In the interrogation room, Zuo Ling pushed the door in, and the police officer inside glanced back, and when he saw that it was her, he quickly got up and said hello with a smile.

Zuo Ling smiled back and put a cup of coffee in his hand, "Shall I talk to them first?" ”

"Yes, you can." The officer wisely withdrew with his coffee.

Pulling out the chair and sitting down, Zuo Ling handed the boy sitting on the opposite chair a cup of coffee.

Ji Yun lowered his eyes and looked at the coffee in his hand, and took it, "Thank you." ”

Zuo Ling took a sip of coffee, and his mouth was a little bitter.

Putting down the cup, Zuo Ling stared at Ji Yun for a long time, and the second when the other party looked up and looked at herself, she hooked her lips and smiled at him, and her smile was full of friendship.

Ji Yun was stunned at first, and then spoke: "I heard about the previous case. Thank you. ”

Zuo Ling pursed his lips and said, "It should be." In fact, you should also know that with your ability to Abbott, there will be no problem when you check the previous things, right? ”

Ji Yun shook his head slightly, "What should have happened, what shouldn't have happened, everything has happened." Now there is no need to talk about whether I am right or wrong. I don't regret any decision I've made. ”

Zuo Ling knows very well that Ji Yun, a child, is too mature, maybe since his parents divorced, he was already an adult when he was a teenager, and he wanted to be a safe haven for his sister, and his psychology was terrifyingly mature, so his psychology became more and more distorted.

"Can you tell me how you felt when you killed someone?" Zuo Ling asked him.

Ji Yun's eyes were very calm, "It's very relieving." ”

"When you were doing it, did you think about other people? Like Abbott, like your sister. ”

"Yes." Ji Yun lowered his head, looked at the cup in his hand, and fell into memory.

He never told anyone that after he killed someone that day, there was a lot of blood on his face and a lot of tears.

When he was killing, he saw that the man was dying until he died. He was calm and not very excited. There was a thought in my mind, and I felt that I was finally free, and I avenged the girl I once liked, and the self I once were.

Other than that, all he thinks about is Abbott.

At that time, he was crying in a mess, and he didn't leave the scene as soon as he killed people, and he sat on the ground and cried all the time.

Crying because he knows very well that he and Abbott will never be possible again, and in the future, they will never see each other again, and in the future, they will never meet again, and in the future, they will be strangers, and even he will leave this world.

He was thinking at the time, Abbott must be very sad and disappointed when he found out, he was so good to himself, he always wanted to let go of his hatred, he obviously agreed but didn't do it. Abbott must have been very disappointed.

He was crying because he thought about it.

"I also want to ask about the story between you and Abbott. He told me, but not much. I want to know, for so many years, your feelings for him. ”

"The two of us, ......" Speaking of this, Ji Yun smiled, which surprised Zuo Ling on the other side.

Zuo Ling: "You look good when you smile." ”

Ji Yun, who doesn't smile, is cold, handsome, and Ji Yun, who laughs, is more in line with his age, very gentle, but inexplicable, and distressing.

"Yes." Ji Yun was stunned, didn't know what to think, and said, "He said the same too." ”

He rarely laughed, and as far back as he remembered, when he laughed, it was because of Abbott.

Every time he laughed, Abbott would say that he looked good when he smiled, making him smile more in the future.

Hearing this, Zuo Ling snorted, and was not in a hurry to guard against a mouthful of dog food.

"When I first came to New York, I knew him and met him at home. Know what his name is. But there was no communication. The first contact, when I was a sophomore in high school, but think about it, from the first contact to the present, he has not changed. ”

"Very kind, the whole person is still a bit of a middle two, hot-blooded, and nosy."

Zuo Ling read the doting from Ji Yun's words.

"He has wanted to study criminal investigation since high school, or earlier, and I asked him why, and he replied very much, he wanted to catch the bad guys. At that time, when I first came into contact, he was also overflowing with compassion, saved me, took me to the hospital, and then relied on me. ”

"At that time, I knew that he didn't have any feelings for me, he just wanted to learn to do good deeds." Speaking of this, Ji Yun laughed again, probably thinking of the previous picture.

