I looked at the sleeping face in front of me, and for a while, I couldn't tell who this person was, if I could clearly distinguish it when I opened my eyes, I closed my eyes, Sun Changfu and Sun Changxuan, twin brothers, were exactly the same.

I once asked my father how to distinguish between two people, and my father smiled and said that he never looked at people's looks, even if his eyes were not good, he could still easily distinguish them.

Daddy is always like this, he speaks in a fog, and if he can finish it in one breath, he has to hide half of it.

The person on the bed, his eyelashes moved slightly, it was clear that he was about to wake up, I subconsciously took a step back, as if I didn't want him to notice, I was so close to him, just to better see the difference between him and that person.

He blinked, his eyes were clear, and smiled gently at me, "Little sister." ”

"Big brother." I answered as a matter of course.

He stretched out his hand to me, and instead of shaking it with him immediately, I lowered my head and smiled softly, "I really can't change my mouth." ”

It's been almost a year since I got married, I still call him big brother, he calls me little sister, it seems that there is no third person in the middle, he won't mind, I understand.

The one who minded was never him.

He rolled over and sat up: "Why did you get up so early today?" Probed the probe and saw that I had washed the clothes hanging in the front yard: "It's not that I said, I won't let you wash it, I'll do it, you don't have to work so hard." ”

Actually, it's not hard at all, I walked two steps, there were a lot of different tastes in my heart, I couldn't tell him, I didn't want to tell him, just gently spread my arms, hugged his neck, and said with a forced smile: "When you are at home, you can help me do these things, and when you are not at home, you always have to learn to do it yourself." ”

"Little sister, I promised Master to take good care of you."

In a word, I felt a little stiffness in my back, and all the tenderness and sweetness that had risen up in a moment had retreated, and my arms were lowered, and I kept a little distance from him, lowering my eyes to look at him.

He seemed to sense my displeasure, and quickly tried to take my hand again and asked, "What's the matter, I said the wrong thing, or?" ”

"Big brother, you married me for your father's sake, in order to agree to your father's request?"

"Little sister, don't think about it."

"What do you think too much, big brother, you don't have to lie to me, it's already come to this point, why do you still lie to me!" The more gentle he is, the more suspicious I become, eldest brother, the identity of the eldest brother suddenly became my husband, at that time, I still clearly remember my father's words.

Daddy said, that person is gone, never look back, don't worry too much, if you believe in Daddy's vision, that person will only sink more in the future, whether it is me or you, there is no strength and means to pull him out of the mire, some things are destined, Zimo, do you understand?

I nodded, in fact, I don't understand, I don't understand at all, there was a person living in my heart, he has been by my side for all these years, he has always been good, one day, suddenly he became a wicked person, was expelled from the division by his father, and then said to me personally, the kindness he used to treat me was just a trick, just because I am my father's daughter, Zhu Ziming's only daughter, he feels that my good impression of him can be transformed into my father's respect for him.

That's all.

Four words, my heart suddenly froze to the end.

The last four words Sun Changxu said to me were nothing more than that.

Even though my father didn't say it explicitly, even though my eldest brother didn't say it explicitly, I just felt that I had become a joke, and among the people who had been immersed in it for years and couldn't climb out of the swamp, it turned out that I was also included.

Within a few months, I got married to my eldest brother, and my father was very much in favor of this marriage, saying that it was a match made in heaven, and a few days before I got married, my eldest brother didn't know where he went, and he didn't speak when he came back, and I clearly noticed that he was avoiding my sight.

"Big brother." I stopped him from behind, "Wait a minute. ”

"Master has something to do with me." He didn't even have the courage to make eye contact with me, and he wanted to move forward quickly.

I pounced on him regardless of it and grabbed his sleeve: "Big brother, you have something to hide from me." ”

"Little sister, I, I ......" He is such a person, he can't even want to lie.

My heart was soft, and I didn't want to force him, so I slowly let go of my hand, one finger, one finger, he turned around, saw my expression, and didn't move his feet: "Little sister, don't you do this, I'll tell you everything." ”

"How am I, what else can I do?" I was clearly talking with a smile on my face.

His expression was full of pity, his hands gently held my cheeks, his forehead was pressed against me, and he gently pressed against me: "Little sister, do you know, you obviously don't like to cry, but with such an expression, Master and I are very distressed." ”

What kind of expression, I want to see myself clearly, in his crystal clear pupils, so clear, so clear, if I have to use one word to describe it, is it like a dead heart, can be summarized in general.

"Let me get used to it slowly, not anymore." I understood that they wanted to be nice to me, so I slowly adjusted my smile, "Does this look better?" ”

He nodded vigorously and said, "Little sister, I will be good to you in the future, very good." ”

I believe in his words, my eldest brother has always done what he says, and has never disappointed my father, he took my hand, I obediently followed behind him, and between me and him, there is more of an element of family affection.

The way people get along with each other is so strange, obviously their two brothers appeared in my life on the same day, but I have always regarded the eldest brother as an elder brother, and the other, I sighed softly, and now I don't talk about it.

"Master expelled Chang Xuan from the master's sect, but he is still my younger brother."

I looked up at him, did he want to tell me part of the truth?

"So, I secretly contacted him a few times without telling my master, and he ran away with his empty hands like that, I'm afraid he won't be able to cope with it."

"And then?"

"Last time, I told him that we were going to get married."

My face changed slightly, such a big brother also wanted to use the facts to preemptively, or rather, he was still not very confident about whether he could completely let go of me and that person.

"Little sister, don't be angry, I didn't want to say it, but he asked in a circle, and I don't know why I missed it." He slapped his head hard.

He must not have meant it, I watched him quietly and waited for him to continue.

