That night, Aqing, was my birthday. I didn't have a banquet, because for me, no amount of people to accompany me is as good as you and your children.

So, I brought wine to the gate of Kunning Palace. I chose the darkest corner, leaned against the palace wall, and drank alone.

That night, I also took two cups. One in each of the left hand and the right hand is to drink with you.

You don't know, how much I wanted to rush in to see you that night. Even if you don't do anything, just hold your little hand, talk to you, and take a walk. But reason told me I had to hold back. And in fact, I held back. It's just that in the end, I took the others for you.

I don't know when the sky in the Forbidden City will change, but I do know that there is a great conspiracy that is gradually approaching me. There is an extremely powerful character who is slowly planning everything. Until I can figure out the truth of the matter, until I find out the enemy in the dark, I can only be cruel to you!

"And then?" I saw that Qing Cang was lost in thought, so I asked lightly.

"Huh?" Qing Cang came back to his senses a little, and then said, "The next day, I gave her a refuge/child/soup/medicine, but I didn't expect that she didn't drink it." Yun Yan came like this, and with him came Lin Ronghua's asthma. ”

I looked at Qing Cang's helpless face, stunned, and finally asked, "That...... Aren't you distressed? He is your son, your own son. ”

"Aqing, do you think I'm not distressed?" Qing Cang turned his head, stared at me and asked, "I look at Yun Yan's small face, which is often suffocated red. I watched him cough and gasp for air, and my heart felt like a knife. ”

"That'...... Why don't you go and see him......"

Qing Cang shook his head, "I asked the Imperial Doctor to diagnose and treat him, and the Imperial Doctor said that this child cannot be cured. Perhaps, he will live for a few months, or years, or more than ten years. The time, even the imperial doctor can't tell for sure. ”

After that, Qing Cang said to me very seriously, "If this child is destined to die, then I would rather never have feelings for him." ”

"You...... It's really cold-blooded and ruthless. I froze and spat out a few words.

Qingcang, Qingcang, just because he doesn't know when he will die, you deprive him of the right to enjoy his father's love during his lifetime, how ruthless you are!

Qing Cang smiled palely, "Maybe!" After that, he hugged me tightly again, "Go to sleep, it's not early." ”

Aqing, I don't have so much time to be sad and sad for others. I don't have so much energy to feel sorry for people who shouldn't have appeared.

All I have, all my focus, just wants to revolve around you and your child.

Even if I spoil Lao Sanyunfan in front of outsiders, it is just to divert the attention of others.

I don't mind spoiling the third child, or even spoiling him to be lawless, and when he grows up, he can wantonly kill people and set fires!

Perhaps, you don't understand me.

In fact, deliberately snubbing the fourth child is the same as deliberately spoiling the third child. If I blindly spoil the third and fourth children, and snub you in Kunning Palace.

The secret enemy must be suspicious, and this is a ploy I have used to divert his attention. But if I only concentrate on spoiling the third and one person, and ignore the memories of the fourth child and Yunhe. Perhaps, they will let down their guard.

You know, as long as it's for the sake of you mother and son, I don't mind sacrificing anyone, even my own flesh and blood!