The sound of the waves coming from all directions suddenly became louder, and Yu Cheng felt that his eyes were as dark as the sea. I tried to find a breakthrough, but I couldn't find it.

"I usually like to watch comedies and very realistic dramas. When I want to cry but there is nothing to use as an excuse, I watch a tragic drama. Just like that, while crying and watching the drama, my mother and sister thought I was fascinated. ”

Yu Cheng was tormented for a while, and then drove the car back into the parking lot. Suddenly driving from the bright place into the dark place, Yu Cheng's eyes were a little confused, and he felt that it was difficult to move and leaned heavily on the driver's seat.

"Because I don't want my emotions to be a burden to them. I'm the kind of person who would rather sacrifice myself than make my family's life better. ”

When Chengmei seriously responded to Mingyao's question, a bleak wry smile flashed at the corner of her mouth. Thinking of this, Yu Cheng's heart was so panicked that he restarted the car with a heavy heart, but the car showed no signs of leaving...

"Hey! Why did Mom call so late? No! Look at what you said, I have a blind date. ”

As soon as Yu Cheng got off the elevator, he saw Mingyao not far away holding a phone and hurriedly walking towards this side. Yu Cheng noticed that he was carrying a briefcase and wanted to ask him where he was going, but Ming Yao's eyes were sharp and cold when he looked at Yu Cheng, and Yu Cheng had to touch his lip in embarrassment.

"Is it Brother Ke Mian? Mom, if you listen to my explanation, it must be Brother Ke Mian who will be mistaken, I really came to listen to the lecture today. "Oops! No, it's not what you think it is. Mom, listen to me. Ming Yao finished these two sentences and disappeared around the corner of the tavern.

Unconsciously, Yu Cheng had approached Cheng Mei, and through her white and clear face, Yu Cheng vaguely saw the wife who used to like to raise a hand towards him and have a smile on her face. Yu Cheng took a few quick breaths and sat down slowly.

"It turns out that was when you were most helpless, lonely, and most in need of my comfort."

Yu Cheng pushed her face close to Chengmei like a boat, and she stared at herself angrily again in her mind, Yu Cheng knew that she was really angry, but forgot that Chengmei was also a bright and lively girl at the beginning. She would rudely snatch half of Yucheng's ice cream after gulping down her ice cream. She would also squat next to Yu Cheng, who had just finished push-ups, and kept stretching her arms, so Yu Cheng could clearly see her tight and playful muscles. Her voice was always as fresh and pleasant as the waves of the night, and thinking of this, Yucheng's head hurt like lack of oxygen. He had no choice but to fold his hands into a parasol and sit quietly in the shadows.

"Exhausted by the heavy workload, I was always comfortable thinking that I was the only one in the world's most miserable person. Oh, I can't protect myself, so you can take on all the things at home. ”

Yu Cheng squinted his silver-white eyes, and once again looked at Chengmei, who was constantly running between housework and children in his mind, and was so busy that he was anxious.

"I have obviously seen those sad pictures, but I still have to pretend not to know and push away your desperate hand. The door closes again and again, and the light in my eyes gradually fades as I look at you. ”

"So I'm the one who started everything?!"

Thinking of this, Yu Cheng's face became more and more pale, and finally his throat followed the trembling finger, and he choked...

The diary in my mind turned back to the past again, that day was also on a sparkling seashore, Chengmei swam far away, but at the moment when Yu Cheng raised his hand, he quickly swam back. Finally ashore, Chengmei ran towards Yu Cheng in high spirits, Yu Cheng remembered her neat teeth, and she always looked so confident and cute when she ran around with a smile.

"Will you regret marrying me?"

Although there was an impulse in his heart, Yucheng did not have the courage to hold Chengmei's hand. On the contrary, after Chengmei glanced at Yu Cheng shyly, her smile was still so pure and sweet.

"How can I regret it, it's clear that I married my favorite person."

A hint of nervousness began to appear in Yu Cheng's eyes, and Seungmi also asked a question like a final confirmation.

