When Shen Youan arrived home, Luo Wan and Luo Qian sat in the living room waiting for her.

The two of them sat in a regular posture and looked cramped.

Seeing Shen You'an coming back, the two immediately stood up.

"An An......."

Shen Youan changed into slippers and walked over: "Auntie, you and your cousin should stay here first, and wait for Zhou Qin's matter to be resolved." ”

Luo Wan is a simple middle-aged woman, her husband drives a big truck outside, she can't see each other for a month, she pulls her eldest son alone, looks weak, but is actually very tough in her bones.

Hearing this, she didn't refuse, "Okay, then the aunt won't be polite to you." ”

The words fell and said with a smile: "I have never lived in such a good house in my life, I didn't expect to be blessed with An An, if my sister and brother-in-law are still alive, I will definitely ...... to see you so good now." ”

Luo Wan suddenly realized something, stopped talking, and looked at the girl in front of her with some crampedness.

Zhang Jian made a bed for the second sleeper, and when he walked to the door, he heard Luo Wan's words, suddenly stopped, and stood silently in the shadows.

Shen Youan smiled and said to Luo Qian: "Xiaoqian, you still have to go to school tomorrow, go to bed quickly, there will be time in the future, and my sister will make up your homework." ”

Luo Qian was already sleepy, so he stood up when he heard the words, looked at the two of them, and left in silence.

As soon as Luo Qian left, the atmosphere became more calm.

Luo Wan didn't know where to put her hands, and she couldn't wait to slap herself, this mouth is really, which pot can't be opened.

"Auntie, there is something I want to ask you, and I hope you will tell me the truth."

Luo Wan hurriedly said: "An An, as long as I know, I will tell you." ”

Under the incandescent light, the girl's face was pale, and her thin lips pursed and pursed, as if she was considering her words.

"My mother...... Were you there when you died? ”

Luo Wan and Zhang Jian were stunned.

When Zhang Yun died, An An was less than four years old and didn't remember anything at all.

Except for crying when she couldn't find her mother at first, and later in the company of Shen Li, An An rarely shouted to find her mother anymore.

Until Shen Li died, An An fell seriously ill, and his descendants changed.

It's been almost ten years, and An An has never taken the initiative to mention her parents in front of them, so that the two are always cautious in front of An An, for fear of arousing her sadness.

This is the first time An An has taken the initiative to mention her mother.

The girl's face was calm, and there was no trace of sadness in sight, as if she was asking about a very ordinary matter.

"An An, you ...... Why did you mention your mother all of a sudden...... Did you encounter something unhappy? Luo Wan asked cautiously.

"When my mother died, I was only a little over three years old, and you all hid it from me and didn't let me know, auntie, I grew up, and I have the right to know."

The girl's eyes were bright and persistent.

Luo Wan sighed, "Your mother, she is a hard-working person, and she is fortunate to have met your father, I thought that the bitterness was coming, but who knew that the hemp rope was broken in detail, and the bad luck was only looking for hard-working people......." ”

Luo Wan's eyes moistened as she spoke, and she slowly fell into her memories.

"Your mother is not in good health, after conceiving you, the joy is serious, the doctor does not recommend it, your mother cried and begged the doctor to protect the fetus, in fact, your mother was a child because of a high fever, burned out her brain, only seven or eight years old children's IQ, but in order to keep the child, she worked hard to learn all kinds of knowledge about fetal protection, during that time the eyes were going to be boiled out, when you gave birth to you, pregnancy combined with high blood pressure, put on a ventilator and died for a lifetime to give birth to you, she was fighting for the last breath to hug you, and then fainted."

"An An, you don't know, since you were born, except for your father, your mother never let others hold you, even if her arm is sore and can't lift it, she doesn't let go of you, she was like a demon at that time, she was manic when she didn't see you for a while, and the state was very scary, fortunately, your father accompanied her and slowly let her return to normal."

The girl's eyes were lowered, and the hand hanging at her side was clenched into a fist.

"Later, when you were three years old, your mother accidentally got pregnant again, because the last time she gave birth to you, she injured her body, and the doctor said that she could no longer get pregnant, so when the child came, your mother was very happy, but your father thought about your mother's body and did not agree to have this child, since the two got married, the first quarrel broke out, and your mother even learned to run away from home, and then your father really couldn't resist her, so he agreed, at that time, your father asked for leave every day in order to accompany your mother, I was almost fired from the unit, and I remember what your father said at the time, and I still remember it clearly. ”

"He said that Yun'er is the most important person in this world, and no one can take her away from me, not even my children."

Speaking of this, Luo Wan wiped her tears: "Actually, after your mother left, your father wanted to be martyred, if it weren't for you, he would really follow your mother." ”

Luo Wan witnessed the love between her sister and brother-in-law, and even now, it can still shock her.

Their love is simple, pure, and passionate, without the slightest impurity.

"An An, you came to this world with a lot of love, your parents love each other very much, and they love you very much......."

Speaking of this, Luo Wan couldn't control her tears anymore, and threw herself on Shen Youan's shoulder and cried.

"That year, your father temporarily went out on a fire mission, called me and asked me to accompany my cousin, at that time my cousin's body was only a little more than seven months, and there was more than a month before the due date, she said that the weather was getting cold, and she wanted to knit a sweater for you, and asked me to accompany her out to buy wool, and the doctor also said that moving more is good for the fetus, so we took you out together, and met Zhou Qin in the market, she said a few bad words to you, your mother was angry, and went up to push her, and accidentally moved the fetal ......."

