In Shi Nan's diary, she wrote: "I know he doesn't love me, because a man who really loves you won't let your belly face all this." The moment the child left my body, I felt it clearly. There is no fear, only rejoicing, because I know that he or she, like me, is not loved by Xu Jia. But what can I do? I woke up too late, a girl like me, who else can I follow if I don't follow him? Fortunately, he understands his responsibility, even if there is no love, we can live a good life. ”

As a woman who received traditional education since she was a child, Shi Nan adheres to the attitude of starting from the beginning to the end, marrying a chicken with a chicken, and marrying a dog with a dog. Her attitude also contributed to her later tragedy.

As Shi Nannan's boyfriend, Zhang Xujia also fell into an extremely contradictory situation.

As a man who still has a little conscience, he thinks that he should be responsible for Heather and should follow her to the end, but the indifference and selfishness in his bones tell him that he should live for himself and pursue the woman and love he wants, he is tired of Heather, and he doesn't want to spend the rest of his life with this woman.

With this extremely contradictory mood, he was good to Shi Nan for a while, planning a better life for her in the future, and not good for Shi Nan for a while, hoping to force her away with cold violence. In the entanglement day after day, Zhang Xujia became more and more selfish, more and more mean, and more and more scum, and Shi Nannan also didn't know how to deal with himself in his repeated emotions.

Break up, Zhang Xujia seems to be sincere to her, and she can't bear to be reluctant to have been in her relationship for many years.

Don't break up, she feels that Zhang Xujia doesn't like her.

Seeing that the two were about to graduate, Shi Nannan planned this trip, and she deliberately chose the weekend after the eleventh day to take Zhang Xujia to the most beautiful scenic spot in Jiangcheng City, but they had a dispute at the ticket gate.

After breaking up with Liang Zhijie and them, Shi Nannan chased Zhang Xujia all the way to the location where she was killed. There, she had a fierce quarrel with Zhang Xujia, she asked Zhang Xujia if she loved herself, if she didn't love her, she could say it clearly, she could break up, she could go to find another man, and she Shi Nan was not unliked.

Zhang Xujia was originally going to break up, he felt that he had endured enough, but the word breakup couldn't come out of Shi Nannan's mouth. Looking at Shi Nannan's relaxed face, he asked Shi Nannan if he had a plan, did he talk about his boyfriend at school behind his back? Looking at Shi Nannan's sneering face, he thought that he had guessed correctly, and thought that the reason why Shi Nannan broke up with him was because he wore a spring hat to him.

At this time, Zhang Xujia was a man who was both conceited and inferior, on the one hand, he wanted to get rid of Heather, and on the other hand, he was afraid that Heather would be owned by other men. In case Heather found a better partner than him, and he didn't find a better girlfriend than Heather, wouldn't he be a loss, wouldn't it become a joke?

In this complex psychological state, he couldn't see the true meaning behind Shi Nannan's sneer—it was a kind of smile that was unworthy for himself, and a relieved smile after seeing his boyfriend's true appearance.

Shi Nannan's sneer made Zhang Xujia feel humiliated, and her failure to explain and turned to leave made him feel that he was being despised by this woman. Zhang Xujia, who was used to being coaxed, spoiled, and obedient by Shi Nan, was directly angry, and he picked up a pebble and smashed it towards the back of Shi Nan's head.

Shi Nannan, who was smashed, shouted, and Zhang Xujia, who was flustered, immediately covered her mouth with her hand. Shi Nan struggled and kicked him with his foot, he somehow touched the fruit knife in the backpack, and his brain stabbed towards Shi Nan as soon as his brain was hot. One knife or two knives, he has no awareness of killing people at all, he only thinks about one thing: he wants to break up with me, he wants to be good with other men, but there is no door!

He woke up when Heather fell to the ground weakly.

Someone in the scenic area had already heard Shi Nan's cry for help, and the panicked Zhang Xujia could only take out the water and food in Shi Nannan's backpack and quickly slip away. He knows that killing pays for his life, and he knows how to save his own life. Escaping was completely his subconscious behavior.

Zhang Xujia, who finished telling all this, covered her face: "Will I die?" Will the death penalty be betrayed? ”

After not getting an affirmative answer, he raised his face and smiled at Liang Zhijie and them. His smile was bitter, like the one soaked in Coptis water.

"If you think about it, she is the first person in the world who is good to me, and the only one who is true to me. My parents have an average relationship, although they are not divorced, but they have been separated for many years, and they don't care about me and my sister. As soon as I was born, my mother left me in the care of my grandmother, who was annoying to me and raised me until I was two and a half years old and threw me to my parents. My parents were used to freedom and didn't want to be bound by their children, so they left me and my sister at various relatives' houses. We stayed at my eldest uncle's house for five days, my second uncle's house for ten days, and then we went to each aunt's house to take turns staying. Although they are all very good, my sister and I are not their children after all, we grew up under the fence. ”

Zhang Xujia wiped her face as she spoke: "My sister and I are very eager for family, for the warmth of family, for love and to be loved, but in fact, we don't know what love is, and we don't know how to love." Just like my relationship with Heather, I know I don't like her, but I don't know exactly what I like. I know I don't love her, I know I want to break up with her, but I can't bear it, because she can give me the kind of feeling of home I want, peace of mind, a sense of groundedness. She's fine, it's me asshole, it's me who's sorry for her. Sentence me to death, so I can be better. ”

"Zhang Xujia, the original family is not a mistake made by you, and it is not a reason for you to deprive others of their lives at will." Liang Zhijie took the interrogation transcript and signed it for him: "Your mother is against you being together, she wants you to break up with Shi Nannan?" ”

"Yes, but my mom can't influence me." Zhang Xujia sighed: "I was scared at that time, and I felt from the bottom of my heart that my mother should be responsible for my affairs." If she had been a good mother and cared for her son like other mothers, I might not be where I am today. ”

Zhang Xujia shook his head as he spoke, and he said while signing: "My mother doesn't even want to care about me and my sister, so how can she care about me and Shi Nannan?" It's all my fault. ”

"Hopefully this time you really know you're wrong." Liang Zhijie took the interrogation transcript: "Do you have anything else you want to add about this case?" ”

"Yes, I didn't come out on my own, I was kicked out." Zhang Xujia raised his head and glanced at Liang Zhijie embarrassedly: "I originally wanted to escape, but now it seems that surrendering is the most correct." That person helped me. Otherwise, I'm still hiding in Tibet. ”

"Is it a tourist?" Liang Zhijie re-recorded.

"He was dressed in black, I couldn't see the exact style, but it was supposed to be casual clothes or something. The man is strong and wears a grimace mask. Zhang Xujia described the situation at that time: "If he hadn't spoken, I really thought he was a ghost!" ”