After attending his mother's funeral, relatives and friends left one after another. Teacher Wang, accompanied by his wife, also went home. I carried the portrait of my mother in my arms, and slowly walked towards my house with the support of my husband Ichiro.

When he returned home, Ichiro took the statue of his mother, placed it on the table of eight immortals on the back wall of the opposite door of the hall, placed a four-colored offering in front of the statue, lit a pot of incense, and bowed deeply to the statue three times. He turned to me and said, "Mourn." The mother is gone, people cannot be resurrected from death, and grief will only hurt one's body and mind, and it will not benefit the dead. We still have a career, a family, and we have to continue to work and live, so you must take care of your health! He poured me a glass of boiling water and said, "Drink some water." I didn't eat or drink for a day and a night, and my throat was hoarse. I took the cup and put it on the table, still sitting still. He took some more pastries and put them on the table, and said, "Eat some pastries with boiling water, for you have not eaten for a day and a night." If this continues, the body will not be able to bear it. I nodded, still sitting still.

Ichiro sat with me for a while, and finally couldn't help but say, "The company called and said that there was something important and asked me to go back." I had to go back first. You can go back in a few days. I nodded, stood up to see Ichiro off, and walked out of the courtyard gate, watching him fade away and disappear into the woods and fields.

Ichiro is gone. Empty yards, empty houses, and I'm alone. I was filled with sorrow, and I shed tears again, kowtowed to my mother's posthumous image, bowed down, prayed, and then sat down on a chair next to the table of the eight immortals, without eating, drinking, or crying. ---- have been crying too much in the past few days, it hurts too much, and I have cried hoarsely, and I have dried my tears. I just sat motionless, my eyes glazed over, quietly looking at the portrait of my mother, looking at how warm and familiar this once home was, and slowly recalling many past events of my mother and family.

I looked at my mother's portrait for a long time. The frame is tied with black gauze. The mother was dressed in a Tang dress with red embroidered brocade, dignified, virtuous, and kind, although her hair was gray, her eyes were blazing, her spirit was radiant, and she had no aging expression. My mother looked at me and said, "Don't be sad, just look at the picture if you want to." Our mother and son are inseparable, I will always look at you, think of you, and accompany you.

I distinctly remember that this photo was taken five years ago the day before my mother left Shenzhen to return to her hometown. I rested that day. My mother said to me: "I have been in Shenzhen for a few years, and you are busy every day, and you have not taken me out to see what Shenzhen is like. "I'm guilty. Since I was a child, my mother has been thinking about me every day, caring for me, taking care of me, everywhere, and meticulously; And I cared for my mother too little. So I immediately said, "Mom, I'm sorry, I ignored it." I'll go out with you today to have a good look, so that you can go home and see the villagers have something to say. The mother was delighted, changed into new clothes that she was usually reluctant to wear, and said, "If you want to go, let's hurry up and go, and see a few more places." I was going to drive my lover's car, and my mother said, "No, he uses it a lot." We just took the bus. ”

That day, I spent most of the day with my mother and saw all the important and commemorative places in Shenzhen. My mother was satisfied and said with relief: "Now it's okay, I know what Shenzhen looks like, it's much more beautiful than our county, and it's much more beautiful and rich." Go home and talk to the villagers, and ask their children to come to Shenzhen to work, earn some money to go back, and improve their living conditions. Although they are much better now than in the past, they do not have to worry about food and clothing, but their lives are still not easy, the furniture is too old, and there are few household appliances. ”

After seeing several attractions, it was already past noon. The mother said, "Come home, I have to make lunch when I get home." I said, "Let's not cook today, you have a good rest for a day, and I will entertain you." The mother looked at the sky, it was already past noon, so she didn't insist, nodded and said, "Okay, I'll also follow my daughter to open a foreign meat dish today." ”

Mother and daughter came to the restaurant, and I ordered four dishes, all of which were my mother's favorite food. My mother tasted it slowly while looking at it carefully, and then said with a smile: "It is said that southern cuisine is not suitable for the taste of northerners, but I think this Shenzhen cuisine is also delicious." Come to the restaurant to eat once, learn the craft, and when I go home, I will do the same for you to eat. The mother still thinks about her daughter.