Luo Wan's face was very painful, as if she didn't want to remember that day full of darkness.

The girl's calm voice fell from her ears: "In which hospital did my mother give birth?" ”

"The third hospital of the city, at that time, this hospital was the closest, and it was sent over urgently, if the time is in time, your mother was filed in the city maternal and child health hospital, you were also born in that hospital, the doctor is experienced, presumably the tragedy will not happen, in the end, everything is fate......."

"When my mother had surgery, was Zhou Qin there?"

Luo Wan was stunned, wiped her tears and said: "At that time, she went with her, and then I went to pay the fee, and she was waiting outside the operating room. ”

Shen You'an lowered his eyes and pondered.

She suddenly remembered that time outside the ward, she heard her aunt and uncle discussing her father's life experience.

"Father, he...... Is it really an orphan? ”

Luo Wan said: "At the beginning, your grandmother did not agree to their marriage, thinking that your brother-in-law was an orphan and could not protect her cousin, and her brother-in-law said that he actually had a family, and he wanted to join the army, but his family did not agree, so he concealed his family and secretly ran out. ”

Then it really was too late.

Zhang Jian walked out at this time: "A week before my brother-in-law's accident, he seemed to realize that he was about to encounter misfortune, he found me, said some strange things, and left me a phone number, so that I should not call until I had to do it." ”

Zhang Jian was a little depressed: "I called that phone several times, and I said that there was no Shen Li. ”

Shen Youan was silent.

After a long time, she said: "It's not early, auntie, uncle, rest early." ”

~

At two o'clock in the morning, the wind beat against the windows.

The rainstorm came in an instant.

A white bolt of lightning split the sky, illuminating the lonely room.

Then the thunder roared, and the heavens and the earth seemed to shake.

The night was long, the wind and rain were rushing.

Shen Youan lay on the bed, his eyes fixed on the ceiling.

In a flash of white light, a pair of black eyes were reflected with a splash of water.

Her eyes widened, and the splash slowly evaporated into the air, leaving only sour eye sockets.

Shen Youan suddenly got up, walked to the bookshelf, stood on tiptoe, and touched a box on the top floor.

Shen sat down on the ground again and opened the box.

Inside are some small toys, including wooden carved birds, fairy sticks with fallen diamonds, and Barbie dolls in gorgeous dresses, which are dyed with the traces of time and quietly sealed in the corner.

Shen You'an touched the past one by one, in this time and space, it was only nine years ago.

But for her soul, more than thirty years were in between.

It was too long, so long that no matter how hard she tried to think about it, she couldn't remember it.

These toys carry her childhood memories, and she wants to find a little bit of even a little bit of breath and memories of her parents in them.

But no.

There are only empty memories and a numb heart that has been gradually eroded in a long life.

At the bottom of the box is a small photo album.

Shen You'an's fingers trembled and slowly opened.

When she was five years old, she became sober, and these memories were completely dusted.

She can't allow herself to be a coward wallowing in her pain, and she doesn't want to repeat the mistakes of her previous life.

So she threw everything away, forced herself to be cold-hearted, gritted her teeth and walked forward.

For more than 3,000 days and nights, what supported her down?

In fact, until now, she has no answer.

Eat delicious food, see beautiful scenery, swim in the ocean of knowledge, spend countless money, and achieve proud results......

She had already achieved success in the worldly sense, enough to shine on the lintel.

But it didn't mean much to her.

Even if one day, she has the strength to protect herself, so what?

There is still a place in her heart, hollow.

If the system hadn't found her, she would have dissipated in the human world like that, and there would be no afterlife, which would be fine.

The world is good, but for a desperate person, don't come again.

The album is thin, only five pages.

Through the thin plastic film, there are yellowed old photos.

The man in the photo has sunny and handsome eyebrows, clear eyes, a row of big white teeth when he laughs, and two dimples on the side of his face.

He must be a warm, sunny, life-loving, and kind man.

The woman in his arms, with long hair and a shawl, beautiful eyebrows and eyes, a pair of big and bright black eyes, pursed lips and smiled, like a water lily blooming on that summer night, subtle and gentle.

The feminine temperament is simple and pure, lying in the arms of men, and the corners of her eyebrows and eyes are happy.

Under the loose long skirt, the lower abdomen has been slightly raised, and the hands of both of them have fallen on the lower abdomen, they are happily looking forward to the arrival of the little life, and the full love is almost overflowing.

Shen You'an borrowed lightning and slowly stroked the photo with his fingers.

At this time, she was in her mother's womb for five months, taking pictures.

There are also her 100-day photos in the back.

A round and white chubby baby dressed up like a doll is giggling.

Behind the photo, a few sentences are written in dashing pen letters.

I love my daughter and be safe, I wish you all your life if your heart is ups and down, and you will be at peace with what you encounter, like the wind and free, like a brilliant flower.

100 days of photos.

Words and sentences, poured out a father's best wishes for his daughter.

Shen Youan looked at these words and couldn't control his tears anymore.

Outside the window, the lightning and thunder continued, and the wind and rain never stopped.

After bathing in the wind and rain, the hollow and dry land has grown young shoots.

She put the photo on her heart, and cried silently in the long black clothes.

In the dark night, those dark eyes shone with a more determined light than any before.