Chapter 75: Can't let go
Gao Zhexing looked at Chen Xi, her tears rolling in her eyes, but she stubbornly didn't let the tears flow, and his heart ached fiercely.
He thought that after more than a month, he had given her enough time to calm down, and she could understand what he was doing at that time, but he didn't expect her to think more paranoid.
"Xixi..."Gao Zhexing wanted to reach out and hug Chen Xi.
Chen Xi stepped back suddenly, not letting him touch her, and turned her back to face him, but her tears flowed straight down.
His embrace was too warm and would make her attached, and she didn't want to be soft-hearted.
She tilted her head slightly to prevent the tears from falling, and said heartless words, "You go back, I have said everything I should say." ”
Gao Zhexing said: "But I haven't finished what I want to say, Xixi, you are evading." Two people operating a long-term relationship together is a process of seeking common ground while reserving differences, rather than conflicts due to differences in lifestyles and other aspects of the two parties, but not to solve them, just thinking about escaping. ”
He realized that the biggest mistake at that time was to use his own position to consider her position, and he wanted to make up for it.
Chen Xi also knew that he was escaping, but it was also a kind of self-preservation, because he was impulsive, so when he felt that the other party didn't love him so much, he refused to reconcile.
Emotionally, she is no longer brave, for fear of taking half a wrong step.
She said, "You're going to let me run away." I've tried it with you, but now I don't think it fits, I don't want to continue, it's as simple as that. ”
Chen Xi's refusal to communicate, Gao Zhexing didn't know what to do with her for a while.
Afraid of pushing her too hard, she resisted even more, but let her continue to calm down, and her heart would cool down.
Gao Zhexing's frustration was very strong, and he was silent for a long time before saying, "Xixi, don't deny me everything. ”
Chen Xi turned around at this time, looked at him, and said, "You can easily see through me and speculate about me, but I have never been able to see through you." I can't see all of you as a person, how can I deny it? ”
Gao Zhexing saw her tearful appearance, he didn't care about her resistance, and held her shoulder, "Xixi, it won't be like this in the future." ”
Chen Xi pushed him away and said again with a cry: "I'm with you, I don't feel safe." Don't push me anymore! You push me like this, I feel so bad that I doubt myself all day long. I don't want to live like this, let me go back to the life I used to live alone, please. ”
A word "ask", Gao Zhexing really felt for the first time what it means to poke his heart and lungs, he didn't expect things to hurt her so much.
There was a melancholy in his voice that couldn't be concealed, "What happened before, so you can't let go?" ”
Chen Xi turned his gaze away, his lips moving, "Yes." ”
Gao Zhexing felt endless frustration, and after a long silence, he looked at her deeply, and then turned his head to pull the door.
The door "clicked" shut again, blocking everything between them.
Chen Xi was against the wall, the strength of her body seemed to be withdrawn, she slipped on the floor, tears continued to slide down like beads with broken threads, and the emotions suppressed in her heart completely collapsed.
After a sleepless night, the next morning, Chen Xi contacted a friend to pick her up, and when the friend arrived, she went downstairs.
The driver who sent them over yesterday was waiting on the first floor, but she didn't see Gao Zhexing and Ayou.
The driver came over and told her that Gao Zhexing had left with Ayou early in the morning.
Chen Xi breathed a sigh of relief and felt a little inexplicable, she forced down her inexplicable emotions and told the driver that her friend was here, and asked the driver not to send her anymore.
But the driver insisted on sending her.
Chen Xi couldn't resist the driver, so she asked him to follow behind her friend's car.
The friend who came to pick up Chen Xi is called Hanato E, a public relations company executive in Tokyo, and has known Chen Xi for several years.
Hua Lihui knew that Chen Xi went out with her ex-boyfriend yesterday, glanced at the business car that followed them, and said to Chen Xi: "Your ex-boyfriend is quite interesting." ”
Chen Xi looked out the window in a daze, and only said after a while: "I am completely separated from him." ”
Hua Lihui glanced at Chen Xi, and Chen Xi's face was simply written with the word "sad".
Hanari asked again: "What did he do wrong that is unforgivable?" ”
Chen Xi shook his head, "From his standpoint, he should be right, but I can't continue to walk with him without any guilt." ”
"Hey, it sounds complicated, but between men and women, that's all there is to it." Hua Li talked eloquently, "Either talk about money, it's exchange; Either talk about sex, it's happiness; Either talk about marriage, it is a partnership; Talking about love? It is basically equivalent to talking about the Goldbach conjecture, which cannot be completely proved by a person until he dies. You see, in fact, everything is simple, don't be so persistent. ”
Chen Xi smiled meaninglessly, others can, but she can't.
...
On Christmas Eve, Qin Hui came to Tokyo to see Chen Xi.
Chen Xi booked a hot spring hotel in advance, and on the night of Christmas Eve, the two mothers and daughters went to have Christmas dinner after soaking in the hot springs in the hotel.
Although Qin Hui has taken care of work in order to come to Tokyo, it is inevitable that some sudden situations will happen, and halfway through the meal, Qin Hui's secretary called, and the restaurant was noisy, so she had to go out to pick it up.
Chen Xi also put down her chopsticks and waited for her mother to come back before continuing to eat.
She picked up her mobile phone, replied to the Christmas wishes of her friends and customers, and inadvertently saw a gossip news in a WeChat group - Du's Qianjin Yacht Bay Secret Meeting Huayang President, good things are coming?
