On February 10, 2020, the BAES base was invaded.

I had a chance encounter with an enemy, and he caught him in a room and questioned him about the pendant.

My pendant really doesn't seem to be an ordinary ornament, and it was actually targeted by that person.

Fortunately, the fighters at the base came to the rescue in time. The pendant was not snatched away, and I was successfully rescued. The enemy also fled.

Merely...... Because of this, I was hospitalized for a few more days and fell into a state of autism for the next few days.

……

In this turmoil, most of the base's medical department was blown up, and it was the most severely damaged department.

As a result, most of the wounded were forced to move out of the base and seek treatment in other treatment facilities.

But I didn't move out, I was still in the base, I just moved to a new room to re-heal.

I was asked a lot of questions about how I was dealing with the enemy at that time.

Dr. Shan Jun is still my guardian.

……

"Calling for help is the act of the weak. Is that what he said? The doctor asked.

I nodded.

The doctor looked at me with a dejected look, thought for a moment, and asked, "What, are you looking down on yourself?"

I muttered, "Maybe, maybe not...... I am indeed very weak, and I do not have the ability or consciousness to defeat the enemy. ”

The doctor closes his eyes. The atmosphere became quiet.

Then, he solemnly told me: "Everyone's ability is limited, and you can ask for help when you encounter difficulties, but it doesn't mean that the other party is weak." ”

I was silent, trying to say nothing but unable to say anything.

The doctor paused, then continued, "Then I want to ask you, do you remember the kidnapping last month?" When faced with that life-and-death situation, what kind of thoughts did you have in mind? ”

"Huh......?"

"The enemy at that time, you should know that you can't win the battle. But you still fought resolutely, even in the face of the threat of death, what are you fighting for? ”

"I ......"

- I was there for ......

"It's hard to say, this kind of thing." I closed my eyes and shook my head, trying to avoid the topic.

"Really?" Soon after, the doctor asked, "Then I'll put it another way." Do you regret it? ”

"Huh?" I'm a little confused about this question.

The Doctor said, "You were forced to come here because of what happened at the time, you need to be inspected by us, and you were unfortunate enough to be exposed to the invasion of the base, and you have suffered so much, do you regret it—for the actions you did at that time?"

I quietly recalled the past and replied to him, "How can I regret it?" If I hadn't done that, the kid and I might not have been able to escape. Even if only one person can get out, I want to gamble. It's just that...... I'm just complaining that I'm not capable. ”

The doctor laughed and suddenly took my hand: "It seems that I am not mistaken. Miss Life, this is your consciousness and ability. ”

I looked up at him, and he looked at me.

"When I first heard about it, I admired you, and it was a kind of strength to dedicate yourself to helping others and not flinch in the face of strong enemies!

You are not fragile and very strong. The reason why you can't defeat a strong enemy is because you haven't received specialized training and your potential hasn't been fully developed.

But you have the courage to rise to the occasion in order to protect others!

This is already the case with unforged materials. From the perspective of an ordinary person, it is very good! I even think that BAES would be a tiger with someone like you! ”

After listening to this, I suddenly realized that I was not so disappointed in myself.

After that, the doctor continued to enlighten me and talked a lot.

……

At night, I thought about the day's events all night.

Even think about their own future development.

In the past, I had to get by and live a mixed life, with empty ideals but no action, but this is the first time I have considered it so seriously.

"Perhaps...... This is the opportunity. ”

……

After some time, I was cured.

At the same time, the examination was also announced, and I was finally "released from prison".

The results of the examination showed that I was actually a "normal human".

- Huh?

I heard from the nurse that the examination was completed early.

- It's because the loss of the base after the last invasion was too great, so this inspection was suspended, otherwise I don't know how long it will be closed...... I don't know if I will be found again in the future...... Annoyed.

Anyway, I was finally able to go out, but I didn't seem to be in the mood that way.

One morning, I went back to my room.

Dr. Shan Jun anxiously ran over to me and asked, "Where have you been?" I came here and found you weren't there! ”

"Just go out for a walk and take a look at the place. Besides, I'm all recovered, and I can't move freely? I laughed.

"If you want to go out, it's better for me to lead the way."

"Indeed, this place is so big, if you don't pay attention, you will get lost." I put the five fingers of my left hand against the glass wall and looked out of the wall with nostalgia.

"When I go out, my memory will be erased."

"Hmm." The Doctor nodded.

"Never going back here again?"

"Yes."

"That's just a pity. I'd like to stay a little longer. ”

The doctor smiled and said, "I remember you were quite repulsive at first."

I replied, "Yes, but people's emotions always change." You see how strange these advanced machines are, and I haven't seen many of them outside. ”

I looked at the doctor, "You guys must be the legendary 'that place'." Is the medical device the most advanced in the world? ”

"Maybe, maybe not." The doctor replied humorously.

"Why do you want to learn from me?" I covered my mouth and couldn't help but laugh.

"Miss Life, you don't have to feel lost."

"I'm not lost. It's rather fun. Coming to this place will definitely change my life. Doctor, have you ever had an important change in your life? ”

"Well, there have been many, I don't know which one you want to know about?" Dr. said.

"Like, how did you get into BAES in the first place?"

The doctor raised his eyebrows after hearing this, and then said calmly, "There is luck, there are opportunities, and the most important thing is your own efforts - grasp these well, I believe that anyone can shine anywhere."

"So, can you be my chance? Give me a chance to change as a weird 'normal person'. I took out an envelope from my pocket and handed it to him with both hands.

This is the BAES application I wrote for a few days.

The doctor took it, but didn't open it.

We looked at each other wordlessly.

My eyes were very determined, and after more than ten days of thinking, I was ready to be aware of the suffering after joining - and at the same time, I did not lose the acceptance of rejection.

"Why?" The doctor asked.

"I want to figure out what is the source of the manufacture of the solar satellite." I replied firmly.

The staring lasted for a moment.

Finally, he smiled, smiled and said, "What a good ideal."

"Theoretically, that's not how members join. However, I look forward to the answers you will find in the future. ”

The doctor pocketed the envelope.

I was very pleasantly surprised and quickly bowed to him deeply: "Thank you so much!" Doctor! ”

"However, if you enlist in the army now, you have to go through three months of training and pass the assessment before you can be admitted."

"Understood!"

After that, I thanked the Dr. for taking care of him during this time and left.