She must have cried just now, and her eyes were red and swollen like peaches. The whole person was listless, lazily lying on the bed, only relying on a thin quilt to keep warm.

She clearly heard the movement in the courtyard, but she was not willing to get up at all to see what was going on.

Scold......

How can such a desperate look not worry me?

"Qing'er......" I just walked to the gate, then stopped, trembling and called her.

Her body shook, she raised her head suddenly, and rubbed her eyes in disbelief, "Sister Zhihua!" ”

The voice was hoarse and lifeless.

"Are you alright?" She has nothing to do, I can tell at a glance. But after many years, I can't say anything after all.

"It's alright...... Sister, why are you here? Sister Qing'er's eyes flashed, and she asked recklessly.

I hung my head, not knowing what to say. After thinking for a while, he ordered Xiang Yang and Handong to take out the things they brought.

Sister Qing'er saw that I didn't want to deal with her head-on, so she didn't ask anymore. It's just that the two sisters haven't seen each other for a long time, so they want to talk a little longer.

I watched the once eccentric sister Qing'er feel haggard after going through the vicissitudes of life, and my heart couldn't help but rise.

Especially when she felt the coldness on my hands and cautiously asked me if I wanted to go to the yard to bask in the sun, it was even more sad.

On such a cold winter day, where will there be sun? The faint sunlight shone on my body, and I couldn't feel the slightest warmth at all. What's more, the wind is now cold outside, blowing on the face like a knife.

I shook my head, put my hand on Qing'er's sister's hand, and sighed to warm her, and comforted, "My sister has also come over these days, you must get through it." ”

In this hellish place, it's either stay alive or die! Since you don't want to die, you can only survive!

After a while of small talk, the kitchenette prepared the meal.

Salted chicken, sweet vinegar pork ribs, stir-fried corn, wild greens, and a big bowl of clear soup with only oil and salt.

Although these dishes are very delicious and rich for Qing'er's sister, who is still grounded. But when the food was served, she still looked at me cautiously. It's like saying that she didn't entertain me.

When I saw this, I laughed and said, "This is my favorite food...... You really have a heart, too. ”

When Sister Qing'er heard this, she finally smiled. Because he saw that Xiang Yang Handong was his own person, he began to invite them to eat together.

Xiang Yang Handong rarely accompanied me to the General's Mansion, and he was somewhat uncomfortable with the approach of the young lady general in front of him, so he sat down after a while. Although there were not many masters and servants, they surrounded the small round table.

A small round table, a few home-cooked dishes, this is the life I yearn for the most now, and it is also what I often did with Brother Yusheng, Russell and others.

It's just that now things are wrong, and the past is like the wind. Even though they have made waves in my heart, in the end, there is nothing left but memories.

While eating, Qing'er's sister's eyes became hazy again. I thought she was like me, remembering the past, and my heart was even more sour.

"I've heard about the book." After eating, I was still reluctant to leave.

Although I am very sorry for Qing'er's sister to enter the palace, I also feel sad. But for the first time in a long time, I felt relieved. It's like grabbing a life-saving straw when you are drowning, and you don't want to let go.

Lonely......

For nearly two years, I was so lonely.

Sister Qing'er lowered her head and said with a bitter smile: "In these years, it's really a good thing, and bad things don't go out." But I didn't take care of a subordinate, but this made my sister see the joke. ”

"Where is it that you didn't take care of her?" I frowned, and sighed without sighing, "It's clear that the girl who is waiting for the book doesn't know what to do!" She was useless and unreliable since she was a child. That temperament is many times more wild than you don't know it. She's obedient to you, but she hasn't found a good home.

I don't know how many times I've told you to be wary of her. It's not that my sister is prejudiced against her, it's just that she is too ambitious and has too many selfish desires. In the past, when she was in the General's Mansion, she could always be close to Brother Yusheng. Later, I saw that Yusheng's brother was polite and polite, and he grasped the intimacy and proportionality properly.

So, he turned his attention to Russell again. Now you see, how long has it been since you entered the palace? I learned from others to climb the dragon couch!

