Chapter 69: "Because, I Like You"
When the crazy city only pursues speed, only the tram is lazy to ignore the outside world's eyes and insist on that leisurely slow speed, which never stops year after year.
The tram represents the dreamer who dares to be out of the group, and is not afraid of loneliness for the sake of his love.
Qianqin is a different kind of girl, although she is a smart thinker, she suffers from dyslexia and her reading comprehension skills are far inferior to others.
This caused Qianqin to constantly suffer setbacks in her studies, and her grades were far away from other students.
Under the traditional examination system, girls are simply abandoned losers......
What's more, Qianqin doesn't like to read at all, she loves music.
Qianqin is a talented woman who is good at playing the guitar.
With her talent and hard work, she won all the prizes in and out of school, and always fantasized that when she grew up, she could make it a career to play him
Just like her idol Yui.
Despite the constant questioning of others about his lack of success, why not concentrate on her studies, she still wants to be true to herself.
Because, as long as it is related to the knot, she likes it very much.
Qianqin was once the same as Tianxiang, a person who chased hope and was not afraid to go to the lonely rain alone.
But since the second semester of the third year of junior high school, the good things of the past have come to naught.
On that day, Qianqin was suddenly sent to the hospital in a coma, and it was confirmed that she had inherited her deceased father's heart failure, and she needed to receive treatment and diagnosis every month, which was expensive.
A few days later, late at night, Qianqin brought home an injured kitten and begged her mother to let it stay.
It was the kitten that Qianqin found in the tram car, and it seems that someone deliberately abandoned it.
"Meow...... Meow ......"
How could she have imagined that her half-drunk mother would frantically grab the kitten, pipulate it into the toilet water, and then press flush the toilet.
"Meow ......" "Cat Boy!" Qianqin pushes her mother away in a panic and tries to save the kitten.
But what she finally picked up was a cold, furry body, and she never heard the cat meow again.
It was the most heartbreaking scene Qianqin had ever seen in her life.
"It's annoying enough to raise a patient like you, and you have to have multiple cats? You're not sick, are you? ”
"Useless guy, what the hell is heart disease......
You're like your dead dad and give me trouble all day long! ”
Is that so?
Qianqin grew up in a poor single-parent family, her father died of a heart attack when she was 3 years old, and her mother was plagued by mental problems.
In fact, the mother had always hated this daughter
Qianqin's birth was a pure accident, but her mother was responsible.
And now I'm going to have a heart attack......
How much money is this guy going to spend on her?
The hatred of his daughter eventually led to this tragedy.
After killing the kitten, the drunken mother beats Qianqin severely, leaving multiple scars on her thin shoulders, causing the girl to burst into tears.
Under the influence of alcohol and the flood of work pressure, my mother actually spat out all the vicious truths.
"Look at the children downstairs, they are all admitted to college, come out to be CEOs, doctors, lawyers, and make money to support their parents! How can I be as miserable as I am, just a dyslexic daughter? Play guitar all day long...... Can it be eaten as a meal? Why don't you go and make chickens? ”
"I shouldn't have given birth to you if I knew it earlier, and I don't have to be so wronged now!"
Throughout the night, Qianqin knelt down in the living room, holding the kitten's body trembling, tears pouring down her face.
"Catboy...... I'm sorry...... It's Xiaoqin who has caused you ...... "If she hadn't brought the cat home, how could the tragedy have happened?"
Everything was born because of Xiaoqin's mistakes.
"Grandma is right...... Xiaoqin is poor at reading and has heart disease, but it's just a burden at home......"
It's a burden, a burden for kittens, a burden for the family.
As a burden, what qualifications do you have to talk about ethereal dreams?
The feeling of guilt is like a thousand needles, which hurt the girl all the time.
"Xiaoqin...... I don't want to be a burden to anyone anymore. Since then, the girl has been terrified of the guitar and has devoted all her time to school, despite the pain and suffering of dyslexia.
The girl did not dare to take the tram again, because as soon as she stepped into the carriage, she would think of the kitten's pitiful death and her irreparable mistake.
"I hate riding the train." In fact, everything Qianqin does is for the sake of others.
Originally, I brought the kitten home, just so that it had a place to stay.
Originally, she learned the guitar well, but she knew that she was poor at reading, so she could only rely on her guitar attainments and earn money in the piano store to give back to her mother after graduation.
But in the end, girls are always a burden to others.
It was as if fate had told her that it was a sin for her existence in the world.
Abandoned in the lonely rain.
Fear of being alone in the sea of rain, being stabbed all over by the rain.
Ironically, in the early morning of September 10, 2016, Qianqin became a burden again.
At that time, Qianqin could no longer withstand the pressure of studying day and night.
The overwhelming amount of homework, the never-ending size tests, and the dense tutoring schedule have forced Qianqin to the brink of collapse, and she is crying in the bed these late nights.
I hate it......
Why does it have to be this way?
"Good...... It's cruel...... Why is fate so cruel......"
At that time, Qianqin suddenly became unbearable and wanted to take a tram......
Because she recalls the joy of the tram shuttling through all kinds of colors and worry-free.
Who knows, there was only endless misfortune that night.
When the tram they were riding on Kei Si Street, it suddenly derailed and hit an overnight bus, causing a serious car accident.
