Chapter 30: The Lonely Soul

[There is only one sealed demon well in the Duchy of Arlan]

The candidate for the Minister of the High Ministry of Magic is a girl named Alice Victoria, the adopted daughter of the Duchess of Victoria.

Alice has beautiful white hair, always wears a long white dress under the magic robe, is tall, has a high nose bridge and big eyes, and her face seems to be shaved bones.

In fact, this title has always been there, for example, every beautiful girl who is reluctant to approach the crowd will have this title.

Long Feather Kaede doesn't have any friends in Fran, she is one of the few.

You may wonder how two cold people become friends, but in fact, there is nothing at all, because both people are cold enough, and this is the way to make friends with cold people.

Kaede barely chatted with anyone else in Fran, sometimes for an entire day, and he didn't talk more than three words to anyone other than Erica Lilia. He doesn't know magic, but he can take notes from magic classes, which is almost useless to ordinary people, because magic depends on talent, not a bad pen.

But he just remembered, it is generally believed that he wrote it for his sister Erica, but Erica is also remembering, which is very weird, and no one knows what the use of his memory is, this tall and handsome boy is silent like a cold mountain, when the two icebergs are close, it is the coldest time in the entire student group.

However, the first time the two of them met was not at the academy, but at the night market in Fran, where Kaede often went to the night market, and he and the captain of the Flying Eagles, Milan, also met at the night market in Fran.

There is a big reason that Chang Yu Feng often has headaches, and the emptiness of missing something in his mind makes him have to need a way to soothe him, and his pressure is extremely high, and this pain makes him depressed, and even lonely.

He didn't drink before, and now he just drinks.

Drinking is nothing, he is never drunk, before he met Milan, he always drank alone, the wine in the stall was very cheap, he would forget the time as soon as he drank it, forget the emptiness in his head.

It was a very empty, very irritable, very helpless nothingness.

Milan is also very melancholy, he is a native of Fran, but his family is not good, his parents are sick, he burns money to see a doctor in Fran, and he has to find a daughter-in-law in Fran, which is almost impossible to find in Fran, he was born in Fran, but he can't be Fran's ghost, being the captain of the Flying Eagles is already the pinnacle of his life, and there is no hope in life, because with his strength, there is no chance to be promoted.

So, he took the patrol shift, and there was nothing to do except drink and drink. Two lonely people were at the same table, they were drinking friends, and then they really let go and talk about their hearts.

Nagawa Kaede told his story, and he said that he seemed to have many, many scattered memories, most of which were strange, either with a head without an end, or with a tail without a head, or intermittently, and it was impossible to talk about it.

He remembered it well, but he remembered it very vaguely.

Quan Dang had a few big dreams, and after the big dreams, there was only a fragmented reality left.

From the Mr. Rabbit in the suit, he clearly remembered that its name was Dada, because it was like an onomatopoeia, the upper lip and the lower lip could be issued when the upper lip was closed, Mr. Rabbit, but the rain of fire, under the rain of fire, everything about him, seemed to be burning, and then it was really like a dream, he forgot someone, that person was very important, but there was no trace in his world, because she was like a person he met in a dream, he suffered a lot in his dream, and he was about to look down on life and death in his dream, He couldn't even tell who he was in his dreams.

But he still remembers that there is such a person, who exists.

But it doesn't exist in his world.

It was a day of light rain, and Nagayu Kaede was telling her story, and the rain was ticking, dotting the stalls of the small vendors in almost brilliant raindrops.

"I took out my sword and stood in front of the man, and I said to her, Don't be afraid, here I am. Never leave. Chang Yu Feng drank a glass of wine and choked up, as if he had really met such a person, but in fact, in front of him, there was only the wine that was filled by Milan again: "But I can't protect her at all, you know?" No matter how strong I am, I can't protect her, because the world's malice towards her is too much and complicated, and I can't do anything about it...... I watched her fall, fall into the abyss. ”

"Brother, it's okay, I believe that what you have to fight against is a whole world, what you have to do is to protect, and what your enemy has to do is just to destroy, it is much easier to hurt one person than to protect one." Milan put his hand on the table, he didn't drink, he never doubted the truth of what the boy next to him said, he listened, with a touch that brought tears to his eyes.

Although he was touched, but it was just that, because he couldn't cry, he couldn't cry anything, a person who wasn't sure if he existed disappeared into his world, like a dream, ethereal, his body reacted, so that he couldn't shed tears.

He drank wine, but instead of feeling bitter and strong, he let the pain in his throat offset the pain in his head.

"And then?" Milan glanced at the watch in his hand.

"There was no more to come, and she died in that memory. That memory was broken. Chang Yufeng patted his face and shook his spirits, he didn't seem to want to be so decadent, but he couldn't do it, he could only struggle between the two, and he couldn't help it.

"That's terrible." A woman sat down in the seat next to her and threw a gold coin on the table, which was enough to drink for a long time, if she wished.

"Can I sit here?" Alice shook her hair, but no one answered her, Changyu Kaede didn't react, Milan recognized her, a little surprised.

"That's okay." Alice poured a glass of wine, took a gentle breath, put the glass to her red lips, and drank it down.

"What? Don't talk about it? I'd like to hear it. The lone wolf of the school of magic. Alice looked at Chang Yu Feng and poured the glass in front of Chang Yu Feng with wine, and poured her own wine glass by the way.

The white bubbles of the ale rolled upwards, bursting under the raindrops, dripping onto the table, and turning into "dirty water" that would never go down the throat again.

"Alice." Chang Yufeng looked at Alice and shouted at her, she is the adopted daughter of the Duchess, naturally a celebrity, her luxurious white carriage is next to her, she is also wearing a very noble dress, wearing a black long skirt dress, which is particularly conspicuous in the market, and the revenue of this entire street may not be as expensive as this long skirt dress.

