When you are staring into the abyss, the abyss is staring at you.

This quote comes from Nietzsche's "The Other Side of Good and Evil", in which the original words are: "If you fight with the evil dragon for too long, you will become an evil dragon yourself; Stare into the abyss for too long, and the abyss will stare back. ”

In layman's terms, it means that while you are battling the darkness, the darkness is also eating away at you. When you look at evil, evil looks at your heart in turn.

My name is Qin Mu, and I am a criminal policeman of the Ningzhou Serious Crime Team, and I have personally experienced this sentence countless times in my police career. Because all murderers, more or less, have been victims, there are no natural criminals in the world at all, they just push honest people into a hurry.

But as a criminal police officer, I am a law enforcer, and my duty is to punish criminals.

If I want to destroy criminals, I have to be better than criminals. If the criminals are better than me, I will be attacked by the criminals. Once I waver in my heart about the tragic fate of those criminals, then I am swallowed up by the abyss.

So I have to have a firm heart and a deep enough understanding of myself.

For so long, I have always insisted that no encounter can be used as a reason for crime, and that no one is above the law to enforce what he calls "justice".

We have just returned to Ningzhou City from Renxi City, and this trip to Renxi City is to track down the fugitive involved in the D serial murder case of Ningzhou Forget Worry Music Bar - Agen. As a result, a serial poisoning case in Renxi City was involved, and then a thorough net collection operation was carried out against the manufacturing and trafficking D organization entrenched in Ruiqing Village.

For our Serious Crime Team, especially for me, it is the arrest of a senior member of the Hexagram Criminal Organization - Alchemist, Ye Junxi.

As we deepen our understanding of the Hexagram Crime Organization, we truly know the purpose of the Hexagram Crime Organization, as well as their core - sacrifice and eternal life.

Just as the arrest in Renxi City was coming to an end, I suddenly received a call from my wife, who told me that my master, Shen Ruoshan, was sick and hospitalized.

From the tone of my master's voice, I felt that this time Master Shen Ruoshan's illness seemed to be very serious, and it had been for a while.

At this moment, I suddenly figured it out, no wonder since the establishment of the serious crime team, Shen Ruoshan rarely came forward, and he almost never showed up later, we always thought that he was busy in the provincial department, but we didn't expect it......

Thinking of this, a trace of sourness welled up in my heart, I often say that Shen Ruoshan is like my father on weekdays, but I don't have time to visit this father often, nor do I often make a phone call to inquire about the current situation and talk about family life.

I often comfort myself with the fact that I have been busy lately and make excuses for myself, but this time when I heard that Shen Ruoshan was seriously ill, I suddenly felt very guilty in my heart.

After arriving in Ningzhou City with the team, I did not return to the bureau, but drove directly to the First People's Hospital of Ningzhou City.

"Master."

I trotted all the way to the oncology department, and in the corridor I saw Shen Ruoshan's wife, my wife.

I haven't seen my wife for a long time, and I remember that when I first joined the police force, Ye Yun and I would go to Master Shen Ruoshan's house every weekend, and my wife would cook good dishes and take care of us like a mother.

My wife is a nurse, and she met Master more than 30 years ago during a disaster relief process, and the two fell in love at first sight and finally tied the knot. My wife is a southern girl with a gentle and considerate personality, and she has lived with her master for so long, and she has never quarreled.

When I saw her today, I almost didn't recognize her, her appearance was completely different from what I remembered.

My wife's face was sallow, her hair was a little messy, and her sideburns had grown white hair, and she looked very weak, like a gust of wind that could blow her down.

"Ah Mu." When my wife saw me, she affectionately called out my nickname.

The voice was still the same kind and gentle, but the tone was mixed with a little trembling, his voice was a little hoarse, and his eyes were red, as if he had just cried.

"Master, what's wrong with Master?" I walked quickly to my wife's side and asked seriously.

My wife held my hand tightly, wiped her tears with the other hand, and whispered to me, "Go and see him......

I took a deep breath, calmed down, and turned and walked into the room.

Shen Ruoshan was lying on the hospital bed, asleep deeply, still inhaling oxygen, bottle after bottle of infusion.

The room was very quiet, only the sound of Shen Ruoshan's breathing, and the dripping sound from the vital signs monitor from time to time.

For a while, my brain went blank, looking at Shen Ruoshan on the hospital bed, tears instantly swirled in my eyes. I had mixed feelings in my heart, and I didn't know what to say for a while.

"Master, when did this happen?" I swallowed hard and made a somewhat trembling sound.

"It's been more than a month, and he's still so stubborn, and no one will tell him. I'm afraid to tell you that I've been getting worse lately. The most common thing he usually talks about is you, and Ah Yun," said the master, and the tears couldn't stop flowing down.

"This time...... Is it still the same as last time? I sobbed, wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and asked softly.

Three years ago, Shen Ruoshan was hospitalized once, it was liver disease, and the hospital said that it was liver cirrhosis, and his condition was relatively serious and needed to be hospitalized.

Master's liver disease is accumulated over time, he is a stubborn temper, he takes his work extremely seriously, often works overtime and stays up late, when he is young, he is strong and strong, and he can't feel anything, but after a long time, there are still problems with his body.

At that time, Shen Ruoshan should have been hospitalized, but at that time, because the public security organs were starting to close the net on the 6.25 cross-border smuggling case, Shen Ruoshan did not listen to the request of his wife and the bureau, and resolutely did not stay in the hospital for treatment, and must go out in person.

It was at that time that Ye Yun disappeared, which hit his spirit very hard, and in the long run, his condition was also getting worse.

My wife held my hand tightly, and I could feel her trembling, but she was holding her breath to support her body from falling. But I know that she is on the verge of collapse, both mentally and physically, and she is a little overwhelmed.

"This time...... It's liver cancer......" Mrs. said in a deep voice, and then she let out a whimpering cry.

She was trying to control her emotions, but when she saw me, she couldn't control it anymore.

"Liver cancer? Isn't it cirrhosis? Didn't Master go to the hospital after that operation? How did it become liver cancer?! "I was instantly stunned, my whole body became numb, and my brain went blank as if it had been struck by lightning.

My wife beat me on the hospital bed next to me, and kept taking deep breaths, trying to suppress her crying: "Actually, three years ago...... Cirrhosis of the liver became cancerous, so we asked him to be hospitalized, but his temper did not agree to anything...... In the past three years, he has also resolutely not been hospitalized, saying that people's fate is destined to not waste time in the hospital, but only to come to the hospital regularly for examination and treatment......"

As the master spoke, she couldn't control herself anymore and cried out loud: "He said that he still has a very important matter to deal with......