Today I was at home alone all day, and in order not to disturb me, my wife went out to the class reunion with the children early in the morning.

However, I just can't write, and I haven't even eaten breakfast until now, and I may have too many things in my heart to eat, but I just feel a little hungry.

I really don't feel like there is a state today.,In fact.,There was such a state yesterday.,It's better not to write a chapter of barely a word water.。

The most critical thing is psychological problems, mental disturbance.

Whether I am suitable for online writing, should I continue to walk on the road of online writing.

This problem has been a problem for a long time.

Over the years, part-time writing has been out of the category of pure "hobby", and economic benefits are indeed the main driving force for support, and it is precisely because of this sense of vanity and responsibility that I will squeeze a qiē time every day after work and pounce on online articles.

It must be updated every day,The more updates, the better,It's the mode of the current online article.,The number of updates is small, and the speed is even above the quality first.,Sometimes in order to complete the update or the corresponding full attendance award,You can only inject water.,I've also read some books.,Tens of thousands of words have no actual content.。 It's not a time to fire a map cannon or target someone, and I myself have this kind of helplessness. I was originally a handicap, I thought about writing slowly, I was a part-time job, and I had to take care of my family, so I didn't want to be fast at all, and sometimes I could only stay up late with a single chapter. Not all part-time jobs are as slow as I am, and this is indeed a shortcoming.

In fact, I also YY a year XX million, adapting the peripherals, joining the writers' association these beautiful prospects, but the ideal is plump reality is skinny, I am now hitting the street, especially this "Immeasurable". I can't blame the failure entirely on objective factors such as the downturn of fantasy and rampant piracy, and the most critical reason is myself.

Now that I'm at the age of Bensi, I have to plan for the future. Originally, my health was not good, and there were a lot of problems with the code word, and I cared too little about my wife and children.

Every day after cooking, I go into the room and close the door, and it is late at night, and my wife can't even say a word. I usually spend less time with my child, my child is afraid of disturbing me, and he tiptoes up every morning, and when I usually close the door, I don't dare to speak loudly, and even I feel that he is very depressed at home.

Family members are not NPCs, and they can deliver tasks by spending time with them once or twice, and they communicate with each other with their hearts, especially relatives.

I went out shopping with my wife yesterday...... I don't remember how long I didn't go out with her, walking on the street, she suddenly said, I don't want me to make much money, I just want me to be healthy, so I can hold hands safely until I grow old.

I smiled, but tears were almost coming out.

Now when I type this line, my eyes are red.

After thinking about it today, if I take the code word as a part-time career, I have failed miserably; as a family, I have not fulfilled my responsibilities; the only thing left is a hobby, and if you create a hobby, it is equivalent to basically giving up this road for a few years.

Writing these heartfelt words, I didn't feel stuck at all, so what was written in this way can be regarded as real words.

I don't know what to do, I want to wait for my wife to come back and have a good talk with her, we haven't been alone for a long time.

Then, make a decision. (To be continued......)