Soon, the college entrance examination scores were announced, and Wang Xiaofeng's total score was 382 points, 8 points away from the minimum score for admission. With a total score of 315, I was even worse than the minimum cut-off. Although I didn't have the luxury of getting into college, I was still sad for a while when I did so badly. Recalling that three years ago, Wang Xiaofeng and I were admitted to high school together, and went to school in the county seat in a beautiful way, and everyone in the village praised it, saying, "The future will definitely be immeasurable!" "Look at it now, the college entrance examination failed, and I did so badly, and I came home in a gloomy way, and every time the villagers asked how many points they scored, they were embarrassed to say, how sad and disappointed, and disheartened! Fortunately, I am an open-minded person, and what if I think about it, what can I do if I take a few more tests? Even if he took the same number of exams as Wang Xiaofeng, he was also on the list and missed the university. Thanks to my good father, who is a leading cadre, the state can take care of a child and work. Now that I have my high school diploma in my hand and am about to go to work, what are you thinking about? It's up to me to get my scores, just like the messy graduation photos that my classmates and I took with each other, just a graduation commemoration, and it didn't help me. When I think about it this way, I feel much better, and I don't care much about the test scores.

When my father learned that I failed in the college entrance examination, he complained that I didn't work hard enough, and asked me if I would like to review for a year and take the exam again next year, I shook my head and said, "I'm too bad, what's the use of studying for another year and scoring an extra ten or eight points?" Still can't pass the test. Isn't my brother going to review for another year when he falls off the list? The result is still off the list. I'm not Fan Jin, I don't have his determination and will. Seeing that I refused to review and retake the exam, my father sighed: "Why are all the children in our family so unproductive? When I heard this, although I was full of grievances, I had no choice but to remain silent, and I felt sad for a while.

When Wang Xiaofeng learned that he had lost the list, his heart was not as easy as me. He shut himself in his room, did not eat or drink, and slept for a whole day and a night, and his parents did not open the door no matter how much they screamed. Because his family situation is different from mine, he is an agricultural hukou, with a difference of eight points, and if he can't get into college, he has to go home to become a farmer; No matter how many books he has read or how good his culture is, it is useless. is also like Sister Yun, although she is beautiful and can sing and act, she can't be a professional actor, so she got off the stage, took off her makeup, returned home, and contracted a piece of land like other farmers, and worked in the fields every day. His cultural knowledge is as unworthy as her literary talents. So he regards the college entrance examination score as particularly important. The college entrance examination admission score line is like Shanhaiguan, one step in and one step outside; Like the South Heavenly Gate, one step to heaven, one step to the mortal world. Wang Xiaofeng has worked hard for more than ten years and diligently pursued that with good academic performance, he was admitted to university, jumped out of the farm, and became a full-time cadre who ate imperial grain and received the country's money, so as to honor his family and glorify his ancestors. However, despite his thoughts and efforts, the heavens did not bless him, his fate was unfortunate, this pass was too high, this door was closed too tightly, and it was difficult to step in despite all his efforts, and reality ruthlessly blocked him out.

In the village, I can only talk to Sister Yun, and only she can understand me and comfort me. However, now that Sister Yun's heart is on Wang Xiaofeng, I rarely have the opportunity to have a long and deep conversation with her like before, and get her persuasion and comfort. I went to her house a few times to look for her, but she was not at home, which made me disappointed and sad. Her parents said that Sister Yun went to Wang Xiaofeng's house. I couldn't help complaining: "Now that she has a partner, she has forgotten her good sister for many years!" Her parents also complained: "Don't talk about you, even our family rarely sees her a few times a day." I don't know why she took a fancy to such a person, her family was poor and borrowed everywhere, and she couldn't afford to repay it for a while; People are as thin as a reed stick, and they are often sick. What's so good about such a person and such a person? I didn't expect to be fascinated by her like this, it was like a demon, and I ran to his house all day long. I was secretly surprised: are her parents complaining about me? I introduced them to them in the first place. However, you don't know that it was your daughter who first took a fancy to Wang Xiaofeng and asked me to pass the word. Actually, I don't think I'm optimistic about them either, because they're not all the way people at all; It's not that Sister Yun has begged again and again, so I don't want to introduce them to them. I was afraid that her parents would ask about the process of Sister Yun and Wang Xiaofeng's love, so I didn't dare to wait, so I went home silently alone.

On this day, Sister Yun finally came to me, I was very happy, I thought I was still a good sister, a close friend in the boudoir, and I could take the opportunity to talk about it. But I was about to talk about my heart, but she stopped me, and pleaded with a sad face:

"Sister, go and persuade Xiaofeng, that day, he looked at the admission score line and knew that he couldn't be admitted to college, so he slept for a day and a night, without eating, drinking or talking. I tried every means to persuade him not to listen, and he couldn't listen to his parents. He was already thin and weak, but now he is even more worrying, it's really sad! ”

