Every night when the girl came home for dinner, she would hide in the dark room and cry after cleaning the dishes. powerless to change, so helplessly suppress himself......

On a gray and rainy day, a group of unscrupulous boys surrounded her, unscrupulously hugged her waist, and even ripped off the left shoulder of her white school uniform, ridiculing her as a prostitute...... That offense is definitely a sexual offense, but the girl who hates communicating with people has no incentive to report it......

This world ...... Not worth touching girls...... It...... It's scary...... Unfathomable......

The girl who is constantly suffering mental devastation finally falls into the bottomless abyss and can't extricate herself from self-harm.

The feeling of disillusionment is like the rain of the desert willingly dropping the last drop, it is too difficult, too cruel, and at the same time it is forced to be helpless.

Trauma never fades, and only greater trauma can erase the old pain.

Every time I secretly locked the door and cut my right leg with a razor, the redness that flowed out and the pain that came out were all in my thoughts. No longer have to face the helplessness of life, no longer have to worry about inexplicable pain......

The thrill of relief is indescribable.

Indiscriminate harm to the body...... It's an aberration...... Too cruel......

Abnormal, but not accustomed to the hidden facts.

Originally, the truth is cruel, how can you pretend that everything is normal? If you don't cut your body, will the outside world be better? Suppress everything, smile at each other, and wrap nightmares as gorgeous as gifts, will life be beautiful and colorful?

The cruel has never been himself.

Aberrations are always a fact, if society is to call them aberrations. The stranger in the city, who has been suppressed under the false smokescreen for a long time, actually regards the negative emotions in his heart as the so-called abnormality......

Gradually, the sky darkened.

The illusory playground faded and gradually became a different image, which was the middle school campus two weeks later. Now the time is

A little more than 7 o'clock, Guan Tianxiang suddenly confirmed. It was getting dark, the campus was going to close at 7 a.m., and the school workers were leaving at 8 a.m......

The boy led the girl behind the audience in the school pool next to the playground.

"Dry ...... What are you doing, you will let the school staff arrest you, and you will be punished by the director of discipline...... "The girl doesn't know why." The two hid behind a hidden audience until 8 a.m., when they were left on campus, and the boy dragged the girl out of the pool.

"Guan Tianxiang, what are you doing......" The girl was puzzled. She believed that the upright Ah Xiang would not violate or hurt her, but why did she stay in school in the evening in violation of school rules?

Without saying a word, the boy led the girl to the empty playground. In the evening of the clear Bay Area, a few pale yellow flowers hung in the boundless, and there was a burst of youth.

In that suffocating gray haze, will there really be a few bright spots?

"Ah Xiang, where do you want to go—"

"You'll find out later." For the first time, the boy spat out a complete sentence to the girl.

The girl thought that Ah Xiang was going to take her to the center of the playground, but she was wrong – the boy led her to the wall of the three-story school building, next to a straight elevator that connected to the roof of the school.

"Climb up? Are you stupid......" The girl pointed to the "Do Not Climb" sign next to the elevator, "It may be a big demerit if someone finds out...... Ask to withdraw from school at any time......"

The boy took the girl's bag: "Hmm. ”

Rebellious romance.

Ah Xiang, who was carrying a girl's backpack, took the lead to the vast rooftop and led the girl to the platform, but the girl was completely stunned.

"Why are you on the rooftop...... Well? ”

In addition to the schoolbag accident, there is also a wooden knot him.

"You can play the guitar?" The girl sat in the middle of the rooftop in confusion, and the boy began to play the first phrase in embarrassment with his guitar...... I made a mistake.

The girl couldn't help but chuckle and said stupidly, "Don't force it—"

The boy pressed the wire with his left hand again, tried again, and this time it worked. The girl put aside the flirtatious smile she had just played, and meditated on the sadness in the music.

Is that...... A Japanese song, but the girl knows the meaning of the lyrics, it is the song to which the lyrics of the stuffed doll Rig Tsai book belong......

In the world of nothingness behind infinite dreams

Although even admiration and longing seem to be defeated

Ah Xiang finished playing the last sentence, and the girl couldn't speak.

After a long time, she spoke: "You have been practicing for a long time? ”

That's just talking to myself. The song is played correctly, and the lyrics are almost error-free. It was Koji Wada's Butterfly, the theme song of the cartoon, and the sadness in the lyrics told about the struggle in a desperate situation. Ever since the girl took the lyrics from the boy's grid paper, she immediately searched for the song, and the lyrics in it may be the girl's only solace under the night sky.

Everything, probably because Ah Xiang guessed that the girl was self-harming in the playground last time, right?

In fact, the boy disappeared for two weeks just to practice this song. Because I don't know how to end him, I have to spend a lot of time writing down which line to press for each paragraph. How long does it take for a stuttering boy who doesn't know Japanese to be able to sing a dozen lyrics without mistakes?