"Chang Xuan also took the initiative to ask me, when will he get married, I thought he would come back to drink a glass of wine, on this good day, you said that if he is willing to turn back, admit his mistake with the master, and promise that he will not do anything wrong in the future, the master is not a hard-hearted person, he should forgive him, right!"

His eyes grew brighter and brighter, as if he had set things right and put them on the most desirable one.

I didn't say it, until my father expelled him from the school, I didn't know what Sun Changxu was doing outside, my eldest brother's words were not wrong, my father was not a hard-hearted person, and it could even be said that his ears were a little soft, but he was so angry that he couldn't persuade him at all, that day, his father was so angry that he trembled all over his body and couldn't control it.

"However, when I went to see him again today, he told me that he was also married." He looked at me cautiously before saying, "Chang Xuan has already married, just three days ago. ”

I laughed again, and I don't know why, but although I didn't see it with my own eyes, I could imagine that, according to the man's temper, he must have grabbed a random woman on the street to get married, before my eldest brother and I got married.

He never conceded defeat and always felt that what he did was the most correct.

"I asked him who he married, and he actually smiled and said that he couldn't remember the name for a while, and when he could remember it later, he wouldn't be in a hurry to tell me." He was obviously a little anxious, "Little sister, you say, why did you say that he was so confused, didn't he want to come back and come back to the master, he was obviously so hard-working." ”

I replied softly, perhaps, he really never thought of coming back.

However, I was afraid of hurting my eldest brother's conscience, so I held back and didn't say anything.

That person got married before me, and that's fine, I really think it's okay.

I became a simple ceremony with Sun Changfu, my father was there, after getting married, my eldest brother was too good to me, he didn't even let me cook and wash dishes, and wanted to spoil me for the rest of my life?

Now, I know that I have never let go of this thought, he is good to me, but because he promised my father, he is my father's only apprentice, if he is not good to me, I can't explain to my father.

It turns out that men are all the same, both in front of them and in the sky.

I angrily shook off his hand and rushed out, I ran fast, for fear of being chased by him, for fear that he would apologize to me more gently, I don't want to listen, I don't want to hear a word.

Facing the wind, I felt cold on my face, knowing that it was tears coming out of my eyes, covering the whole face, my father went to the palace, it has been two months, and so far except for a little news, I haven't said when I will come back.

I want Daddy, I want Daddy to come back, don't look for anything seamless, it's because of this that people's hearts will change, even if we invite merit in front of the emperor, we still can't go back, everything that should happen happens, unhappy is unhappy.

Even if I find ten or eight seamless, I'm still not happy.

I can't remember how long I ran, and he never came to chase me, maybe he chased him, but he took a fork in the road, so he missed.

Walking aimlessly outside, walking, until it was almost dark, he slowly turned around and walked in the direction of home, thinking in his heart, when he saw his eldest brother later, what should he say, most of the time he didn't need me to explain, he would help me think of all the reasons, he would never be angry with me, no matter what I did or said.

Pushing open the door of the small courtyard, it was quiet inside, and there was no voice.

Could it be that he went out to look for me for so long and hasn't come back yet?

I went straight into the house, and the book he left on the table, apparently written under the urgency of time, it turned out that I had just run out, and the newspaper bird that my father had raised flew back, and the matter was very urgent, probably because my father already knew the whereabouts of the seamless, so he asked him to rush over with the ukiyo-e book immediately.

Daddy's note, I didn't see it, probably he waited for me for a while, saw that I didn't return for a long time, so he was forced to leave a letter, and hurriedly set off.

Little sister, if I say that the first time I see you, I like you, I can't see anyone else in my eyes, maybe you will laugh at me, but you have someone in your heart, I dare not say it, until Master tells me that we can get married, you can't believe it, I am about to go crazy with surprise.

I can't say a lot of words, but I will treat you well for the rest of my life, not let you suffer any grievances, and not let you shed a single tear, little sister, wait for me to come back.

I read the book back and forth several times, laughing and laughing and crying, crying and laughing and laughing again.

In this way, I waited for a month, and only my father came back with a message that they were going to leave for their destination together and would be home soon.

A month later, however, there was still no news from them.

The anxiety gradually amplified in my heart, and I thought of what my father said, if you feel a crisis, don't stay where you are, only by leaving, can you find a safe place.

So, after packing up the simple luggage, I left without a head, did not go to a more remote place, I went all the way to Tiandu City, stumbled, suddenly fell seriously ill on the way, and found the doctor in the town, only to know that I was pregnant, and the child was destined to stay with me before he left.

When I finally arrived at Tiandu City, I got the bad news that my father and eldest brother were looking for the secret treasure requested by the emperor, and their whereabouts were unknown, and they didn't know whether they were alive or dead.

The ukiyo-e that my father regarded as a treasure also disappeared with the two of them, and I even saw the emperor list posted, if there is news of any person, or the whereabouts of that strange book, there will be a heavy reward.

Sitting in the teahouse, listening to the people around me, I squeezed the hand of the teacup, I couldn't help shaking, I couldn't help shaking, I couldn't help shaking, I suddenly believed all the gossip in the streets and alleys, stood up, without hesitation, I left Tiandu City that night.

Later, after several tosses and turns, my body was already pregnant, and I settled in a small village.

There is an acacia tree at the entrance of the village, it is the season of bloom, the pink petals, swirling, fluttering, have fallen on my shoulder, I think this is the end, I am tired, after walking so many roads, after listening to so many news, I understand that some people are no longer in the world, and there is no point in dwelling on them.

Stretched out my hand and touched my stomach, the little guy inside seemed to like my touch like this, and immediately responded, I laughed softly, lowered my head and said: "It's better to call it Shining, a lifetime of peace and tranquility is the best." ”

Approaching the village step by step, the smoke curled and slowly spread to the colorful clouds of the setting sun.