I'm going home to rest after dinner. The mother thought for a while and said, "It's not easy to come out once, just stay one more time, you accompany me to take a photo, just wash one more, you keep one, and I'll take one home." When I'm not around, you miss me, just look at the photos. "Mother was more profound and thoughtful than I thought!

When I took the photo, I chose a cheongsam embroidered with blue satin for my mother; Although my mother is old, she has maintained a good figure because of her hard work, and I think my mother must look good in it. The mother shook her head and chose a Tang dress with red embroidered brocade. I'm a little puzzled: at such an age, wearing such bright clothes is too incompatible. My mother saw what I meant and explained, "When I got married to your father, I wore a big red Tang dress, but the texture was not so good. "——My father has passed away for so many years, and my mother still thinks about my father in my heart, so infatuated! So I left this photo of the big red Tang costume. Unexpectedly, it has now become a portrait of my mother!

Looking at the portrait of my mother and thinking about many of my mother's past, I had mixed feelings for a while, my chest was suffocated, my nose was sore and unbearable, I wanted to cry, but there were no tears. I subconsciously rubbed my eyes and nose, and it took a while to calm down.

On the table of the eight immortals under the statue, a furnace of incense burned quietly, and light smoke rose in a curling curl. I felt sacred, as if there was some kind of aura. In front of the incense burner are four-colored offerings: apples, bananas, pomegranates, and grapes. It was my mother's favorite fruit in her life; The pomegranates and grapes were picked from the pomegranate trees and vines that my mother planted in the yard. When eating fruits, my mother always said: apples, peace; Bananas, sweet and sweet; Pomegranate, many sons and many blessings; Grapes come in bunches. This is the hope and pursuit of my mother's life, and now it seems that it has not really been realized, and I feel sad and blame myself.

The table of the Eight Immortals is very old, and it is said that it was left by my grandfather to my father, but it is very clean. I remember when I was a kid when I went to school, my mother always asked me to do my homework on the Eight Immortals table. At first, he was short, he wrote standing up, and when he grew up, he sat and wrote. Once, when I was doing arithmetic problems, I didn't have scratch paper, so I typed a draft on my desktop; When my mother saw this, she scolded me fiercely and said, "This table was left by our ancestors, we can only use it, and we can't spoil it." Now these past events have become eternal memories and memories! I wanted my mother to scold me again, but I couldn't.

A pomegranate and a grape in the yard were successfully planted by my mother with a lot of effort. Every year in May, the pomegranates bloom, one by one like red lanterns full of trees, bright red and dazzling. Then I always pluck one and put it on my head. The mother said, "Pick the flowers, but the flowers do not bear fruit." "I think it's funny: pomegranate flowers are still male and female? The mother said, "Why don't you divide it?" The male's ass is small, and it falls when it passes through the pollen; The mother's buttocks are big, and when they grow up after being powdered, they become pomegranates. Still in school, I don't even understand this? "I didn't believe it, so I walked up and down the pomegranate tree and looked it up and down, and it was really good. I admire it very much. Although my mother had never read, she was so knowledgeable! Her knowledge does not come from books, but from life and practice.

The walls of the courtyard are covered with loofah seedlings and tea bean seedlings, the green leaves are lush, the vines are wrapped and entangled, and the flowers and spikes are full of golden and purple red flowers, spreading wisps of fragrance, attracting bees and butterflies. The green peduncles hang down, bearing slender loofahs; One by one, the purple-red flower stalks are raised high, bearing a purring and flattening of tea beans, colorful and colorful. I know that my mother planted them not only for ornamentation, but also for food. In the past, when I was at home, every autumn lunch, my mother always made a dish and a soup, the dish was fried tea beans, and the soup was loofah soup, which was very delicious; Both dishes were picked from the green vines on the fence. Now how I want to eat another meal like my mother's!

