A few days later, Dasuo's cousin received Dasuo's letter. This time, the postman specially verified the cousin's name, and then handed the letter to the cousin, and instructed: "This letter is for you, but not for you, and he wants you to pass it on." ”

When my cousin heard this, she was surprised and asked, "Hey, how do you know?" ”

The postman said: "This envelope is clearly written, and there are also brackets, asking you to 'be sure to hand it over,' which means that it must be handed over." Because this is a letter from the troops, we have to be extra responsible. ”

"Oh, I see." My cousin said "understand" to the postman, in fact, there is another meaning: Da Suo must have known that I had intercepted the letter he wrote to Xiangyu last time, so he asked me to "hand it over" this time. Okay, you Li Dasuo, and I must hand it over - you just wait, I want to see if you turn back first......

The cousin thought as she hurried to her aunt's and nephew's house again. When the aunt and nephew opened the envelope, it turned out to contain two letters. Obviously, one was addressed to Xiangyu, and the other was written specifically to her cousin.

It turned out that Da Suo had written a letter to Xiangyu, and when he took the envelope and was about to write the address, he suddenly frowned: How should this letter be sent? If you still let your cousin hand it over, I'm afraid that Xiangyu won't be able to receive it nine times out of ten. He decided to go to a nearby post office and buy an ordinary envelope - send it directly to Xiangyu, and write the address of the sender below, casually write the commune of such and such a county in such and such a province...... He suddenly remembered that the postmark on the envelope could not be hidden. Forget it, you still can't take this risk: in case it arouses someone's suspicion and is intercepted and then disassembled...... That's a big problem. Eventually, he had to send the letter to his cousin again. So, he specially wrote a letter to his cousin -

Cousin:

I returned to my hometown a few days ago. I was going to see you. Unexpectedly, on the morning of the third day after I returned home, I received an urgent telegram from the troops, asking me to return to the troops immediately. I can't say the specific reason, it's discipline.

Cousin, you may be angry with me again when you know that I wrote to Xiangyu again and heard what I said to her. Please bear with me, listen to what I said to you, and then do whatever you want with me, okay?

Cousin, when I came back this time, although I met Xiangyu twice, there was almost no communication - you must know the contradiction between our two families surnamed Xia and surnamed Li. We didn't say anything, though, but I think she should know what I'm thinking. As soon as I arrived in the army, she wrote to me that she didn't want to leave the fool. First, if he leaves, the fool is homeless, she pities him very much, she can't be ruthless; Second, if she leaves and the fool leaves, the child will pester her to find the fool's father. And now I can't tell the truth to my child, because the child is too young to understand anything. Third, Xiangyu and you want to go together, she is worried that she will divorce a fool and marry me again, for fear of affecting my future.

Cousin, what Xiangyu said to me was from the heart, and what she said was so sincere. In that case, I have to be benevolent to others. I told her what I thought, I did my best, I did my duty, if she is still unwilling to leave, then forget it, I can't force others. When I did, I was at ease. Cousin, do you think that's the reason?

Cousin, if your brother doesn't do what you want, you can scold me and scold me hard. But I still beg you: while you scold, you help my brother again, and you must forward the letter I wrote to Xiangyu to her.

Cousin, brother please, please!

The aunt and nephew read both letters roughly, and then, first, read the letter that Da Suo had written to his cousin, sentence by sentence, to his aunt. Unexpectedly, my aunt listened and didn't say a word.

When the aunt finished listening to the letter to Xiangyu, she came up angrily. She scolded the letter like a person with a big lock: "Big lock, big lock, why are you so muddy, Xia Xiangyu is obviously unwilling to leave with a fool, and people are affectionate and righteous to fools." What kind of ecstasy have you Li Dasuo taken, and you are still pestering people in vain, and you have to wait for people - you have to wait all the time, my God! That Xia Xiangyu is only in her twenties, but she looks like an old woman in her forties and fifties, which piece of meat lump and orange peel on her body is worth your wait! You are an officer now, you have status and status, if you just close your eyes and scratch one casually, you will be many times stronger than her. Alas, what a shrewd person you were in the first place, how did you become a soldier for a few years, and you actually took your brain for a bad one! Oh, you have to take that fool over and raise him, how can there be such a thing in this world! Besides, the leader above you can do whatever you want? Oh, why are you so confused, why are you so stupid! If you let your uncle know about this, think about what the consequences will be! Oops, I'm, this big beheader! ”

The aunt and nephew let the aunt calm down, and then said: "Even if he says this, people may not agree to the divorce." I don't think that woman values love and righteousness, not like a person with shallow eye sockets. ”

"You're also following the! If you are a woman, when you meet such a good man with a good future, and you chase and entangle with all your heart, can you not be moved, can you live with that fool for the rest of your life? ”

The aunt asked the aunt and nephew to write a reply to Li Dasuo: "You just wrote down all the words I just scolded him, do you remember?" I can't remember scolding again. ”

My aunt and nephew were amused.