As soon as I heard this, my whole heart was cold: she didn't come to comfort me, but asked me to comfort Wang Xiaofeng, isn't this sprinkling salt on my wounds? So I immediately rejected her: "Sister Yun, it's not that I thin your face, I really can't say this, I can't open my mouth!" Do you know, I scored much less than him, I was scolded by my dad, and I was aggrieved and wanted to talk to you! Now you are asking me to persuade Wang Xiaofeng, isn't this making me look ugly? Don't think about his feelings, you also think about my face and my feelings! ”

"Sister, my situation, I've thought about it, what does it matter if you take more exams and less exams? Anyway, you're going to work soon, and it's useless to take more exams. However, Xiaofeng is different from you, he lives on this score, and he regards test scores as more important than life! Now I know that my score is not enough, I can't go to college, I am so worried that I can't do it, and I am looking for death and life! I'm really afraid that if he can't think about it for a while, something will happen! You must go over and persuade him, sister, please! He believes in you and listens to you. ”

Sister Yun held my hand and insisted that I persuade Wang Xiaofeng. It's embarrassing for me! I thought about it, but still could not go, broke free from her hand and said:

"Stop teasing me! He doesn't listen to you, he doesn't listen to his parents, he will listen to me? Who am I? I am the Lord of the Blue Sky, and my words are a panacea, can I save his life? ”

"You are the Lord of the Blue Sky, your words are a panacea, and now only you can save his life. Please, sister, good sister, go and save him! ”

Sister Yun grabbed me and begged bitterly, tears were about to flow out. I was touched and my heart softened. After so many years of good sisterhood, I really can't help it. However, this incident made me so embarrassed and ashamed to say that I had to patiently persuade her:

"Don't worry. This is because Xiaofeng takes the college entrance examination too seriously, and once he hears that he has failed, he will naturally be very sad than others. At this time, it is useless for anyone to persuade them. After waiting for the past few days, he slowly thought about it, and it would naturally be fine. ”

"No! He is a dead-eyed person, and if there is no one to persuade him, he will not be able to think of it; When it really gets to that point, it's too late to regret it! ”

Sister Yun felt sorry for Wang Xiaofeng, for fear that something would happen to him, and I couldn't explain it in any way, she was always at ease, and she would definitely pull me over. Alas, for the sake of my good sister's sincere love for my lover, I had to forget my heart for a while, endure shame and unhappiness, and reluctantly make it difficult.

Wang Xiaofeng saw me coming, after all, he was an old classmate for many years, and he was also on the list, he reluctantly sat up, pointed to the bench in front of the bed and asked me to sit down, and lowered his head again, without saying a word, with a sad face. Sister Yun looked at Wang Xiaofeng and then at me, afraid that Wang Xiaofeng would criticize her for inviting me to be troublesome, and it was inconvenient to speak. There was silence for a long time, and I had to break the deadlock. So I got straight to the point and said:

"Alas! What do you want me to say? I did worse in the exam, and I was not in a good mood, I didn't want to come, but Sister Yun pulled me here alive and dead, and I have been a good sister for many years, but it is not good not to come. Since I'm here, let's say it directly: Wang Xiaofeng, don't lie on the bed anymore and fall asleep, get up quickly, it's time to eat, you should work. You are sleepy, you don't eat or drink, your whole family has no idea, so anxious that Sister Yun is looking for people everywhere to persuade you, and even the uncle can't feel at ease when he goes to work at the construction station. At this point, what good are you doing to others, to yourself, to your home and to the outside world? I asked rhetorically, staring at him with a pair of eyes. Wang Xiaofeng was still frowning, bowing his head and saying nothing.

"Think about it, if you do it, if there is a little good, you go back to sleep, I don't advise you a word. However, I have thought about it repeatedly, if you do this, it will not do you any good to yourself, others, and your family and the outside world, and it will make Sister Yun and your parents worry and worry about you. It's already very good that you can get such a score after a serious illness! Do you think about me? The two of us are in the same class, you were sick and hospitalized for more than a month and didn't go to class, but I, I didn't miss a class, and you took a few points more than me! If you don't eat or drink now, I want to think the same as you, don't you die of shame? Today I come to persuade you, are you ashamed or am I ashamed? Isn't it for the sake of old classmates for many years, will I give up my face to see you and persuade you? ”

I was in a bad mood, so naturally I didn't have the courage to persuade him patiently, and a series of cannons were not only to persuade him, but also to confess and analyze myself. Wang Xiaofeng listened, finally raised his head and looked at me, wanted to say something, shook his head again, and still bowed his head and said nothing. It seems that he could not accept my persuasion. He didn't speak, and the task assigned by Sister Yun couldn't be completed, so I couldn't hand it over, so I continued:

"I know you want to say that I am different from you, I have a good family, a good father, and I have a job to do even if I can't get into college. But have you thought about it? If I can get into the university and get a job I want in the future, will I still care about being a junior clerk? In fact, like you, I have had lofty ideals and made efforts, but my grades have always been unable to improve. It turns out that my qualifications are not good, and I am not as good as you. The top job is a last resort. You are talented and intelligent, and you have a solid foundation in the discipline, this is your capital, the biggest capital! Used for life. 10,000 times better than I have a good father! Because it's your own and autonomous. I don't have it, so I don't have the autonomy, and I have to do whatever work people give me. With this capital, failure can turn into victory, and poverty can lead to prosperity. I can predict that you didn't do well in the exam this year because you missed class due to illness, and after a year of revision, next year, you will definitely get good grades in the exam and be admitted to a better university! Isn't that much better than getting into a junior college? ”

