Love You To Kill You (Part II)

(a)

I feel like I'm in love with you.

Although you don't know me, or even meet me yet, I've completely fallen into your sweet smile......

If one day, you see me, you will definitely cry and ask me, how did I find you......

At that time, I would be very proud to tell you that it took me almost a month to see you.

I've done so much in this month......

Do you believe in fate? We are destined to be in the previous life, and in this life, we are destined to be together.

We are like two magnets, even if we are separated, we are destined to meet again.

(b)

The first time I met you was on a sunny morning.

It's just that you didn't see me.

Because you can't see me at all, we've never met, and that day was too.

Actually, I've only seen your photos.

I saw you in the same city of social media, you are very beautiful, your skin is very white, there is light in your eyes, and your eyes seem to be able to speak.

Especially the pear vortex that appeared from time to time at that time, and that pure and sweet smile, is the type I like.

The moment I saw your picture, I knew I was in love with you.

You are the Snow White I was destined to be, and I am destined to be your Prince Charming.

I will definitely come into your life, into your world, into your life.

For the rest of your life, I will definitely be there.

I'm in love with you, I can't help myself, I just close my eyes and I think of you in my mind.

You don't understand that feeling at all, and you don't need to understand it.

You just need to know that I love you deeply.

On the Internet, you are so virtual that I can't touch you, I can only look at you quietly through the computer screen.

So, I saved your photo and set it as a desktop background and a mobile phone theme screensaver.

I also printed out your photo, put it on the wall, put it at the head of the bed, and made your photo into a full-body pillow......

But I found that it wasn't enough, I had to know more about you......

(c)

I clicked on your profile and saw your basic information.

[Nickname: Little Lamb Eats Hot Pot]

【Location: Ningzhou City】

[Gender: Female]

[Birthday: May 30]

【Zodiac Sign: Gemini】

[Introduction: Headphone dependent patient, goldfish memory master.] 】

[Registration time: June 12, 2009]

Without even thinking about it, I quietly followed your account and became the least noticeable of your many followers.

At this moment, I suddenly felt an inexplicable sense of happiness in my heart, because I finally walked into your life.

Unfortunately, you won't know I exist.

I want to know more about you, I clicked on your personal homepage and looked through the content you have posted over the past few years.

Your dynamics are all about your daily life.

You love desserts and go to that café often.

You like to wear white t-shirts and plaid skirts.

You like to sit by the window and like to be alone in a daze.

Your favorite food is hot pot, and you go to it almost once a week with your girlfriends.

I saw your girlfriends, they are not as beautiful as you, because I only have you in my heart.

That day, I saw one of your dynamic shares, which was a song.

[Eason Chan - "The Lonely Brave"]

I clicked on the song and jumped to your NetEase Cloud Music Software account.

It's all Eason Chan's songs, I think, you should be a fan of Eason Chan.

No wonder your account profile says headphone-dependent patients, it seems that you like to listen to music with headphones.

Maybe in life, you will also wear headphones all the time.

On the street, in the mall, on the subway, at home......

You wouldn't know that night, I looped the songs from your list all night.

Maybe on the other end, you're listening, too.

Maybe at the same time, we're listening to the same song.

This is fate......

I continued to flip through and saw another story from four years ago.

[Content: The lamb graduated today! ] 】

[Pictured: A full-body photo wearing a bachelor's gown.] 】

I have to say, I really have a vision, you are the most beautiful girl, and you are the Snow White in my heart.

You must have put on the most beautiful makeup that day.

The background of the photo has the words "Ningzhou Normal University" in it, and your bachelor's gown is pink, indicating that you are wearing a liberal arts bachelor's gown.

You're a liberal arts girl, but I don't know what your major is.

Clicking on the comments below, I saw a lot of blessed words -

[Congratulations to Xiao Yang on graduation!] 】

[Congratulations to the junior! 】

[Senior sister has a bright future! ] 】

It turns out that your surname is Yang.

Xiao Yang, little sheep, you must be as docile and cute as a sheep.

With the information about you, I know more and more, and while I have a very strong sense of pride and satisfaction, at the same time, my heart is even more empty.

Even if I know everything about you, I can't really embrace you.

Even if I did everything, you wouldn't know that there is a me in the world who loves you deeply.

So, these are far from enough for me, I must know more about you.

Because I love you, and I can't help myself.

You are a part of my life, an integral part of it.

Nothing could stop me, I just kept flipping through it like crazy.

Then, I saw a message about you in the feed.

[Contents: Today's sunshine is so good]

[Pictured: You are wearing a cheongsam, holding a sign that says "Chinese Department", and walking at the front of the phalanx. 】

Calculate the time, this should be taken when you were a sophomore in the school athletic meet.

You are a beauty billet and look good in anything, especially in this photo.

You are holding a small bun and wearing a white and elegant cheongsam, highlighting the temperament of an oriental woman, with a faint daisy pattern on it, and the collar and cuffs cuffs cleverly use flower patterns to lock the white edges.

Tall, with bare and white calves, the whole person is a tranquil and beautiful daisy.

You hold your head high and have a confident smile on your face......

(iv)

I used the QQ number of the female identity that I had prepared a long time ago and clicked on the button to add a group chat.

Depending on your school, major, and school year, you are constantly adjusting your search keywords.

Finally, I found a group called "Ningzhou Normal University XX Level Chinese Department Official Group".

I clicked the Add Group button, but no one agreed to my application for a long time.

I'm disappointed because I feel like this is the closest you've ever been.

Even being able to stay in a group with you is a great satisfaction for me.

But I waited all night, and no one agreed to my application.

Even that didn't stop me.

