I am Ping An, Zhou Ping'an.

On my twelfth birthday, my aunt told me about my background.

But I didn't feel sad at all, just nodded very calmly. Because in my heart, my aunt is my mother, and my uncle is my father.

The love they gave me was no less than that of my biological parents, and even if they later had children of their own, I was still the one they loved the most.

I can even say that I am much happier than most children in this world.

Some people may wonder why I found out about my background so late. In fact, it is very simple, because there is an aunt, because there is an uncle.

As long as they don't mention it, no one will dare to say a word of nonsense in front of me. Even though my appearance is very special, but with my aunt and Uncle Huang, Uncle Shen and Aunt Changle, no one has ever dared to discriminate against me.

When I was very young, I pestered Grandpa Mei Gang to teach me kung fu. Because I don't like to read, even if Uncle Huang teaches me personally, I can't learn.

My aunt and Uncle Huang didn't blame me much, only Uncle Shen, who beat me several times with hatred, and when he found that it was still useless, he took me with him and followed him in and out of the barracks and yamen.

Others say that I am actually one of Uncle Shen's sons.

That's why I've grown up to be a cheerful and optimistic person, even with such a terrifying appearance.

Because there are so many people who love me.

Uncle Shen didn't talk much, I followed him in and out, but sometimes he didn't say a word to me all day, he only told me very seriously on the first day:

"If you don't study, follow me to study military affairs attentively, so that you can assist the prince well in the future."

The crown prince that Uncle Shen is talking about no longer refers to the imperial uncle, but to the eldest son of the aunt and the imperial uncle.

When the first emperor succeeded to the throne, he was actually in very poor health, and my aunt took care of him for a few years, but he died when I was ten years old.

At that time, the eldest son of my aunt and uncle was already more than two years old, and on the day my uncle succeeded to the throne, he was crowned prince.

The imperial uncle also gave the second lady's son, Prince Li Mingyao.

But I am still Uncle Huang's favorite child, and he took me by the hand on the first day he went to court.

I like to follow the imperial uncle to the court, to see him handle state affairs with a smile and a breezy smile, and to see those ministers who want to cheat and cheat in front of him in a cold sweat.

In fact, when the imperial uncle was still the crown prince, I followed him in and out of the cabinet to watch him deliberate, and I would climb on his lap to sit or fall asleep in his arms.

No one thought it strange, not even those gray-bearded old ministers, no one dared to express their dissatisfaction.

Since I was a child, I have called the crown prince my younger brother, and he has always followed me like a little tail.

Zhuang Wang Li Mingze is also our good brother, he is not in good health, he is almost ten years old to sit on his own, and his speech is slurred, but the prince and I can always understand what he wants to say as soon as possible.

After King Zhuang was able to sit and stand on his own, the Ministry of Internal Affairs built a special wheelchair for him, and the prince and I pushed him every day and played crazy all over the palace.

At that time, we were really happy. The imperial uncle had no other concubines, and most of the dormitories in the palace were empty.

My aunt asked people to clean up these dormitories, so that Yongming and Yongqing's sisters, as well as the Meng family's sisters and sisters, lived in the palace.

Including Sister Qiuyue and Aunt Changle, as long as Uncle Shen is not in the capital, they also live in the palace most of the time.

The Empress Dowager died shortly after her aunt and uncle got married, but the eldest princess of Chenyang was not alone, and the place where she lived was visited many times a day by our group of children.

For as long as I can remember, my aunt seems to have been busy, and if I want to see her, I only wait until she goes to treat King Zhuang.

The rest of the time, I saw her, and I didn't see Uncle Huang as much.

Even when the prince was just one year old, she led Mr. Song and others to Jiangnan for a few years.

I don't know what my aunt and Mr. Song did during their years in Jiangnan, but since then, the rice production in Jiangnan has become higher and higher, so that after a few years, the grain price of the entire Dajin has been reduced by at least fifty percent compared with before.

There are very few beggars in the streets and alleys, and it is said that even the people in the courtyard of the sad field are getting fewer and fewer.

Chen Yiling brought his family from Chengdu to Luoyang, but he himself rarely lived in the capital, but took his apprentices to various places.

Not only did he engrave the medical cases written by his aunt and give them to doctors everywhere for free, but he also often received them personally.

My aunt was still the same as before, whenever she had free time, she would drink tea and talk with Chen Yiling, Mr. Song and others, or talk about medical cases, or talk about people's livelihood and suffering.

