My mother was not born to live for me, and when I realized this, I couldn't let go of everything I couldn't do...... Everything ......]

She has her own life, she has her own thoughts, she has her own pursuits, she has her own dreams, she has her own likes and dislikes.

I'm not the only one for her, and I don't want her to think of me as the whole of her life.

I don't want her to be pinned on me and revolve around me for the rest of her life when she has a child like me.

Whatever I wanted, she did everything she could to give it to me.

I was ignorant, and she educated me.

I was young and frivolous, and she criticized me.

I am kind and intelligent, and she praises me.

I was stupid and entangled, she admonished me.

I sincerely wanted to be her child, because it was only now that I quietly realized that I could not be what she wanted to be her child.

I was in her heart...... The child in her heart...... Will it be an example for others to say. Will it be the hero that others say, will it be her long-silent outburst of heartfelt complaints.

I'm like another life she was born with, me.

"I've never met my mother."

Chang Yu Feng shook a glass of lemon juice filled with ice cubes, and the glass shook and swayed, shaking and shaking, shaking out his loneliest sorrow as a human being.

He doesn't drink...... It's weird......

Poor no liquor burns throats.

"Sometimes I think...... If I had my own mother by my side, wouldn't I be so depressed and cowardly? ”

His gaze was shining brightly on the tree.

It was like a cold rain beating on him, drumming and beating.

"After all, I've lost so much from the moment I lost her......"

"I don't make a fool of myself like everyone else, I never rejected my mother's death. I know she's gone. ”

The world is quiet, and there is no pedestrian hurry, trance, and isolated compassion.

"But from beginning to end, I can't accept my open-mindedness to death."

"I'm even optimistic...... Death is proof of the meaning of life. ”

"Because you have to do what you think is meaningful in your limited lifespan. Otherwise...... Life has no value in life. ”

His gaze looked at the glass in his hand.

The black robe and the white shirt blended together, and his appearance was like two people, but he was constantly changing.

"If a person can't die, it should be an unimaginably tragic thing, because no one can do something meaningful all the time."

"I've been searching for my meaning as a human being, but I've never been lost, and I'm in a lot of pain."

"I know, that's not a reason for me to stop......"

"Seeking the Shadow...... Dragon's ...... I ......"

"In the end, they are all living in pain......"

"I can even imagine what my mother paid for me and I couldn't do, the pain ......"

The wind flutters and the willows are three thousand sorrows, and the rain is empty and the mountains are empty.

But the years are not sad, but there is hatred to say to themselves.

Wash a body of liver and intestines, and the net life is full of tears.

Three bowls of autumn wind and yellow flowers fall, is there more silent west window?

Look at the hatred and resentment, and the white jade and gold tiles will eventually be gone.

How can he see the new moon every day, and return a song for a penny.

"Today is a special day......"

"Mr. Kaede Nagaha......"

"You brought up your mother'......"

"Other times, it's mostly what you see...... Instead of reminiscing ......"

Flowers bloom and fall, and there is no moon here.

"At the end of the day, I've never met my mother...... That's not my memory...... I can't recall my mother anymore...... Because I've never seen ......."

Chang Yufeng scratched the top of his head, just like when he was a teenager, when he would feel a little embarrassed, or when he was irritable, or, when he was not so lonely, he felt that something was empty in his head, and he needed to scratch his head......

What do you care about......

"Now I don't have anything......"

"I'm gone...... I don't have the ...... of the dragon I don't have Lin'er...... I don't have parents...... I don't have ...... Death ......"

He shook his head, and felt that what he said was ridiculous, or embarrassed, and lay comfortably on his side with his back against the soft tidbits, like a little lamb as he used to be......

Curled up ......

Don't want to ...... anything

If only I could think of nothing......

"But at least, you still have yourself, Lord Changyu Kaede."

"I've heard Lord Razor-sama say the same thing......"

"He's not as sad as you are, but he's happy...... Now, he can finally live freely alone......"

"You can do whatever you want, and you're just like him, aren't you? Kaede-sama Nagawa......"

"You're just like Lord Shadow Seeker......"

Chang Yu Feng felt funny, and instantly sat up again.

"Do you know what I'm thinking?"

He glanced at the trees behind him.

The jade tree is towering!

He smiled reluctantly.

"If it's the same as him...... Then the whole world is about to explode......"

"I just feel that if I continue like this, I really won't feel the meaning of life......"

"Or, I don't have the instinct to destroy the world like the Shadow of the Wilderness, and I'm still afraid of [losing]"

"When I really [lose], I feel how important it is to have, and it can always make people ignore this and squander it......"

"Until the moment when there is nothing...... will be doubly cherished...... So much so that I regret it for a lifetime ......"

He bowed his head silently......

"That's right...... Lin'er's appearance is to remind me...... Cherish everything...... Cherish, death brings a unique meaning to all......"

"There is no death, there is no loss, everything will become lifeless......"

"Or, no longer interested......"

Or, he lay down and opened his heart to the leafy branches.

"The education I received, everything I encountered, everything I thought of, no longer allowed me to be unscrupulous......"

"And I'm not so stupid as to kidnap myself morally to save everyone......"

"It's like two people from the previous me......"

"Or ......"

"I forgot about it too...... What the hell should I take next......"

"No one can define me ...... No one can give me advice either......"

"Not even anyone...... You can come to this space ......."

I...... It's not me anymore......

Is that right?

He sighed......

"I've taken too much...... I'm bored again......"

"I am not alive and I am not dead......"

"No one has proven my past ......"

"No one cares about my ...... now"

"No one will think about my future......"

"Maybe there was a ......"

"But it's ...... now"

"How do I ......?"

"In front of so many dreams, I thought that one day, I would go and complete ......"

"Find a time to ......"

"Who knows......"