The lights in the elevator were still so bright, and the underground living level was still so dim after walking, and the mess of graffiti and rust made it hard to think of beautiful things, but Hehia was still happy.

Because life is no longer static.

Walking between stagnant water and garbage, she jumped briskly, like a game of hopscotch learned in childhood.

The body jumped lightly, spun slightly in the air, and the skirt swayed in the wind and then fell again.

People always use the dirty environment and dilapidated ruin-like scenes to set off the sadness and cruelty of the world, but this is not right.

People who really live in such an environment don't feel like this, they know that the smoky restaurant, in fact, the owner makes a good dish, although the ground is full of garbage and stagnant water, it is still so stable, there are no mud puddles and collapses, the pedestrians on the street that make outsiders feel uneasy, and in their eyes they are indeed acquaintances who have known each other for a long time, and the existence of talking at any time.

Those who really experience this for a long time are used to it, and they don't think it's suffering, it's just a part of life.

Maybe this is also a kind of numbness and mistake, but at least this mistake will allow them to live in such an environment without much sadness.

Rabbits that are too sensitive will die early.

Hehia thought of this sentence inexplicably, and the original meaning was probably not like this, but it was not a big problem to think so.

She has long been accustomed to the inconspicuousness in life, being bullied and ridiculed are very ordinary daily life, the more bad the environment, the more angry people are, and the classmates are not very good, but she understands that if everyone has a very good family environment, maybe they will be elegant and polite.

She had seen that kind of world as a child.

The place where my sister went to school was the legendary aristocratic school, where all kinds of eldest ladies and children of the rich gathered, and she was taken by her sister to participate in some activities when she was a child, and she had seen that kind of environment.

It is precisely with such memories and cognitions that she can draw some conclusions from the comparison.

Family anxiety is transmitted, parents are more likely to argue over trivial matters because of the difficulty of life and the scarcity of resources, and this impatience will also be transmitted to children.

Learning is a little bad, the performance is a little poor, it will attract a scolding, this is the most labor-saving way of education, no patience to analyze the reasons, no need to experience the child's inner fragile and troublesome spiritual world, simple and rough.

After a hard day's work, people's emotions and energy are seriously consumed, don't expect such parents to have a lot of energy to put into educating their children, even if there is, I'm afraid it will be irritability and despair.

Introverted and timid, Heshia always tries to learn and think, or slowly lick her wounds in the corner, and then constantly look for ways to understand this chaotic world, because only after understanding the reason for this, will the uneasiness in her heart slowly dissolve a little.

The unknown is always fearful, and after knowing, even if it can't be changed, at least you can gain some calmness and the direction to solve the problem.

Thinking back to the day, before I knew it, Heshia had returned to the front of the house.

Oops, I forgot about things while walking today.

She looked at the narrow door in front of her, and only then did she remember that she was going to Grandma He's house.

However, since she came, let's go in and take a look, she hasn't lived here for almost a month.

Brushing open the dusty door, Heshia whispered, 'I'm back.' ’

But there was no response inside, so she took off her shoes, found the slippers she had placed before, walked into the dark room, and turned on the light.

There was a small living room with clutter, just as she had left it, with a little dust on the floor and tabletop.

She made her way to the innermost room, which had once been her parents' bedroom, but now her room, and she had become the sole owner of the house after the family had left.

Pushing open the door, the layout inside is still the same as before, there are photos of the former family hanging on the wall, the mother is smiling gently, the father is slightly hesitant, and the sister is looking to the side, it seems to be a little cold, and she is at a loss in her mother's arms.

Roll over and fumble on the bed, then find a small box from under the mattress.

Heshea sat at the head of the bed and opened the small box, which contained a small lampholder.

Enter the magic, activate it, the lamp base lights up, and then automatically projects a realistic image of a family laughing and talking on the grass before pointing it at the camera.

The whole process only takes 30 seconds, but the laughter and laughter in it seem to be a very distant thing, which makes people feel strange.

