(I don't like it, I don't like it, I just want to publish a lyrical prose, adapted from the author's personal experience)

"Remember, that's your friend" [Text/Grasshopper Kitten]

When I was a child, my mother used to tell me a story that happened at her workplace and that she would never forget.

Mother's two colleagues, physical education teacher Aunt Song and class teacher Aunt Shi, they are close friends of the whole unit, whenever Aunt Shi is in trouble, Aunt Song is desperate to help her, Aunt Shi also reciprocated to Aunt Song again and again, the two eat together, live together, work together, there is still such a girlfriend-like friendship at work, I have to say that it is a rare and enviable thing.

However, one day, they broke with each other.

Everyone was surprised and asked why.

Until someone said: "It's because of the job title."

As we all know, the monthly salary of teachers is related to the level of the title, and the higher the title, the more salary they will receive.

And this time, Aunt Song, who teaches physical education, successfully entered the title, and the title is higher than that of Aunt Shi.

Aunt Shi was unconsciously a little dissatisfied in her heart, but she kept holding back.

Until one day, when Aunt Shi was waiting for Aunt Song in the physical education group, she saw a new physical education teacher transferred from another school, so Aunt Shi asked: "In your school, is it an advanced title of class teacher?"

Later, this sentence was passed to Aunt Song's mouth intact.

Aunt Song suddenly felt cold.

She did so many things for Aunt Shi without complaint or regret, and in the end, Aunt Shi ran to her territory and poured this basin of cold water.

If it's really a friend, do you care who the advanced title is?

After that, although Aunt Shi explained many times that she had no malicious intentions, Aunt Song was forever estranged from Aunt Shi.

Yes, forever.

When I was a child, every time my mother told me this story, I would be surprised and asked, why? are all in their thirties and forties, how could they break up because of such a sentence?

At that time, I didn't understand.

I only heard my mother sigh and say, when you grow up, you will naturally understand that women's friendships are so fragile, once broken, they will be irreparable in this life.

Later, I grew up.

In a job position, I met a friend who applied for the job with me, and we are at the same level, and we often work together and struggle together.

She said that she appreciated me very much, and she saw that I was a very hard-working and strong person, and if we worked together, there would inevitably be a future.

When I was working, she helped me a lot, and she was very sincere, even some private documents, I dared to hand over some private documents to her to help deal with.

Indeed, we are friends,

We help each other and are close to each other.

I worked very hard.

She also works very hard.

But...... A few months later, her efforts were appreciated by her leadership, and her salary was raised.

However, I, who have always thought that my efforts are no less than hers, are still unknown.

I've always been strong and I've never given up, so I'm ...... I couldn't accept this fact for a while.

She was always honest and showed me her salary with a big grin.

She didn't think much of it, but at that moment, such a gap hit me strongly.

It was just that moment, in my bones that I didn't admit defeat, she was no longer a simple friend, but a competitor I had to surpass.

Since I was a child, I have been trying to do my best to get stronger and stronger, so I can't accept that.

However, she naturally noticed such a change.

Finally one day, she found me and said with a smile: "Can you still be friends?" If you can't do it, just say it, we'll break up! ”

"Break up? What do you mean? I asked, holding my head high.

At that moment, in my eyes, she was a hybrid of a competitor and a friend.

In an easy-to-understand phrase - opponents on stage, friends off stage.

But her sneer interrupted my thoughts: "What are you still pretending?" Have you been jealous of me after I got my grades? ”

"Jealousy? What is this, it's not that you don't know my character, I've always been like this, I've always been strong, I've always wanted to be the one who wins, I don't want to see myself lose...... I don't want to lose to you! ”

"Enough!!" Finally, she interrupted me, the corners of her mouth twitching: "I do think you are very strong and self-motivated, but ...... Do you know that you've had enough of yourself! I'll never break up with someone, but you're the first! From now on, we are not friends anymore!! ”

Looking at her figure as she turned away, I was stunned.

In an instant, my mind went blank......

That day, I had a sudden attack of cerebral vasospasm...... Because of her words.

It took me a long time to get things right, after all, I've never been a stubborn person, and if I'm really wrong, I'll fix it.

Finally, I found the answer.

I still remember that since I was a child, I was such a person, and I would do everything to be at the top of the class, and I had to be at the top of the class.

When the teacher saw that I was studying without sleep or food, he couldn't help but be confused: "Why are you working so hard?"

"I want to be at the top and I want teachers to see my presence...... I want the teacher to affirm my existence! ”

Thinking about it now, I was really funny at that time.

But it was also myself at that time that made me who I am today.

The blow of my friend's departure made me calm down and reflect on myself.

