(This chapter is linked to the future volume, chapter 55)

【Beijing, 13th Affiliated Hospital】

The black night, like digging out a piece in the white blood, leaving the darkness here, making everything around it appear innocent and translucent, perhaps intentionally, everything here began to show a different atmosphere.

The flower blooms gently, perhaps because it is about to bloom, and it is in full bloom, and the flower is white and translucent, poking its head out of the cliff corner outside the windowsill, and it is in full bloom, and the stamens are facing the house, releasing a charming fragrance.

The ticking of the ventilator was in this ward, thinking that this was the intensive care unit, and it was estimated that there was no one here except for the people who were doing rounds at night.

She was a little girl named Chen Lin. Everyone calls her Lin'er, because Lin'er is a very important title to her.

It is said that it was because when her mother abandoned her, she cried at her, and then called her Lin'er, sorry.

She was in a cardboard box, like a stray cat, watching her mother go away, but she couldn't do anything. In fact, she didn't know what her surname was, this Chen character was the name of the vice president of the welfare home that adopted her.

She was born with heart disease, and because of this disease, she was hospitalized much more often than everyone else. It was a very difficult illness, and the ventilator had to stop several times, but every time she survived, and let the long-term ventilator, drip, drip, drip, make a sound, telling everyone present that this little girl was still alive, please don't give up on her.

This time, she was hospitalized just because a boy pulled out her hair, maybe they were still arguing at that time, she shouldn't have quarreled, or was taken care of, but this is a welfare home, not her home, and there is no place where her father and mother will take care of her alone, so when her illness recurs, everyone is caught off guard and is in a hurry.

But now, her condition has eased a lot, and everyone breathes a sigh of relief. Except for the one who started it, even though he didn't mean it.

Because he didn't know that a person could be so fragile, so fragile that she just took away one thing from her, and she died.

But fortunately, he still has a chance to make amends.

A small hand was placed on the wall, and he wanted to open the window, but found that the windowsill here had long been closed, and of course, this was the intensive care unit.

"Seeking the Shadow...... Is this really the space I am? He turned his head to look at the sheep cub behind him, and slowly took his hand off the window, and the blue white cloth, like a waterfall sliding down, obscured the view inside.

"Hmmm......"

Seeking the Shadow of the Wilderness walked out from behind Changyu Feng from the next position and stopped in front of the door.

"α17503038, that's how I named your plane."

"Alpha, 17503068? You've traveled all over so many planes and spaces? Chang Yufeng watched as the lights in the corridor slowly went out, and this voice-activated light didn't realize their existence.

"How is it possible, it was Ms. Mei Qingzi who helped me screen out nearly 10,000 individuals whose physical qualities were basically qualified, and I selected another 1,000 individuals whose psychological qualities were basically qualified out of these 10,000 people, and then screened you and others. Got it, you are the most qualified for the divine position of the King of Heavenly Benevolence...... That's when I found you. It stands to reason that you should be one in a million. ”

Xun Huangying spoke very casually, and his words were very vague, but he only highlighted his "one in a million"

"It doesn't seem logical. How do you know I'll meet the qualifications you envision? Chang Yu Feng slowly pushed the door, the closed door was like welcoming a newly opened guest, and before Chang Yu Feng touched it, it suddenly opened up.

Chang Yu Feng glanced at the door, and saw the strength on the hospital bed, the ventilator accurately recorded Lin'er's heartbeat, like a mountain-like undulating heartbeat, jumping in Chang Yu Feng's eyes, like a rabbit bouncing in place.

Chang Yufeng didn't have the slightest surprise, not even a moment's pause, he walked to Lin'er's bedside and stood there quietly.

Look carefully at this face that I haven't seen for a long time.

This is his plane, and to be precise, this is the plane he began to shape again.

This is a very grinding problem, because no one knows how to choose everything they do, no one is born with a sense of how they should live, what parents are too important to them, if they lose their parents, lose their education, and lose their ability to self-reflect, where should they go in the future?