After all, a wild child is a wild child! After so many years of master-servant relationship, she didn't even pay attention to it! Over the years, if you have been good to her, even if you feed it to the dog, the dog will repay the favor. ”

Speaking of which, I saw that Qing'er's sister's expression became more and more bitter. So, I couldn't bear to blame her anymore, so I just sighed and stopped at the right time.

It's true that the person who is waiting for the book can't do it, but my words seem too vicious. Although Beishu did something sorry for Qing'er's sister, Qing'er's sister never regarded Beishu as her maid.

Alas......

So far, what are you doing with all this? It's just adding to the troubles.

Just thinking about it, I saw Sister Qing'er move her eyes elsewhere, and said lightly, "The fish leaping over the dragon gate has been the dream of all women in the palace since ancient times, isn't it?" All the eyebrows and cheeks, all the kaleidoscopic changes are just for the ninety-five supreme. In order to please him, so that he can catch a glimpse in his spare time, and even occasionally surprise, in exchange for temporary favor. ”

After that, he glanced at me very firmly, "Sister, I can understand that I want to climb the dragon couch in exchange for glory and wealth." After all, in this world, no one wants to be a descendant for a lifetime. Those tens of thousands of people who did not betray their masters did not want to jump into the dragon gate.

Rather, some people do not have the conditions, and some people do not have the opportunity. The rest of the people are people who have a conscience and know how to repay Entu. They know that only when their masters live well can they live well. Instead of...... Seller for glory! ”

Speaking of this, Qing'er's sister suddenly changed her words and said, "It's just sister, I will never forgive the book." No matter how wild or unreliable she was, she was a friend in my heart. But now, this friend is dead.

She has harmed me to such an extent, even if I am blind and misbelieve her, I bear it! But she killed them all, and the other cronies around me were killed with a rod. I will avenge this revenge no matter what! Even if...... I took her life, and I didn't show mercy! ”

I looked at the innocent girl who used to be innocent, but now I can not only see right and wrong clearly, understand people's hearts, but also clearly analyze everyone's selfish desires and good and evil, rational self-protection, and my heart is extremely complicated.

It's distress, it's helpless, it's also gratifying.

I'm glad she finally grew up. is no longer the willful girl who can ignore everything and just want to be happy for a while. This kind of temperament may be the best change for her in the deep palace.

It's just that...... After all, she lost herself in the Forbidden City, just like me.

Especially, when I heard her say, "I can understand that I want to climb the dragon couch in exchange for glory and wealth, but sister, I will never wait for a book again", my heart was like a cramp, and the pain was almost suffocating.

I was silent for a long time before I sighed and said again, "Huh...... Also. ”

Speaking of this, he felt that he was too cold, so he said, "However, it is useless to talk about this matter so far." It's best if you can see clearly, and my sister can rest assured. The problem of the girl who waits for the book, in the final analysis, is also what you are used to. ”

After speaking, he said a few more words, "Sister, I only hope that you can have more eyes in the future." We have entered the palace, and we can still maintain our original intention of kindness as in the boudoir, but we must not let anyone slaughter or hurt us. ”

When the word "heart" was spoken, Sister Qing'er and I couldn't help but be stunned. I know that even if we can talk about the word "original intention" three times a day, our original intention has long been lost in this filthy Forbidden City.

When I think of this, I feel really sad.

It would be nice if I could go back, but if I could go back, maybe everything would be different.

The atmosphere was slightly awkward, and they were silent for a long time, and Sister Qing'er finally asked me again, "Why is my sister in the palace?" ”

I looked up and saw that Sister Qing'er's eyes were very serious, and she didn't plan to give me another chance to escape. So, I had to make a decree to the Queen Mother and tell her about summoning me to the palace.

and simply used the words "victimized/traitor" to explain why I was grounded and sent to the cold palace.

Sister Qing'er was extremely curious about why the Queen Mother summoned me to the palace. I couldn't hide it from her, so I had to respond vaguely: I don't know, but I vaguely feel that the Queen Mother seems to be brewing a shocking conspiracy. Let me enter the palace, maybe it's just because of my mother's family.

