Qing Cang's face was extremely good-looking, sometimes like laughing, sometimes like crying, "If I had asked you earlier...... Presumably ......"

I listened to Qingcang's words, and my head hung low. If Qingcang asked me earlier...... I'm afraid I'll stubbornly say some duplicity, right? If it weren't for this time when I heard the words of the Queen Mother and Wenren Haoxuan with my own ears, I am afraid that between me and Qingcang, I will not be able to turn back for the rest of my life.

"Ah Cang, it's not early, do you want to go out for dinner?" Thinking of this, I feel a little sad in my heart. I don't know if it's for my own stubbornness, or for Qingcang's silent endurance and dedication. So, the words that I had originally thought of confessing my life experience were forced to swallow back to me.

However, Qing Cang shook his head and asked instead, "Aqing, I said that I would protect you thoroughly, but there is always something to take care of. I don't know what's going on with you where I don't have time to care. But...... As long as you say it, I believe it. ”

I know what Qing Cang means, so naturally it's not as simple as telling him to believe me or not. What he wanted to know was what had happened.

This time, I didn't cry again.

Slowly opened his lips, as if telling someone else's story, "That year, the person who assassinated you in the rose forest outside the palace was Wen Ren Haoxuan." At the time, his target was you and not me. But in order to save you, I accidentally fell into a Gu worm.

I thought there were countless imperial doctors in the palace, but I was just suffering from some torture. When it's good, it's always good. But I didn't expect that kind of torture was worse than death for me.

The imperial physician in the palace was helpless, because the poison of this Gu worm could only be solved by those who raised Gu. Wenren Haoxuan is the one who raises Gu. He took advantage of He'er's trust in him and deceived He'er, saying that he wanted to detoxify me. But at that time, you never left me all day long. He'er was in a hurry, so he did something foolish and put a sleeping medicine in your ginseng soup. That night, in exchange for solving the Gu, he wanted to ...... with me."

At this point, I paused, and then said, "I don't want to." But at that time, you were still asleep, and his martial arts were higher than mine. On my own, I can't compete with him no matter what. ”

Ah Cang......

You don't know how many tears I shed that night as I watched your peaceful sleeping face.

Qing Cang only listened silently, but did not speak. But I was so close to him that I could feel the anger coming from him with my eyes closed. I know that the reason why his heart hurts is not because my body is no longer clean. But...... He's right next to me, but he doesn't know about it.

"Later, I became pregnant. You attach great importance to this child, as if you were a new father. At that time, I was in poor health and needed to stay on the bed to nurse the baby. Do you know how much I wanted this child to be stillborn...... I once begged Dr. Luo to find a way to get rid of the baby in my womb. Imperial Doctor Ke Luo said, I was already in the Gu and my serious illness has not been cured. A pair of potions will cost me my life. It's better to give birth to a child. Even if it is difficult to give birth at that time, it is better to end your life early. ”

Speaking of this, I held Qing Cang's hand a little coldly, "Ah Cang, forgive me." I still have a lot of worries in this world, the hatred of the ruined family, my young children, and my obsession with you. I'm afraid of death...... I can only live with shame and steal my ......"

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