Chapter 81: The Lost God
Most people's affairs in this world don't have much to do with you. Either laugh it off, or be speechless, or sigh. To put it simply, only family, friends, and even people who have been more or less in one side will pay attention to changes in their lives.
There is no such thing as a death of an unknown person thousands of miles away, and it will make you cry bitterly.
In fact, it's not selfish at all, it's just that this is a default unspoken rule in society, it's okay to hold it in your heart and not say it, as long as you say it to the public, say it so bluntly, then everyone must think that you are very selfish, even difficult to get along with, without any sympathy.
But the death of a person thousands of miles away really doesn't make you cry bitterly, unless this person is quite famous, and when he promotes him, he tells you all the good things he has done in his life, and he will feel that such a good person died, it really shouldn't be, and he will be sad for a while.
When someone whispers some bad things that person has done, they may feel that the sadness just now is unnecessary, and then push themselves and others, exposing their character of falling with the wind, and it is not so rational.
Ah...... How can there be such a pure person in this world? The wrong things done and the good things done are already objectively existent, and how to solve and deal with the good and bad that objectively exist is not so important.
Human nature just doesn't stand the test.
In other words, it's good to really test human nature, it's okay to be really a test, I'm afraid that it's really not a test, and it really bursts out the dark side of human nature, and then shocks, surprises, and makes people unacceptable.
That's the scariest thing.
Changyu Feng, now that he has calmed down his mentality, in this [Spirit Realm OL], if he doesn't live more and more clearly, he must have failed.
The past has indeed objectively existed, and no matter what happened in the past, it can no longer change the germination of the distant and long butterfly effect, which made the present the present.
Knowing the present, understanding the present, is the most important thing.
Don't talk about the past, don't talk about the future, recognize the present, and only then can we grasp the past and the future.
Chang Yu Kaede's mentality is completely different from before, he is no longer a simple person, and he still carries a lot of things from the past, including the present, and a lot of things he has, not about the future.
"I've been through a lot of reincarnations." Chang Yu Feng looked at the little sect king, in the netherworld hell that the little sect king had to face day and night, those who had experienced reincarnation were struggling in pain.
On the knife mountain, there are screaming corpses, the sea of fire is full of boiling flesh and blood, and in the glacier, there are nothing more than stiff stumps and broken arms.
Will they be painful? Of course.
But are they really painful? This may be a matter of deliberation.
"If I were allowed to live again, I would definitely do my own thing."
Chang Yu Feng sighed, took out his shining heart, and slowly, threw it into the sea of fire.
The heart of the god slowly swirled, in the fiery sea......
Flickering, and empty, the future.
"If I were given three days of light, I would definitely see the world." The little sect king laughed: "What a beautiful extravagant hope this is. Because there are no ifs in this world. That's why it's also cruel, so people can empathize. Because, after experiencing cruelty, those who can finally look back will know how precious what they have lost. β
"It should fit well with ...... You...... And you from 3,000 years ago...... is also to give up Godhead, this time, there is no betrayal, there is not so much abuse, there is not so much unwillingness, reluctance. β
The little sect king looked at the heart of the god Changyu Feng, and in the boiling flames, a brilliant spark exploded.
"Don't you think so?" Chang Yu Feng looked at the little sect king gently.
His eyes finally brought, a little bit, a tenderness that he hadn't seen for a long time.
He was no longer cold, but calm, with tenderness.
He flickered in the dark green light of the Netherworld.
"What?" The little sect king asked him and took a step forward.
"Loneliness is the scariest thing. Whether it's money, or power, it's a never-ending desire. And only loneliness will want to fill it with these things. So much so that people who live in loneliness are the most terrible. "For the first time, Changyu Kaede felt [lonely].
A long time ago, whether it was when I was alone, or I was chased by others all over the world, or I was alone in the struggle, I never felt lonely.
Only now, he felt, a protracted, loneliness.
Loneliness is a subjective feeling and experience of isolation and alienation from others or society, rather than an objective state; It is the self-closure of a person's living space and state of existence, and a lonely person will be separated from the social group and live in a negative state.
Lonely people may need sensory stimulation to make themselves less pathetic. Even if it's a small existence, it shouldn't be lonely.
"Probably...... Possible...... Maybe...... yes......"
The little sect king tilted his head, and the corners of his mouth slowly raised: "Who knows...... There are times when I do feel lonely. β
She said secretly:
"When Shadow of the Wilderness came to teach me how to play cards, it was during that time that I realized that I did feel lonely in the past three thousand years. It's all dead people here, going through catastrophes here, and then washing away their memories and returning to the world, but there is always no way to communicate with me, I can only watch them come and watch them go. Then, slowly...... It was difficult for me to get closer to them, and I was really lonely. I think that Xunying is also a very lonely person, just like me. I don't understand why you want to leave us, wandering in the world. β
"What is the most important thing in the world?"
Chang Yu Feng sighed.
"Many people have lived most of their lives and summed up their own experience, whether it is what they want in their lives, what they love in their lives, what they want in their lives, and there are different opinions, which is meaningful. If the most important thing is the answer to this question, then life should always be the same, and then it must not be interesting. β
"What about you? What do you think is the most important thing right now? β
The little sect king was eager to know Chang Yu Feng's answer.
"Family."
Chang Yu Feng answered this question without hesitation.
"It's not because I didn't have my biological parents around because I felt that my family was important. I've had my parents and I've been with them for a long time, and I've never felt like my family is more important than anything I have at any time. Can you imagine? Many people do not have such a good family, and even from birth, they can have a premonition that the tragedy of childhood and life, whether poor or rich, may be accompanied by loneliness, which is not a clear tragedy, but even if it is complicated, it should also lack a kind of lost courage. β
Chang Yu Feng looked at the little sect king calmly, began to straighten his chest, and put down the mediocre blade.