"I thought you didn't recognize me? We're in the same class, you know? Alice took another sip of cheap ale: "Actually, I've wanted to get to know you for a long time, but I didn't have a chance."

Like Changyu Kaede, Alice is just cold in front of outsiders, or rather, for strangers, their feelings can only be maintained in greetings, or at a glance.

This kind of loneliness is either empathetic or strange.

"Why?" Nagawa Kaede regained a little of his spirits.

He was a loner, and naturally did not pay attention to any strangers.

Although Alice is cold, as the adopted daughter of the Duchess, she is not allowed to have zero contact with anyone in the real sense. This is a little different from Chang Yu Feng, Chang Yu Feng's heart has already collapsed, he can't understand why he became like this, as if he had a strange disease, why is only he having such a strange disease?

There was no answer, which made him depressed.

"If anything, I think you're special. You're different from everyone I've ever met. Alice didn't squirm, and smiled at him directly, her eyebrows opened and closed, so touching: "You are so good, but you are so ordinary."

Nagawa Kaede doesn't have any impression of Alice, so I don't understand her evaluation.

He's nothing, he shakes his head, in denial.

"Still don't understand." When he saw the people he knew, everything about him was cold again, his face was gloomy, and he was drinking sullen wine.

"I've been following you since the junior department." Alice smiled again, her smile was so calm, even if she had never spoken a word, she had never touched, her smile was as bright as ever.

"At that time, I was thinking, how much courage does it take for a boy to accompany his sister all over the streets to find someone in such a big city of Fran?" Alice filled her glass again: "He should never be cowardly when he encourages his sister, and he should never be sad."

"But now, he's drinking here alone, and he doesn't look like he's so young at all. He was at the beginning. ”

"I've forgotten, so long ago." Chang Yu Feng made a straight face, looking at the sake in the cup swaying, in his eyes, it seemed that there was indeed a shadow of the year, he took Erica, two children who had just reached the age of ten to go to Fran alone, they suffered a lot along the way, even with the protection of the Carolingian family, they were still stolen, robbed and beaten, he gritted his teeth to encourage Erica, at that time, the people he forgot in his mind had not appeared as frequently as now, which made him feel painful, and he had escaped death.

At that time, Chang Yufeng knew that the world was difficult and dangerous, but he faced it bravely, when looking for Pelos, they slept in the open, and they couldn't find the contact of the Carolingian family, and the gold coins on their bodies did not dare to be used to pay for the high hotel fees, they ate very poorly, and dressed very poorly, during that time, they were like rats infected with the plague, in Fran, everyone was afraid, it was a poor disease, and it was a poor disease of helplessness.

Even after such a miserable life, he still gritted his teeth and said to Erica, what is this? We are not hopeless. As long as we find a Carolingian contact, everything will be fine.

In the past seven years, as the memories in his mind have become more and more confusing, he has been in pain, and every morning he gets up, as if he has been entangled with the disease, more and more painfully, and this pain makes him hover on the verge of collapse.

In Fran, he began to know that some people's lives were worse than dust, that some people's ideals were nothing more than scumbag sons who could be destroyed with a seal, that some people's mouths of righteousness and morality were dirtier than their excrement, that some people's worlds were made entirely of gold, and that some people could not even think of something as simple as living.

He began to wonder what he could do even if he had finished his studies in Fran.

He is helpless, and this helplessness refers to the straightforward lack of money that he was born with, the good relationship brought by his parents, and the future that his parents have planned.

He only has himself.

Of course, he really has only himself.

But he still can't be himself, because he doesn't have the money to be himself, or the price of wanting to have money to be himself is too great.

Then, he really understood, so it was, his own insignificance, so scared, he couldn't magic, and he was so ridiculous, when the whole world respected magic, a person who couldn't do magic was really ridiculous, not ordinary ridiculous, very ridiculous.

There are a lot of people in this world who don't know magic, and they are all ridiculous, even if you tell yourself that everyone has a bright future whether they know magic or not, it's so ridiculous.

Why is that ridiculous, no, why is there a self in that ridiculous group of people in this world?

Is it because he doesn't work hard? He works hard, but if he can't do magic, he can't do magic, so is it useful to work hard?

Efforts are the most useless in the face of talent.

He tried to empathize, not to dwell on the problem of magic, and to live without magic.

But he couldn't seem to be happy anymore. Maybe it's because of a brain pain, or maybe it's because he knows he's being forced to go the second way, and who doesn't want to learn magic in the world of magic?

It is also possible that he will never say that he can face any difficulties again, because when difficulties come, only when he can really have the strength to solve difficulties, the difficulties he faces can be solved, and other situations are just mantis arms as a car and self-destruction.

How many times can a person use the mantis arm as a car and bring about his own destruction?

"I can help you remember, I remember." Alice took a sip of wine: "No, forget it, if a person wants to fall willingly, no one can stop him." I don't have any idea of what you're going to become, but I don't want to see you fall like this. ”

"I, no, depraved." Chang Yufeng said word by word, looked at Alice, thinking about her words, maybe this person has indeed been paying attention to himself, but he has never cared about other people, so it doesn't matter.

"Drinking alcohol does not degenerate. But sadness will. Alice, saddened, raised her glass, faced the raindrops outside, mixed the rain with the wine, and drank it all: "The dead heart, left in the body, will only turn into a putrid poison, which is unbearable for the burner."

"But what can be done......" she sighed, staring at Changyu Kaede with her big beautiful eyes, as if in the past, she had also looked at the young man like this.

It's just that when the boy grew up, he became more and more withdrawn and depressed.

It seems to look down on life and death, and it seems to be mired in a quagmire, unable to extricate itself.