Chapter 203: In This Life, I Only Have You, Don't Leave Me Behind (Two in One)
Shen Lingxi's soft palm lightly covered Chu Yan's thin lips.
She lowered her head, separated her palms, and whispered softly in a voice that only the two of them could hear, "Shhhh ”
Chu Yan's phoenix eyes were as black as ink.
He looked at Shen Lingxi's black and white apricot eyes, and his eyes were filled with indescribable emotions.
All Shen Lingxi's attention was on Xie Zhanghua who was floating towards them.
Seeing that Xie Zhanghua was about to float within a foot of Chu Yan.
Shen Lingxi hurriedly spoke: "Don't come any closer, Your Highness has a bad aura on his body, which will hurt you." ”
Xie Zhanghua didn't expect it at all, they were still awake, so they hurriedly turned sideways, raised their sleeves to cover their faces, and wanted to float out-
"Wait." Shen Lingxi called her softly, "If you leave like this, the knot in your heart will never be untied again, can you really bear to do this?" ”
Shen Lingxi didn't say it explicitly, Xie Zhanghua had already heard what she meant, and his figure was slightly stunned.
And Chu Yan, as if sensing something, lightly grasped Shen Lingxi's wrist with his big palm, and held the hand hidden between his lips in the palm of his palm.
He didn't look back, his phoenix eyes stared deeply into Shen Lingxi's eyes.
"Who's that?" He asked in a hoarse voice.
Shen Lingxi was about to speak-——
"Don't, don't say it." Xie Zhanghua turned to look at her, his beautiful eyes were full of tears, and he begged: "Don't tell him, I'...... I don't want him to be sad anymore, don't tell him ......"
Shen Lingxi's words came to his mouth, and he swallowed them alive because of this pleading.
Xie Zhanghua saw that she didn't speak again, wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with her fingertips, and thanked her.
"I know you have something to ask me, and I'll come back to you tomorrow."
After saying this, her gaze froze on Chu Yan's back for a moment, and then turned to leave.
Shen Lingxi saw her soul disappear into the hall, and his mind was full of doubts.
Why did the first crown princess avoid Chu Yan?
Does she know that Chu Yan has been suffering from nightmares all these years?
What's the secret in this?
Chu Yan saw that Shen Lingxi didn't answer for a long time, and his phoenix eyes were as deep as obscurity, "She's gone?" ”
Shen Lingxi retracted his gaze, met his eyes, bit his lip lightly, and nodded.
She thought that Chu Yan would continue to ask who the person who came.
I'm hesitating how to speak-——
Unexpectedly, Chu Yan just closed his eyes expressionlessly, "Then rest early." ”
If he asked, Shen Lingxi wouldn't feel anything.
But he didn't ask any more......
Shen Lingxi looked at his handsome face, outlined by the dim moonlight, and his heart suddenly softened for some reason.
The dignified embroidered commander will not miss any clues, how can he not guess who is coming tonight.
"You ......"
Before she could say her words of relief, she was interrupted by his hoarse voice, "If you can't sleep, then let's continue to talk about how to deal with ......the emperor after getting married."
"I'll just sleep." Shen Lingxi hurriedly said.
She quickly lay back down.
However, it was only at this moment that she found out-——
From the beginning, his hand was wrapped in the palm of Chu Yan's warm and dry palm, and he never let go.
The thin callus in his palm pressed against the skin on the back of her hand, as if with a burning temperature, making her palm sweat.
Shen Lingxi's fingertips moved slightly, wanting to be silent, and pulled out his little hand.
However, the other party seemed to have forgotten about this, and there was no sign of letting go.
There was the sound of even, long breathing in my ears.
Shen Lingxi looked at the moonlight passing through the window lattice, and saw Chu Yanying's eyebrows frowning slightly, as if shrouded in a faint sadness.
She thought of the nightmare he had last night, and finally her heart softened, and she let him take her hand and close her eyes.
When the little girl beside her fell asleep, Chu Yan quietly opened her eyes, and her phoenix eyes were clear in the dim moonlight.
He firmly held the small hand wrapped in the palm of his hand, his thin lips opened lightly, and he murmured silently, "In this life, I only have you, don't leave me ......"
*
Shen Lingxi had a dream.
I dreamed that I was sleeping in a coffin.
The coffin board may have been exposed to the scorching sun for too long, and the cotton wool was not thick enough, hard and not very comfortable.
These shortcomings are still bearable, and the worst thing is that the coffin is too narrow, and the arms and legs move casually, and I feel that it is not enough.
She, the shopkeeper, can find a bunch of faults, how can she satisfy the buyer?
The only thing worth praising is probably the warmth.
However, after all, the coffin is something buried in the earth, so what is the use of warmth?
