Chapter 307: I Don't Blame You, But We Can't Either......
New Year's Eve backstage.
The head of the stadium.
On a high platform.
The two figures, just like that, stood on the edge, overlooking the bustling and lively scene of the entire stadium.
The height is not cold, today is Chinese New Year's Eve, even if the lowest temperature in Funan, which is located in the south, is only minus three or four degrees all day, but after all, they stand tall, and the weather is not good today, and the cold wind blows over, it will still make people shiver.
Of course......
The "trembling" here refers to Pei Jingshu.
Because she was going to perform on stage, she only wore a silver-white bandeau evening dress, no matter how thick the dress was, it was impossible to keep warm, even if she wore a black blazer, it looked very chicken in this cold wind.
is not like Gu Huai'an, the old 6, who performs on stage in sweaters and down jackets, and doesn't care about his star image at all, and has no idol baggage at all......
To be warm, never to have any demeanor.
But if you want to say that he has no grace at this time, that's really not enough.
You see?
He didn't forget, took off his down jacket and put it on Pei Jingshu.
"No need to ......"
There are tear stains in the corners of Pei Jingshu's eyes, her eyes are red, and in the cold night, when she opens her mouth to speak, there will be a white mist rising, which makes people feel very distressed to watch.
She raised her slender, bony jade hand to refuse, but Gu Huai'an was very insistent, it was so cold, she would definitely catch a cold if she wore so little to stay here with her.
The action of struggling and refusing did not last a few times, and Pei Jingshu finally put on Gu Huai'an's down jacket.
It's not that she doesn't want to refuse, but it's really too cold here, the highest place in the entire stadium, there are no buildings to block it, and the cold wind blowing in it really kills......
But to be honest, when she put on this down jacket, Pei Jingshu regretted it a little.
Why?
Because......
This down jacket has Gu Huai'an's body temperature and Gu Huai'an's taste.
When those smells were uncontrolled and followed her sense of smell into her nose, the feeling of being embraced, the familiar smell on his body, all poured into Pei Jingshu's mind.
made Pei Jingshu recall the warmth of the past......
After the breakup, any warmth related to the past will turn into the coldest blade in this cold night, slashing at her heart one by one.
This made her tears that she had managed to control with great difficulty, and she had to feel like they were flowing out.
"Whirring ......"
The cold wind blows.
It's cold.
Pei Jingshu could feel that her face was a little stiff when she was cold.
But when the tears came out......
How......
Her eyes will be so hot and humid!
And the most unbearable thing for her was that not long after the tears came out, they cooled down with the cold wind and made her eyes ......
Colder, cooler!
Looking at Pei Jingshu like this, Gu Huai'an was very distressed, if there is a degree of distress, then the highest degree is probably in Pei Jingshu's hair......
Other people's feelings may not be real, but Gu Huai'an has personally touched Pei Jingshu's hair I don't know how many times, it is really soft and comfortable......
And now, this short hair can no longer afford the "chopsticks coiled hair" that they once had out of the circle.
The Devil Sends God......
Gu Huaian actually raised his hand and wanted to stroke Pei Jingshu's hair.
However, just as his hand was about to touch behind Pei Jingshu's ear and touch a few strands of hair at the nearest distance......
"Smack!"
Pei Jingshu raised her hand and slapped his hand away.
She glared at Gu Huai'an, and that glance was very cold, as if it was cooler than the temperature at this time.
"I'm sorry ......"
Gu Huai'an withdrew his hand in embarrassment, feeling that his move seemed to be indeed reckless.
“……”
Pei Jingshu didn't say anything more, just stubbornly pursed her lips slightly, tilted her head sideways and didn't look at Gu Huai'an.
This stinky straight man didn't even say anything, he looked like he had done something wrong, which once made Pei Jingshu can't help but want to ask him if he pulled himself up just to blow the cold wind?!
"Whirring ......"
Suddenly, a gust of cold wind came, which made Pei Jingshu shrink back.
Seeing this, Gu Huai'an was probably afraid that she would be cold, so he walked up to her and planned to close the zipper of the down jacket......
