And this intelligence is not necessarily, it needs to be observed.

He didn't know if it was a fortunate thing that Xiao Ping'an had no intellectual disability under such circumstances.

Maybe I have an intellectual disability, but it's good that I don't think about it so much, at least I don't have so many worries.

If Xiao Ping'an's intelligence is normal, in the face of his own physical condition, in the face of a pair of disabled and intellectually disabled parents, what should his state of mind be.

How should he face the eyes of the outside world?

Thinking about it, he felt sad for Xiao Ping'an.

Probably out of sympathy, and also knew that Chunhua and Ah Silly couldn't come up with the money, for the sake of a small life, the doctor still helped Xiao Ping'an buy the treatment drugs he needed at his own expense, but as for the money he asked him to give Xiao Ping'an for surgery, he had no choice.

His family is not wealthy, he also has his own family to take care of, and he has his own life pressure to bear.

He can only help so much.

Therefore, in fact, Xiao Ping'an's illness has not been treated and alleviated.

Xiao Ping'an, who grew up in stumbling, is more precocious than any child.

He knew that his parents were intellectually disabled people, and he also knew that he was also a disabled person with no soles and epilepsy.

When he was three years old, he finally made a friend, but because he had epilepsy, convulsions, and foaming at the mouth, he frightened his friend, so he had no friends anymore.

Since childhood, Xiao Ping'an has grown up in the strange eyes of others.

Dad only picks up waste to make money, and the five-year-old also follows behind his father and picks up waste to make money.

"The fool is coming, the big fool is coming with the little fool."

"He's so strange, he doesn't have a leg, like a monster."

"Ahh

"Let's not play with little fools, my grandmother said that whoever plays with little fools will also become fools."

「……」

These voices were immature, and those children also ran away with shouts, but these words were engraved into Xiao Ping'an's mind word by word.

Later, he was seven years old, and he was old enough to read.

When he was still doing public welfare in the community, he found that he had not yet gone to school when he reached his age, so he contacted to arrange for him to go to school.

Everything in the book opened Xiao Ping'an's eyes, and gradually, he understood that maybe reading was his only way out, so he studied hard and worked hard to get the best results.

Even if that strange gaze still grew up with him, even if he had no friends all along, even when he took the first place in the first exam, he was questioned, and those people said: A fool is born, he is a little fool, how can a little fool take the first place, maybe it is cheating.

Later, Ping An proved himself with achievements again and again.

And his character, withdrawn, taciturn, and many times, is always alone, like an unsociable person, and like an outsider.

He went to elementary school, middle school, high school, college with excellent grades, and even the tuition fees in the later period were earned by himself part-time.

Every day, his time is either studying, or working part-time to earn money, or ...... Take care of your parents.

When he was in college, Ping An met a girl he liked, and even the girl confessed to him, saying that she didn't mind his disability.

But he didn't dare to accept it.

To be honest, he was ecstatic when he heard the girl he liked confess to him and say that he liked him.

But after being happy, he was infinitely frightened, uneasy and inferior.

So, he refused.

Because he's afraid.

He was afraid that the girl he liked knew that his parents were mentally disabled people, and he himself had lived a very hard life, and he didn't even know how many times he wanted to die since he was a child, and his future was bleak, and he was destined to carry such a pair of parents forward, so he couldn't pull the girl he liked into his misery.

Ping An knows that since his parents gave birth to him, then he has grown up, and it is his responsibility to take care of his parents.

Yes, with only 8 or 9 years of IQ, they don't know how to take care of themselves at all, and many times they don't even know how to deal with them when they are sick or injured.

Only by the only intellectually normal person, peace.

After rejecting the girl he liked, Ping An never had any more contact with a girl throughout the university.

He has decided to make money, not to get married, not to fall in love, and just like that, he will be tied to his parents for the rest of his life.

Later, Ping An graduated and began to interview for jobs.

He knows that when he works, he will have money.

It's just that the interviews again and again, and the fact that he was not admitted again and again, also completely hit his self-confidence.

Just when he doubted himself, he heard those words.

"If you can recruit a healthy person, who will recruit a person with a disability, these days, there are many people looking for a job, but it is not easy to find a job."

"I heard that his parents are stupid, and he has epilepsy, which is a mad disease, and it is very scary when it happens, what if he goes crazy one day and hurts us."

"Shouldn't a fool live on a flyover, pick up waste, study and find a job?"

「……」

At that time, Ping An realized that it was not that he was not good enough, but because of his disability and illness, and because of the disability of his parents.

He knew that it was discrimination.

This is not right.

But he didn't have the courage to come forward and argue.

He admits that all the strange eyes and treatments that have come with growing up over the years, and he admits that his faith and confidence collapsed when he heard these words.

In an instant, his world was shattered.

At that moment, it became clear to him that the world was not friendly to people like them.

He knew, maybe he wasn't right, maybe his parents weren't wrong.

But he felt that his birth was a mistake.

Especially after returning home, when he saw the commotion at home, heard his father arguing and fighting, and saw others coming to the door to ask for medical expenses, his mother who was at a loss for what to do, and his frightened father, his collapse deepened again.

Reimbursement for medical expenses and sending people away.

Facing the dazed parents, looking at their cautious eyes, at that moment, Ping An really couldn't control the hysteria.

For the first time, he vented his dissatisfaction and the injustice of fate.

At that moment, he even thought about death.

But he still didn't choose to do so.

Because the responsibility of taking care of his parents is still on him.

After all, they gave birth to him and raised him.

Ping An thought, let's just live in a daze.

When one day he sent his parents away, he would find a mountain, dig a pit, and bury himself.

Maybe at that time, he will be able to relax and have a good rest.

-

Chunhua was holding the black train ticket in her hand, she didn't know the words on it, but there seemed to be a voice in her heart telling her what it was and what it was for.

She knew that this was a ticket back to the past.

She didn't know what it meant to go back in time.

But she vaguely knew that by holding it and getting into the car, she would be able to help Ping An fulfill his wish.

Complete the wish of peace, no more tiredness, no more crying.