"Of course, this is what I mean with your dad and your brother, Xiuxiu, our family has been separated for too long, we don't want to be separated from you anymore, come back."

Xiuxiu, even if it's not for you, it's for us, for luck, you have to come back. You let Xingxing grow up in the countryside, in the future, she still has to face the loess and live with her back to the sky, she has to earn work to support herself, she can't marry any good men, all of them are vulgar and uneducated people, Xiuxiu, do you want Xingxing's future to be like this?"

"Don't you want her to live the same life as the eldest lady? Just like when you were a kid."

Just like when you were a kid...

Zheng Xiuxiu was even more silent, she looked in a trance, what kind of life did she live when she was a child, carefree, there are endless clothes and shoes to wear, endless hair rings and hairpins, these are the most basic, she doesn't have to do anything, but she can have things that many people dare not think.

Compare it to Xingxing now, she wants a little hairpin, and she has to put forward it with New Year's wishes...

Does she really want her daughter to live the life she is living in the future?

Zheng Xiuxiu didn't know.

After hanging up the phone, she walked out in a trance, and felt that the sun was also particularly dazzling, she raised her hand to block the sun, Jian Xingxing pounced like a small cannonball, and asked happily with her little head up.

"Mom, you've finished calling, so when are we going to see my grandparents, grandmothers, and uncle~~~?"

"Mom and Dad, if it's convenient for them, we can go over for a while, and then come back when spring is going to work, and you can get together with your family more."

Yan Weimin didn't notice Zheng Xiuxiu's hidden emotions, he also looked at Zheng Xiuxiu with a smile and encouraged her to go home to find her parents, after all, she hadn't been home for so many years, and it was normal to go home and see.

"I... Besides, they're not available yet."

Zheng Xiuxiu smiled reluctantly, and asked everyone to go home first, and talk about the rest later.

"It's okay, I'm definitely busy when I just go back, if I don't go back before the beginning of spring, then I can go back after the spring ploughing, and I can stay longer."

Yan Weimin helped Zheng Xiuxiu plan.

In the end, he also has a tendon, at first he doubted whether Zheng Xiuxiu would abandon her like Chen Na, and after believing her, he also believed that Zheng Xiuxiu's feelings would not change, and Zheng Xiuxiu would not leave him.

Zheng Xiuxiu's mood was difficult to evaluate, and her face showed a little bit, although it was not obvious, but Yan Xing Yan Nan and Jian Xingxing were keenly aware of something. Jian Xingxing only knew that her mother's mood was not very high, but she didn't know why, the two brothers Yan Xing and Yan Nan lowered their eyes, but they had a little guess.

"Let's go, go home, fortunately, don't you want a windmill? Dad will make one for you, let's go!"

Yan Weimin held Jian Xingxing with one hand and Yan Sheng with the other, and Yan Sheng smiled toothlessly.

"Then I want it too, hehe, Dad, I want a big windmill!"

"Okay, no problem!"

Yan Weimin's face had the same clear and stupid expression as Yan Sheng, and the brothers Yan Xing and Yan Nan sighed, not knowing how to remind this old father.

It's okay to be idle these days, and the New Year's greetings are over, and the next thing is to play by yourself, Yan Weimin had a whim, he wanted to catch fish in the winter, and he wanted to swim in winter, saying that he was exercising, he jumped up and down, and he was very busy.

Zheng Xiuxiu had to go to the commune almost every day, to make a phone call, and almost every time she came back, the sadness on her face became a little heavier, and later she made an excuse to bring Jian Xingxing over alone.

"Mom, it's my grandparents and grandmothers, do they miss me?"

Jian Xingxing took Zheng Xiuxiu's hand and asked ignorantly.

"Well, do you like your grandparents and uncle?"

Zheng Xiuxiu asked lightly.

"I like it."

"Then compared to Dad, eldest brother, second brother, and third brother, who does Xingxing like more?"

Zheng Xiuxiu squatted down and looked at her daughter's big sparkling eyes seriously.

She hesitated for days, but how

She can't make a decision, she doesn't want to be the kind of bad woman who abandons her husband and children, and she doesn't want Xingxing to change her father again, but she doesn't want Xingxing to be trapped in this ravine for the rest of her life, how should she choose.

"Hmm... I like my dad and my eldest brother, my second brother and my third brother."

Jian Xingxing wrinkled his little face hesitantly, but he was still honest.

"Why?"

Zheng Xiuxiu was a little stunned, she thought that with her fortunate ability to carry water, she would say that she liked it.

"Because we've been with my dad and my big brother, and I haven't seen my grandparents and uncles, I'm just their mom and dad, and I'll like them, but I won't like them more."

Jian Xingxing had a chubby little face on her head, and said shocking truths in a milky voice.

Zheng Xiuxiu's heart trembled, she pursed her lips, and then asked.

"Do you like to live your life now? Do you want to live your mother's old life? There are endless delicious foods, endless beautiful clothes, and small hairpins that you like, you can buy whatever you like."

"No, Mom, I think it's good now, I like small hairpins, but I don't want any small hairpins, just a few, Mom, I like it more here."

Jian Xingxing opened her big clear eyes and looked at Zheng Xiuxiu fixedly.

She seemed to know something, seemed to be hinting at something. Zheng Xiuxiu suddenly hugged Jian Xingxing's neck and took her into her arms, she choked up.

"But you can choose whether the small hairpin card is missing, but there are many things in the future..."

"Mom, do you want to leave Daddy and Big Brother?"

Jian Xingxing said a word, and for the first time, her milky voice had sadness, and she asked with red eyes and tears.

"I don't want to, but Mom has to make a choice."

Zheng Xiuxiu's heart was pierced by her daughter, she was not afraid, only relieved.

In the past few days, she can't eat or sleep, and she has been thinking about this matter over and over again, how she should choose, and how she chooses, there is one party to be sad.

"Mom, I want you to choose Dad, there is a father here, there is a big brother, a second brother, a third brother, Su Su and Xiaoqin, I like everyone very much, I don't want to have a good life, I just want us to be together as a family.

If you stay here, you can go back to see your grandparents and uncles when you have time, but if you leave, you won't be able to come back here."

Jian Xingxing held Zheng Xiuxiu's little face and said seriously, the mother and son looked at each other, one was immature and cute and the other was soft and beautiful, but they both had tears in their eyes.

This is the first time that Jian Xingxing has made a request to her mother and interfered with her mother's decision, she also has her own selfishness, for her, her father and three brothers are the best, she does not desire life outside, she only likes the happiness here.

If you're gone, you'll never come back.

Yes, and Yan Weimin has already suffered a betrayal, if she abandons him too, Yan Weimin will definitely be more extreme than before, he will never see her again, fortunately, there will never be this father and three brothers.

Zheng Xiuxiu remembered the previous bits and pieces, the two of them got married for a short time, just one year, but they have experienced a lot of things in this year, Yan Weimin is very good to her, and even helps her parents as much as she can, she can't be a ruthless and unrighteous person.

She lowered her eyes, as if she had made up some kind of determination.