"He has a childish spirit and a sense of justice, and it hasn't changed since I met him until now. At that time, I was quite envious of him. He has never been troubled, he is happy every day, sometimes I don't know where he is happy, he himself doesn't know, he is happy, stupid. ”

"At that time, I was a little disdainful of him and wanted to stay away from him, but he came to me every day. Later, I thought about it carefully, too, his family is so good, his parents have a good relationship, they are very affectionate, he is the only son in the family, and there is nothing to say about the family conditions, he doesn't do anything, he can be a rich second generation. ”

"So he lives without heart and lungs, and it's normal to be so happy all day long, after all, there really is nothing to worry about."

Zuo Ling snorted. Truly. Abbott has such good conditions, there is really nothing to worry about, and he has always had a goal, knows what he wants to do, and is not the kind of person who knows that his family has money and is willing to fall, on the contrary, he is very positive, and the whole person is indeed very positive.

Thinking of this, a face involuntarily appeared in Zuo Ling's mind.

It seems that the dawn night at the age of seventeen or eighteen is the same as Abbott at the beginning.

The sense of justice is bursting, and his life is carefree.

It's really like that.

Zuo Ling thought about it, and a smile involuntarily appeared in his eyes.

Ji Yun took a sip of coffee, as if he thought it tasted good, he picked it up and took another sip before continuing:

"Actually, when I first met, I was hostile to him as a person. I'm so unbalanced and I can't figure out why he's so good. But later, the two got closer and closer. I never felt like the two of us were on the same path. It is clear that none of us are one world. ”

"The two of us are the cards I showdown first. Before I met him, I didn't think about what college I was going to go to, and I didn't even think I could survive the last two years of high school. I have to say, it's his credit. ”

"After he told me what school I wanted to go to, I was moved. Later, I followed him to the same university and the same major, and during this period, he didn't know anything. At that time, I was still a little embarrassed after applying for the exam, so I didn't see him and contact him for a summer vacation. ”

"When we meet again, it's freshman year. At that time, he was quite surprised to see me, and wanted to say something to me, and then I was afraid that everyone would know that we knew each other, so I ignored him, and rubbed his shoulder and left. He was also a little surprised at the time, and by the time he probably reacted, I was already far away. ”

"Later, privately he contacted me and I replied. I'm very clear, don't let everyone think we know each other. He didn't understand it at the time, but he did it anyway. ”

Zuo Ling tugged at the corners of his mouth, a little bitter, "Abbott likes you very much, so he listens to you for everything, in the past four years, you haven't given him a name, and he is not in a hurry, he has been relying on you." ”

If it weren't for liking, Abbott wouldn't have to listen to Ji Yun's words so much, and humbly do this.

"I know. But at that time, I couldn't stand with him. Ji Yun shook his head, his eyes full of sadness.

Zuo Ling nodded, knowing what he was thinking, "At that time, you were extremely inferior, right?" ”

Ji Yun responded: "Yes." ”

Zuo Ling sighed, a little helpless.

At that time, Ji Yun was very inferior, and felt that Abbott, who was so good, was not worthy of him in what he did, at that time Ji Yun already liked Abbott, so he was more cautious, he was afraid that the two would get too close, and others would discuss it.

Because his own feelings for Abbott are not pure, he thinks that other people's words will also be not pure.

Ji Yun is a very loveless and insecure person, so when he did this, Zuo Ling understood it very well.

"Later, you wrote him a love letter." Zuo Ling said.

"yes, did he tell you?" Ji Yun was still a little embarrassed.

This is probably the boldest thing he has ever done in his life.

"No, when I searched Abbott's office, I found that he was sandwiched in a book, and I should have taken it out often, and the letter was a little crumpled. When he saw this love letter, he should have been so happy. ”

"Probably so."

"After I finished writing this love letter, I didn't dare to give it to him in person. Once in the library, I came across it. He fell asleep next to me, and I snuck it into his book. ”

"If you can write, it proves that you like him very much." Zuo Ling touched the coffee cup in his hand, felt the temperature coming from inside, and warmed his palm.