The boy muttered, "Even if it's desperate...... Are there some things you're willing to stick to......"

The girl lowered her head, bit her lower lip, and smiled bitterly after a few seconds: "Something...... There is no power to change ......"

Unable to change that desperate situation, it is better to be numb to the pain that hits and forget everything that is unpleasant? The girl knows that there are too many things in life that she can never do......

"Send ...... To you. ”

Meng Yao was stunned for a moment, and took the Mao Mao doll that the boy took out from the schoolbag, silent.

Ah Xiang faced the girl with the only courage, "I'm ...... West Nine Dragons Center Apple Mall bought back ......"

"You've been stuffing this big stuffed doll in your bag?" Meng Yao frowned, looking at the fluffy light blue item.

The boy was stunned at first, and then panicked: "Hmm...... A hole was pierced under the hairy tail...... I didn't know until I bought it, but I couldn't change it...... I'm sorry......"

The girl flattened her mouth, but after a few seconds, she smiled mischievously: "This is not a hole, this kind of doll is called a hand puppet ......"

The girl who was smirking was stunned when she took out the objects in the stuffed doll.

It was a scar removal cream.

"Thank you for comforting me in the playground two years ago...... I saw a lot of scars on your right foot, as if you were very unhappy, bought it at the pharmacy yesterday...... Don't hurt yourself...... Even if you are desperate, you can't give up hope......"

Even the clumsy wings that are stained with the impression of stagnation

It's bound to fly, too, on my love

The girl's slender body trembled slightly, biting her lower lip and turning her face away. She hugged her right leg, and there were more than a dozen large and small, criss-crossing blood-red scars on her leg, which made people sadistic......

Guan Tianxiang was suddenly shocked, and the fragments of broken memories suddenly overlapped...... The posture of the girl holding her right leg in front of her is too familiar......

That image is deeply imprinted in the boy's memory...... Every knife is a catharsis of the helplessness of a desolate fate......

Just now, Guan Tianxiang saw almost the same action of hugging his right leg...... Did you leave the hellish space full of monsters and come to this world of memories?

"Why are you crying...... Looking at the girl's scarred right leg, Ah Xiang was also very sad.

The tearful girl did not answer, and collapsed holding her right leg to herself.

For others, Ah Xiang's words are just insignificant greetings, but for the melancholy girl who has lacked care and warmth for a long time, it is such a tear-jerking love.

Just because, the girl is so lonely.

The girl's tears came from discovering that the puppet had been given to her. When I went to school today, the girl witnessed Ah Xiang being snatched of the injured blue puppet in class, and the boy was punched and kicked for a long time before retrieving the stuffed doll on the ground......

In the gloomy and desolate world behind the infinite dream

Even if you deviate from common sense, it's not bad, right?

Everything, that is, for a moment of comfort for the girl? That's it?

The girl cried weakly.

In order to avoid being traumatized, people have built a shell of hypocrisy, drawing an insurmountable line, and slowly, the color of this world fades completely, leaving a gloomy loneliness, and a period of memories leaving gray and desolate.

And how many people are willing to step into that line and let the fragile depths of others out of the freezing point?

After struggling in depression for a long time, the girl firmly hid the desolation in her heart, but she didn't expect that there would be someone who sincerely cared about her.

Even the clumsy wings that are stained with the impression of stagnation

I will be able to fly, too, about my love

This boy is like a rose in torment in the life of a gloomy girl.

Although, for boys, she is just a friend, and boys have never liked her because they have never been dedicated to helping each other......

The girl couldn't say how she felt at the moment, but ...... What is love, girls seem to have experienced. Everything is childish, but pure gentleness......

"In this ...... Are you willing to say that...... What's your name? The boy said.

The girl was stunned and wiped her eyes: "You want to know?" ”

"That ......"

"I can say that, but you have to promise me one thing......"

"Huh?"

"You promised me to protect myself and not get hurt." The girl sobbed, every tear for him.

"Uh-huh......" the boy didn't know why the girl said that.

"Don't break your word." The girl stretched out the tail finger of her right hand stained with teardrops, and the two tear stains were very cute and beautiful, making people want to cry......

The boy hooked the girl's finger tail warmly, and he didn't understand how important he was in the heart of a melancholy lonely girl. Of course, the girl knows how hard a boy can suffer in society for a person who gives 100% of his or her heart to the world, because she used to be like that.

The boy spoke again: "And what's your name?" ”

Shu Mengyao.

Guan Tianxiang lowered his head, his green and yellow shirt was already stained with teardrops.

With such a nice name, why did Guan Tianxiang forget it.

She is a girl Guan Tianxiang met in the sixth grade.