"Dry ...... Why ......?"
Pei Jingshu immediately dodged it, she was always very helpless about Gu Huai'an's "brainless behavior", the down jacket was already bloated enough, she was still in a "draped" state, how ugly would it be if she zipped it up? !
Don't you have to be like a bucket anymore?
Celebrities pay attention to how much they look good when they wear clothes, and no matter how cold they are when they wear a coat, they basically never tie their mouths and zip them, which is basically common sense, and they hold them with both hands at most......
How can anyone like Gu Huai'an, who pulls a zipper for people?!
"I ...... I'm afraid you're cold......"
Gu Huai'an looked like a child who had done something wrong, scratching his head and stepping back, making Pei Jingshu feel inexplicably crying and laughing.
This guy really hasn't changed......
But soon, Pei Jingshu's eyes were a little more sarcastic.
She used to think that Gu Huai'an was a very honest boyfriend who was stupid and simple, and it was impossible for her to do those things......
But he did it anyway.
This shows that people should not be disguised.
“…… Gu Huai'an, do I really know you? ”
After being silent for a long time, Pei Jingshu tugged at the down jacket that Gu Huai'an had draped on her body, looked at him who was only wearing a black turtleneck, and couldn't help but ask.
At this time, she was no longer as emotional as before, in fact, she didn't know what was wrong with her, as if she had been very emotional before that.
Probably there is no one else at the moment, so she really wants to talk to Gu Huai'an.
She really wanted to ask her if she knew Gu Huai'an, she had always thought that she knew him, so she believed him very much, but then he hid things from her, which made her feel very strange.
Like, not something he would do.
Sometimes, she even wondered if Gu Huai'an had a dual personality?
“……”
Gu Huaian didn't know how to answer for a while, mainly because this question was a bit nonsensical.
So if Pei Jingshu doesn't understand him, how does he know?
It's time to ask herself!
Indeed, Pei Jingshu really didn't expect to get an answer from Gu Huai'an, she just turned her head sideways, looked at the lively scene in the stadium, and said:
"I don't know if I really know you, but you do know me, and you know how to take advantage of my softness for you......"
If you change a girl who doesn't have such a strong temperament, but just apologizes for the same two songs tonight, she should be chased back by his "romance", right?
But it's a pity that she Pei Jingshu will never be that kind of little girl......
It is said that she is a "love brain", don't be kidding, have you ever seen such a rational love brain?
"I don't have ......"
Gu Huai'an shook his head, he never had any idea of taking advantage of Pei Jingshu's soft-heartedness.
It was very cold tonight, so cold that when Gu Huai'an spoke, he could see a white mist rising.
"Hit the ......"
They stood in a good position, just overlooking the entire stadium, and the next group of guests who followed him performed sang the dynamic Internet songs that became popular this year, and the atmosphere was not bad.
"Then you ......"
Pei Jingshu turned her head to look at Gu Huai'an, there was some uncontrollable resentment in her eyes, but at the same time as she spoke, Gu Huai'an also said:
"It's just...... I want to apologize to you. ”
At that time, Gu Huaian also turned his head to look at Pei Jingshu, as a big man, it is definitely not enough to shed tears, but people's eyes are always full of emotions, Pei Jingshu can see the slow apology in his eyes, those can't fool people no matter what.
"I'm sorry ......"
Gu Huai'an said as if laughing at himself:
"I didn't ask for your forgiveness, I didn't ask for your understanding, I didn't even have the face to face you, I always wanted to take everything over, but I really messed everything up."
Life, career, relationships, all in a mess.
When he said this, Gu Huai'an lowered his head, turned his head sideways, and looked at many places, but he never looked at Pei Jingshu.
And Pei Jingshu was staring at Gu Huai'an from beginning to end......
Even if she cried, she was still delicate at the moment, she was always so good-looking, and any shot given to her at any time could make the viewer amazed.
But such a beauty always cries very unspeakably because of Gu Huai'an......
Listening to his monologue like "introspection", Pei Jingshu was also very distressed, and even a little self-blamed, because all the things in the past six months, and all the situations Gu Huai'an is facing now, are because of one of her breakup dynamics......
