The white mist on the bathtub cut off the view, and the thoughts were like a tide--

Nangong Jing leaned lazily on the bathtub and closed his eyes, his out-of-control emotions just now were-

It's a kind of most real desire from the depths of my heart that I have never had, I want to rub her into my body hard, I can't wait to hold her tightly like this, even if we can die together in the next moment, I have no regrets,

But he couldn't, and at the last moment when his reason was about to be shattered, he came to his senses, and he thought of the poison in him,

Poison?

It's been too long, and he can't remember when he knew about it.

just clearly remembers that the moment he knew the truth, his world was completely turned upside down, and that sense of sadness and despair accompanied him through long nights and nights.

All the glory, all the expectations for the future are disillusioned in an instant, and all that remains is hate,

Slowly, he began to feel that they didn't even have the qualifications to make him hate.

It's been too long, and he's forgotten what it felt like when he was a child, when the poison that pierced his intestines brought him those piercing pains.

He had asked his queen mother countless times why he didn't kill him, but let him live so painfully,

Answering him is always tears,

From then on, he hated cowardice, and he hated those hypocritical tears, and he hated even more, everyone was kind to him,

He was tormented by the pain of poison,

Fortunately, he later met Zhi Wuya, his master.

He has decades of internal cultivation in his body to counterbalance the toxicity of poisons.

But this kind of checks and balances can alleviate the pain brought to him by poison, but it can't reduce the toxicity, and the toxicity gets stronger and stronger as he grows up, and he can only barely hold on to the moment when these internal forces can't balance the toxicity.

Now, I have up to three years left --

When I was young and ignorant, I thought about ending my own life, and then when I grew up, I felt that living by myself was the best torture for them.

As he matured, he understood a truth: the best way to take revenge on a person is not to be stupid to end his own life, which will only make those people feel guilty or remorseful.

He chose a better way: he wanted to live better than everyone else, he wanted everyone to have to rely on him to live,

He's going to lift everyone up to heaven and push them into hell.

The court disputes over the years have been planned by him, and he has long known about the third-party forces hidden in the shadows, but he has never investigated them carefully.

He simply borrowed a knife to kill people, because he didn't want to end it with his own hands, so he chose to leave.

I still remember the tears of grief of the queen and the queen mother when he was leaving,

The Queen Mother said: "Jing'er, can you really be ruthless and don't care if we live or die? ”

Anyway?

At that time, he just sneered: "If I was born with poison and died, now, Imperial Grandmother, who do you go to seek refuge?" ”

He is a heartless man, so why should he wag his tail and beg for mercy from him?

Before leaving the imperial city, he opened the bag left for him by Zhi Wuya,

This bag was personally given to him when he left the Imperial City, and told him to open it when he decided to leave.

There are a few words in the bag: Jing'er, this is your calamity, and it is also your fate, everything goes according to your heart--

Go with the flow?

He believed that there must be a reason for what Master said at the beginning, and since he couldn't think of the reason, he did what Master said.

I'm tired of the court fight, and since I've decided to leave, don't think about those people anymore,