"Yes. I've always thought the act of writing love letters was too naïve. Moreover, it's all written by girls. But I wanted to express my liking for him, and I didn't know how to say it for a while. I'm afraid I won't be able to say it when I call him out and say it to my face, and I feel a little inappropriate if I send a text message. Later, after thinking about it, I wrote a love letter. ”

"Later, I avoided him for half a month. Then no one made it clear, and they continued to have contact in private, and there was still no intersection on the surface. ”

"Why weren't we together?" Zuo Ling was curious. The love letters are all in place, what is missing.

"He's relatively simple, my letter is also vague, he probably didn't know what I was expressing at first, and then I found out that I was hiding from him at that time, and he didn't dare to say anything."

"Later, when we had a relationship, he advised me not to take the events of the year so seriously and learn to let go. I agreed. The promise was quick. But that's not what I thought in my heart. Because I know that the events of the year have taken root in my heart and cannot be erased, not that I can let go of it. Otherwise, what have I been doing all these years? "If I could have put it down, I would have put it down a long time ago.

"After the relationship, the two of us were like a couple in private. They acquiesced to each other, and no one said anything, but he asked me out more times, but at that time, I was always thinking about how to stay away from him. I knew that this road was going to go to the dark, so I wanted to push him far away. ”

"Is your first girlfriend the same as Abbott?"

Ji Yun nodded, and shook his head again: "They are the same." It's not the same. ”

Both of them were doing the same thing, which was to save him.

"The former makes me not want to die, and the latter makes me want to live."

It has been said that it is much harder to live than to die.

"I was shocked when I saw that he was going to let me go. I didn't expect him to do that. I knew he was embarrassed, and I didn't want him to be embarrassed, and I didn't want myself to affect his future and work. I didn't want to go, I stretched out my hand to him, I did the wrong thing, and I will bear all the consequences. ”

"But you didn't expect him to take you again."

"Yes." At this time, Ji Yun naturally has no reservations about Zuo Ling, and he is not afraid of anything, and he will say what he should say. "He knocked me unconscious, and when I woke up, my first thought was suicide, but I didn't die, and he saved me again. Time and time again, I was annoyed to save me, but he didn't get tired of it. I don't know what he's up to. ”

Zuo Ling saw that Ji Yun was crying.

Such a big boy cried, Zuo Ling felt uncomfortable when he looked at it.

"He likes you. He can do anything, doesn't he just like you as a person? He's so good, but you're not bad either. You've never been bad, and you've deserved his liking, always. Zuo Ling stepped forward and touched his head, smiling softly.

"He was afraid that you would die, and he made a lot of efforts and sacrifices for you. I know you don't want to see him like that. But you can't help it, you like him, you like him so much that you don't want to bother him. But he also likes you, and likes you to be his faith. ”

"I suppose Abbott must have thought when he took you away: since I can't pull you out of the darkness, I'll sink with you in the darkness to death."

Abbott In the end, for the sake of Ji Yun, a boy, he didn't want anything.

Just at the door of the police station, when Abbott looked up at the police badge that the police academy students were most familiar with, Zuo Ling had been behind them and did not disturb. She remembered Abbott staring at the badge for a long, long time.

At that time, she thought, Abbott must have felt very uncomfortable.

After all, this police badge is his dream and pursuit for nearly ten years or even longer. And on this day, he ended burying this dream with his own hands for the boy he liked.

In the future, he has nothing to do with this police badge.

This was already a dream of his youth.

However, in the next second, Abbott hugged Ji Yun beside him, and at that moment, Abbott smiled, laughing so happily and happily. It seems that it was not him who was sad a moment ago.

But Zuo Ling understands very well.

Abbott looks at the badge as a memorial to the past. Hugging Ji Yun is hugging the future.

For Abbott, a boy that everyone envies and likes, his future will only be two words.

Ji Yun.

This name that appeared in his youth, the most amazing for him, the most distressing for him, the most happy for him, and the most sad for him, is also the boy he has always kept in his heart and carefully treasured.

Good night

(End of chapter)