When he finished writing, he asked, "What else is there to say?" ”

She thought for a while and said, "Yes, you can continue to write: Li Dasuo, let me tell you, Xia Xiangyu's heart is already cold to you, I am not talking nonsense." I gave her your letter, and she didn't even look at it, but struck a match in front of me—and burned it! She burned your letter to make you die. ”

The aunt and nephew smiled - a little hesitant, and said, "If Li Dasuo knew that you were lying, he would hate you." ”

"I'm not afraid of him hating. When he writes to her in the future, I will call it a stone sinking into the sea! ”

At the end of the letter, my cousin made a "killer move": "Li Dasuo, if you don't give up and continue to drag on like this, I will tell my uncle everything about you and Xia Xiangyu!" You should know what the consequences will be. I'll give you half a year, and you can quickly find a woman to start a family. Half a year later, if you are still single, don't blame your cousin for being cruel to you. I'm not afraid you'll hate me. At that point, you don't have my cousin, and I don't have you as a cousin. In the future, even if my uncle is gone, I may not be on the threshold of your family! ”

When my cousin came home, she looked at the letter and didn't bother to do it. When it was time for dinner, she simply filled the letter into the stove pond - mixed with the thick smoke of the cooking, and it drifted in the evening air of the old village......

As for Xiangyu, after writing a letter to Da Suo, this time, she was looking forward to waiting for Da Suo's reply. Xiangyu's heart seemed to be pressed with a stone: When did Da Suo and I become heads? No matter when, as long as you divorce the fool and marry Da Suo, it will be like a bomb detonated in Xiazhuang and even in the entire granite pan......

Moreover, in the eyes of outsiders, Da Suo is an officer, and he is handsome, what kind of young and beautiful girl can't be found, but he has to "wait" for me, who is haggard like an old woman—and a rural woman next to home? Sooner or later, people's doubts will lead to a disaster. I was caught up in the disaster, and I have no regrets, no regrets; But the big lock-the future of the big lock has been buried......

Alas, the more you "wait" for a day, the more trouble you have. But you can't be in a hurry, the more anxious it is, the worse it will be.

In Xiangyu's heart, almost every day, it is up and down. She was tormenting herself, but the days still had to go on, but it was a little perfunctory.

Almost every night, when Xiangyu lay down in bed, she was whispering to Da Suo, "Da Suo, we have been waiting for another day." ”

A few days later, my cousin came to Xiazhuang again with a full stomach. She knew that after Da Suo returned to the army, Xiangyu wrote to him, but she pretended not to know anything, first exchanged a few words of homely greetings, and then said something she had already thought about. That means: Da Suo's heart seems to have been cold, and he hasn't written to you for a long time. On your side, there has been no movement. What exactly are you going to do? What did you pay for the big lock? The big lock is now twenty-five and twenty-six, and after another three years and five years, the big lock will be dragged bigger...... My cousin also said another meaning around the bend: People should be realistic, now, compared with your Xiangyu and Da Suo, in any aspect, it is too much worse. My cousin was embarrassed to say it directly: You-you are no longer the Xiangyu of a few years ago, and the big lock is no longer the big lock of a few years ago, and you are not worthy of the big lock now......

On the fifth day after her cousin returned from Xiangyu's house, she unexpectedly received an urgent telegram from Dasuo. She panicked: what could not be written, but I had to send a telegram - or urgently. Isn't it a big lock in the army what happened to the accident? She hurriedly asked the postman to read the contents.