Wang Xiaofeng shook his head, finally spoke, and expressed his heart directly. He said: "If I don't take the exam, I won't be reconciled, I must review and take the exam again, otherwise, I'm sorry for my own hard work over the years, and I'm sorry for my parents' hard work and ardent expectations for so many years." But, you know what? I have to study for one more year, and my parents have to work for another year. How much more will it cost this year? How much grain? This money is not like your family, which your father can get back on a monthly basis. My family is different, but my parents hoeed and hoeed, day by day, dug out of the loess! Spend one more seed, and my heart will shed tears and bleed! I feel sorry for my parents! ”

He burst into tears, and I could see that he was really emotional, and I was very moved. This thin and tall man must not only adhere to his ideals and be unswerving, but also take care of the hard work of his parents, silently crying and bleeding in his heart, how tangled!

I said, "Look at what you said, it's as if all my family's money was picked up." My dad is also so old, he works alone in the county, he has been criticized so much in the past few years, and now he is not in good health, and there is no one to take care of him, it is not easy! ”

"Isn't Uncle retiring soon? He retires, goes home to retire, and gets his salary, and you can take over his work, and get another salary, the best of both worlds, what a good thing! People like us can't think of such a thing! ”

I didn't want him to be able to go to work at my top job, so he was so envious and valued. When it comes to taking over my father's work, I also have unspeakable hardships, which cause me sadness and trouble. In order to persuade Wang Xiaofeng, I had to tell my family's "family ugliness".

"You think it's that easy for me to take this shift? Am I so at ease? Tell you, my house is about to turn upside down! I want to take it, and my brother wants to take it too, but there is only one job, and the state only allows one child to take the job, and the palms and backs of his hands are full of meat, you say, who does my dad give to? ”

"Doesn't your brother have a job? Why is he fighting? ”

"He is just a private teacher, and his monthly salary is only more than 20 yuan; Replace the job, the monthly salary is more than 100 yuan, the gap is too big. In the past, in the production team, the private teachers also gave half of the labor force to the work, but now that the land is contracted to the household, the work is useless, and he will take that money dryly, can he balance his heart? ”

"I heard that private teachers are going to be regularized, and their salaries will increase as soon as they become regulars, maybe it will be higher than the top job."

"I heard that Gui heard, haven't you turned positive yet, people are very realistic!"

"How did your dad deal with it?"

"My dad is also very entangled, after all, sons and daughters are the hearts and minds of their parents. He first asked the director of the education bureau for the news, and private teachers do have the task of becoming regulars, but they need to take cultural exams, and those who pass the grades can become regulars. My brother is a high school graduate, and he is also a leader among private teachers, so it is estimated that there is not much problem in passing the exam. So my parents finally made a decision: if I was admitted to university, my brother would take the job; If I can't get into college, I'll take the job. My siblings had no choice but to accept it.

"Now it seems that your father's class is taken over by you?"

"What to do? We are stupid, have poor grades, have no ability to be admitted to university, and are afraid of hardship, so we don't want to review and take the exam again, so we have to do it as a last resort and accept it with shame. ”

"It's good to be able to take over the work, have a stable job, a fixed salary. Unlike me, there is only one road in front of me, no matter how hard it is, I can only continue to climb. Otherwise, you will have to fall into the ravine and sigh at the sky. It's just like this, and I have to make my parents work hard for another year, I'm ashamed! ”

"What's there to be ashamed of here? You didn't take the exam because you were sick and hospitalized, which affected your schoolwork. Like me, it's really worth being ashamed of: two brothers and sisters, one mother and sibling, make trouble for a job, and make their parents worry, this is our family's ugliness! It is also a shame for our brothers and sisters. It's not to persuade you, but I will never say it to the public. You are only allowed to know about it, not to anyone else! After saying that, I regretted it a little, so I warned Wang Xiaofeng.

"Of course," Wang Xiaofeng agreed, "I will never tell outsiders." You know, I'm not the kind of person who is easy to talk to. ”

"I believe it. Also, since you decided to continue climbing the road in Huashan, what are you doing in bed? sighing all day long, asking Sister Yun and uncles and aunts to worry and worry about you together, are you worthy of them? Forget about this year's exams completely, work hard for another year, seize the time to review your homework, and prepare for next year's exam to be admitted to a better university! ”

"I will never forget the failure of this year's college entrance examination, and I will take it as a painful lesson and always remember it. I have been lying in bed for the past few days and refusing to get up, firstly, because I am ashamed to see people, and secondly, I have to think carefully about what to do in the future. ”

"Now that you've thought about it? Sure? ”

"It's confirmed, continue to review, and take the exam again next year. While you are still young and your foundation is not bad, you can fight hard so as not to regret it in the future. You tell Sister Yun to tell her to wait for me for one more year, and I will definitely not disappoint her. ”

I finally breathed a sigh of relief and nodded, finally having an explanation for Sister Yun.