"My life...... There are many, many regrets......

Regretful......

【Gurgling ......】

Pretty much all my life......

I was born without anyone else healthy...... As soon as I trotted a little bit, my whole body would be uncomfortable, and even worse, I would die......

This means that I can't grow up like a normal child......

【Gurgling ......】

I watched them bounce and jump and fight and make trouble, not to mention how sad they were...... That's not my life......

When I was younger, I wondered, what is the point of living for a person like me...... Even when you sleep, you need to pay attention to whether it will press your heart...... Such a simple thing...... I can't help it...... Follow one's heart......

You know these ...... My regrets, let alone go into detail......"

【Gurgling ......】

Gong Xin gulped down the water...... Maybe it's because he wants to drink to kill his sorrows...... But you can only drink water......

It makes him look funny......

"Heart ......" she looked at Gong Xin's sad face and took some food from the plate.

She lifted the hair from the left side of her face to the back of her head, approached the plate, and ate the dish generously and naturally.

"Isn't that scary...... I see you alive...... What's the regret...... Don't eat and drink every day? She looked up, and although she saw him melancholy, she did not feel any credibility in what the man had said......

"Haven't you heard such a saying?" Gongxin put his hand on his chest, sighed deeply, and lightly tapped it twice.

That posture, as if to say, look...... My heart is riddled with holes......

"What?" She went to grab her hair again, her long silky hair was slowly blown by the cold air in the store, she went to pick up the small meatballs on the plate, put them in her mouth, took the beer bottle, took a sip, snorted, and went to eat again......

"Some people die at the age of eight, and they don't bury ...... until they are eighty years old" Gongxin said sad words, but there was no way to show a little sadness, but he himself seemed to be absolutely a little strange This sentence caused the corners of his mouth to rise for a while.

"Come on...... If you don't want to eat it...... Can you skip it...... I'll eat it......" She ate the vegetables like crazy, and quickly took the dishes in front of Gongxin away......

I think this sentence has a lot of depth...... In line with my mood over the years...... "Gong Xin drank water with a grunt: "Do you want to...... How pathetic I was then...... Everyone else can play all over the street, eat all over the street, and run all over the world, but I can't...... This...... It's a pity...... I'm almost in my twenties, and I haven't been out of this little place...... That's it...... Let me live a normal life, and I am satisfied......"

"I think you shouldn't have to worry about whether you have this disease at all, and you don't need to worry about regrets or not, you're living a good life now, aren't you? You can also talk to me, and there is nothing wrong with it......" She took the greens into her mouth, chewed it, took a sip, and swallowed it.

"That's your opinion...... On the surface, there really isn't anything wrong with that...... The heart of man is hidden in the chest and cannot be seen, and my heart is dead...... It's true...... I don't think there's any point in my life......" Gongxin was a little frustrated: "I thought about this when I was a child...... The meaning of life, where is it...... The more I thought about it, the more I couldn't understand the point of living like this. The fact that I was able to survive was already a miracle that my dad and my mom lent to heaven...... I haven't died yet, just because ......"

Gong Xin looked at a pair of chopsticks on the plate and quickly grabbed the slices of meat and sent them to his mouth, he looked at the woman opposite him, she was very beautiful, but she was a foodie...... Eat in your mouth and keep eating......

This sentence is very heavy......

But as if she hadn't heard......

This made him even more frustrated: "Hey...... When my parents die...... I don't think I'll live long...... I can't let them send white-haired people to black-haired people......"

He hesitated and said the last word.

"That's what I thought anyway......"

Syllable! The chopsticks were placed on the table, and the sound was very loud, and its owner widened his eyes and glanced at Gong Xin......

Gong Xin also looked at her......

Her eyes were so clear and transparent, her eyes were brown, they were a dull red, and she was a little angry...... Then I picked up the chopsticks, picked up the vegetables, and ate the vegetables......

Bow your head and drink......

"Huh? Do you really think so? She put a piece of tofu skin into the pot, and the white heat slowly rose again, the water began to boil slowly, and the red oil of the hot pot also bubbled.

She lowered her head and slowly put the dishes into the hot pot, the plate was empty...... The Kyoshin plate is too...... What she eats......