When they read it, they didn't read the "telegram" directly, for fear that she wouldn't understand, but explained the meaning to her: "The love affair with my uncle has been broken, and I won't go back, so I quickly hand over the 'elephant jade', that is, a piece of jade shaped like an elephant." To whom exactly, did not say. ”

The cousin was puzzled for a moment when she heard this, and thought to herself: Da Suo's uncle has been dead for many years, why do you suddenly mention his uncle now? What's even more ridiculous is that there is nothing like the "jade" of an elephant? She asked the messenger to read the words as they were. When my cousin heard this, she understood it all at once. She thinks this is a good thing: Da Suo finally made a happy break with Xiangyu, and he will never break the thread again! She also understood in her heart: The bearded man reading the telegram in front of her didn't seem to know much, so how did "Xiangyu" become "jade like an elephant"? She smiled and thanked them.

But she couldn't figure it out: the big lock and Xiangyu ...... It's been dragging on for several years, and a few days ago, I still said in the letter that I would always wait for others, why is it that the "old love" is suddenly broken, and it is "urgently" urging? Oh, it must have been the letter that I wrote myself - the last "killer feature" worked! But then I thought about it, no, even if he really changed his mind - the prodigal son turned back, it wouldn't be so urgent. Oh, isn't it that Xiangyu listened to her words and was reminded, she was really worried that she had a lot of dreams at night, and she was worried that Da Suo would dump her one day later, so she was in a hurry, and she couldn't wait, so she made a 180-degree turn, and wrote a letter to hurry to go home. If Da Suo doesn't come back, she threatens him to leave for the army to find his leader? My cousin has seen such things. But Da Lock clearly said on the telegram, "I won't return the old love", didn't this anger Xiangyu again? The more my cousin thought about it, the more confused she became. She thought as she hurried to Dasuo's hometown......

It turned out that what my cousin said to Xiangyu a few days ago touched Xiangyu too much. But in front of her cousin, Xiangyu lowered her head and said nothing. After her cousin left, she barely slept all night. She thought back and forth, and thought over and over: yes, my cousin's words are both affectionate and reasonable. My relationship with Da Suo, that God knows that I know what he knows, there is no doubt, and there will be no wavering. But it's dragged on, how long will it last? In the end, what is the result? As for whether she is worthy or not, Xiangyu did not go to her heart, because she believed in the big lock. Xiangyu thought about it again and again in the middle of the night, and finally she made a painful decision with difficulty: "Break!" And if you want to "break", you must "break" it simply, and "break" it completely! - Be sure to lock the big lock!

Xiangyu wrote a letter to Da Suo overnight, wrote a few sentences, and put down the pen. She couldn't control herself, so she had to cover her mouth with a towel, covering the cry that seemed to be able to be contained, but she couldn't hold back the tears of pain that welled up from her heart. In the letter, she wrote down what she had to say:

Big lock, I've thought over and over again, we can't drag it out like this anymore. If it drags on any longer, there can only be one result: that is, the two of us are still living as innocently as we are now. As for me, I still have a home; As for you, not to say that you have been dragged down, at least you have been delayed. Sometimes, I also want to be like a few years ago, fearlessly and fearlessly, "passion" again: leave first - then knot! But somehow, I can't afford to ignite that flame of "passion" in my heart now. As soon as I thought of divorcing a fool and marrying you again, my heart was at a loss. Think about it, if you really come to that point, can the person surnamed Li let me go? Can the surname Xia bypass you? Then Xia Zhuang will blow up the pot, and if you don't get it right, it will kill people. And I am particularly worried that someone must blame you for all these disasters; Someone must have stabbed the consequences of all this on your troops. In that case, your hard work in the past few years, as well as your great future prospects, will all be ruined! If we really get to that point, we won't be able to get married...... I can't even think about it any further.

Alas, how did you become some kind of officer? If you are an ordinary soldier who is discharged from the army and returns home after three years, even if the pressure on your hometown is great and we can't get married, you can secretly take me and Kangkang away from your hometown and live somewhere hundreds or even thousands of miles away. But now can you take us on a run? I can't let you run with us.

The big lock, if it drags on like this, it will drag my body down, my pressure is too great, I can't bear it anymore. I couldn't sleep all night, and I almost fell down a few times. If this continues, I'll become a fool one day later.

