Ah Yu and I haven't seen each other for nearly a month, and when I saw him again, I found that he had lost a little weight again.

When I woke up, he was sitting in the chair next to me reading a book, he was as quiet as a statue, I thought there was no one next to me when I first woke up, and when he spoke, I was scared.

He asked me softly, "Did you sleep well?" ”

I stretched, nodded, hugged Nana in my arms, and adjusted her sleeping position to make her more comfortable.

Ah Yu touched her head, looking at her with eyes full of love, he smiled: "She hasn't taken a nap for many days." ”

I asked him, "What about you?" How have you slept lately? ”

He has been suffering from insomnia since he broke up with me, and after taking all the sleeping pills, he still can't sleep, and he can only sleep normally when I am with him.

Half a year ago, Junyi took him out to find a cure for insomnia, and from a master cured the insomnia that had plagued him for many days.

He looked me in the eye, nodded at me and said, "It's all right, I haven't lost sleep since I came back from the master, and I'm getting better and better every day." ”

Hearing him say this, I don't worry about anything anymore, Ah Yu usually doesn't hide anything in order to take care of my feelings, he has always been the most honest with me.

We chatted until Nana woke up.

She opened her eyes and yawned, then put her arms around my neck, and she called out to me with her eyes half-open.

Nana is the most ashamed of my children, before she was born, I decided to give her to Ah Yu and Ah Guang to raise, so she took Ah Guang's surname, called Nara Nana.

Ah Guang regarded her as his own daughter, and loved her so much that he couldn't wait to take off the stars and give them to her.

My mother didn't fulfill any responsibilities, I rarely accompanied her, and most of the things that took care of her were done by her two fathers, and my birth mother was like an outsider.

Nana is still young, she can't feel the difference that her mother is not always around, maybe she will blame me when she grows up.

At half past five, the three of us went to a fast food restaurant for dinner, which is one of the few "family of three" dinners, and I hope that there will be more such moments in the future, and try to bring some good memories to Nana.

Junichi called halfway through the meal, and he asked me when I would arrive.

I forgot all about bringing him food, so I had to stabilize him first and tell him that I would be there in half an hour.

As for dinner, it's good to buy him some casually, he snubbed me today, it's good that I'm willing to buy him food, he's not qualified to be picky.

Ah Yu said that I wanted to come with me to visit Junichi, and I hesitated for a moment and agreed to let them go together.

Forty minutes later, the three of us arrived in the ward with a pork chop meal.

Seeing Ah Yu coming with me, Junichi was not angry or surprised, he said that he had already guessed.

The two of them hadn't seen each other since Nana's birthday party on March 15, and they had a lot to say about this reunion.

Chun chatted with Ah Yu about literature while eating, and it seemed that he was in a good mood.

Junichi is really a very open-minded person, and the relationship between me and Ah Yu was too close in the past, and he did very excessive things to me because of jealousy (after recovering the ligation four and a half years ago, he locked me up at home and made me pregnant with Sakura without my knowledge).

Later, I couldn't give up this friendship, and he not only accepted Ah Yu, but also agreed to make him Sakura's stepfather.

I've known Ah Yu for nine and a half years, and Junichi has eaten vinegar for nine and a half years.

But no matter how jealous or angry he is, he can become friends with Ah Yu who talks about everything, and he can abandon his previous suspicions and talk to him, and his open-mindedness makes me admire and be ashamed.

If you want to talk about the right and wrong in our marriage, I think my problem is a little bigger, I have a double standard for Junichi, I don't allow him to get too close to friends of the opposite sex, and as a result, Ah Yu and I always have a way of contact and getting along that he minds.

I finally decided to forgive him for the incident when he locked me up.

Because the cause of all this is me, it is me who has not drawn a clear line with his friends of the opposite sex, and he has been in a state of insecurity for a long time.

He was a bit of a bigot, but his paranoia was only about me, one of the few shortcomings of a perfect pure body.

During the period of time he was locked up, at first he added sleeping pills to my food and drink, and he didn't take any more drugs after I noticed something was wrong.

He didn't want to keep me locked up for too long, he just did it to get me pregnant, and he was going to admit his mistake to me when I tested pregnant.

As for why he wanted me to get pregnant in this way, it was because he had a bad head, and he knew that if he confessed from the beginning, he would do his best to resist, so he chose the extreme method.

He felt that pregnancy would keep me with him, and he was so afraid of losing me that he thought of such a way that I couldn't leave him.

After I escaped, I took a taxi to Ah Yu's house, and he took me to a foreign country on Ah Guang's private jet.

In the period before I went back, Junichi reflected on his mistakes every day, and he realized his mistakes and apologized to me seriously and sincerely.

It was at that time that he accepted the fact that I saw Ah Yu as a soul mate, and he thought that everyone would meet their soul mate.

So, like a chain reaction, he regarded her as his soul mate when he met Chiaki, and talked about her everything, from morning to night, and even forgot about me.

If you want to talk about the origin of everything, it seems that it is me, and it is I who cause everything to happen.

If I hadn't been too close to Ah Yu and made Junichi insecure, if I hadn't used cold violence against Junichi for more than twenty years, if I had said "I love you" to him well, we wouldn't have come to the point of divorce.

Chiaki wouldn't be sad because he was dumped by Junichi, Shinichi Ooka wouldn't comfort Chiaki, and the two of them wouldn't be together.

If they weren't together, Shinichi wouldn't have betrayed Chiaki because Akizuki Mari had come back from abroad, and he and Chiaki wouldn't have broken up in a relationship.

If they hadn't broken up, Chiaki wouldn't have been threatened by Shinichi to return to him with intimate photos, and if he hadn't threatened her, he wouldn't have been beaten by Junichi.

If none of this had happened, Shinichi wouldn't have hanged himself in his own home......

It's all because of me.

The pain of a thousand autumns.

Shinichi's death.

The pain of a new parent.

It's all because of me.

If it's just to make me grow, to make me a person with a normal temperament, then this kind of price is inevitably too great.

I'd rather never have Junichi's love from the beginning, and I'd rather have been in unrequited love since I fell in love with him at the age of 14.

It's useless to talk about anything now, these sins and debts can only be slowly repaid through the rest of life.