Qing Cang's attitude towards me has never been so tough, for so many years, he has always been what I say, and he has followed me. Many times, in the court and in the harem, who has been punished and rewarded, how much is the reason why I blow the pillow wind in Qingcang's ears on weekdays.

This time, I thought it would be the same.

But I was wrong...... Completely wrong......

In the end, I still couldn't save Siqi's life. Even, even the request to protect her whole body was rejected by Qing Cang.

He didn't say anything else, just whispered a few words in my ear. And those few words made me feel like I was being crushed by a needle, trembling, and in pain.

Unexpectedly, Si Qi did not resist this, even though she knew that she would face a torment that was more painful than death. But she still didn't beg Qing Cang for mercy, but made a request that people couldn't refuse.

Before she died, she wanted to see her Russell brother alone.

In this regard, Qing Cang gave an answer.

I watched as Si Qi was dragged out, and before she was about to leave the imperial study, she turned around and gave me a bright smile.

It's a pity that the irony and banter in that laugh are so dazzling.

……

Soon after Si Qi was taken away, Qing Cang casually found an excuse to kick me out. I didn't leave any chance to ask him why he had abandoned the Manchu dynasty and left him alone in the imperial study to drink heavily.

But even if I don't ask this question, I have the answer in my heart.

His heart ...... It must be bitter to the extreme.

I felt sorry for him, but I couldn't put it into words.

Back at Kunning Palace, I locked myself up in the cabinet alone.

My mind was full of words that Qing Cang leaned into my ears and said to me......

- Aqing, you only saw how I treated her, but you didn't see how she treated you.

- Aqing, you are no longer a teenage girl. As a mother, I have a little more heart in everything.

- Aqing, don't blame me, I really do it for your good.

These words reminded me of how ridiculous it was for me to intercede for Si Qi.

yes, he told me not to be stupid.

And the sentence he said to me before:

Remember, she didn't die to pay for the mistakes I made. Rather, for you.

It also has a deep meaning.

I sat in a corner where I could not be disturbed, with my hands on my knees, feeling helpless. It was like falling into a dark trap from which I could not escape, and no matter how hard I tried and how hard I climbed, I could not find the light.

Memory, all at once, went back to many years ago.

At that time, I was just a young lady of the General's Mansion who had not yet left the cabinet, there was no draft, and I didn't meet outsiders. Every day, he practiced calligraphy and martial arts in the house, occasionally fought wits and courage with Yuxiu, and occasionally secretly climbed the dog hole with Siqi and books, and ran to wander the streets of the capital.

Later, even to escape the draft, he left the capital in a hurry with Si Qi. He was designed into the land of fireworks, and suffered a lot of torture and suffering. Even in the Jiangnan Courtyard, I have exhausted the pain of lovesickness with Qing Cangpin, and I feel that life is delicious.

Since when has everything changed?

The book has changed, the chess has changed, Qingcang has changed, and even myself has changed. The Murong family is gone, the Luo family is gone, and all the good things back then are gone. It was as if I had done nothing wrong, and as if everything I had done was wrong......