Changyu Feng was lucky, knowing prematurely how he should live - to live for his own selfishness. And more people who are busy and working, running between socializing, going back and forth with relatives and friends, are not even qualified to stop.

He also stopped, for example, to think about how his life should be spent, what is the meaning of everything in life, and how much time is left for himself in life, birth, old age, sickness and death.

Have you ever thought that in this world, there is another kind of life?

Some people can grow up in the love of their parents all day long, and some people can be injured or even die in the sticks of their parents.

Some people can live a whole childhood without worry, and some people are bent over before they reach the legal age, and they dare not imagine their childhood.

Some people freely pursue their own love, but others have to face the difficulties of arranged marriages and early childbearing.

Some people soar in the office, and some people jump off tall buildings.

Some people live for themselves, while others can only grow up under the pressure of others.

Some people die at birth and can't run away from a drunken car, and some people live a long life and escape death, with children and grandchildren.

Some people are flattering, and some people are upright.

Some people are withdrawn, some people are gregarious.

There have been people who have thought that the earth is the center of the world, there have been people who have proved that the sun is the center of the earth, some people who think that the sun is the universe, and some people who have proved that there is a sun in the universe.

Some people jumped into the river and never returned, and some people took the returning train back to their hometown.

Some people stay up all night fighting, some people go crazy at night.

Some people are dogs under other people's beds, and some people are in the red tent to empty beds.

Some people give their lives for love, and some people hate love, why not be arrogant.

Some people are talented and become pillars of their own, and some people have received countless help, but the mud can't support the wall.

Some people are born complete and compare themselves to yellow sorghum, and some people are born crippled and secretly sad.

Some people hate the sky, why don't they be born pillars, and some people destroy the land and are born in other places.

Some people are cold, some are sad, some are happy, and some are cheerful.

Some people are sick all over the body, but they can't live for three or five watches in the middle of the night, and some people are healthy and can't warm their tents for a year or three years.

The bitter tears are all bitter, and the joy is the will of God.

Love or not, it's all yourself, hate it or not, how can it be a pair?

Some people love the world for a long time, and some people dedicate their love to the morning and twilight.

Some people love and understand, and some people are willing to be confused.

Love is love, and hate is hate.

Some people only envy mandarin ducks but not immortals, and some people ask immortals to worship Buddha.

Do you know, can the long-feather maple know?

You know, long feather maple can be clear?

What you say is clear, what can Changyu Feng say clearly?

You are clear, and Changyu Feng is clear?

Say what love or not, Lin'er and Chang Yu Feng are also old acquaintances, what to say about love and reluctance, Lin'er and Chang Yu Feng don't have much affection.

What is the old me, what is the current me?

What is the old you, what is the present you?

What's the use of saying the truth, when you can't afford to eat, who would really be so willing to listen to others talk about morality.

"Actually, Lin'er belongs to the kind of human beings who have a short life...... No, girls. She didn't live to be ten years old. ”

Shadow Seeker also came to Lin'er's bedside and slowly touched her face with his furry hand.

Her face was frightening, she couldn't feel the temperature of her body, she seemed to be a dead person, without any life.

"She's so pretty......"

She's beautiful, and to say that a ten-year-old girl is beautiful is probably really a compliment.

His beauty is so simple and calm, as soon as his eyebrows and eyes are outlined, and when he laughs, he feels that the sun is shining, his heart is warm, his white face is because he rarely basks in the sun, and he is a little anemic, because he is weak and sick, and he can't go anywhere, so he is white and scary.

In addition, she is too young, and the collagen is still full on her face, and the black and shiny hair is also because she is often taken care of.

That's what makes her beautiful...... It's not a natural beauty, a girl who can dress up, a girl who doesn't eat indiscriminately, a girl who needs to be taboo, and she won't be fat.

Would a girl like this be ugly?

That's what makes her beautiful.

It's as simple as that.

When you are young, you can't and don't need to work, you live indoors for a long time, you can dress up and cherish yourself, instead of letting yourself eat indiscriminately and causing your body to be out of shape, and if you are sloppy, you don't take care of yourself.