Even if she is already the queen, her aunt is still plain and simple, sometimes she goes out of the palace to visit the old princess Zhuang, or is invited to the Shu Palace, she is still dressed in cotton green clothes, and her head and wrists are always empty.

The three children of the old princess Zhuang live in the palace all the year round, but she insists on living alone in the plum house in the lilacs, and only when the former empress dowager is still alive, she only visits the palace every two days.

Probably in this life, as long as she doesn't have to, she doesn't want to enter the palace again.

The son of the second lady, Huang Qingya, was named the king of Shu, and they lived in the capital for six years, and then returned to Chengdu to join the domain.

Sister Han stayed in the capital and lived with the Empress Dowager.

Grandpa Mei Gang never married in his life, he succeeded He Zheng as the head of the inner guard, and we children often crashed into his arms when we were running crazy in the palace.

Mama Mei died the year after the death of the Empress Dowager, and her aunt sent her remains back to Qiantang for burial, and enshrined her tablet in the ancestral hall of the Mei family.

Aunt Jiu'er, who was in a hurry, married Uncle Peng Liang in the second year of the prince's birth, and went with him to guard the Yunnan border. I didn't see them again for many years afterward.

Uncle Gao Yuan has always been by the emperor's side, he has great strength, and he likes to carry us around on his shoulders the most, and the prince and I often fight to climb on him.

In addition to taking care of our children, Aunt Yurong followed Mama Zhang to serve her aunt, she was unwilling to marry, and her aunt did not force her, after Aunt Jiu'er went to Yunnan, she let Aunt Yurong be the palace maid in charge of Kunning Palace.

After many years of companionship, Mama Zhang has long regarded Aunt Yurong as her own daughter, and she cried several times for Aunt Yurong's refusal to marry, and then she was relieved.

From childhood to adulthood, Uncle Shen was the only one who dared to beat me and was willing to beat me, but he is still the person I love the most except for my aunt and uncle.

Aunt Changle finally gave birth to a son after giving birth to three daughters, but Uncle Shen only loves three daughters and always treats his son coldly.

Aunt Changle sometimes scolded him:

"Shen Qingyang, I can see it, you only have a daughter in your heart, not a son."

Uncle Shen has always been obedient to Aunt Changle, but he is not happy and will not refute it. When I saw Aunt Changle go to get a horsewhip, he picked me up and ran away.

Uncle Huang is the most temperamental person I have ever met, and I am actually a little afraid of my aunt, but I have never been afraid of him.

But inside and outside the court, there are no ministers who are not afraid of Uncle Huang, obviously he is looking at you with a smile, but as long as there is a ghost in your heart, you don't dare to look at his eyes.

During the years when my aunt stayed in Jiangnan, some people moved their minds again, and repeatedly found excuses to bring their daughters into the palace, in the name of visiting the eldest princess or the empress dowager.

Later, the happiest Hubu right attendant was relegated to his hometown, and his youngest daughter who "captivated the country and the city" was also assigned by the Empress Dowager to an ordinary military household.

From that day on, those nobles who were dressed up in fancy clothes no longer dared to appear in the palace easily. Even at the palace banquet that followed the old calendar, no one dared to come forward.

The aunt later gave birth to a son and two daughters, but both were much younger than the prince. When the second son of the emperor first learned to walk, the crown prince had already begun to discuss matters in the court.

The Empress Dowager and her aunt are probably the most harmonious mother-in-law and daughter-in-law in the world. My aunt was always busy, and her children grew up with the Queen Mother.

is his own son, the son and daughter of Rui Wang Li Jinfeng, and he is not as much loved by the Empress Dowager as his aunt and uncle.

King Rui's fief was in Lianghu, but he was unwilling to go to the domain, so he stayed in Beijing to follow the emperor's uncle.

Every time the imperial uncle urged him, he smiled and nodded, and every time he said, "Okay, I'll go to Hankow next year." "Brother Huang, I know, after this year's Mid-Autumn Festival, I will definitely leave immediately."

It can be said that for many years, he still stayed in Beijing and followed the emperor's uncle.

Sometimes, when the imperial uncle reproached him for this, he used me and the crown prince as shields, saying that we couldn't do without him.

There is another person who has to be said, and that is Uncle Xiao Yan.

We children privately overrated and agreed that except for Uncle Huang, Uncle Xiao was the cutest person.

Uncle Shen is also very good to us, but he always has a cold face, and the girls are okay because he likes girls. But we boys were afraid of him, because we were all beaten by him for being naughty or not good at studying.