"It's a terrible thing to have, or to lose, right?"
"Probably." The little sect king shook his head.
The wind of the netherworld is blowing so hot.
"I'm going to ...... After I went there, my whole life...... That's what it should be...... What I have. In fact, I am not afraid of losing at all, when I realized, and have begun, to take care of myself, my life...... It's really a little more transparent...... Although I still don't understand a lot, losing it has long been unable to defeat me. β
Chang Yufeng stood in the wide, wide, sea of fire, and with the last smile he had left here, he said, "Little Sect King, if possible, come to me and play...... I will welcome you at any time......"
"I will." Xiao Zongwang had tears in his eyes, and he kept nodding her little head, this is, understand, this agreement.
Chang Yufeng slowly waved his hand to the little sect king, saying goodbye, and the little sect king also waved his hand, but he didn't hear this goodbye.
Only then could I see that the little sect king had been standing on the bridge of the sea of fire, and Chang Yu Feng had just been lurking above the sea of fire, and now, Chang Yu Feng slowly sank into the sea of fire.
He closed his eyes and let the sea of fire drown himself, he was too calm and calm, and he didn't feel the slightest pain.
γSeeking the Shadow of the Desolation...... Fire! Fire! It's all fire! γ
It turns out that this memory comes from here.
When Shadow Seeker watched himself slowly disappear into the sea of fire, what would his mood be?
It's going to be sad, isn't it...... My dear wolf...... Your sheep will leave you after all......
I was not born a god...... Please remember this...... So many encounters, so many lies, so many reincarnations......
In the end, it's just a sentence, take care of yourself.
I'm not the same person I used to be.
Do you understand?
I'm not always right, and I'm not always wrong.
I...... It's not pretentious, and I'm not resigned to mediocrity......
I am soberly aware that this is my life...... And not somewhere, still scared lamb.
I should have the delusion of my life, I should have the direction of my life.
Chang Yu Feng's body, slowly, submerged into the sea of fire, like forever, lost, such a human shell.
The bubbles of the flame are rolling in the sea of fire, as if they have experienced such and such a branching point in the memories that they will never know, and this life has really had an end.
"The reincarnation of the King of Heavenly Benevolence has ended ......"
[Purple Brake] came to the side of the little sect king, and the suspension bridge in the sea of fire slowly swayed.
"No...... Yes, just getting started......"
The little sect king watched Chang Yu Feng die in the sea of fire, and when his divine body was eroded by the sea of fire, he would completely turn into a soul, and then drink a bowl of decoction that completely cleansed his memory, and his life as a god ended peacefully.
"I don't understand."
Zisha felt the mood fluctuations of the little sect king, and watched Chang Yu Feng disappear very calmly.
"Reincarnation is not a bondage, but a kind of wish for a good life. Every kind of life should exist objectively. The little sect king didn't answer the question, and Zisha didn't understand why his little sect king was so deep.
Maybe it's because of sadness, but as a god, the little sect king can see at any time, as a human being, the reincarnated Changyu Feng, which may not be a reason for sadness.
The little sect king calmly glanced at the churning sea of fire, and the beautiful silver eyebrows trembled slightly.
"Death is the final destination of the gods. Looking for the Shadow of the Desolation, you should have understood it a long time ago...... This. β
This sentence was not for Zisha, so Zisha had no way to answer the little sect king.
It's just that the little sect king answered himself.
"yes...... It's so lonely......"
A little, a drop, a minute, a second, it's all life.
The past is life, and if you can't get through, it's life.
The gods don't seem to be bound by time, but that's the hardest thing to do. Because there is no end, a person whose life has no end will not understand and do anything.
For it is only at the end that this intellectual thing makes sense.
If you don't grow old or die, you need to understand what the truth is.
No, not old and immortal, blindly looking at all the people who will pass away, the objects that will be lost, the time that will be lost will leave in front of you, and look at the various ...... of others What's the point......
Even if you feel sad, happy, angry, and aggrieved at first, the longevity of time will make joy, anger, sorrow, and joy meaningless.
Birth, old age, sickness, death.
If you see too much and listen too much, you will inevitably become numb. Losing that, the fear of time.
It is precisely because time is passing quietly that we can feel the preciousness of life and understand the rarity of happiness.
In order to be able to truly know how to [cherish].
"Very few people can know how to cherish before they are lost."
It's like, hearing the fragmented thoughts of looking for the desolate shadow.
The long-feathered maple turned into a point of light like a star, shuttling through time and space.
Those people, those pictures, those little reincarnations, all flashed in front of his eyes.
But he understands so well that every bit of this kind of life, every second, is the proof of his survival.
He smiled, he cried, he was angry, he was ecstatic, it was his life, even if he sat on the stool in a daze, it was a proof of existence to live every minute and every second.
There was no point in being in a daze, but he did just that.
That's right, understanding the meaning of life.
Is there really a definite definition or meaning for a successful life and a failed life?
It seems that there is none. Just defining success or failure will make you feel at ease and at ease every minute and every second of your life, living in the world, living in the crowd, living in society, and you will be able to die...... Something to look forward to.
No, it should be dead, in the history of mankind, there is some meaning.
Rather, the meaning of the existence of the world itself.
Without humans, time would never stop.
There is no definition of humanity, and time throws away everything that is gone.
This is the most basic truth of this world.
Such a grand sorrow, but so small.
But human beings, human beings, and human beings, can only be human beings.
Everything for mankind, for the future of mankind, exists in time, minute by minute.
No matter what the end of human beings is, no matter when and where life ends, it is extenuating and normal.
"My dear sheep ......"