Speaking of "fools", when I think of "divorcing" him, I ...... My heart hurts faintly, I really can't be so ruthless. Maybe I really have that kind of affection for him. What kind of relationship is it? To be honest, I hated him at first, no, to put it bluntly, I hated him. Especially when I first "got married". During the day, the feeling of disgust was not so strong, and when I went to bed at night and slept with him in a bed, it was simply an indescribable torment. That kind of torment was "recruited into the door" by myself, and I couldn't push it off if I wanted to, and I couldn't get rid of it if I wanted to. I don't even dare to ask him to sleep at my feet—I'm afraid that others will say it later. But over time, I gave birth to another emotion that was not "love" but like "love", maybe it was pity for him. As soon as I thought of "divorcing" him, I felt that I was too selfish: at the beginning, for myself, for my own face, for the sake of the child in my belly, I deceived him! I shouldn't have deceived a fool who didn't know that he had been deceived! I've hurt him—even though he doesn't have the consciousness to do so, and that makes me feel more uneasy than hurting a shrewd man. Although he is mentally retarded, he has the strength of his body and is so obedient. He does whatever I tell him to do. Sometimes when I do something wrong, I will scold him fiercely, but before he can scold two words, he will hold his head and cry, crying so much. Although he was scolded and cried, he was not angry with me. He said, my mother scolded me, how can I be angry. Hearing this, it makes me laugh and cry. He often giggled and said to me, I am his "mother", I am his "bride"! Come to think of it, he really looks like an ignorant child. When my father was alive, he used him as a cow. But in my heart, I really think of him as an ignorant boy who was adopted by me. A person who lives with his own cat and his dog all day long will have feelings, and with a person - after all, he is a person. Now, you say, how can I ignore the conscience of heaven and earth, and hurt him more deeply—to make a poor fool homeless.

Alas, what worries me even more is that the fool has really regarded me as his "mother" in his heart! You say, how can I bear to ruthlessly abandon an innocent "stupid child"?

Alas, he also fulfilled us—we got a smart and lovely daughter......

Alas, if his own mother were still alive, I might ......

Big Lock, I shouldn't have told you so much about fools, especially at this time. But if I don't say it as it is, you'll misunderstand me, and you won't accept my decision. I have written to you before and told you about fools, and I was hesitant at the time.

Think again about our daughter. Kang Kang has always regarded the fool as her father. As soon as he saw a fool, he affectionately called "Daddy". The fool also stupidly likes his "good girl". Kang Kang is too young now, if she really leaves her "father", she can't see a fool, she cries and pesters me to find her "father" all day long, how can I tell the child. That...... What a great hurt it must have been to her so young mind! In the future, when she grows up and is sensible, how can we explain to her and soothe her bloody wounds? Alas, I knew that I regretted it today, why didn't I think of these things I am facing now?

I...... After thinking about it, I had to make a decision......

Shall we break it......

I'm begging you, save my life......

We're going to break it off......

Fortunately, we have loved one deeply, fortunately, we already have a daughter, and resistance will always be yours......

We're going to break it off completely......

If you drag it out for a day, my stress will increase for another day. If you drag it out for a day, my heart will ache worse for a day. Long pain is better than short pain - you can have pity on me......

Well, I don't want to say anything more. Don't hesitate any longer when you receive the letter, don't worry about me anymore - I don't deserve your attention. Besides, your concern and hesitation are not loving me, but harming me, and adding pain to me!

Forgive me for my despair: I gave you two days to send the letter, four days to send the letter, and on the sixth day (she forgot the time she sent the letter...... If I don't see your reply again, you can ask your cousin to inquire and see if there is still Xia Xiangyu in Xiazhuang......

I'm sorry, I had to hurt you one last time......

I'm sorry, we don't have a chance in this world, so ...... Then wait for the afterlife......

I'm so sorry......

Many of the words in the letter were followed by irregular ellipses that seemed to be "trembling"—only Xiangyu herself knew: it was not punctuation, it was her heartbeat, it was a tear that she couldn't suppress

Xiangyu looked at the telegram that her cousin "turned around", and tears fell on the telegram:

Uncle love is broken, I don't go back to hand over like jade

Oh, "Uncle (old) love is broken, I don't look back......"

Although Xiangyu herself forced the big lock to break off the "old love", although Xiangyu was already mentally prepared, but when she saw that "my uncle broke off my love and I won't go back", she still couldn't control her emotions: she held the telegram on her chest, staggered and almost fell, her cousin grabbed it first, and she suddenly threw herself on her cousin's shoulder, whimpering and crying. She couldn't remember what her cousin said, when she left, how she lay down on the bed, and how many hours she cried.

The dazed Xiangyu, she was whispering over and over again: "(Uncle) old love is broken...... I don't ...... back."

The tears were like a necklace with broken threads—the "pearls" fell one by one......