I repeatedly told myself not to pay attention to him, but I couldn't do it, because the more famous he became, the more pressure he put on me, and I began to want to escape from him, but I actually wanted to escape from failure before returning to Dongyang.

You said that I took advantage of the marriage between Tajima and Hong Limin to return to my hometown on the grounds of falling out of love in order to cover up my failure. You're not wrong at all, I'm pretending to be out of love, and I'm going to return to my hometown.

However, I am not completely devoid of love for Hong Limin, she is an ideal object, and if I become a famous painter as I wish, I may marry her.

Therefore, I used her to marry Tajima, but instead I tasted the failure of the second layer.

When I returned to Dongyang, I felt a sense of humiliation, but I didn't want to kill Tajima, but I tried to forget about him, and that's why I gave up my paintbrush and concentrated on running the inn, which is true, not that I was lying. However, it is not so easy for people who are used to holding brushes to give up paintbrushes, so every time I pass in front of the painting materials store, I feel a ripple in my heart, and I am surprised why I should give up my brushes.

In this way, while tasting failure, I was convinced that I had a talent for painting, and that with time, I would be able to make a difference.

So I secretly rented a house and took the time to paint there, and the reason why I changed my name was because I didn't want others to know that I was painting, and second, I changed my name, maybe I could face the canvas with a new mood.

However, it was useless for me to do this, because every time I looked at the canvas, I thought of Tajima, and the more I didn't want to lose to him, the more lifeless and impersonal the painting I painted, and no matter how I painted, the result would be the same, but I still didn't think that I didn't have the talent to paint.

I thought that if I didn't have Tajima as a person, I would definitely be able to paint freely and full of life, and because of this thought, I would hate Tajima, not only for him as a person, but also for his existence.

Compared to the psychology of pure competition, this is an almost cursed psychology. I began to want to eliminate him, because it was more to destroy him than to kill.

At first, I read mystery novels like anyone else, learned from other people's crimes, and learned that any alibi is not 100% safe, and no matter how much the motive is hidden, it will be exposed, so I want to ignore the alibi and make the motive superficial, but I must hide the real motive, and I also consider using the law of "only suspicion, no punishment".

As for my criminal methods, almost all of them are said by you, and I can use everything I can to use, such as Hong Limin's diary! Both of them were prone to trusting people, and I knew in the newspaper that the owner of the health pharmacy had a criminal record, etc., and I used them to devise a murderous plan.

Needless to say, I also took advantage of her habit of arriving earlier than the appointed time. Because I was afraid of being seen through my real motives, because it was my fatal wound, when a matchmaker came to do so, I refused on the grounds that I couldn't forget Namko's woman.

This rumor has spread as I have planned, and I have seen that my plan can be a complete success, because everyone knows that I am still missing the woman of Nam Kwang, Hong Limin, and I have successfully created the false image of a 'relationship between men and women', which was described by newspapers and weekly magazines as 'a tragedy derived from a triangular relationship' after the incident. I think my plan succeeded, because the incident was derived from the relationship between men and women, I had no motive, and therefore no guilt, as I expected, I was released without guilt and returned to Dongyang, but Jiang Shangfeng suddenly appeared, he had nothing to be afraid of, although he had read Hong Limin's diary and knew that the wine mixed with potassium cyanate was brought by me, but he could not prove it. If that's all there is, there's no need to kill Jiang Shangfeng, but he knows that I continue to paint under the pseudonym Hou Teng, plus he is also a painter, you should know that painters have a strong sense of competition and jealousy, and it can easily be inferred why I continue to paint under a pseudonym, so that I will definitely know my true motives, therefore, I will kill Jiang Shangfeng, as you think, I let the illusory Hou Teng commit suicide in order to dispose of Jiang Shangfeng's body, and when Jiang Shangfeng was killed, it is also a fact that he carried Hong Limin's diary on his body.

You may think that it is too stupid for me to rent a studio just after I was released, but I was discovered by Jiang Shangfeng.

