"How can I blame you, you helped me when I was most helpless!" Liu Zhihong looked at the visitor: "Once, I thought Julili was different, because she was the first owner to smile and say thank you to me. I treat her as a friend and am willing to do anything for her, but in her eyes, I am nothing more than a janitor. She smiled at me because she asked for me. No, it's not that you have to ask for it, but you can ask for it. You are different from her, you treat me sincerely, you have never underestimated me because of my appearance, my identity. ”

"That's because I'm just like you." The person who came smiled bitterly: "When I was still ignorant, I was picked on and blackened, saying that I was picked up from the coal polo team." It was a little older, and it was maliciously called Black Rose, so much so that I was anxious about wanting to turn white throughout my adolescence. It wasn't until I was in college that I realized that I wasn't as black as they said I was, and they weren't as white as I thought I was. Dark skin, small eyes, and not good-looking, these are the anxieties they pass on to me. I'm not a beauty, but I'm not ugly, my appearance was given by my parents, although it's not perfect, but I also have good facial features. In this world, there are mostly ordinary people, and those who transmit anxiety to you are not very good themselves, are they? ”

"It's not good!" Liu Zhihong echoed: "For example, Zhu Lili, I don't think she is better looking than you." ”

"She's not as good-looking as you." The person who came looked at Liu Zhihong's eyes: "Born from the heart, her heart is not good, and her appearance is naturally ugly." ”

"My heart is not good, either." Liu Zhihong laughed at himself: "But I have a clear conscience, and the ones I hurt were not good people in the first place." ”

"Zhihong, let me help you, okay? You know, I can help you. ”

"Forget it, it's such a dirty thing, it's better not to get involved." Liu Zhihong sat on the small bed on one side with the plastic doll in his arms: "Do you remember the day we first met?" ”

The person nodded his head: "Little Chinese New Year's Eve, on the overpass, Xiaoxue, everyone hurried home, only you and me, standing on the bridge like a big fool." ”

"My child is gone, and he was beaten by that man." Liu Zhihong stroked the doll in his hand: "I have never told you about me and him." He's a decade older than me and he's a security guard like me. Julie was the introducer, saying that he was older, but he knew that it hurt people, so I thought about it. At that time, I took Julie as a friend, and I didn't think it was possible for a friend to hurt me. Despite some rejection, Julie persuaded me, saying that it was a blessing for me to be favored by someone for conditions like mine. I believed her and listened to her associate with that person. ”

"And then?" The visitor asked, lowering his voice: "Julie lied to you?" ”

"You didn't just lie to me." Liu Zhihong smiled bitterly: "That person has a family, and the reason why he is looking for me is because he needs a son." ”

Liu Zhihong slowed down.

He and his wife have two sons, the older one drowned in his teens, and the younger one was diagnosed with leukemia and wanted a bone marrow transplant but couldn't find a suitable match. The hospital advised them to have another child and a transplant using the child's cord blood. I don't know anything about leukemia, but I know it's a serious disease and it costs a lot of money. ”

"The child in your belly—"

He was close to the Zhu family, and found Zhu Lili, who was working in the hospital, for his son's illness. His wife was too old to have children, and he wanted to ask Julie if there was any other way. There are solutions, and the easiest way is to find someone to help them have a baby. This method is not legal in China, and even if you find those underground institutions, it will cost a lot of money. Their family was not wealthy, and they had a sick child, and they had to raise a child born in the future, and they had no money and could not move an inch. In his most difficult moments, Julie thought of me. ”

"She asked you to give birth to that man?" People were surprised.

Liu Zhihong nodded: "Zhu Lili arranged for him to go on a blind date with me, persuaded me to be with him, and then had children in the name of falling in love and getting married." I had no experience in a relationship, and he acted so honestly that not only did I not suspect him, but I also gave him my savings. I thought that we were going to get married, and that his son would be my son, and that only a healthy family could live a happy life. ”

"And why did he let you kill that child?"

"Because his son is dead, he can't wait for a bone marrow transplant." Liu Zhihong began to laugh: "And because his wife is pregnant, they will have a fair and honest child." As for the one in my belly, being born is not only an illegitimate child but also a trouble. He didn't want bastards, and he didn't want trouble, so he had to get rid of him. I knelt on the ground and begged him, I promised that I would not trouble him after the birth of the child, and I promised that I would raise my own child, but he did not believe me and insisted on the life of the child in my womb. Do you know? The medicine was brought by Julie. She is the one who wants me to have a child, and she is the one who wants my child's life, I hate her, I want to kill her, even if I don't have your presence, I will still do these things. ”

"On Chinese New Year's Eve——" The people wanted to talk and stopped.

"It's my child's first anniversary." Liu Zhihong hugged the plastic doll: "In order to take revenge, after losing the child, I still maintained a friendly relationship with Julilly. I've been looking for an opportunity, but I haven't been able to find it. That kind of suffering, that kind of discomfort, is very bearable. On Chinese New Year's Eve, I had an emotional breakdown, I felt incompetent, and I wanted to spend time with my children. As a result, I met you on the bridge. ”

"On the night of Chinese New Year's Eve, I found a recording in my ex-husband's phone." The visitor looked at the opposite wall: "He said he went to dinner with his colleagues, but in fact he was on a solo date with Julie, he was a liar, he lied to me again." By that time, I was already in the second trimester and could already feel the fetal movements. He is very well-behaved, a good boy who will take care of my emotions, I am reluctant to beat him, and the hospital will not allow me to beat him. Facing the future, I am very hesitant and desperate, and I don't know what to do next. Death was the best way I could think of at that time. ”

"But you who want to die saved me who want to die." Liu Zhihong said: "You not only saved me, but also opened a room for me and bought bread and instant noodles." You told me your story and told me that I was still young and had a chance to start over.

"You're young, and you're still young." The person who came held her hand: "Zhihong, let me help you, okay?" ”

"Not good!" Liu Zhihong refused: "You shouldn't be involved in these things, listen to me, go home, and live a good life with the children." This path is my choice, whatever the end of the road is, please let me go down on my own. ”

"Zhihong—"

The person who came wanted to say something, but Liu Zhihong put a diagnosis book in her hand.

"This is the path I chose for myself, to fulfill me, okay?"