Shen Lingxi frowned, poked the coffin board in disgust, and secretly wondered which carpenter did the work......
"It's not going to work...... Gotta redo ......," she murmured vaguely, "Gotta do as I say......"
"Okay, you say, how do you do that?"
A low, dark voice came into Shen Lingxi's ears.
Shen Lingxi felt in a daze that the sound of this coffin board was very good.
Just as she was about to praise her, she didn't realize it coldly-——
Well?
How can a coffin board speak?
Why is this voice so familiar?
Like Chu Yan's voice.
Chu Yan......
Chu Yan???!!!
Shen Lingxi shook his head, instantly came to his senses, and opened his eyes suddenly.
What catches your eye is the elegant collarbone that is lightly concealed by the snow-colored placket.
Between the snorts, there is a clear and pleasant smell of soap.
Her whole body was nestled in a wide and warm embrace.
The green fingertips are still maintained, poking at the other party's heart......
Shen Lingxi's body stiffened, and his scalp tensed instantly.
Therefore, the "coffin" in the dream is Chu Yan's embrace.
That hard coffin board is his chest?!
"Sorry, sorry."
Shen Lingxi hurriedly withdrew his hand, eager to find a crack in the ground and disappear in place.
"I could be...... I dreamed, that's why I ......"
She explained as she stubbornly withdrew from Chu Yan's arms.
Out of the corner of his eye, he carefully looked at the situation on the bed.
Chu Yan was still lying on the outside of the bed, where he was when he fell asleep last night, and he hadn't moved.
Shen Lingxi naturally knew that he liked to sleep with a quilt when he slept.
Looks like it should be...... Treat him as a quilt and stick it into someone's arms.
Sin, sin!
She was so embarrassed that her face was full of embarrassment, her face was already red, and she hurriedly apologized, "It was I who abruptly abrupt Your Highness, and I ask Your Highness to forgive me." ”
This pair was at a loss, and there was a faint look of self-blame and chagrin, in Chu Yan's eyes, it was like a cat that had been caught in a greedy mouth.
It's so cute.
He forced down the laughter that was about to escape, covered his lips and coughed, "Everyone has different sleeping habits, sleeping in the same bed, it is inevitable that there will be times when it is overdone, so you don't need to worry about it." ”
The cold voice, the flat tone, and a kind of soothing power, sounded like a scene just now, just ordinary little things.
Invisibly, Shen Lingxi's embarrassment was resolved and she breathed a sigh of relief.
"Your Highness is very right." She hurriedly expressed her attitude, "In the future, I will prepare a few more quilts and place them in the middle, so as not to disturb His Highness's sleep." ”
The smile on the corner of Chu Yan's lips condensed slightly.
He was noncommittal, pretending to sit up indifferently, straightening out his open robe, and pretending to ask nonchalantly, "What did you just dream about?" Say 'no', 'redo', what? ”
Shen Lingxi smiled, "It's nothing, it's just a dream, just a dream...... I don't remember. ”
To borrow her guts, she didn't dare to say that the imperial grandson had become a coffin in her dream......
That is the sin of "great rebellion".
Chu Yan's phoenix eyes were slightly raised, dreaming is a matter of privacy.
Although he was very curious, since Shen Lingxi didn't want to say it, he naturally wouldn't continue to ask.
"So we ...... today. Are you still leaving for Beijing? He asked with his back to Shen Lingxi.
The voice that has always been cold and firm has a little hesitation and hesitation for the first time.
Shen Lingxi remembered the words of the first crown princess last night, his expression was slightly solemn, he looked at his broad back, and said softly: "Let me talk to her first, and then make plans." ”
*
After sunset, Shen Lingxi was finally in her own dormitory, waiting for the first crown princess Xie Zhanghua.
Shen Lingxi had a tea table beside the half-open window lattice, and the tea soup was bubbling on a small stove.
On the tea table, there are all kinds of fruits, delicate and delicious, all of which are delicate and delicious that are rare in the capital.
Xie Zhanghua sat down opposite Shen Lingxi.
Chu Yan's bedroom was not lit last night, and Shen Lingxi couldn't see it really.
Sitting opposite each other now, she finally saw the face of the former crown princess clearly.
I have to say that Chu Yan's handsome face should be completely inherited from his own mother.
Ye Xi is like a flower, warm as a glow.
She was still twenty-eight or nineteen years old when she died. Just sitting there, it has already made this candle-lit dormitory have a touch of brightness that people can't take their eyes off.
"Thank you last night for keeping it a secret for me."
