He Annian smiled and shook his head, "This has nothing to do with me, it's just that some people are greedy and use their power to do some illegal things." ”

Shen Qing and He Annian plan to go out to play today, Shen Qing has never returned to his hometown since graduating from high school, and he has not returned for almost 10 years after 7 years of school, plus work.

There are still great changes here, Shen Qing and He Annian drove to the supermarket to buy ingredients, Shen Qing sat in the car and commanded He Annian, but the more they looked at the road, the more they looked at it, the more they could only navigate.

He Annian pointed to the location of the supermarket in the navigation and said to Shen Qing, "This is 108,000 miles away from the supermarket you are referring to, how can you make such a difference and still swear to tell me that it is there?" ”

Shen Qing felt funny and angry and patted He Annian's arm, "Why are you so annoying!" I haven't been back for almost 10 years, and I used to come back in a hurry after a year, and I always felt like it! The city is too small, too oppressive, intolerant and snarky. ”

The moment Shen Qing fell into contemplation, as if recalling his past experience, the car passed slowly, and Shen Qing suddenly spoke, "Stop, let's take a look around here!" ”

When Shen Qing got out of the car, he felt that the sun was a little big, opened the umbrella, put on a sun hat and sunscreen, He Annian took Shen Qing's hand, and the two of them got off the car near here one after the other.

In the past, it looked like an old photo that had been buried in dust, but when the wind blew gently, the sand that fell on the photo fell one after another.

Shen Qing looked at the students coming in and out of the school gate, smiled as if he was nostalgic and said to He Annian, "I graduated from high school here." ”

"I have 100% envy of other people's youth, my youth has never been like these people, you see the students here, wearing school uniforms, what they do is just from the teaching building to the cafeteria to the playground, and it is not right to walk around in other places without permission."

He Annian and Shen Qing looked over, pointed to the protective net upstairs and asked with some uncertainty, "What is that?" ”

Shen Qing showed a big smile, "That's it!" When I was in high school, I heard about the bad legends of our school, and the rumors of hauntings abounded, until later, I don't know who said it, just the day before we entered school, there was a girl who jumped from a tall building and ended her short life. ”

Shen Qing said this, feeling a little funny, and showed a big smile, "Actually, sometimes when I can't hold on here, when I want to go home, I always think, if I can be as brave as that senior sister and jump from here, then everyone will spend the rest of their lives in regret." ”

He Annian's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he pulled Shen Qing's arm with his hand, "What nonsense?" ”

Shen Qing also felt a little funny when he thought about the past, to be honest, I haven't had such a ridiculous idea for a long time, just standing here I feel a little depressed, remembering the stupid things I did back then.

He Annian looked at this teaching building, time seemed to have dyed this teaching building with traces of time, but the protective net on the teaching building still made people feel a little depressed, suddenly a bell rang, and soon there were students in the teaching building running out of it, and they lined up neatly and walked in the direction of the cafeteria.

Suddenly, someone smiled at the friend behind him and said, "Let's run faster, I heard that there is sweet and sour tenderloin in the cafeteria today, and if you run slowly, you will probably be beaten by others." ”

The girl's voice was crisp, and he was followed by another girl with a ponytail, two people walking in the direction of the cafeteria, a spoon in their hands, and another girl with a packed plastic bag in her hand.

When Shen Qing saw this scene, it was as if he had traveled back many years ago, he choked up a little with a smile, and his heart suddenly ached, and then he pulled He Annian's hand and said with a smile, "I think I'm relieved too." ”

In the car, the air conditioner quickly washed away the heat just now, and He Annian obviously noticed Shen Qing's sadness just now, and asked with some uncertainty, "Did you have a bad time in high school?" ”

Shen Qing looked over a little amused when he heard this, "You might as well ask me bluntly what happened to me in high school that made me unhappy?" ”

Shen Qing's attitude made He Annian feel relieved, took off the sunscreen, and did not leave any traces on his white arms, but he could vaguely see a long line of faint black on his arms.

"In fact, where there are people, they will bully each other, at the beginning you will be a little scared when you are bullied, a little overwhelmed, the second time you will be a little hesitant, you will feel that you have done something wrong They will bully you, until the third time and the fourth time, as the number of bullying increases, you understand that you have not done anything."

Shen Qing looked at He Annian with a smile on his face, "Actually, when I was in school, it was our class that happened to coincide with the major adjustment of the school's policy, to be honest, our class was lucky and unlucky, so the quality of our teachers at that time was uneven, and the character was also a little worrisome." ”

"I still remember that during military training, it may be that class discipline is linked to the teacher's salary, so the teachers in the bottom of the class will be deducted from their salary."

"At that time, everyone came from different schools and different places, and no one wanted to be constrained by this kind of strict discipline, and teenage boys and girls were rebellious in their bones, so the discipline was getting worse and worse, and the teacher's temper was getting worse and worse."