The courtyard walls are brick foundations, earthen walls, and grass roofs, and the inner and outer walls are coated with sand and wheat bran mud, which is very smooth. I remember one year during the summer vacation, it rained heavily and the courtyard wall collapsed for a while. My mother was very distressed and said that the strange grass was leaking rain. The next day, when the weather was fine, my mother took me with me, pulled the soil and mud, and put the grass on again. Since then, my mother has repaired it once a year, so the courtyard wall has been preserved to this day. Today, it is a monument to my mother.

At noon, the second uncle came to call for dinner, where can I eat? I was really persuaded, so I only drank half a bowl of mung bean soup. Before leaving, I took out 1,000 yuan and said to my second uncle, your family has a large population and the housing is tight, so you and your second aunt will live in my house in the future, and count it for me to show the house, and this 1,000 yuan is your care fee. If the house or courtyard wall needs to be repaired, you call me, and I will send the repair fee. The things in the house are still as they are, and when it's okay, you can wipe it for me and move it out to dry in the summer. Every year on the Qingming Festival, I have to come back to burn paper for my parents, and also look at the home, see the villagers, and live for a day. Home is fundamental, no matter where you go, how far you go, you can never forget it, you can't leave it behind. The second uncle agreed, but refused to ask for the custody fee, saying, "You can go with confidence, I will take care of everything at home." "I didn't let it, but I gave it to him.

The next day, I went to visit Mr. Wang. In the past few days, he has lost a lot of weight, his sparse white hair looks very unkempt, and the wrinkles on his face seem to be much deeper. His home also enshrines a statue of his mother, in front of which an incense is lit. I advised him, "Mother is gone, you have to mourn and take care of your health." With tears in his eyes, Mr. Wang said, "I didn't expect your mother to walk in front of me and walk so fast!" We went from being separated in our thirties to being reunited in our sixties, more than twenty years apart! I have lived a few years in peace and harmony, but I didn't expect that she suddenly left me and left! He blamed himself: "It's me who didn't take good care of her, didn't take her for physical examination often, if it had been detected and treated early, maybe she wouldn't have gone so early and so fast." I said, "I didn't expect my mother to go so fast, and Ichiro and I plan to pick you up and go to Shenzhen for a few days in a few years." It's really a merciless disease, and it's a good time! I persuaded Mr. Wang, "You better go to the town and spend time with Brother Zicheng, and you won't be lonely when you are a family." Teacher Wang nodded, and said, "No matter where you live, the house here - whether it is your family or mine, I will keep it, and I will come back to see it during the New Year and the holidays, and burn paper for your mother." I said, "My house is under the care of my second uncle, and every year, I will come back to see it and burn paper for my mother." Teacher Wang said: "This is better, and our teachers and students will have the opportunity to meet more often." ”

After spending seven days with my mother, I am going back to Shenzhen. Early in the morning, I came to my mother's grave, made offerings, burned incense, burned paper, kowtowed, and then sat in front of the grave and talked a lot to my mother. But in the end, I left, because there was still my job and family over there in Shenzhen.

I have left this home many times and returned to this home many times for school and work. Thinking that there is a mother at home to back, no matter when I go out or come back, I always have something to look forward to, rely on, and be full of confidence and hope. Only this time I felt sad, painful, and lost, a kind of dazed and disoriented, with nothing to rely on and expect; Because this time I lost my mother, I lost my strong backing, and I have to go my own way from now on. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose my mother. The only thing I feel comfortable and can rely on is the education and teaching that my mother has given me in various ways over the years, and the strong, unyielding, never-say-die example that my mother has set for me throughout her life, which I will always remember in my heart as a guide for my future life.