Clearly!
She can choose to be decent, break up in private, don't tell anyone, and wait for someone to be exposed and treated coldly.
She knows how high their "Pei Companion takes care of CP" has in the hearts of fans and audiences......
Yes, she has been tortured all over her body to this day, but the man she once loved the most, why is there not a piece of good meat on her body that she has taken revenge on?
Is this really what she thinks?
"Do you think what I need is an apology?"
Pei Jingshu's voice was a little crying, in the cold wind, she had been wrapped in a down jacket for hundreds of years, her figure was also very thin, her coat was not zipped, and the large snow-white skin on her chest was all exposed to the air, snow-white and attractive.
"I know, you want me to explain......"
Gu Huai'an smiled bitterly, shook his head and said:
"But I can't explain it."
There are always people who say that Gu Huai'an is cowardly, that he is indecisive, and he hasn't even explained to Pei Jingshu for half a year!
But how do you ask him to explain it?
said that Shang Zhuoyan has been sticking to him, or is Shang Zhuoyan portrayed as a "third party" in their relationship, in exchange for the opportunity to ease up between him and Pei Jingshu?
She's ...... now. It's already miserable!
In the breakup turmoil of "Pei Companion Care", the most seriously injured person has always been Shang Zhuoyan, there has been sweetness between Gu Huaian and Pei Jingshu, but there seems to have never been a little sweetness between him and Shang Zhuoyan.
Now she is even worse than Gu Huai'an in her career and life, and she is a mess......
It's just that she doesn't care, no matter what, Gu Huaian can't hurt her anymore.
She believes so much that Gu Huai'an has come to this day, everything is because of Gu Huai'an, Gu Huai'an will hurt her again, can she really live?
Do you want Gu Huai'an to force Shang Zhuoyan to death in order to save Pei Jingshu?
I'm sorry......
He really couldn't do it.
And no matter what, Gu Huai'an can't deny that he also likes Shang Zhuoyan, and he has never dispelled such thoughts.
Things have come to this point, and it is not only Shang Zhuoyan's responsibility, but he is also mainly responsible for it.
Therefore, even if Pei Jingshu can't be recovered, Gu Huai'an can't hurt Shang Zhuoyan anymore.
"Can't explain?"
Pei Jingshu, who heard this, showed signs of breaking the defense for the first time.
She originally thought that she had come to her senses at this time, but when she heard Gu Huai'an say that she couldn't explain it, a breath of anger rushed straight to her mind, so that she couldn't suppress it.
"Can't explain it? Or is there no room for explanation? ”
It's not that they don't want to explain, it's that they can't talk about the disgusting things between them!
“……”
Gu Huaian didn't answer, which made Pei Jingshu even more defense......
She cried, raised her hand to push Gu Huai'an, and hit him, although she didn't have any strength, and it didn't hurt to say that it hurt, but she hit him many times, and she kept slapping.
She cried and beat while saying:
"Bastard!"
"You're such a bastard!"
"Why can't it be explained? Why can't you explain it?! ”
"It's been half a year, do you know how I've been doing in the past six months? Do you know how hard I work? ”
"Do you know how worried I was about you that day when I heard you were in a car accident? Do you know how long I've been crying......"
"You know what? Yes?! ”
Gu Huaian didn't do anything, let her beat, as if if she could be more comfortable with a few hits, it didn't matter if she killed Gu Huaian.
To be honest, this kid is really a straight man, but if you change to an experienced person at this time, you will hug her directly!
When she breaks the defense, when she scolds you and hits you, you hug her! Kiss her!
You all know what happens between you, you know what you can say and what you can't say, sometimes girls don't want your explanation, it's enough for you to truly repent, and it's good that you promise never to do it again!
Stinky straight man, why are you standing there and letting her fight?!
You're a wooden stake?!
If the nearly 10,000 spectators in the audience knew that Gu Huai'an chased Pei Jingshu out tonight, they would just let her fight, then they would be really angry, and one would be counted as one!
Why do you still use someone to teach him?!
I haven't watched idol dramas, hey!