"Until one time the teacher broke down and started hitting the students in class, everyone in the class was slapped and stood on the classroom podium, in the last row, and everyone in the corridor had red and swollen cheeks."

He Annian's voice was a little hoarse, "So, were you also beaten?" ”

Shen Qing nodded, "That's right! We students cried with our parents, including the school, and the school punished the teachers, but that seemed to be the beginning of hell. ”

"Soon, as more and more students were arrested, we saw that some students were wearing necklaces that were pulled directly from their necks by the teacher, and the bruised strangulation marks were particularly obvious on the neck.

"Students were divided into grades of three, six, nine, etc., and the student union became the teacher's minions, and at that time, a large number of students were late every day because the student union blocked the door, and I sometimes didn't even know what the main purpose of these people was for doing these things?"

"Military management is not, the purpose of learning has not been achieved, and the things done are somewhat like the warlord melee in the twenties and thirties of the last century, in short, all the students have suffered unjustified disasters just because of your ordinariness."

"The first time I was bullied at that time, I finally couldn't hold back my temper and had a big fight with the student union where I turned over from a nap, and then I started to be targeted."

He Annian asked a little puzzled, "Is there a problem with sleeping at noon and turning over?" ”

Shen Qing showed a big smile, "Yes! You can't turn over when you sleep, it's not right to turn over, if it's not right, you have to write it down, and after you write it down, you will be deducted from the class's score, the class teacher's salary will be deducted, you will be scolded by the teacher, and you will be expelled if it's serious. ”

He Annian didn't understand the main reason for this system, and he felt a little ridiculous, "Isn't this a bit too harsh?" ”

Shen Qing didn't speak, but said after a long time, "Around the time I arrived at the last semester, I began to study art, and I devoted a lot of time outside the school, and the number of people I knew gradually increased, and at that time I realized that people still belong to the group." ”

Shen Qing didn't say anything about what happened later, in fact, what happened later With the passage of time and the college entrance examination, everyone was more or less in the mood to pay attention to these.

After graduating for so many years, the hell created by people is still vivid, but people have already moved forward, in fact, to say that that hellish life is not helpful to people?

In fact, there are people who survive tenaciously like weeds, no matter what kind of setbacks and difficulties they encounter in the future, their first reaction is not to talk to themselves or choose to escape, but to choose a more tenacious way to grow savagely.

Shen Qing's voice was very light, and He Annian understood why he felt that Shen Qing had a familiar sense of division, obviously this person was very good, but sometimes he was too inferior.

Maybe the experience of being bullied in the past left an indelible damage in his heart, although these pains will be forgotten, but with the fermentation of time, they will gradually corrode people's hearts, and in the process of being suppressed and destroyed, he gradually accepted that there was nothing good about himself, which made Shen Qing deeply inferior.

This is probably what is called frustration education......

This tmd damn so-called frustration education......

Shen Qing suddenly smiled when he said this, "Actually, I rarely contacted my parents before I got married, I still remember that the teacher slapped me, I cried and called my parents, and the first thing they asked was, did I do something wrong at school?" ”

"I was desperate at the time, and then when I was in college, I discussed with my roommates in the dormitory about going out on vacation, and they did everything they could to obstruct and say that it was not safe for girls to go out alone and go out with their roommates, in fact, they were afraid that I would spend too much money, and they were afraid that I would suddenly sleep with other men."

Shen Qing felt a little ridiculous when he said this, and with some relief, "Later, when I was in graduate school, I earned my own money and never told them, do you remember why I always spent a long time making money to buy shoes and clothes at that time?" ”

He Annian nodded, "Is it because they don't want to give it to you?" ”

Shen Qing smiled and shook his head, "No, it's just that I think that if I take their things, I will be controlled by them, if I don't take them, I won't be controlled, and I won't feel sad and sad." ”

The smile on his face was getting bigger and bigger, obviously unhappy but showing such a smile stubbornly, it made people feel a little sad when he looked at it, He Annian reached out and held Shen Qing's hand.

"Actually, many people say that I have no conscience, my parents gave me an education, and let me study art, I am actually a lot better than many people, but I still remember the words they said in my ear when I was studying art."

"I still remember that my mom didn't know what stimulated me that day, because I needed to pay tuition fees to study art, and I also needed to buy painting paper, paint, etc., so my dad took out a large pile of money from the bank that day and went home in a bag."

"My mom threw the money in my face and threw it at me in a particularly insulting way, and I remember squatting on the ground and picking it up one by one, and counting it one by one."

"My mother asked me, do you think this money is particularly heavy, this is all the hard work of me and your father, if you spend so much effort and finally fail, think about who you are worthy of."

He Annian frowned, his hands trembling a little, "Your parents don't look like that." ”

Shen Qing gently wiped the tears on his face with his hand, "It doesn't look like a person who has experienced something bad." ”