"So will you? Maybe you're going to deliberately avoid me for a day? But I don't mind, I'll be after you until you answer me with the same love. ”

Seungmi muttered excitedly, pushed, and even grabbed Yucheng's neck to pull the faces of the two people closer and closer in the water, but she didn't know that the worry in Yucheng's eyes was far greater than the longing for marriage. "Even though we surfaced with eye to eye, deliberately estranged from each other for fear of being seen by people we knew, our legs were entangled in the invisible. Such a happy moment appeared in the honeymoon period, and I didn't want to stop there forever. ”

"You're depressed, you're aggrieved, you want to have a private space? But I revolve around the two children every day, worrying about the family's eating, drinking, and Lazar, I have no friends, no socializing, and no hobbies of my own over the years, and you actually tell me to let me be quieter. Zheng Yucheng, do you know that I don't have any expectations and passion for life anymore?! The only time I can talk to you at the end of the day is the two hours between you get off work and go to bed, do you still want me to shut up? I don't understand why there is a place in this house that I can never go? Do you know that the way you look makes me feel that we are not husband and wife, but roommates?! ”

"I remember it was the first time I had a fight with Seung-mi, and she was so angry that she almost jumped, and I really wanted to slap her, but I couldn't help it. Because no one had entered the utility room without my permission until that day. It's nothing special, but it seems to me that it's the castle of the mind that I'm going to protect for the rest of my life. I didn't want anyone to come in, that's where I let my emotions out and the most important part of my life. ”

"It's my fault that I don't let you drink for your own good, and I don't let you throw out the garbage? Do you know that I have to clean up for a long time when you throw it away, and just taking care of two children is enough to make me tired, have you helped me with anything? Whether it's housework or children, have you taken the initiative to take on it once?! So, stop telling me to take care of your emotions. ”

Chengmei's anger is always so hasty, and Yucheng always looks unprepared. Perhaps because he had seen his wife's terrifying face like a monster when she was angry, Yu Cheng kept standing there and didn't dare to speak. Over time, silence turned into apathy. The coldest place in the world is not the north and south poles, but the home.

"Li Chengmei, can you have a little mood, don't let me, a person in my early 30s, feel like I'm the same age as my parents. The clothes I bought for you are all deformed, and every day when I turn off the lights, I am sleepy, and I can do whatever you want. And don't you always talk about the routine. I was already on the verge of a nervous breakdown, and every day in the unit was an endless nag, and I felt like I was going home and going to jail, and every day was a repeat of the last nightmare. ”

That day, Yu Cheng always looked at Chengmei with self-awareness, and his voice was very cold and difficult.

"Oh, but my time and energy are given to you, your parents and children, my life will always be only children and housework, and when I talk to my classmates, I realize that I don't even have myself. I admit that you have given a lot in terms of finance, so what about me, am I not living like a walking corpse?! Don't I want to be a little more refined? To put it bluntly, don't you just see the sweetness of others, and you yearn for freshness? I can fulfill you, and you will disappear immediately for me! ”

Seungmi raised her fist as if she was about to hit someone, but it didn't fall as hard as expected. At the moment when Yucheng's eyes widened in a panic, Chengmei laughed and took a few steps back. "If you speak softly from the beginning, your wife will be even more violent." Because of this foresight, Yucheng didn't give her that opportunity, but now it seems that he has never given herself any chance to rekindle her feelings.

"Originally, it wasn't you who turned into a monster, it was my blindness that turned you into a monster, from a bright and innocent girl..."Yu Cheng covered his face, he didn't dare to think about it anymore, because he was about to suffocate.

"I'm sorry." "I'm really sorry. "Blame me, blame me..."

Although Yu Cheng still had Chengmei's angry appearance in his mind, he still gently stroked Chengmei's cold hair with his hand. At this time, Chengmei's eyelids kept moving, and finally stared at Yucheng quietly like a mermaid on the surface.

Yu Cheng was as nervous as the boy he was back then, and although he kept reminding himself to look at her with a blank face, his heart was still beating warmly.

"There's something in your hair, white flowers."

Yu Cheng asked confusedly. Seungmi took a deep breath and her eyes reached upward, perhaps she was calculating when the love hand would stop.

"It's actually bare, I, I'm here to help you take it off, that's why." "I'm so sorry, I was so rude. ”

Chengmei's eyes widened when she faced Yu Cheng again, and soon lowered her head silently as if she understood what was on his mind.

"You look like you're a little drunk today, I'll ask Mingyao to take you back to the dormitory, and I'll have to leave right away."

Yu Cheng looked at Cheng Mei, desperately hoping that she would respond, but for some reason, Cheng Mei just looked at Yu Cheng with a slightly red face and didn't speak.

"Strange, where did this kid go?! I'd better go and help you get him back! In the end, Yu Cheng had no choice but to look at Chengmei helplessly, and said firmly and with difficulty.