Xie Zhanghua smiled at Shen Lingxi, tears flashed in his eyes, "I heard that the Queen Mother is going to marry you and Liulang, you are a good match, and Liulang will have you by my side in the future, I am very happy and relieved." ”
Shen Lingxi looked at her with a relieved look, and couldn't bear to tell her the truth that they were "fake marriage".
"But the person he misses the most is you." Shen Lingxi said softly, "If you want to talk to him, I can convey it to you in person, he will definitely be very happy." ”
"No, he won't."
Xie Zhanghua's expression darkened, tears rolling in his eyes, "Back then, I couldn't bear to die in front of him, he hated me for leaving him, he said that he would never forgive me." ”
Shen Lingxi had heard that the first crown princess committed suicide.
If this is the case, it is understandable for a ten-year-old boy to complain that his mother ended her life easily, abandoned himself, and released cruel words in anger.
Shen Lingxi said softly: "When Niangniang died, His Royal Highness was still young, and he couldn't count the angry words he said for a while. I don't think Niangniang is a suicide person, did she have any hardships back then? ”
Xie Zhanghua thought of what happened back then, and his soul unconsciously filled with a few traces of resentment, and his tears couldn't stop falling.
Seeing this, Shen Lingxi's eyebrows moved slightly.
She could often see the anger in the ghosts that had died in vain.
But this anger is rare when it appears on the souls of the dead who commit suicide.
"Niangniang doesn't want to say it, so it's okay if you don't say it."
Shen Lingxi stretched out his hand and offered the various fruits on the table one by one in front of Xie Zhanghua.
"I didn't know that Yongshou Mountain, where the imperial tomb is located, is connected to Donghua Mountain, where the Xie family lives in seclusion. I heard that Donghua Mansion is where Niangniang lived when she was young, does Niangniang still remember what Donghua Mansion looked like? ”
She smiled and said: "These fruits are all bought by His Royal Highness in person today, Donghuafu City, Niangniang taste them quickly, do you like them?" ”
Xie Zhanghua's eyes drooped slightly, and her gaze fell on those fruits.
Just one glance, he covered his lips and cried bitterly.
Those are all specialties of Donghua Mansion, and they are her favorite snacks in her life, and she has not seen them for ten years.
"He remembers everything......" Xie Zhanghua cried so hard that he choked up: "After so many years, he actually remembers everything." ”
Shen Lingxi also wet his eyes, "Niangniang should know that His Royal Highness is an extremely smart and wise person, although he didn't say it, he must have guessed that your soul is still in the world." Otherwise, I wouldn't have gone to Donghua Mansion to buy these ......."
"Niangniang, life is too short to waste time on meaningless escapes, do you really bear to let him live his life with nightmares and hearts? He is your son, the person who loves you the most in this world, and he has the right to know the truth no matter what happened back then. ”
Xie Zhanghua clenched his heart tightly and cried for a long time, his bright face was full of struggle.
Just when Shen Lingxi felt that she would continue to hide it-
"You're right." Xie Zhanghua wiped his tears, "I thought it would be best if this matter ended with my death, and I didn't want him to know, because I was worried that he would set himself on fire and follow in my footsteps...... I shouldn't have made decisions for him, I couldn't let him live in nightmares all the time. ”
After saying this, she raised her head and looked at Shen Lingxi, "I'll tell you everything I know......
"I am the daughter of the Xie family's big house, my mother died early, and when I was young, my father was away with the first emperor all the year round, and rarely went home, so he entrusted me to the third uncle and the third aunt to raise me."
"My uncle and aunt are very good to me, and I grew up with a younger sister named Zhang Ting. Zhang Ting and I grew up together and were very close,"
"When the war subsided, my father took me to the capital, and after I went to the capital, I rarely returned to the clan, only during the New Year's holidays, I could meet with the third uncle, third aunt and cousin, every time we met, everyone was happy."
"Your imperial grandmother likes me and often takes me into the palace to accompany her. It is for this reason that I was able to reunite with His Royal Highness the Crown Prince. When I was young, my father took me to the palace for a banquet, and I played with His Royal Highness the Prince, which was a childhood sweetheart. Later, when your imperial grandmother saw that the two of us had mutual affection, she asked the first emperor to give me a marriage. ”
"I am very happy to be able to marry someone I like. After the wedding, our husband and wife were in love, Qin Se and Ming, and soon after they got married, they became pregnant with Rokuro. Liulang was smart and studious since he was a child, and he was very popular with the first emperor, and he was canonized as the emperor's grandson. ”
Speaking of these past events, although there are only a few words, Xie Zhanghua's beautiful eyes are full of warm smiles.
It can be seen that those times are very good memories in her heart.
"I thought that life would go on so beautifully and smoothly, but I didn't expect that one day Zhang Ting suddenly came to me and begged me, saying that she had met a man......"
(End of chapter)