I clicked on the list of group members, and according to the remarks in the group, I looked for a female account surnamed Yang.

I clicked on them one by one and browsed through their profiles.

Yang Zihan, birthday January 9.

Yang Chenxi, birthday June 12.

Yang Qing, birthday April 26.

Yang Linying, birthday November 16.

Yang Shiya, birthday May 30.

I think, I've found you......

I clicked on the application to add friends and typed on the verification message: "Hello senior sister, my XX level Chinese student, working in the employment department of the school, is counting the employment situation of college graduates, and wants to contact you for a questionnaire." ”

Sure enough, it didn't take long for you to agree to my friend request.

Through the flawless chat inquiry, I learned that you are now working at the XX News Literature and Art Publishing House.

At the same time, I also flipped through your past news, talks, logs, message boards, and photos in your QQ.

I read all the messages you've posted and learn all about you in this way.

In this way, I want to go through your life all over again.

I've saved all your photos and stored them on my computer.

(5)

Even if you don't add my friends, I can know everything about you.

Because, I'm looking for all the news about you on the Tieba forums in your school and college.

Soon, I saw that you posted a missing place notice in the school Tiba.

[I lost my meal card, please contact me if I picked it up.] Yang Shiya, Class 2, Department of Chinese, Tel: 13XXXXXXX32】

In order to avoid having the same name and surname, I continue to look for your news in the post bar.

I found a post –

[Chinese Department final exam question bank, leave the email address if you want. ] 】

In the message below, I see that the email address you left is corresponding to your QQ account.

(f)

In the past few days, I have been frantically looking for your news on the Internet, and I have been constantly looking for your name and nickname.

More than 20 intra-city social software were downloaded from the mobile phone.

I logged on to Renren, typed in your name, and found a lot of people with the same name and surname as you.

In the end, I kept sifting through your birthday and finally found you.

At that moment, I was extremely excited because I knew you better.

Unfortunately, I didn't find much information about you, so you probably haven't logged into this app since you graduated from high school......

(g)

But it doesn't matter, because I know you well enough.

A few days later, I saw your latest updates again.

[Content: I temporarily worked for 2 hours, and finally got off work, and it cost 20 yuan to take a taxi home, and I was simply reimbursed by the unit. 】

[Pictured: It is a night view of the city outside the window taken in a taxi.] 】

It's 9 o'clock in the evening, so it looks like you usually get off work at 7 o'clock.

It's lonely to live alone, but don't worry, I'll be with you as soon as possible.

[Content: I moved to a place closer to the company, but I didn't expect that there were mosquitoes on the 9th floor, is there any good way to repel mosquitoes?] 】

[Pictured: It is a gazebo in a forest fitness park taken by a window.] 】

It turns out that your home is near the park, and the environment must be very good, and the air must be great, so I'm really happy for you.

(viii)

As I got to know you better, my mood seemed to become beautiful.

I feel that the day of our meeting is not far off, and I will be able to go to you soon.

I opened the map software on my phone, used the satellite map, and found the address of your workplace.

Based on the scenery outside the window where you took a taxi home from overtime, I found the direction you went home.

Your home, to the west of your workplace.

Based on the price of twenty dollars, converted into miles, I know the approximate range of your home.

Within that range, I'm looking for neighborhoods where you might live.

Finally, I found a community close to the forest fitness park - Lotus Community.

In the gazebo photo you took, there is no residential building in front of you, which means that the residential building you are in is on the outermost side of the community.

According to the angle from which the gazebo was photographed, you live on the 9th floor of Building 7 in the Lotus Community.

(ix)

I think I know you pretty well by now.

Nickname: Little Lamb eats hot pot

Name: Yang Shiya

Gender: Female

Date of birth: May 30th

Zodiac sign: Gemini

Mobile phone number: 13XXXXXXX32

Email: [email protected]

Location: 9th Floor, Building 7, Lianhua Community, Ningzhou City

Work unit: XX News Literature and Art Publishing House

Graduated from: Ningzhou Normal University (September 2014 - June 2018)

Major: 2 classes of Chinese Department

Hobbies: Eating hot pot, eating desserts, listening to music with headphones (Eason Chan fans)

Under normal circumstances, the working time is from 8 a.m. to 7 p.m., and when you go home, you will take the subway, which is expected to take 25 minutes, and the Lotus Community is 15 minutes' walk from the nearest subway station.

I think I've found you.

I think I should go see you......

In order to make a good impression on you, I showered, shaved and changed into my best clothes.

I wandered on the way from the subway station to the Lotus community, looking forward to seeing you.

I could feel my breathing speeding up and my heart pounding.

At this moment, you will feel the same way.

After all, we were a natural pair.

It's been a month, and we're finally able to meet, and I'm sure you're looking forward to it.

It's time, but you don't show up, and I feel a little lost.

I've never been so lost.

Thankfully, you didn't keep me waiting.

Under my watchful eye, you walked out of the subway station and prepared to go home.

You are carrying a packaged dessert and a cup of milk tea in your hand, and it turns out that these are the ones who have lost time.

However, I didn't care, because I had been waiting for a month, and I didn't care about these few minutes.

Watching you pass by me with your headphones on, I smell a faint smell of perfume.

The smell irritated my nerves.

I stand up and follow your back.

I plucked up the courage to come up and greet you.

You can't escape anymore......

……

When I got home, it was late at night.

I was covered in mud.

But at this moment, my mood is extremely relaxed.

Sitting back in front of the computer, I put everything I know about you in one folder.

Hit the keyboard and name the folder –

[017—Yang Shiya]

Then, I clicked on the social media in the same city and looked for my No. 18......