Chapter 267: Irretrievable Feelings
The fear made Feng Yehan not dare to take another step into the inner hall of the dormitory, the hall was silent, as if he could hear the sound of his own heartbeat, cramped and panicked.
He pursed his thin lips, his hands clenched tightly, then released, released and clenched again, I don't know how many times he cycled, he took a deep breath and plucked up the courage to gently walk into the dormitory.
The veil was lowered layer by layer, the weather was already getting colder, even if there was only a slight warmth from the sun shining on his body, but his whole body was soaked in cold sweat, and he felt a chill.
He stretched out his hand to lift up the layers of veils, and the closer he got to the inner hall, the more intense his heart beat became, and finally walked into the inner hall, and the object was Zi'er, who was lying on the couch and falling asleep, and the white jade beads he couldn't suppress what he wanted to see.
His footsteps seemed to be uncontrollable, and he finally walked to the couch, and he stood quietly in front of the brocade couch and looked at the white jade beads that came into his eyes.
She was weak, so weak that there was no trace of blood on her stunning countenance, so pale that it was almost transparent, as if she would disappear at any moment, and the sweat on her cheeks made him stretch out the hand hidden in his sleeve.
However, when his hand was about to touch her cheek, he stiffened, and he did not dare to touch her, watching her sleep quietly, her breath faint made him know the weight of her wounds.
She hated herself, she wanted to die, from the time he cut off their love with his own hands, he had lost her forever, he knew her temperament very well, she would not forgive herself, never......
The hand that was about to touch her cheek slowly stretched back, and he slowly sat on the edge of the bed and looked at her quietly, with earth-shaking pain and remorse in his chest.
When he first saw her, his resolute and arrogant eyes made him unforgettable, he never thought that one day he would fall in love with a woman who would visit his prince's mansion at night and even almost kill himself, but unfortunately, when he unknowingly fell in love with her, he never showed his feelings to anyone.
Therefore, he understood that in her heart, he understood that she was worried that she would kill her, so she chose not to tell her identity under his countless temptations.
Smiling bitterly, he stared at Bai Yuzhu's narrow phoenix eyes with heart-wrenching pain, he had been looking for her for so long, it turned out that she had never left him. However, fate made people, and a mistake made him lose her forever.
He has never been a person who can't withstand blows, but this time the blow to himself was too heavy, too much for him to let go, and he couldn't bear it at all.
He had never loved a woman so deeply, but when the woman he loved so much was right in front of him, he lost his qualification to have her.
He remembered that she had said to herself that she loved herself enough to die for herself, however, he hated her at the time and never took it to heart.
Now that I think about it, if it is really a happy relationship, he will look directly into her eyes and say to her word by word - he can also love her, love so much that he can die for her, love so much that he is willing to be a couple for her for the rest of his life, as long as she stays by his side......
As long as she stays by his side, the only thing he wants to do after so many things that have happened to hurt her are the only things he wants to do.
"His Royal Highness the Prince......" At this time, Mama Lian gasped and walked into the inner hall of the dormitory, and immediately called in a deep voice.
The long eyelashes trembled slightly, and the next moment, Bai Yuzhu slowly opened her eyes, and even Mama's voice woke her up, and when she saw Feng Yehan appear in front of her, a chill immediately rose on her back, and she was vigilant against him with her whole body, and said coldly: "What do you want to do!" ”
Zi'er, who was too tired to sleep, was also awakened by Mama Lian's voice, and when she woke up and saw the prince sitting beside her, she fell to the ground in fright, and then crawled on the edge of the bed, although her eyes were afraid but strong in front of her own young lady, quite a scene where the first young lady had to step on her corpse.
When Feng Yehan saw this scene, his heart was full of bitterness, and his injury made their master and servant so afraid that he would hurt them......
Pressed under the pain, he said softly: "Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you, and I will never ...... again"
Bai Yuzhu looked at Feng Yehan defensively, looking at the pity between his eyebrows and the remorse in his eyes, he really couldn't understand why he did this? And why did you react like that?
He should have kidnapped Zi'er while he was asleep, how could he not do anything, but instead said this sentence that made her unclear.
Mama Lian had stepped forward at this time, she first curtsied towards the wind and night, and then she said respectfully: "His Royal Highness the Prince, the Queen Mother specially ordered the slave maid to tell His Royal Highness the Crown Prince not to come to Shangde Palace again, and asked His Royal Highness the Crown Prince not to make it difficult for the slave and maid, please leave." ”
"Yuzhu ......" Feng Yehan turned a deaf ear to Mama Lian's words, he looked at her intently, and said with bitterness in his voice: "Everything was my fault in the past, I shouldn't have hurt you, but I hope you can give me a chance to start over, okay." ”
He knew her temper, however, he still wanted her to give him a chance to make amends.
