There are many things in this world that are out of control once they start, as if they have opened the floodgates of a reservoir that have been accumulated for a long time and can never be closed again. Human nature is one of the most terrible things, whether male or female, once the red line is crossed, unless there is enough painful understanding, otherwise it is difficult to brake the car!

Chen Xian's feelings for his sister are not just sister and brother, and his sister Chen Shuang has been in the dust for a long time, and the two of them have become each other's dependence! Now that I have understood their deformed love for their siblings, Chen Xian is going to tell me the story of their siblings.

"I often see my sister walking up and down in front of me, her peculiar smell blowing on my cheeks with a breeze, and her smile makes me restless, and I have no more composure to do anything. You can't appreciate the beauty of my sister. ”

"How could I not have realized it? Not only did I understand it, but I also understood what you were going to do next! Your sister has been trapped in a mixed society for too long and can't get out, and you, the mother and fetus have been single for more than ten years, and your sister has taken care of you as both a father and a mother for so many years. You're already completely dependent on your sister in all aspects, aren't you? I directly broke it, although I could sense his thoughts from my heart, but I really couldn't accept Chen Xian's sick psychology.

Zheng Bing is also Chen Xian, after he opened his mouth and laughed three times, he continued to say to me: "You are right, we both need each other, we have the same heart, my sister is my spiritual support, and I am also the driving force for my sister to persist in struggle." This should be helping each other. However, later, my sister began to distance herself from me, and she always beat herself, saying that she was wrong! My sister's strange behavior makes me wonder, or am I doing something wrong? It was only when I grew up that I realized that I was my sister's hope, and I could even feel that my parents were watching me in heaven and giving me hope. At that time, I couldn't sleep every night, and when I closed my eyes, my mind was full of questions, and I wanted to solve my sister's problems. I also pricked up my ears and listened carefully to my sister's room, several times my sister got up in the middle of the night to cry, I stood quietly outside the door, I know, my sister is crying, why did she cry why did her parents die so early? How intolerable it is to raise my younger brother by myself. I realized that my sister really cares about me, it doesn't matter how she is, what she cares about is how I am! ”

His words really disgusted me, and I directly refuted his words and said, "What did you say? You don't rely on your sister, it's cranky, if you really study hard, then your sister will be self-satisfied. ”

My words stimulated him, and he also asked me angrily: "You are the one who doesn't understand, do you know what love is?" Think about your childhood, is there anyone who was good to you? Is there someone you're grateful for? ”

This rhetorical question also stimulated my nerves, and I froze, and my brain began to retrieve my childhood. I have been with my master since I was very young, but I also have a family, but my childhood was unfortunate, even a little more tragic than his.

Although I have a father, a mother, and a grandparents, my grandparents and grandmothers didn't treat me as a family member at all, or even as a human being. My grandfather said that I was an orphan since I was a child, that I had no one to take care of, that my parents were busy with work, and that he shamelessly said that he would only be able to succeed if he was strictly educated. At first, I thought that what my grandfather said was true and good for me, but I was wrong, my childhood was like a nightmare.

I was bullied by my classmates at school, and I didn't dare to tell my grandparents, because what they never changed was one sentence, why would people beat you if you didn't find trouble. Then, I was being cleaned up by my grandparents. It wasn't until they completely abandoned me and gave me to my master that I got out of my nightmare life.

At this time, I also shed tears, because his words entered my heart, how much better am I than him? But I still stubbornly sarcastically mocked him, "My childhood was indeed unfortunate, but at least I didn't have a long slant, and you and your sister do!" It's so selfish, so selfish that it destroys the laws of the world and violates the cycle of heavenly principles. ”

"Whatever you say, you don't understand, you don't understand, you don't understand my love for my sister. I have also tried to struggle, against my inner nature, because, after all, Chen Shuang is my sister, although not pro. But, you know what? It's hard to fight against my inner thoughts, that is, against human nature, and it's very painful, and I've been suffering in the days when I've lived separately from my sister! ”

After saying that, he sank his head, covered his face with his hands and began to cry loudly, as if he was venting his emotions and as if he was regretting his stupidity, in short, I could feel the pain in his heart from his crying. Often morbid and insane madmen are more sensitive than normal people, and Chen Xian is no exception.

Therefore, the emotions and pain of normal people are put on people like Chen Xian, and the degree of pain is doubled, that is to say, the degree of damage to psychological trauma is much more serious than that of normal people.

Zheng Bing, who had been crying for a while, straightened up. Oh, no, it should be Chen Xian, because his body is Zheng Bing's, but his soul is Chen Xian's.