The entire tram flipped to the left, and the glass windows shattered rapidly.
"Xiaoqin, be careful!" Tianxiang held Qianqin in his arms, using his back and arms to block the shards.
The two were taken to the Mali hospital, where Qianqin was protected by Tianxiang, and her injuries were still minor, except that her neck and right hand were cut by fragments, and there will be permanent scars after recovery.
However, Tianxiang's condition was serious, although it was not life-threatening, but because Tianxiang fell to the ground with Qianqin in his arms, Qianqin's body pressed down, causing a serious fracture of the ulna of his right hand.
As a result, Tianxiang was recuperated in the Mali hospital for 7 weeks, and after being discharged from the hospital, his right hand was unable to exert force.
This is also the beginning of regret.
Because of the injury, Tianxiang could not hold the camera to shoot in the short term, and he did not have the opportunity to participate in the Bay Area Youth Photography Awards in early October.
This competition is Tianxiang's last chance to pursue his dream of photography, because the winner will receive a scholarship from the Institut de l'Écotégé de la Photograph in Paris to study photography at the top of the school's curriculum.
Receiving photography teaching and mentoring at the school is something he dreams of.
Tianxiang once vowed that if he couldn't win the award this time, he would give up his efforts in photography, and he had always spent too much time on photography in the past, and he couldn't leave his studies behind in his sophomore year of high school.
Tianxiang was once full of confidence and asserted that he could enter the top three, and Qianqin has always been very concerned about Tianxiang's competition, and silently wished him that he could get his wish......
The opportunity, just like that, was ruined by a car accident.
When Qianqin learned the news, she burst into tears, because all these tragedies were caused by her.
It was Qianqin's willful insistence on taking the tram that the two of them would encounter a tram accident.
It was Qianqin who pressed Tianxiang's arm when the tram flipped over, causing him to fracture his right hand.
All this ......
In fact, it was all Qianqin's fault.
In fact, Tianxiang never blamed her, but how much impact this incident had on Qianqin, she didn't even dare to go to school for a long time, and she didn't dare to face this boy.
Since the two met, Qianqin saw her own shadow from Tianxiang, and they were both people who did not want to surrender to the mainstream.
Therefore, Qianqin has always projected her feelings on him, hoping that he will succeed in photography and pursue what he loves.
All this ......
It doesn't matter anymore.
Maybe......
It's a joke of fate, right?
Qianqin will always be a burden.
"Hmmm......"
Qianqin's body trembled slightly, her hands pressed tightly on her chest, and her weak body was cold.
It's as if it's coming to an end.
"Xiaoqin...... Finally saved Tianxiang...... It's not a burden. She clenched Tianxiang's slightly warm left hand and bit her lower lip.
"If we could go back together...... How good do you say? ”
When she was in Anhe Hospital, Qianqin once said this to Tianxiang.
At that time, Qianqin knew very well in her heart that it was impossible for her to leave alive.
Because when she woke up from the hospital, she already felt pain in her chest, and gradually a strong feeling appeared: her heart could not last long.
But for the sake of Tianxiang, she had been holding back the pain in her chest until a few minutes ago.
She finally "sent" Tianxiang back to the dream, so that he could have a happy ending
Even though his fate is so humble......
Anyway, these Tianxiang won't know.
He will stay in the fantasy world, believing that he has escaped back to reality and will no longer wake up "on the tram......
Qianqin grabbed her black coat: "Tianxiang, you are really careless...... When I was in the hospital, I even asked Xiaoqin to cut her coat......
How can you chase girls like this? ”
At that time, Qianqin would rather cut her skirt to bandage Tianxiang's wounds than cut her coat.
Because, she remembers very well, this black coat was given by the boy.
This plus-size coat, just like the existence of Tianxiang, has accompanied Qianqin many sad moments.
Every time I put it on my body, I feel his warmth.
"You're not pretty enough...... Reading is poor again...... carelessness again...... It's funny all day long...... Why do I like you...... You don't have the same good ......" Qianqin looked at her coat and couldn't help but laugh stupidly.
Smiling and laughing, the girl hugged Tianxiang and cried bitterly like a little girl.
"Guan Tianxiang, I hate you to death! Why are you so nice to me! Whew...... "None."
Counting the pictures of the two getting along with each other, penetrated into Qianqin's mind.
Remembering, the boy put on his coat for himself.
Remembering, the boy shoved the horoscope bracelet into his hand.
Thinking of it, the boy did not hesitate to be injured and rushed to Xianye to save himself.
Remembered......
Remembered......
Why should you be so gentle with her, but now you want to leave her, to make her feel reluctant?
"I'm useless...... Even a fool is reluctant to ......" Qianqin's chest hurt so much that she was weak, her eyes gradually darkened, and her consciousness gradually became depressed.
Girl, about to leave the boy.
"Xiaoqin's life...... I really can't teach you to play him. "The girl really can't teach the boy to marry him anymore because she's about to leave this world.
So, she finally fulfilled her promise, kissed the boy, and returned the horoscope bracelet.
"Forgive me, I won't be by your side anymore." Before the girl finally left, she kissed the boy on the cheek again, tears sweetening the smile.
Even if the world pushes me to the Jedi, my heart already belongs to you.
“…… I like you too, fool. ”
That's right, no matter what the cost, you must go back.
Because, I like you.