A good meal, Song Tingchuan was terrified.

But fortunately, in the end, Su Nan didn't dig deeper.

It is said that knowing mistakes can improve a lot, and she doesn't need to stare at Song Tingchuan's past.

In order to make the atmosphere seem less awkward, Song Tingchuan began to change the subject.

"You just said that you remembered some of the past, can you share anything from the past?"

Su Nan nodded, there was nothing to hide.

"When I was a child, Zhan Hai also took me to eat barbecue."

Song Tingchuan""

He had to die to bring up such a terrible topic.

But Song Tingchuan couldn't suppress his curiosity, he wanted to know about Su Nan's past.

"You and Zhan Hai seem to have a good relationship"

Su Nan bit the string of hands for a moment, and replied with a word for a while

"Hmm."

There's a story to this reaction.

Song Tingchuan tentatively asked, "Can you talk?"

Regarding Zhan Hai's affairs, Su Nan probably held it in his heart for a long time, evoked a little smile, and began to talk about the short-lived friendship between her and Zhan Hai.

It can almost be said to be a thorn buried in Su Nan's heart, I thought that after so many years, that thorn had long been smoothed by time, but now when I turned it out according to my memory, Su Nan found that the original thorn had never disappeared, it had always been there, and it was even embedded in the bones and blood, and when I touched it lightly, it was a heart-rending pain.

After listening to this, Song Tingchuan was also silent for a long time.

He didn't expect that the things involved in this were more complicated than he imagined.

But he is a bystander in the end, although he also feels sorry, but in this matter, he will be more rational than Su Nan.

"Good girl, in fact, you are still extreme."

"Hmm"

"Zhan Hai's withdrawal from school is accidental, but it is also inevitable."

Su Nan was stunned, and listened to Song Tingchuan

"Zhan Hai may not be a bad person, but in this world, it doesn't mean that you will be rewarded if you are not a bad person."

"Zhan Hai is not motivated, and he is impulsive, even if there is no such thing, even if there is no you, he will be planted on other things, just like me, do you think that Xing'er's matter is an accident for me, isn't it, that is the result of my long-term self-indulgence, in a fatalistic way, that is called retribution. Even if I didn't have apricots, I might have met oranges. ”

"As you said, this world has its own laws, and a deviant person, whether he wakes up or is obsessed or not, as long as he goes astray, he will have to pay for it, Zhan Hai is like this, and so am I."

"Compared to your apologies to Zhan Hai, I envy Zhan Hai."

Su Nan's hand holding the bamboo stick tightened, "envious"

"He met you earlier, you pulled him out earlier, so that in the end he just left because he did something less wrong, this kind of wrongdoing will gradually fade with the passage of time, like now, he has no resentment towards the teachers and classmates who misunderstood him back then, and he now lives an open-minded and calm life."

Speaking of this, Song Tingchuan pressed his temple and sighed.

"But Su Nan, no one pulled me, I have an unshirkable responsibility for the disappearance of Xing'er, the guilt and self-blame that entangles my heart will never dissipate, on the contrary, the more the days are pushed forward, the more profound the pain will be for me, that is the torture, Xing'er can't find it for a day, I won't be relieved for a day."

"Su Nan, you didn't bother Zhan Hai, on the contrary, you saved him, because of you, there is one less Song Tingchuan and one less apricot in this world."