The accompanying picture was a very mushy picture, but Chen Xi recognized that the man inside was indeed Gao Zhexing, who was standing side by side on the deck with a slender young woman, and there were several people around. I can't see any intimate movements, but because of my identity, it gives netizens unlimited imagination.
Chen Xi couldn't help but remember that she once went to Huayang Group to find Gao Zhexing, and heard the employees of Huayang Group discussing the marriage with Du in the elevator.
So it's not impossible?
Chen Xi turned off the mobile phone screen, and lowered the center mouth and felt a little torn.
People are like this, they know not to pay attention, but the emotions that breed in their hearts are beyond their control.
When she mentioned breaking up, she thought that there would definitely be other women around him in the future, but when such a person appeared, she was very embarrassed!
When Qin Hui came back from the call, she saw Chen Xi poking the vegetables in the bowl with chopsticks, her face was also puffing up, she asked funny, "What's wrong?" This dish is so unpalatable that you have such an expression? ”
As soon as Qin Hui said this, Chen Xi realized that the gossip news had seriously affected her mood, she forcibly suppressed the discomfort in her heart, tried her best to pretend that nothing happened, and said, "The food is not unpalatable, I was thinking about things just now." ”
Qin Hui smiled and didn't ask her what she thought, and the two continued to eat.
But after returning to the hotel room, Qin Hui took the initiative to mention Gao Zhexing.
Chen Xi didn't hide it from her, and said, "Actually, when you called me that day, he sat next to me. ”
Qin Hui's eyes twitched, and he asked, "He came to Tokyo to find you?" ”
Chen Xi nodded.
Qin Hui asked again: "Are you reconciled?" ”
Chen Xi shook his head and said, "It's impossible for us." ”
Chen Xi's expression came to an end, Qin Hui saw it in his eyes, he obviously still liked it, why did he insist on separating?
Qin Hui asked softly, "Xixi, haven't you thought about giving each other another chance?" ”
Chen Xi looked out the window, someone was setting off fireworks not far away, her eyes slowly lost focus, and after a while, she said: "Actually, he is very good, maybe I am not strong enough, I don't mind the gains and losses." ”
Some love, like fireworks, has a short-lived splendor, but it is also fleeting.
She was afraid of being given up by others first, so she gave up first.
Qin Hui understood that Chen Xi was insecure, so she couldn't help but approach her and hugged her, "Xixi, if you still like it, don't be afraid of failure, go and strive for a good result." Girls want to have their own careers, but mom wants you to find your partner, feel another taste of life, feel trivial and running-in, feel love and companionship. ”
Chen Xi was silent for a moment before answering, "Mom, I don't want to talk about feelings anymore at the moment, I just want to do a good job." ”
Qin Hui sighed in her heart, Chen Xi has a knot, but the opening of the knot is not a matter of a day or two, nor can it be solved by someone else's words or two, she has to experience it herself.
Qin Hui didn't persuade Chen Xi again, but this night, the two mothers and daughters talked a lot.
...
At the same time, at the night bar in Pengcheng, after Tang An finished talking on the phone, he said to Gao Zhexing, who was sitting in the corner drinking,
"I've been told to deal with all the gossip spread in the media. But I guess the source of the spread of the news is from the Du side. ”
Mingxin Commerce and Trade collapsed, Watanabe Company was controlled, and Huayang Group's series of counterattacks against Du Shi made Du Shi feel like a big enemy, and they started to marry again, first arranging for their granddaughter to go to Gao Zhexing's private party with friends, and secretly looking for someone to take pictures secretly, and then put the photos out, the purpose is to achieve the truth through public opinion.
Tang An felt that they were delusional, and Gao Zhexing could never be manipulated by others!
After listening to Tang An's words, Gao Zhexing had no expression on his face, and only said: "There will be a public bidding for an infrastructure project in G City next month, and Du Shi is very interested in that project, and he will definitely go to the bidding. ”
This is the end of offending Gao Zhexing, and quietly messing up your business. Tang An smiled, "When it comes to robbing business, who is your opponent!" ”
Gu Wenhui walked over, just heard the word business, and sighed twice, "Good Christmas Eve, what business are you talking about!" Go, go down and dance! ”
Gao Zhexing put down his wine glass, "Go ahead, I still have something to do, let's go first." ”
After speaking, he picked up the mobile phone that was put aside and left the private room.
The door of the private room closed, and Gu Wenhui poked Tang An's arm, "What's wrong with him and my junior sister?" ”
Tang An glanced at him, "Why don't you ask your junior sister?" ”
Gu Wenhui said: "It's not that I don't want to ask my junior sister, it's that I don't have her contact information." However, the two have never been together during the festival, so it must have been a quarrel. ”
Tang Anxin said that it might be more serious than a quarrel, but he was silent.
In fact, he didn't know the specific situation, he only knew that a week ago, he chased people to Tokyo, and he made an appointment to go somewhere one day.
That morning, Gao Zhexing was obviously in a good mood, but when he came back early the next morning, his whole face was clouded, and even Ayou didn't dare to talk to him.
Tang An felt that Chen Xi was still quite capable and could influence Gao Zhexing's emotions.
On the other side, Gao Zhexing came out of the night bar and waited for Ayou to come and pick him up on the side of the road.
Suddenly, he heard someone shouting "Xixi" behind him, he didn't know what the specific word was, but it was this sound.
He jerked his head back, but was met by an unfamiliar face.
Without warning, his heart pounded.
It turned out that some emotions had been deeply rooted, like silk spit out of a spider's mouth, and when he suddenly understood, it had been woven into a web, which entwined his heart tighter and tighter.