It's really what she makes herself beautiful.

And not something inherently beautiful.

She may know that she won't live long, so she is willing to dress herself up and make herself beautiful and beautiful when she is alive, so that others can understand that this girl who will not live so long in this world is also trying to live......

Instead of giving up on yourself......

When others say that she is beautiful, she will gladly accept it, because she knows that she may deserve it, and she has known how to accept praise since she was a child.

When others say that she is too mature, she will only walk by that person silently, and maybe she won't care about her at all. Because she knew that she wouldn't live that long......

A ten-year-old little girl matures...... Mature with a little girl who will never live to be ten years old...... There may be a big difference.

She wouldn't tell anyone that she didn't live that long, she still happily went to see the flowers every day, went to chat with the vice president's grandmother, went to find the stupidest boy in the world, and then told him.

Hey, why are you always alone?

If you don't mind, I can be your friend.

Of course, if you really want to treat me as a friend, I might as well be your best friend.

Are you sure? Long-feathered maple ......

Lying on a hospital bed and needing to rely on a ventilator to breathe, and the little girl who can't see the sun tomorrow, will really be your friend? Will it be your best friend?

If she dies today...... Perhaps there is only one person in this world who will go to Huangquan with guilt.

If she dies today......

How many people will know?

Perhaps, one of them includes himself.

But there shouldn't be much, because she is just a hurried passer-by in the eyes of others, and many people haven't had time to see her...... Maybe......

She was willing to meet any silly boy who would see her......

She'll be far away...... With the flow of the great river......

Perhaps, she will not survive today......

Do you know what she has in her heart?

She may have been laid to rest here all at once......

No one knew what was going on in her heart because she hadn't spoken to anyone.

No one will be too gentle with a girl she has never met, she will only be slowly pushed into the morgue......

No one came to claim it...... Because she never had a family......

Perhaps her family has long been in a house thousands of miles away, happily living the life of a group member, and she no longer belongs to that family...... No one knows where she came from...... Nor did she know about her family......

I don't even understand, where will she be buried...... Maybe it's the dirt, maybe it's the graveyard, maybe it's the sky, maybe it's the sea.

"I seem to be ......," Chang Yu Feng gently grabbed her hand.

"What?" Xun Desolate looked at the white-clothed Long Feather Maede.

In his eyes, the tears he left behind were golden, and he was a god now...... The tears shed by the gods are also different......

"She's such a ...... Incredible girl......"

Chang Yu Feng burst into tears and smiled, "I don't know why so many people are willing to help me...... Willing to be gentle with me...... I don't know what their purpose is, maybe it's because I'm too kind, so they are also very good to me...... I feel like I don't belong anywhere at all...... I belong only to this little girl here...... Do you know? She should be the king of heavenly benevolence, not me...... How can I be? ”

"But she's just one person in your life......"

Shadow Seeker sighed and said, "Remember, I told you about the [possibility]?"

"Remember......" Chang Yufeng slowly squatted down, grabbing that hand with her hand, her heartbeat was so weak...... But I want to, beating, beating violently.

"Out of 10,000 experiments, among all the people you meet, there is only one Lin'er who died at the age of ten like this, and opens your heart knot. You know what I mean? She is the only one of these possibilities...... A ...... that allows you to understand the most basic meaning of [Heavenly Benevolence]"

Shadow Hunter touched his nose, as if he was about to shed tears......

"The most basic meaning of Heavenly Benevolence is the endless search for oneself. Who I am, why am I alive, why am I doing this, why can't I do it, why I did it, why I failed after I did it, why I succeeded even after I failed, why I can do it all over again, why I am not who I am sometimes, why I don't feel like I am every time, how should I exist, how should I handle things, what if I don't handle it well, what if I don't have the ability to handle it, why do I handle it well or mess up, why do I need to do it…… Why can't I do this...... In the exhaustion of the self, I understand that the benevolence of heaven is actually the heart of oneself. I can, I can, I can do it, I want it. ”