"Hmm...... That's what I thought...... "Kyoshin seems to be very firm in this idea......

He maybe, perhaps, really has a lot of regrets......

He had no way to run like a normal child......

He barely felt it in his youth...... A hint of youth......

He has no friends...... Perhaps it is difficult for someone who needs to stay at home all the time to make friends......

His regrets have indeed been full for twenty years......

What is the meaning of life......

He understands it too...... People in this world, as long as they walk in the hospital, will definitely see all kinds of life and death......

All sorts of joy and despair......

However, he may have seen all he saw in the hospital since he was a child...... Naked despair.

That's bad...... A small child, there shouldn't be too much, see too much, life and death......

Raw...... Those who don't have a "normal" physiology...... Will you feel that the world is unfair from birth?

Those children who have had a huge gap between the rich and the poor since birth...... Will it be that from birth, you will feel that fate is unfair?

If you feel unfair......

So how can we change that......

Is it really that easy to change......

You'll regret it...... Sometimes, I can't do things that others can easily do......

You're going to be sad, aren't you...... Sometimes, I can't get things that others can easily get......

Will you regret it? I came to this unfair world......

"You're really, so naïve...... Your brain is already broken, and you need to go through a little bit of social beating! That way, your mind won't be cranky. ”

She looked at the vegetables and meat, these things boiling in the hot pot, in the white steam, in the fragrant soup, tossing and turning, enjoying, or rather, there was no feeling, letting the soup slaughter.

Attacking the heart was in the white mist, and her face could not be seen......

And she just looked at the meat tumbling in the hot pot......

"Are you earning the hefty cost of your parents' medical treatment? Do you know how much they spend? They work tirelessly every day, just to let you say such things? Don't you feel ashamed that you're such a big person? She snorted, feeling that the man in front of her was a little naïve, and she clearly saw his face, in the white vapour, with an expression, but it seemed to be a desperate face.

It was supposed to be a human face, but it was so distorted...... That's not old age...... It's twisted, crooked, not human......

"You're only in your twenties, and you want to provide for your parents in their old age, do you earn enough money for them to stay in the intensive care unit after seeing them? Do you know how much it costs to stay in an intensive care unit? Do you know how much it will break their hearts when you hear it? ”

She gritted her teeth and scolded, "You're a big man, you know? The old man should be more manly and responsible, instead of always thinking about what he has and doesn't have...... The meaning of life has no meaning in itself...... The most important thing for you to live in the world now is to live. Since you have a heart condition, you should cherish your own life more than this stupid idea, you know? It is a miracle that you know that you are alive...... Then believe in this miracle...... Anyway, a miracle has already happened......"

She scooped up the things in the hot pot with a spoon and slowly put them on the plate, looking at Gongxin helplessly to help.

So, if one figures it out...... Optimistically, there is nothing to worry about in this world. It's true...... It's not the difficulty that matters, it's how you choose...... Choice, it's important ......"

She said a lot, as if she had finished speaking, and began to snort again, blowing into her plate, and eating happily again.

It was as if such words did not come out of his mouth, so that she was like a little brat, eating only meat and no vegetables......

"I've thought about it too...... Gong Xin watched her eat food and drink beer, well, at least she's not a child, she drinks...... She also drank in a big gulp, without any care, her alcohol consumption was very good, and she also said that beer is as light as water, which is such a heroic word as wine.

Gongxin drank water, she also drank "water", he couldn't help him, he could only look at the water in the cup......

Grunt's lower belly......

Well, if you think about it carefully, it's really your own mistake in such a thing...... Everything about yourself, living for so long...... Indeed, it seems like a miracle......

"What do you want......" She took a sip of wine, snorted, hiccuped comfortably, looked at Gong Xin proudly and smiled: "In this world, there are so many, so many people!"

She danced with her hands.

"So many different people, everyone is completely different, but they live in the same world, even in the smallest places, there are countless different individuals......"

"Hiccup~"

"They connect and make the world colorful...... That's a miracle in itself......"

She watched Gongxin wrestling over the dishes on her plate.