Even the prince was kicked in the ass by him.

Uncle Xiao always dressed in red and willow green, shook the beauty fan, and took us to the streets of the capital to roar through and eat delicious food everywhere.

was ridiculed for many years, and at the age of twenty-three, the old and difficult Uncle Xiao finally got married.

But only three days after getting married, he went into the palace and cried, telling his aunt and uncle that the boxes of beauty fans he had treasured for many years were moved away after being discovered by his new daughter-in-law, but he couldn't find them.

And the Xiao family unexpectedly unanimously praised Uncle Xiao's bride for doing a good job.

After listening to Uncle Xiao crying, Uncle Huang said slowly:

"It's supposed to be like this, you're married, even if you don't like to be an official, you should read a few books, otherwise how will you teach your own children in the future?"

Uncle Xiao was stunned, he forgot to cry, and shouted for a long time:

"Cousin, that's not what you said before!"

Uncle Huang still refused to support Uncle Xiao, only saying that there were many fans in the warehouse, all of which were made by famous artists, and let Uncle Xiao pick them at will.

Uncle Xiao was a little desperate, and went to see his aunt with tears in his eyes.

But my aunt didn't say a word, she just forced a smile and lowered her head to drink tea.

At the birthday banquet when the crown prince was five years old, I met Du Zhe, the king of Yan, and Lan Xiyue, the princess of Yan. At that time, the old prince Yan had died, and Du Zhe and his wife commanded all the soldiers and horses in the north.

King Yan and his wife call the imperial uncle "Your Majesty", but to the aunt, they all call them "sister". I thought it was strange, but it was only after Aunt Changle told me the reason that I understood.

If you ask me if I have any sad things, there is actually one thing, but it has only been sad for a few days.

On the day of my twelfth birthday, my aunt said to me very seriously after telling me about my life experience:

"Peace, you are different from others. But this disease does not affect your lifespan and does not affect your normal life. There is only one point, and that is your marriage, and I must make it clear to you in advance. ”

My aunt said that I could marry and have children, but I could only have girls, not boys, otherwise I would suffer from the same disease as me.

My aunt also told me that no matter how noble my status is in the future, if I want to get married, I must make this clear to the woman in advance.

It's a sign of respect for his wife and responsibility for his own future and that of his offspring.

I didn't feel sad about my background, but what my aunt said later made me depressed for a few days.

Although, at that time, I didn't have any favorite girls, even though I had a lot of sisters and younger sisters who played well, such as the younger sisters of Uncle Shen's family, such as Yongqing and Yongming's sisters, and several sisters and sisters of the Meng family.

But I, to them, am really just like my own family.

Perhaps, in the relationship between men and women, I just want to be dull.

My aunt and uncle didn't persuade me because of this, they let me be passive for a few days, and after I had been lying in the house for a few days and figured it out, they allowed me to follow Uncle Shen out of the palace.

My aunt personally sent me out of the palace, and she touched my head on the phoenix and said:

"Peace, you have to believe that one day, you will have your own happiness.

Because, you are the best gift from God to my aunt. For you, for Mingze, Aunt and Uncle Huang, as well as your Uncle Shen and Uncle Xiao, we have all done many brave things. ”

I buried my head in my aunt's arms like I did when I was a child, and Uncle Shen walked next to Feng Bao, and for the first time he didn't scold me for shedding tears.

I finally finished writing, I don't feel tired, and my heart is full of gratitude to you, including complaining about my babies. Because of your complaints, I can better see my own shortcomings, so that I don't make the same mistakes in the writing of the next book.

This book was written before the Spring Festival, and it was the most difficult time of my life for more than half a year. The elders who were regarded as relatives stabbed me in the back, not only was my family broken, but I also almost lost half my life, so angry that I couldn't sleep all night long, my immunity was low, and I was sick for a long time.

I had no comfort but my daughter. Sure enough, the deepest pain can only be given to you by the person you love. The people you don't care about, can only hurt your skin.

But I still believe that there are still many good people in this world, and I am still sincere to my friends and those of you who accompany me on my way, and I still believe and hope that my life can get better.

Therefore, babies must stay away from people who will only pua you, and loving yourself well is the most important thing.

I'm slow to write, and the second half of the year will be busy, so in order to avoid not being able to update it every day, I need to save a few more manuscripts for my new book, which will probably not be published until next spring.

I hope that at that time, you will still be able to read and support me. I also hope that at that time, we have ushered in our own better spring season.