It's just that I didn't tell her about the pros and cons that my father analyzed. Because I believe that with the wisdom of Qing'er's sister, she can understand without me saying it. In that case, why should I take the initiative to mention Brother Yusheng and cause sadness in vain?

However, whether it is because of the maternal family, or because of the earth-shattering conspiracy brewing about the Queen Mother, I have not lied at all. Regarding the shocking conspiracy of the Queen Mother, I only became aware of it after entering the palace.

When I first entered the palace, the Queen Mother was in Mount Emei and was not in the palace. Hearing this, even the people around the Queen Mother followed along.

In addition, the Queen Mother is an extremely quiet person, although she is kind but also cold, and her temper is a little weird. Therefore, in Cining Palace, except for the regular cleaning every day, there are no palace people left to guard Cining Palace.

Strangely, once when I passed by the back gate of Cining Palace, I saw that it was full of hibiscus. So I couldn't help but get closer, trying to see clearly. But before Fleur could get enough, she found some rice grains scattered at the back door.

There are not many grains of rice, but there are only a dozen or twenty grains on the left, and you can't see them if you don't look closely. But once you look closely, you find that the rice grain is the pearl rice that can only be used by the harem master.

There is no master in Cining Palace, that is, there are no palace people, how can there be pearl rice grains at the back door? If you say that this pearl rice grain belongs to another palace, it is not like it. No matter who is in this palace, they don't dare to sprinkle their pearl rice grains on the territory of Cining Palace.

When I think of this, I always feel that something is wrong. So he hurriedly walked away and hid behind the rockery not far away with Xiangyang. Sure enough, only half an hour later, I saw the back door of Cining Palace quietly open a crack.

A woman dressed in her aunt's costume cautiously walked out of it, and after looking left and right for a while, she hurriedly swept the pearl rice to the side of the flowers.

Although I have never seen that aunt, I can guess that she is the most face-worthy person next to the Queen Mother by looking at her clothes. Moreover, her appearance is very similar to Aunt Nianci who taught her aunt to talk about it at the beginning. Since she is in the palace and pearl rice has appeared, if I am not mistaken, the Queen Mother must be in the palace!

In addition, in the eyes of outsiders, she has always purified her heart and worshiped the Buddha. But if you really worship the Buddha in Mount Emei, how can you always keep abreast of the current situation in the capital.

I was able to summon me to the palace when my father and General Murong reached a consensus to summon me to the palace when I was engaged to Brother Yusheng. Such a coincidence and timeliness had to make me suspicious.

"Sister, our lives are the same, and now I still have my sister as a companion in the palace, but I pity my infatuated brother."

Sister Qing'er's words once again brought me back to my senses from my memories. It's just that I'd rather never heard what she just said.

At the beginning, I fell in love with Yusheng's brother, and as a younger sister, she saw it in her eyes. Although she is young, she is a small ghost and understands everything. Every time we get together, we can't wait to make all our jokes.

Since I met her, I have been expecting to hear some news about Yusheng's brother, but I am afraid to hear that name that makes people think about it.

I kept this secret in my heart, but I didn't expect it to be mentioned by Sister Qing'er.

How long has it been?

Counting the days, it's been almost a year and a half since I entered the palace, right? And Yusheng's brother ...... The time to leave the capital is not short.

He...... How are you doing?

"Qing'er ......" Thinking of this, I couldn't help but have a sour nose, and I burst into tears.

Seeing this, Sister Qing'er hurriedly coaxed, "Sister, don't cry, don't cry!" It's all up to me, it's all up to me. ”

……

Reunited after a long absence, two women whose fate was tricked gathered together and hugged and cried. For so long, it's not that there is no resentment in my heart, but I just learned to accept my fate.

I finally met my sister again today, and all the grievances in my heart turned into tears. I think, this life. The only person who can see me so weak is my sister, right?

That's it.

Fortunately, it is now the greatest gift from God that we two sisters are together.

What is lost cannot be taken back, and what is still on the body must not be lost again. I don't ask for favor, I don't ask for heirs, I just want to be able to grow old with my sister in the harem, without illness or setbacks.