.
He didn't answer me, just put the charm on my forehead and began chanting.
The golden scepter seemed to glow with gold as if unsurprisingly, Sanskrit swirled around his body. The light veil of the hat was blown by the wind, and his face was not very old, but somewhat depicted the vicissitudes of handsomeness, which did not match those eyes, and if his eyes were intact, I could have every reason to believe that his eyes would also be very good-looking.
As he chanted the incantation, the resentment on the keel slowly left my body, and I slowly changed back to my original form.
So,
Weak me.
It's changed back.
He immediately stopped the spell, for I was afraid of it, and if I wasn't careful, I would be wiped out by his powerful spell. He seemed to know. So, at that moment, I saved my little demon life.
I don't know why, but my image of him piercing Elaine's heart with rage and coldness has been skewed.
"I can't help it." He spoke.
It's like answering my question.
No way?
What is the answer? He is powerful, where is there no way to make sense? Why is there no way? As long as he puts down the "butcher's knife", wouldn't it?
Although I don't know much about the Buddha, but the Buddha doesn't kill, isn't it all like this, how can there be no way?
"If only she had waited for me." The mage placed the keel in place and pressed it down with a circle of golden light. Start digging up the dirt slowly.
Such a man with high mana actually had to dig the soil by hand. It's weird.
"Little monster, come and help." His voice was soft, and he took off his hat and rolled up his sleeves. His robe dragged to the ground, and he untied it at once and put it on the ground.
"Okay...... "The charm on my head has not been removed, and I am the best at digging the soil, after all, my hands are not afraid of pain at all. This kind of thing, something that grows with a casual effort, has no value at all.
He called me Little Youkai.
I don't know what to call him.
I can't call him a monk, I can only call him a mage. If I could, adding an adult in front of the title would make it even more difficult for me to make a mistake.
The dirt was blown up by my newly grown hands, and I was better than a groundhog, and I could dig it out, no matter how deep it was. On this plain hill, the soil is so soft that I can dig as deep as I want.
I didn't have much to talk about with him, and he wouldn't watch me dig the hole, just be more silent and carry the dirt away.
I think when he put the dirt on the other side, he lifted the dirt, and there was some inexplicable piety, and I couldn't tell if he was really blind or fake.
"When she killed the first person, I had no way to intercede for her." He came out coldly, as if he was pouring out something.
It's just the two of us here.
Naturally, he was talking to me.
"Really......" I paused for a moment, I didn't think I understood what he was saying...... Because the ground is too far from the ground.
You intercede for her......
I don't understand.
I'm digging faster than I just did.
"She's bent on death......" his voice reached the ground, and this time I heard it very well. I can't keep digging.
"Why?" I looked up, and the dappled sunlight shone into the woods, and into this little hole that could hold my body, and all I could see was a round cake of light, and I thought I was hungry.
"Because I love ......," his voice was still soft, echoing through the hole.
I was stunned by this love.
Love......
She doesn't want to live,
Just because of love.
The word love is not new to me, and Autumn and that human woman can also be said to be love.
Human love.
is so selfish, so that the autumn that belongs to everyone will never be able to come back.
"Little monster!" He shouted at me heavily, and threw a round object through the hole.
I got my wish and got the biscuits. That kind of pancake with scallion oil should be his ration.
"Thank you......" The other word, I didn't say it, but sat down slowly. I wouldn't have thought he'd bury me, because I already knew he wasn't going to be like that.
I sat in the deep pit that I had dug and looked at the traces of the soil. The places my hands have dug have their own paw prints. I followed the paw prints and saw that the hole was already very deep.
The smell of scallion pancakes is very fragrant, and the aroma is pervasive, and even in the raw hole, it begins to slowly float up. Human rations don't have much appetite for me, but in this case, this scallion pancake really makes me feel delicious and sweet.
"I can't help it."
He repeated the same sentence.
I can probably understand that. His helplessness.
"Because of love?" I half-jokingly said, "Buddhas also have love?"
Isn't love worldly? I heard Granny Tsubaki say that Buddhism pays attention to detachment from the world, which is their sea of suffering.
"The love of the Buddha is great love...... he seemed to start holding the soil again, and I stood up and put the unfinished scallion pancake into my clothes.
That's only half a small one.
"Little monster...... Do you hate me? ”
I heard him sigh softly.
"I don't hate."
My voice echoed in the hole, and he should have heard it thoroughly.
"I met her...... But I don't know each other......" I continued, "Elaine and Autumn had a good time, but it wasn't me...... I'm just a little monster, I can't get into the eyes of a dragon. Her death, that is...... "I threw away my dug arms and grew a new pair." There are already a lot of pairs here, and when they rot, they will become dirt, and the moment they leave my body, they are destined to be dirt.
"I see." His voice of relief came from above. In fact, I wondered why he cared so much about her death, in my opinion, Elaine did something wrong, if she slaughtered the whole village, then she was naturally a sin for human beings, and she could not be washed away, even if the dragon could not care about this.
I found that I could understand a little bit of the helplessness of the Venerable Master, if the Mage who was a human did not stop Elaine, his Buddha would be a sea of suffering at the end of the road after all.
He said that he was shallow, and I think it might be true.
Even if he wanted to forgive Elaine, the villagers wouldn't agree. I think it's not that he doesn't have the courage to turn back, but he is just a little confused.
If the Buddha can't help him solve the confusion of the competition between the two species, then whether it is a demon, a human, or a dragon, they are all just sentient beings who are excluded from the Buddha's fate.
Just to regret it, it may be that I can't think about it, I can't think it through for him.
His eyes, I think, are not bright yet. Even though everything has been seen by him, the blinded world is still in his heart.
I dug deep, deep until I looked up and saw that there was only a little hole left in the small round cake.
I quickly climbed up the small steps I had left, and I saw him throw down the already glowing golden keel, and it seemed that he had done more while he was on it.
The keel fell into the dirt as if falling into an abyss, and the dark earth was scattered on it like sand.
I watched as he slowly buried a handful with both hands in his hands. I've only heard this in the story of Granny Tsubaki, who nodded so reverently and scattered the earth in the cave, as if burying his own confusion.
I followed his example, holding the mound with both hands. He also closed his eyes and nodded.
I think Elaine has always been my acquaintance, so be it, I'll see her off slowly.
When the last handful of earth was covered, he took the golden scepter and set it in place with the bottom of the golden pillar of the scepter. The soil slowly closed, and the ground was as good as ever. The word * on it is like nailed into the ground.
Naturally, I was a little surprised.
"Little monster...... Thank you very much......" He made a Buddhist salute to me, and I was a little panicked, so I had to scratch my head embarrassedly.
"It's nothing, that's what I was going to do."
"Fate meets......" He removed the charm from my forehead, and I felt a very warm breath.
And the scent of the earth.
He put on his robe and put on a hat of light veil.
"Maybe, goodbye." I put my hands behind my back, I was short, and he needed to squat down to remove the charm.
I think today's wind ...... It's starting to be so warm.
Granny Tsubaki said that it was spring coming in Wenti County and would not leave again.
I think so.
I looked at his back.
Slowly departed.
Do you know? I've never seen it before...... Such a gentle man.
He naturally knows more about the Buddha than I do.
The Buddha is neither in his heart nor in his heart.