Life is nothing but a gentle and cruel beginning and end, leaving a blank space of great sorrow and joy in the end.

Because I met you, everything is so natural.

01

Chen Yixuan is my primary school, we are neighbors, and we study in the same primary school and junior high school.

He and I have the same or similar views on many things, but when it comes to feelings, we have different ideas.

If I compare my feelings to the four seasons, I am the middle of autumn, dull and gentle; He is Xia Sheng, reckless and fiery.

He didn't pay attention to his studies, and he went to start a business before graduating from his bachelor's degree, and we had little contact during that time, but our feelings for each other did not fade because of this.

Therefore, when he heard about Lu Xiaoyu, he came to Beijing on a special trip.

"I've booked the restaurant, and I'll send you the location later." Chen Yixuan didn't allow me to speak, "See you tonight." ”

He hung up.

In fact, even if he didn't hang up the phone, I don't think I would refuse.

He chose a private restaurant, in a famous business district in Chaoyang, just by listening to the name, he knew that the price was expensive.

The house I rented was outside the 6th Ring Road, changed to the subway three times, and was 10 minutes late.

He stood up and walked over quickly and gave me a big hug.

He has a nice smell of men's perfume, giving a refreshing and luxurious complexity.

We sat across from each other, and he slowly placed four identical phones on the table, lined up like a line of soldiers waiting to be reviewed.

"I've heard about the whisper." His voice was deep and magnetic, still the way he remembered it.

It was as if my heart had suddenly stepped on a flight of stairs.

"Life should always look forward, there are still many good girls." He tried to comfort me in his own way.

"With so many phones, are you busy enough?" I digressed from the subject.

He grinned, like an honorably discharged veteran, proudly taking stock of the Medal of Honor, and introduced the phones one by one.

"This is a mobile phone for work, and they are all business partners."

"It's full of family and friends."

"As for these two, one will contact Girlfriend No. 1 and one will contact Girlfriend No. 2 ......"

I didn't wait for him to finish, then I raised the teacup in my hand and said softly, "To friendship!" ”

His expression froze, and he immediately raised the teacup: "Respect for the young and promising, and the beautiful sister." ”

I was noncommittal, looked at the row of mobile phones and chuckled and said, "You are still the same as when you were a child, even if you like it, you have to be in order." ”

He was stunned for a moment, his gaze suddenly became very long, and the smile on the corner of his mouth became gentler.

"yes, it's been so long, you can still remember......"

02

I have always boasted that my appearance is not bad, and Chen Yixuan is the only one in the class who I admit that he is more handsome than me.

He was very tall, tall from childhood to adulthood. The figure is slender and well-proportioned, with three-dimensional facial features, which is quite a bit of the taste of Korean star Lee Min Ho.

So I have the impression that there are a lot of girls chasing him in the class, at least more than those who have a crush on me.

I still remember that when I was in the sixth grade of primary school, Chen Yixuan suddenly stood on the podium during recess, knocked on the lectern with a blackboard eraser and said loudly: "Quiet, I want to announce something." ”

The class fell silent, and dozens of pairs of eyes looked at him in unison.

Chen Yixuan cleared his throat and continued seriously: "In view of the fact that there are too many girls who like me, I have decided to rank you in order, and you can be my girlfriends in order......"

I don't remember exactly what happened after that, but in my sporadic memory, he kept pointing out the names of the girls in the class, the boys were coaxing, and there were some girls crying and scolding.

Because of this incident, he was called a parent by the teacher, and he also reflected at home for a week.

However, judging from the current results, it seems that the reflection of that week did not have much effect.

03

"I was young and didn't know much at that time." Chen Yixuan smiled self-deprecatingly, "I guess I'm going to be cyberbullied now." ”

"You're grown up now." I glanced at his phone and sarcastically.

"That's different." He looked at me with all seriousness.

"What's the difference?" I asked rhetorically.

"At that time, I failed to live up to my sincerity, and now I am disappointed by mo

ey。 "So, I don't feel indebted to them." ”

I know that the people in Chen Yixuan's mouth are the girlfriends with the numbers in his mobile phone.

"Then again, you don't really plan to be widowed for Xiaoyu, are you?" Chen Yixuan looked at my eyes with a serious face.

"How so." I dodged his gaze, "I'm just ......"

I couldn't think of a long time when I should just pick it up later.

I just haven't planned on yet.

I just don't have the right object yet.

I was just...... I can't forget her.

Even I didn't figure out how to deal with her departure, or how to face myself after she left.

Borges once said: When a person dies, it is like water disappearing into water.

I'm still alive, but I've been sinking beneath the surface.

It's breathless.

"It's better to be more amorous and not sad for one person." Chen Yixuan seemed to be talking to me, more like talking to himself.

04

Actually, in my memory, Chen Yixuan has not always been like this.

At least he loved someone wholeheartedly for a long time from high school to college.

That girl's name is An Yumeng, and I know it too.

Xiao An is tall and good-looking, and he is a high school classmate with Chen Yixuan.

She dances very well and has won various awards from childhood to adulthood.

I remember one time, Chen Yixuan's school held an art festival. For a week, he was hard at me, and finally told me to skip class and go with him.

Although my school and I are in the same urban area, we are far apart from each other. I pretended to be sick to get a fake slip and sneak out of the school gate.

Chen Yixuan left me a very high position in the school's lecture hall, the show was very exciting, I watched it very much, but he was very nervous all the time.

Until a dance show opens.

A beautiful girl like a white swan jumped to the center of the stage, wearing a pure white dress and revealing a pair of slender and straight long legs, dancing on the stage.

The audience exclaimed.

For male high school students who are just starting to fall in love and have strong hormones, the Latin dance dress is indeed too sexy and blood-pumping.

Chen Yixuan grabbed my arm and said excitedly: "Look, this is my girlfriend!" ”

"Really?" I'm not convinced.

"It's fake now, and sooner or later it's true." His face lit up with confidence.

"Do you know her name?" I threw out the soul question.

"An Yumeng, a member of the literary and artistic committee of the first (second) class of high school." He said.

Even the name and class have been investigated, and it seems that he has been planning for a long time, not because he wanted to see it.

"Just wait for my good news." He added confidently.

"No problem, please ...... when the time comes. Invite you to dinner. ”

I might scoff if someone else said the same thing, but the person who said it was Chen Yixuan, so I believe it.

It's not just because of my relationship with him.