Bai Yuzhu didn't know what Feng Yehan was talking about, but she could hear that he was confessing, she was surprised, he should hate himself? How could there be such a repentant and guilty reaction?
"What the hell are you talking about?" She frowned and looked at him coldly, and said in a deep voice.
With Bai Yuzhu's words, Feng Yehan explained eagerly: "I already know from the Queen Mother that you are the medical saint I am looking for......"
"Boom" suddenly, Bai Yuzhu was stunned, her head was blank, and the next moment, when she came to her senses, she sneered: "What medical saint?" If you don't use the queen as an excuse, I'm not a medical saint at all! It's cold on a cold night, if you want to act, please use a snack to find out the reason and then pretend in front of me, okay? ”
The indifference on her face did not mean that she was calm in her heart, she couldn't believe what she heard, the Queen Mother would tell Feng Yehan about her identity? How could the Queen Mother do this?
You know, even if he drugged Zi'er, he didn't ask about his identity as a medical saint, no one would tell him about himself, and the Queen Mother would tell him at will? Even if he personally put a knife on the Queen Mother's neck, the Queen Mother would not tell him, after all, once he said it, it would involve a lot of things.
"Why are you still denying me that you are a medical saint?" Obviously, Feng Yehan didn't believe Bai Yuzhu's words at all, in his opinion, it was her useless quibble, and he said to her softly: "Although I wanted to kill you before, it was a long time ago, and now I won't hurt you." ”
"Heh......" Bai Yuzhu really didn't know whether to cry or laugh after hearing this, she knew very well that her love for him was brutally strangled by him when she was in the Guangming Temple, he broke his heart and could no longer heal, so the relationship between them had long been over, and there was no room to make up for it, she looked at him indifferently and said: "Wind and night cold, whether you believe it or not, I can tell you that I am not a medical saint, there must be a misunderstanding between you and the Queen Mother." ”
Or, he is pretending to use the Queen Mother as an excuse to test herself, how could she be deceived and really admit her identity as a medical saint, so the only thing she has is to refuse to admit it.
Feng Yehan stared at the white jade bead guarding himself, his heart was convulsive, and his heart was about to suffocate, suddenly, a tingling pain appeared in his heart, he knew that if he went on like this, the poison would be poisonous.
However, even if the pain of the poisonous hair is not as good as his heartache, looking at the eyes in front of her to defend herself, it is like a sharp knife twisting her heart, it hurts, it hurts.
"Tell me, how can you forgive me, as long as you say, I am willing to do it for you." He suppressed the pain of his restlessness, and tried to speak softly to her.
"You said this, I want you to disappear from my eyes immediately, and never appear in front of me!" Bai Yuzhu looked directly at Feng Yehan and immediately said in a deep voice.
There are no words more hurtful than these, Feng Yehan can finally understand how desperate, lost, and painful she should be when he hurts Bai Yuzhu.
Never appear in front of her, such resolute words were tantamount to explaining to him all her decisions, she no longer believed in herself, so every word he said sounded to her but a deception.
"No...... I can promise anything, but here's what I don't want to. He looked at Bai Yuzhu with a trembling voice and said softly.
If he promised her, then he would never have had a chance to get her again, and even seeing her was a luxury.
"Huh...... Sure enough, your words are all false. Bai Yuzhu sneered, she laughed and said, "The wind is cold, are you done with the play?" No matter how you act to deceive me, I only have one answer to what you want to know, that is, I am not a medical saint, you don't want to waste your energy on me, and now that I am trapped in Shangde Palace, I will not harm you at all, you can rest easy......"
After a slight pause, she sneered: "So, why do you bother to act in front of me, you don't know, I feel disgusted when I see you now, I can't imagine how stupid I should have been to like a hypocrite like you!" ”
At this moment, as soon as Bai Yuzhu's words fell, the Queen Mother happened to arrive, and she heard Bai Yuzhu so humiliated and shouted coldly: "Bai Yuzhu, you are so presumptuous!" ”
Bai Yuzhu was suddenly shocked, subconsciously looked at the Queen Mother, and saw the Queen Mother, who was wearing a red embroidered phoenix pattern phoenix robe, with a gloomy face, and exuding coldness all over her body, looking at her coldly, she was immediately silent, she knew very well that with her current identity, offending the Queen Mother was completely asking for her own hardship.
"Imperial grandmother, Yuzhu didn't mean it, please don't blame her." Feng Yehan saw the anger in the Queen Mother's eyes, and the next moment, he hurriedly pleaded with the Queen Mother to intercede for Bai Yuzhu.
Faced with such a reaction from Feng Yehan, Bai Yuzhu looked at him sideways, with disgust in her eyes, she really didn't expect him to be such a person, the Queen Mother appeared, and he dared to continue acting, it was really shameless to the point of shamelessness.