I also know that it is very dangerous to rent a house in the name of Hou Teng immediately after the incident, but I have to go.

Because I wonder if I can stand in front of the canvas with peace of mind after Tajima's death, I can say that I can kill people for painting, and dig my own grave for painting.

This kind of emotion also applies to another situation, that is, your first question, you don't understand why I want to hang the painting of 'Dongyang Ancient Town' in Kuwabara's store? I can explain this, because I am a painter, I want to paint before I paint, half of this is true, I think you know, the other half is that I want to be praised by people to paint, people with this mentality, not only painters, but also writers and actors want their works and performances to be applauded and praised.

After I returned to Dongyang, I continued to paint under the pseudonym Hou Teng, hoping to get applause from others, and because I strongly wanted the praise of others, I hung the painting in Kuwabara's store, I knew that it was dangerous to do so, because the painting lacked vitality and personality, and it was my work at a glance, but in order to let more people see my paintings, I restrained my anxiety, and I knew that it was stupid to do so.

Finally, there is the matter about Hong Limin. You say that I didn't have love for her in the first place, then you are wrong, for the reason I said earlier, I killed her in order to make the plan a success.

Because if I hadn't killed her, the restored portrait would have been discovered, and it would have been seen that I had brought the wine mixed with potassium cyanate, but it pained me to kill her, and I didn't wish to kill her if I could, because I still had a trace of love for her, and if I had no feelings for her, I would have embraced her and had sex with her before I killed her, but because I still had a little love for her, I didn't do it, because I couldn't blasphemy her again. The person I hugged the night before the incident was Kuwabara, and when she hugged me, she asked me if I still have a crush on Hong Limin. Since Kuwabara didn't know my plan, she just talked casually and had no intention, but her words pierced my heart, and I told myself to stabilize my mood and that it would be over tomorrow.

When I write this letter, I don't want to lighten my sins a little, but I just want you to understand how I felt at that time. I don't have anything to write about, I'm afraid I'll be sentenced to death, right? After the sentence, the sentence will be executed within a few days, right? If there are still a few days, I hope to allow me to pick up the brush again, because I feel that this time I will no longer be afraid of Tajima's apparition, and I can face the canvas with a very relaxed heart, and after I am sure that I have the talent to be a painter, I can die without regrets.

Maybe that's where I'm stubborn.

After reading the letter, Tian Chunda raised his head, and the train was moving towards Nanguang in the dark night. Guan Lin, who was sitting in the front seat, had closed his eyes, and his pale face clearly showed tiredness, while the criminal policeman Hao Dong, who came from Nanguang, sat next to Guan Lin with a nervous expression.

After Tian Chunda put Guan Lin's letter in his pocket, he sat down in the back seat and said to Yi Cheng: "Which newspaper and magazine do you plan to hand over this incident to public?" ”

"No articles are submitted to any newspapers and magazines." Yi Cheng said with a smile. "What's more, there are no newspapers and periodicals worthy of my contributions, so I just need to breathe the fresh air of Dongyang and be satisfied."

"I don't understand, you can get a high manuscript fee!"

"That's because you don't know me." With that, Yi Cheng lit a cigarette.

"Maybe it's because it's a feature, I want to bury it in my heart, let alone ......"

"What's more?"

"I'm also thinking about whether I should use this opportunity to wash my hands. Because I know very well that I'm not a journalist. ”

"I really don't understand." Tian Chunda said. "One more thing I don't understand is the portrait."

"That?" Yi Cheng smiled wryly.

"You're not really talking nonsense, are you?"

"It's not all nonsense, I met Hong Limin the day before the incident, at that time she was wearing lilac clothes, even her coat was lilac, a woman like her, three years ago, she must have been wearing lilac clothes, so I said lilac, I didn't expect it to be guessed."

Yi Cheng seemed to scratch his head embarrassedly, his behavior made Tian Chunda feel that the incident was over again.

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