Suddenly, the picture changed from a rooftop to a pale hospital. Guan Tianxiang stared in amazement, unable to remember this incident at all......

In the colorless ward, Meng Yao held the hand of the boy who had just woken up with his head bandaged.

"Ah Xiang ......" The girl who burst into tears saw him with her eyes open, and almost wanted to lean into his arms.

In order to practice that song to encourage the girl, the boy skipped all the lessons of the day, and had not eaten all day, and when he was about to leave the rooftop that night, he was about to climb down the ladder and fell with his legs. Fortunately, the height of the fall was only about 9 meters, which was not fatal, and the boy just fell into the grass, which reduced the damage of the collision, and there was no major problem in many parts of the body, but the head was unfortunately seriously hit.

"Hmm...... Well? Are you ......" Ah Xiang looked up at the girl, his brow furrowed in confusion.

The girl learned from Ah Xiang's parents that Ah Xiang suffered a head injury, had a moderate concussion, and had a confused memory. The doctor emphasized that it is not amnesia, all memories will not disappear, but the patient will have difficulty in memory integration of a small number of people who have experienced or known in the past, if he does not deliberately stimulate him to connect a certain part of the memory by talking and acting in front of the injured person, he will have difficulty integrating the ins and outs of things, and he will try his best to recall to be able to integrate a complete memory cognition.

Unfortunately, by coincidence, the boy's impression of the girl was blurred, and it was difficult to piece together a complete cognitive memory of the girl, and he could not even clearly integrate the memories of the two of them coming home every day.

That time, Meng Yao cried for a long time in the arms of her father, who rushed to the hospital from the site. The girl hugged the stuffed doll given by Ah Xiang, and her tears had already wet the doll......

Ah Xiang's parents told Meng Yao that they would apply for a transfer for Ah Xiang, and in the second semester of the second year of junior high school, they would transfer to a boys' school in the old district of Nine Dragons, and they would also move to City One Shatin next year. Moreover, his parents talked to Ah Xiang and found that his memory of high school seemed to be the most vague.

Of course, the girl knew that the boy had the terrible shadow of being bullied when he was in high school, because several times when Ah Xiang was bullied, the girls in the neighboring class saw it from a distance.

Meng Yao, who was crying, remembered the situation when Ah Xiang was bullied, and the tragic situation of crying in the rain...... The grief faced by Ah Xiang was far beyond the girl's imagination. The girl knows that to some extent, it is also because of the coincidence that the boy is bullied that she will meet the boy who cries. If Ah Xiang is forcibly stimulated and forced to remember everything about the girl, it is likely that he will also recall the grief of being bullied......

Girl staring at hairy doll ...... If he didn't deliberately let Ah Xiang remember himself, maybe he would forget all the grievances that Gao Xiao had been ravaged...... Forget the pain of failure to pursue a girl, the helplessness of being bullied, and the inferiority complex of being looked down upon......

The girl heard that after the boy woke up, the problem of stuttering improved significantly, and the answers were fluent, and the words were much clearer, but he could not integrate part of the memory. After transferring to a new school, his communication skills have returned to normal, and he may be able to truly forget the past and start a new page in his life...... A more beautiful life......

In vain struggle can, if you can't fight against it.

Try. Oblivion.

It was the girl's last blessing.

When she turned around, tears rained down on the girl.

All the remaining impressions of the memory screen......

"That's right, we'll meet again." That was the first thing Meng Yao said to Guan Tianxiang in the building. At first, Guan Tianxiang thought that the first time they met was outside the window.

Guan Tianxiang didn't know a girl named Aixi at all, it was just a name that Meng Yao deliberately made up, in order not to remind the boy of himself.

The stuffed doll is not the one that Guan Tianxiang threw out of Jerry's house...... It was given to the girl by Guan Tianxiang when he was in his second year of junior high school.

Along the way, the girl tried her best to hide it in order to let Guan Tianxiang continue to forget the despair of being bullied. Even though Guan Tianxiang, who was ignorant, spit out countless sadistic curses, she still chose to swallow her grievances.

All the lies are so gentle.

This girl, in order to protect Guan Tianxiang, how many grievances did she bear behind her back, and how much sorrow did she shed?

Guan Tianxiang couldn't help crying...... From beginning to end, Guan Tianxiang also misjudged......

Everything the girl did, but in order to make Guan Tianxiang forget her.

Meng Yao...... I'm sorry......

Guan Tianxiang clenched his fists and looked around with a hazy gaze.

Guan Tianxiang must leave here...... Go back to the game world and save the girl......

The flood of emotions can no longer be carried, but Guan Tianxiang must pull himself together......

"Meow." The kitten ran in one direction.

Guan Tianxiang raised his head and stared at the figure in front of him with a hazy gaze......