"We live every day, the world, can exist, every day, even if it is so ordinary, every day, is a continuous miracle~"

She smiled and took another sip of wine: "Don't go around showing your childish thoughts, especially don't tell your parents what they just said to me, understand?" That would be stupid...... If you say it, next time you want to talk to me, and if I don't come, I'll tell you......"

"Well, I'm not that stupid yet......"

Gongxin sighed......

He did feel that he was in a much better mood when he said it......

Although he advertises that he has no friends...... But the beautiful woman in front of her, who drinks and eats meat, is more kind than her friends......

"Next time, let's not eat hot pot, let's go eat food, right? For example, in the Japanese style, eat Korean barbecue alive...... "Gong Xin stirs the meat in his bowl......

Slowly clip it to her, in her bowl......

She looked at Gong Xin in some surprise, frowned, and put the meat down: "What?" Have you even chosen a place for your next conversation? Won't I become a bosom sister? Can a hot pot and a meal of meat send me away? That's so casual......"

She stopped eating, crossed her arms, and looked at Gongxin with a wry smile.

Every time Gong Xin breathes, he is very heavy......

Still, he squeezed out a smile.

"So what do you want to eat? As long as you want to eat, I will take you to eat. Gongxin looked at her, she suddenly clapped her hands happily, put her hands on the table heavily, and snapped: "Okay, a word is a certainty, the horse is difficult to chase!"

"It's a matter of course, the horses are hard to chase, but you have to eat them first." Gong Xin tapped the plate with his chopsticks, and the sound of tinkling sounded in this small private room.

"Hah! Then your wallet is going to bleed profusely~ I'll give you a chance to regret it~" She shook her long black hair and wiped the beads of sweat on the top of her head with a tissue.

"If you want to help me save money, I'd love it." Gongxin put a piece of meat in his mouth and ate it, it was a little spicy, but meat is meat after all, and it is really delicious if it is delicious.

Meat......

Miracles......

He even thought that meat should not be delicious......

"Well, don't worry, it must be the kind you can accept, but it's very expensive!" She began to eat meat again, slowly putting the beer down......

She took another sip of her wine...... As if it was really water, three or two cups of stomach down, no feeling.

"That's it, I accepted it very expensive, but my wallet can't."

"That's fine...... Say the words, splash the water, you are a man, always remember that you are a man! Be responsible! ”

"What about you...... You're drinking like this, you're a man better than me...... No, Bibi Northeast old men have Northeast old men~"

He laughed.

"It's water, okay~ What's wrong with the guys? It's not that it can't be done~"

She shook her head and smirked.

"Of course, of course~"

He eats the dishes on his plate......

The meat is delicious, and the dishes are delicious......

After a long time, they did not speak.

Because they are all spicy with hot pot......

One was born with no spicy food, the other ate a large chili pepper, and a small peppercorn......

She fanned the wind, stuck out her tongue, and complained that her tongue was sore and numb......

He also fanned the wind, stuck out his tongue, and smiled even more happily when he looked at her as a big man......

What are the big men afraid of? Right?

He went to see the people outside the store, a little boy walking on the street with a big cabinet on his back, still wearing a little Hanfu, very strange, and very handsome, he walked in front of Gongxin's eyes, through the glass, watching the handsome child walk away......

He pointed it out to her.

Her eyes lit up and she said something handsome.

He also nodded, smiling helplessly.

The moon is round at night, but the wind is a bit strong...... They walked fast as they got home, watching the wind blow and blew away, funny, the faces of passers-by.

Gongxin was afraid that she would get drunk, although she was not drunk, and sent her home, Gongxin walked to the small courtyard next to her alone, and opened the door with the key.

He called Mom, he was back, but Mom scolded him angrily and told him to take a bath.

He could only sneak out and take a shower.

Sit at your own table with a pen in hand...... Quiet Thoughts......

Perhaps, his characters are already emaciated, and when he has experienced so many reincarnations, the person named Changyu Feng is so emaciated, and fate has been crushing him......

So that he has no way to resist......

He gave up his resistance......

"This guy ...... How can you give up...... His authors don't even need to give up on him......"

Gong Xin said to himself, turned the pen, and returned the pen to his fingers.

He writes:

[What happens to us every day, everything so ordinary, is happening one after another, an incomparable miracle. 】