Keiko Hatoyama has always considered herself a selfish person, and the reason why no one has ever thought so is simply because her selfishness is different from everyone else.

She is only selfish in Xiaoqing.

If she had a choice, she would show her selfishness in all the places related to Xiaoqing, she would hold Xiaoqing firmly by her side, and would never give him to anyone.

However, she had no choice.

Because she's dying.

It's really strange to say, maybe it's because she's been mentally prepared for it since she was very young, and she finds that she doesn't seem to shy away from such things as death.

Every time she thought about it, her heart was extremely calm, as if it was a trivial matter as ordinary as eating and sleeping.

Obviously, many people in this world are secretive about "death......

Of course, Keiko Hatoyama also has to thank herself for this calmness, after all, it is because of this that she can calmly think about what will happen after her death.

And the most important of these is Xiaoqing.

Xiaoqing is too fragile, which she can't let go.

If you want to think about this matter, you must first think about what Xiaoqing's heart is.

It's actually quite simple, because Keiko Hatoyama has always been clear about this.

Before Aunt Shirakawa was killed, Xiaoqing was just a cold-looking teenager with a tough personality and regarded Aunt Shirakawa as the most important existence in his heart.

Later, Keiko Hatoyama suddenly broke into his life, and then built an indestructible bond with him at a very fast speed, and became one of the most important beings in his heart.

For Xiaoqing, at this time, both Aunt Shirakawa and Keiko Hatoyama are extremely important existences.

So Keiko Hatoyama can release her feelings for Xiaoqing without reservation...... And this is where she thinks she is selfish.

Because from that time on, Keiko Hatoyama already knew that she was hopeless, and she would definitely leave Xiaoqing early.

By that time, how deep the relationship between the two is now, how strong the bond is, and how painful Xiaoqing will be.

But it doesn't matter, because there's still Aunt Shirakawa here.

Aunt Baihe is also the most important existence in Xiaoqing's heart, as long as there is still Aunt Baihe, no matter how sad and sad Xiaoqing is because of her death, he will cheer up again, he will not do stupid things, because there is still Aunt Baihe.

Moreover, Keiko Hatoyama actually planned from a very early age, she would be happy with Xiaoqing first, and spend a very good time with him, during which she would hide from Xiaoqing.

It will only be in the last few years that she will reveal her illness to him, pave the way for him, and guide him so that he can also accept his departure calmly, and minimize the impact that her premature departure may have on him.

Yes...... Thinking about it this way, she is really a rather selfish person......

It's just that Keiko Hatoyama didn't expect that Aunt Shirakawa would go one step ahead of her.

This completely disrupted her "flawless" plan, not only that, Xiaoqing was also deeply affected by this incident, even with her company, her heart collapsed uncontrollably.

This once made Keiko Hatoyama feel anxious and scared, she knew better than anyone that she had become the most important and only existence in Xiaoqing's heart at that time, once she also left, Xiaoqing's heart that had barely supported her so far would definitely collapse instantly, and he would definitely do stupid things.

But Keiko Hatoyama was lucky, because soon, another person appeared in her sight.

That's Kokarasuma.

This ignorant daughter of the Karasuma family suddenly broke into the world of the two of them one day, and gradually became inseparable friends between the two of them.

What's more, Kogura also likes Kokiyo.

This is something that Keiko Hatoyama noticed very early, this cute little sister, she looked at Xiaoqing's eyes, she really didn't know how to hide it......

The sister Keiko in her mouth is a very sharp and smart bad eye, how could she not detect this emotion in her heart.

Karasuma likes Kiyoshi, there's no doubt about that.

And she herself is absolutely aware of her situation subconsciously, but it's just because of Keiko Hatoyama, so she has always suppressed and ignored this emotion in her heart, and only gets along with them as a good friend.

Of course, Keiko Hatoyama has never been hostile to Xiao Karasuma because of this, not that she is generous, but she herself knows very well that this emotion is not controlled by human reason, if it is just because others have this kind of emotion for Xiaoqing, if you deliberately hostile to the other party, it will inevitably seem too childish, and very tired.

But it's mainly because Karasuma just had this emotion, but he never made any further moves...... Otherwise, she would have been angry.

These were just the first thoughts of Keiko Hatoyama.

Later, when her body gradually couldn't support it, and when the relationship between Kokarsuma and Kokiyo got better and better, an idea suddenly popped up in Keiko Hatoyama's mind.

Perhaps, Kokumara can replace her.

[Replace me and become the one who will accompany Xiaoqing in the future.] 】

Maybe it's because this thought has been ingrained in her mind for a long time, and when Keiko Hatoyama actually wrote down this sentence, even she herself was a little surprised to find that her heart was so calm?

Her brain must be broken, something must be wrong......

Normal human beings, when pushing out the person they like to give it to another person, no matter how close that person's relationship with them is, no matter how "correct" the choice seems, no matter how free and easy she seems, shouldn't they feel sad, unwilling, jealous or even resentful in their hearts?

Why didn't she?

Why was she so calm?

Keiko Hatoyama soon found the answer.

Yes, the reason has always been very simple, because her brain has been different from normal people since she was a child, and she has had a completely opposite way of thinking from normal people since she was a child.

Normal people's rationality and sensibility are always intertwined, but she distinguishes the two clearly, and where it really matters, she will always judge only by her own reason.

Just like here, her rationality told her that it was the absolutely right choice and the only suitable choice to let Karasuma accompany Xiaoqing in her place for the rest of the time.

Because it is so correct and appropriate, when she really makes this decision, her heart can be so calm, after all, it is right.

Strange, really, why are your eyes wet again......

Keiko Hatoyama raised her hand and wiped her uncontrolled eyes.

That's right, that's it, because that's right......

Well, well, now that this matter has been decided, then don't think about it, it's time to think about another thing......

In the diary, Keiko Hatoyama wrote down that name.

【Karasuma Renya.】 】

This man, before she dies, must take him away.

ψ(｀)ψ

(End of chapter)