Indeed, over the years, I have cared too much about winning or losing, and I am really tired.

It's time to let go of those competitive mentalities, calm down, and affirm yourself.

In fact, when I settle down and try to do my own thing, I will find that I also have many advantages of my own.

Why bother with winning or losing?

So, I quieted down and concentrated on my own business.

Before I knew it, I had some new friends.

One of them, with a particularly cheerful and humorous personality, circled around me every day and affectionately called me "sister".

It was her swaggering personality and love for me that made me have a strong affection for her.

I liked this big sister very much, and everyone could see that I was better for her than anyone else.

I'm glad I met such a friend at this time, a friend I feel comfortable with.

I'm only very poisonous to her, although I am not a poisonous person, but everyone knows that although I like to say the last sentence and look at her pouting and resentful appearance, I care about her more than anyone else.

I will help her in all her affairs, go to the soup and fire, and never give up.

However, perhaps it was a twist of fate, and on one issue, I had a conflict with her.

However, this time I said two things that were good for her, although she was upright, and she was not happy.

When I looked at her contemptuous gaze at me, I said that my heart didn't hurt, but it was false.

She dropped a sentence: "You don't care about friendship at all!"

After that, she snatched the door out, but I was sad not about the taste.

I asked the other little girls, what was wrong with her? What do you mean?

However, the little girls, your answer to me made my whole body dumbfounded!

The little girls didn't know what to answer, so they told me all about how this girl who kept calling me "sister" had said bad things about me behind her back these days.

I couldn't believe it, and instinctively kept asking, "What else is there?" Anything else? ”

Yes, and ...... She goes around telling people how you hurt her.

Every word the little girls said was like an arrow through the heart, and every thing I did for her wholeheartedly was treated as me and hurt her, and then she told others what she thought of me and what a bad person I was!

At that moment, I really understood the saying: "If you are not blind, don't know me from other people's mouths."

Yes, at that moment, I didn't know what to say.

You know what that feels like?

The person you still care about deeply one moment feels completely removed from your heart the next second!

I tasted it...... I really tasted it......

At that moment, I sat down in my chair tiredly, sorting out the mess in my heart.

That night, I removed her buckles, and her friends scolded me for them when they found out we were arguing.

She didn't stop her, and said confidently: "My friends actually went to scold, let them scold, I won't care, after all, my friends are all concerned about me."

The little girls came again: "She said that she knew very well that you couldn't do without her, so she wanted to have a cold war with you for a few days."

Cold war? Hehe...... She still feels like she has a lot of weight in my heart?

I can't live without her, and she still has a cold war?

At this moment, I'm only glad she didn't stand by my side, otherwise I would definitely have a look at her tonight!

"Ask her, what does she want?" I asked a little girl.

The little girl replied: "She said she didn't know, she didn't want to think about it, she said she was sure, every time you quarrel with her, you will be soft-hearted in the end, and this time it will be ......"

"Tell her that she doesn't have to think about it, we're all friends, and this is the end of this matter."

With that, I left the computer desk.

Suddenly reflected in her mind before she left, she said proudly: "You don't care about friendship at all!"

At that moment, I wanted to laugh.

Finally...... Who doesn't care?

Besides, how do you make me accept this kind of friendship with dirt and flaws?!

Filthy? Blemish?

Suddenly, I remembered the ...... who had left me in the first place. My best friend.

At that moment, I immediately understood why she was talking to me and why she left without looking back.

Because...... Blemish.

She was dedicated to being my friend and helped me so much.

And what did I do?

The moment she got the results, I started to care about winning and losing, and about winning or losing between me and her!

Isn't this dirty with blemishes or what?!

At that moment, I was carried away by winning and losing, and I forgot all about my past friendships.

It's me...... Gave up our friendship!

At that moment, I finally understood her anger at that time...... Just as angry as I am!

You have to remember that it's not a competitor, it's your friend, a friend who is dedicated to you!

But even if I did, what was the use?

She left, and ...... Will never come back.

I left and ...... There will be no going back.

I suddenly remembered the story my mother told me, and I suddenly understood the story completely.

A woman's friendship is very fragile, and if it is missed, it will be irretrievable in this life!

No one is a saint, everyone will be disappointed, they will be hurt, they will break down.

Cherish the people who are good to themselves, this sentence has always been on people's lips, but how many people put it in their hearts?

Remember, this person in front of you is your friend...... It is a friend who pays for you wholeheartedly!

I knew that we were not young anymore, and that there were not many real friends, and when it was time to set off again, I finally remembered my mother's words: "Cherish the people in front of you, after all...... If you lose it, you will never come back. ”