I don't know if I really think I'm too straight......
When Pei Jingshu beat him for most of the day, this kid finally reacted!
He raised his hand and hugged Pei Jingshu......
Pei Jingshu is tall, but very thin, and she has lost some weight in the past six months, although she is wearing a coat and a down jacket, Gu Huaian can still easily hug her.
"What?"
"Loose ...... Loosen! ”
"You let go of me!"
She is really educated, even if she struggled to break the defense in Gu Huai'an's arms, she never said "get out".
"I'm sorry ......"
Gu Huaian just whispered words of apology in her ear, kept saying it, and said it many times.
Pei Jingshu heard it, although she broke the defense, but this guy said it next to her ear, her ears were soft, and she wanted not to hear it, but she really couldn't do it.
The movement of the struggle, getting smaller and smaller......
The strength to beat him is getting smaller and smaller......
"Ahh
In the end, Pei Jingshu lowered her head and cried in Gu Huai'an's arms.
She didn't dislike this embrace, and even this embrace once made her very greedy, and the familiar smell soaked into her nose, although it blew in the cold wind for a long time, it was really quite warm.
It was so warm that she didn't want to get up.
It is worth mentioning that Gu Huai'an hugged her very tightly, as if he wanted to rub her into his body, but he would not make her feel uncomfortable or suffocated, which showed that he always took care of her feelings.
At that moment, Pei Jingshu could feel his feeling that he was afraid that if he didn't hold him tightly, she would leave......
I can feel how much he struggled.
At this time, Pei Jingshu will also think......
Why the hell did they become like this?!
“……”
They hugged them for a long time.
Gu Huai'an could hear Pei Jingshu crying all the time, to be honest, his black sweater today must not be washed off, tears, snot, and foundation were mixed on it, which made Gu Huaian very glad that he didn't wear any haute couture dresses today, otherwise it would be difficult to retreat.
At this moment, Gu Huai'an was a little lucky, Pei Jingshu's reaction gave him a little hope of redemption, but who knows......
Right in the next moment.
Pei Jingshu suddenly raised her hands to support his chest, and before he could react, she pushed him and left his arms, and widened the distance between the two people.
"Hoo ......"
Pei Jingshu cried and wore makeup, but it was not ugly, she took a deep breath, as if she had made some major decision, stared at Gu Huai'an, considered it, and finally said:
Gu Huai'an...... I don't blame you anymore. ”
"But we ......"
"It's impossible."
When she said this, Pei Jingshudai frowned, and her tears were about to flow out again, to be honest, she was very greedy for the warmth from Gu Huai'an's arms, it was so cold on it, the cold wind was blowing, hiding in his arms could make her face not so cold, and the tears could always be hot......
But when she thought that this embrace had once belonged to someone else, she couldn't accept it anyway.
She is Pei Jingshu, and her pride makes her unable to share a hug with others no matter what.
She likes Gu Huai'an, loves Gu Huai'an, this has not changed until now, because of this, she can't accept any betrayal, let alone because of his two songs tonight, his apology, and a hug......
Just like that, forgive him for what he has done.
He didn't even have an explanation!
He doesn't even want to explain!
You don't think that Pei Jingshu is really in love, hug it, and forgive him for everything he did, right?!
You say he's apologetic?
What's the use of apologies!
Apology is always the most chicken thing, and forgiveness must be done from the heart for a reason, not being kidnapped by morality!
If you don't apologize, I have to accept it......
After speaking.
She didn't even wait for Gu Huai'an to react and answer......
Then he turned around and walked away.
"Click......
The sound of high heels stepping on the ground is extremely harsh.
"Rumble ......"
The sky rumbled, and white snowflakes finally fell from the sky one by one.
sprinkled on Pei Jingshu's departing back, sprinkled on her distressing short hair, and sprinkled on his down jacket that she probably forgot, or maybe deliberately did not return it to Gu Huai'an, and still draped it on herself.
It's just that Gu Huai'an is no longer qualified to remove the snow for Pei Jingshu.
……
The broken mirror will be reunited, and it won't be long.
(End of chapter)