After watching silently for a while, Heshia turned off the lampholder, and she no longer shed tears and cried like she did when she was a child.

There is also a diary at the bottom of the box, which her mother left for her, sporadically recording her and her sister's growth, of which the sister occupies three-quarters of the page, and she only has a quarter.

Compared to her dazzling sister, she was still young at that time, and she didn't have much to say.

[Themia went to St. Ingo School today, the number one high school on the Emerald Skirt planet, and I'm worried about whether she will be able to adapt to the environment, because most of the students in it are extremely gifted, or rare geniuses.] ]

[The half-semester school activities began.,I was finally able to enter this school to visit.,To my surprise,Themia is very popular in the school.,She's like a big sister commanding the classmates.,That kind of pride is a trait that I don't have.] ]

[The teacher called me, and Themia is very talented and may become a big man in the future, so she wants me to restrain me a little more, because some parents have complained that Themia is too strong in school and has hurt her child.] ]

[I asked Themia and she said that the other party provoked her first, and she just fought back, and after knowing that the teacher had called me, Themia seemed very unhappy.] ]

[The matter was resolved, and it was the other party's parents who apologized to me on the phone, saying that they did not educate their children well.] ]

[I don't know what's going on, Themia says probably the other party wants to open it, although this reason is far-fetched, but I also vaguely realize that this child is no longer in my control.] ]

[Themicia has grown much faster than her father and I expected, and at the Winter Festival Gala of her second year of school, I saw her take the center of the field and the stage, winning the first place in both the arena and the stage, and the whole school was full of cheers, and the teachers and principals congratulated us, saying that she would become a legend, a rising star.] ]

[Approaching graduation, Themia traveled with her group to the Flying Feather Star Field in the center of the Federation to participate in the admissions assessment of the top universities in the Federation. ]

[The admissions assessment is over, but Themia is not happy when she returns, she asks about Heshia for the first time, and then looks at Heshia's bedside for a long time.] ]

[Themicia locked herself in her room for several days, and when she came out, she began to say strange things to us, as if she was going to a distant world soon, perhaps knowing that the bustling central star field was far away and that she would not be able to be with us in the future.] ]

[Themia is gone......]

Heshia closed the journal and put it back in the box.

Since the death of her sister, her mother became ill and spent most of the family's property, and in order to leave the place that made her sad, they also moved to the lower living area of Arpeggio City.

The image of her sister has gone through several stages in her heart, when she was a child, she was a reliable sister and a reassuring family, she would take her out to play and buy her some small gifts, but as her sister entered junior high school and high school, she gradually became indifferent, and seemed to have a kind of sadness and impatience for her character.

However, in the last period of her sister's life, she suddenly changed her temperament and became extremely gentle, telling herself a lot of things in school, teaching her how to deal with the bullying of others, how to use the power of various adults, etc., but unfortunately Heshia did not learn these things.

In the end, my sister ended her life at home, leaving no suicide note.

After she left, everything in the family began to change dramatically, until it is today.

"I didn't have anything unfortunate or bad at all, just because my birth was an accident...... Heshia definitely doesn't understand this, but you are different from me, and you will have a brighter life. These were the last words that her sister Themia had left for her.

Lying in bed and reminiscing about the past, Heshia fell into a deep sleep until half an hour later.

She got up and went to the bathroom, ready to pour cold water on her face to sober herself up, and then went to Grandma He's house, otherwise it would be too late to make people worry.

The water moistened her face and fell, and in the dim room, Heshia closed the faucet, then looked up, and the other Heshia in the mirror smiled at her, her eyes with a light purple glow.

This is!

Heshea's heart was shocked, and she blinked desperately, but everything in the mirror was normal, and even if she used her magic to manifest her talent, all she saw was blue eyes and long black hair.

Fang Cai's scene was like a vision in her mind, and after more than ten minutes of fruitless verification in front of the mirror, Heshia gave up trying.

Maybe I miss those people in my memory too much.