"In this way, my sister and I have kept the distance we deserve, and this is how I finished the high school entrance examination. One night, I walked out of my room, crept close to her door, and after making sure there was no movement in my sister's room, I carefully pushed the door open. However, the moment I approached her bedside, my sister woke up. When she saw me coming in, she didn't get angry, she just asked me to sit down and chat with her, and said that my parents died early, we were alone, and I was my sister's only relative, and I must live well, even for myself, for my sister. As I spoke, I cried, I thought that my sister was just being good to me, but in fact, her heart was more tormented than anyone else, and I realized my sister's bitterness and tiredness from my heart. I cried and said that when I grow up and work, I must raise and take care of my sister when I make money. My sister was so touched that she also cried and took the initiative to hug me, and I also kissed her forehead. ”

At this point, he stopped again, his eyes rolled round, and he began to think crankily again, and I guessed that this time he was going to tell me, but I guessed wrong. Preconceptions are very serious, what kind of education a person has received since childhood, what he will often believe, and most of the deep-rooted ideologies are cultivated when he is a child.

He continued: "I lowered my head, and once again I smelled my sister's special fragrance, so I asked my sister why are you so fragrant?" I saw my sister's beautiful cheeks clearly through the bright moonlight outside the window, my sister in the moonlight is a fairy, so beautiful that she bursts. I talked to him for a long time and asked my sister, when are you going to get married? My sister's answer was also very simple, saying that I would not get married until I was admitted to university and joined the work. But at that time, my sister was in her thirties, and it was not good to be a big girl. However, my sister said that this is not a thing, my younger brother is growing up healthy and healthy, life is the most important thing, and everything is centered on my younger brother. I was moved to tears by her words, she was really better than Mom and Dad. In the future, I will definitely treat my sister like I treat my parents. Then, I stood there and vowed to take good care of my sister in the future. ”

He said it with a nose and eyes, and even described the details so well, it would be pathological to say that he was a madman, and he really didn't wronged him. But those who can pay attention to the details and pay attention to the extreme are often crazy and sick.

"Zhang Ruoxu, you really don't understand, you don't understand my sister's irreplaceable position in my heart. However, I can see that you also had an unhappy childhood. Don't deny it, I can see through your eyes that you are even more miserable than me. ”

He was right, my childhood was indeed not better than his, although, his parents died young. As for me, my parents have them, and my grandparents are there at night, but I am a poor person whose grandfather doesn't hurt, my grandmother doesn't love, and my parents don't care. I am also so envious, I envy those children who have parents to take care of and care for, and I, who have lacked the love of my parents since I was a child, the most terrible thing is that I am always bullied at school, and even my grandparents have given me an unfortunate childhood life, fueling the troubles.

"Zhang Ruoxu, have you listened? I treat you as a friend, so I told you my secrets and my sister's. ”

"Oh, listen! I've given you back, don't you know? Go on. ”

Chen Xian was a little unhappy, he always felt that I didn't pay attention to his sister's story, and after a pause, he still spoke, "I was so intoxicated with that feeling that I stayed in my sister's room for a long time before tiptoeing out of my sister's room and lying back on my bed in distraught." That night, I stayed up all night. After that, I often went to my sister's room, chatted with my sister, talked about what was in my heart, no matter how childish what I said, my sister would patiently listen to me and enlighten me. When I went to high school, my mind was full of my sister, and I had no intention of studying. The head teacher also contacted my sister and talked to her for a long time, but the teacher had no idea what was in my head. Only my sister knew that the reason why my grades were so bad was all because of her. For the sake of my future, my sister chose to leave. I am so handsome that many girls pay attention to me and even want to know me, but I don't take them seriously, I only have my sister in my heart. ”

When he said this, I couldn't listen to it anymore, and immediately interrupted: "Okay, don't say it yet, don't you think that there is something wrong with your thinking." Your psyche has become distorted, even to the point of pathological thoughts. Your sister is right to leave you, otherwise, you will be forever immersed in your deformed thinking, and you will never be able to get out. In that case, you're finished, you're done with the rest of your life! ”

Chen Xian nodded and admitted: "Yes, you are right, I almost sank, my sister's departure made me collapse, and I wanted to commit suicide at one point." However, I read the letter that my sister left me several times before leaving, and I finally understood my sister's good intentions. In the letter, she said that she could no longer live with me, that would hurt me. She asked me to study hard, improve my grades, and get the top ten grades in the class before she would meet me again, and she also comforted me that she would not cut off contact with me, and would continue to exchange letters. So, since then, my sister and brother have had the habit of writing letters and communicating with each other, and we have maintained it ever since. ”

It turned out that the habit of the two siblings to communicate by letter came from this, and I figured it out.

In this way, we separated, although I was unwilling to let my sister go, but without her bond, all my energy was put into studying. My grades improved by leaps and bounds, and in the two years of high school and junior year, I was always at the top of my grade, and I was finally admitted to Peking Union Medical College. My sister was overjoyed to find out that I had been admitted to a prestigious university, and told me in her heart that she would come back to see me as soon as possible. I felt that my sky was bright again, and I was happily waiting for my sister to come back, who knows, until the beginning of the school year I arrived at the university to report, my sister did not show up. ”

After speaking, Chen Xian, who was nervous, cried again, crying like a child......