Girls are romantic and realistic; Think about reality in romance and think about romance in reality. Liu Yiyi felt that her relationship with Dr. Guo was too realistic, he was a doctor, he had a future, and his future was her future. Liu Yiyi always regretted that she didn't find the ideal feeling from the doctor. She repeatedly persuaded herself in her heart: "I don't dare to be serious anymore, and I still talk about ideals?" "Having said that, it seems to have figured it out, but unfortunately it is still like a female mosquito on a summer night, buzzing in her heart, and she can't get rid of it.

On this day, the doctor took Liu Yiyi to a small restaurant near the campus for dinner. They ordered boiled live fish for twelve yuan a catty. The boss said no, and went to the fish seller opposite to catch it, and the doctor followed the boss. Liu Yiyi saw from the window that the doctor rolled up his sleeves and went to the pool to catch fish, and then leaned up to stare at the scales to see if the weight was wrong, and she had a very bad feeling in her heart. He said every day that he was a big man, and she saw him as a big man because of this, and the big man was still like this? The doctor returned to the table and proudly told her that she had caught the most alive one, and that the fish boss couldn't make it if he wanted to. Liu Yiyi was silent. The doctor said, "What are you not happy about?" Liu Yiyi was still silent. Eating fish fillet, Yiyi said: "You said that you will become an executive in the bank after graduation, that is a gold sticker for yourself, right?" The doctor said, "Tarzan is not a base." If I'm not an inappropriate executive, who else should be? My tutor still wanted me to stay in school, and always lured me by being a doctoral supervisor. Liu Yiyi said: "When you become an executive, do you count those steel hammers?" The doctor said, "That's the business of his men." I don't need to count the 100-dollar bills, I still count that? Liu Yiyi said: "Then how can you put your mind at ease?" The doctor smiled and said, "You laughed at me just looking at the scales for a long time!" I'm idle, I'm idle, why should I be gently stabbed by others? And he said, "I can't tell if you want money or not, but your eyes are so big," he gestured with his hands in front of his eyes, "so big." "It's the size of a duck's egg.

Liu Yiyi told this in the dormitory, gesturing with her sleeves to touch the fish. Miao Xiaohui said: "His family may be rural, and there is a big hole in his heart if he suffers a little loss." Liu Yiyi said: "With him, I will have a good life in the future?" He also said, "His family is really rural, he said." Miao Xiaohui said: "Then you didn't tell me earlier?" My mother said that she doesn't care who I look for, but I can't find a home in the countryside, and the family will come to your house for the New Year. Liu Yiyi said: "I haven't thought about this problem. Yi Fan said: "I don't want to do this, so what do you want?" It's getting married. My family is not allowed to find a home in the countryside. Liu Yiyi said: "He's really a character, so it's nothing, right?" Miao Xiaohui said: "You are really here with him, you really don't want to think about it?" Liu Yiyi felt that although Miao Xiaohui was such a close friend, it was still difficult to communicate in some places. It doesn't matter if a man has had an intimate relationship with several women, but the fact that the home is rural is a serious problem. Liu Yiyi said: "I'm too lazy to think so much, anyway, my family is so poor." Miao Xiaohui said: "So I have to think about it more." Liu Yiyi smiled: "I mainly can't get used to his unruly appearance, and I rolled up my sleeves to touch the fish, and I feel a little shorter again." Yi Fan said: "If only he had the sunshine of Xiao Xia." Liu Yiyi was bumped in her heart, felt that Yi Fan understood her heart very well, and looked at her and smiled. Yi Fan said: "The face is also a bit like a spoon. Liu Yiyi thought about it, and it really made a little sense.

The doctor went to Anyin City to give a lecture and asked Liu Yiyi to accompany him. The doctor said that the people who attended the lecture were all city leaders, and his tutor fully trusted him before letting him go. Liu Yiyi remembered that she went to Lushan with Xia Weikai the year before last, as long as she went out, some things would be unavoidable. But she couldn't resist the temptation to go out for a walk, so she said, "I still don't want to go." The doctor said, "Stay with me, I'm alone outside, don't you think it hurts?" Liu Yiyi said: "Provincial and municipal leaders accompany you." The doctor said, "There is no one to accompany you at night." Liu Yiyi said: "Then I won't go." The doctor said, "Invite her to play and do ideological work." "I also talked about a few interesting places in the local area. Liu Yiyi said: "That's okay." The Doctor said, "It's all right—what's going to be done?" Liu Yiyi said: "What do you say? The doctor said, "I don't know." Liu Yiyi said: "Then you think about it again, and I will go after thinking about it." The doctor said, "Yes, you have already said it." Liu Yiyi said: "Then you say what I said again." The doctor smiled and said, "I can't touch you until you graduate, I can't touch you." Holy Decree. I don't touch it, okay? I've been here for 29 years, and I can't live more than these two months? Liu Yiyi agreed, and the doctor said: "It's trouble to find a girl, and it's unwilling to find a woman." And he said, "I'd better do the tricks, or it will be even more troublesome." ”

When he arrived in Anyin, the doctor went to class, and Liu Yiyi was waiting for him at the hotel. The doctor came back at five o'clock in the afternoon and took her to dinner. During the meal, the doctor was very excited, saying how wonderful his lectures were, how the city leaders looked up to him, and wanted him to come to Anyin to work after graduation, and there were important positions waiting for him. Liu Yiyi wanted to say, why didn't you invite you to dinner if you looked up to it so much? Seeing that he was so proud, it didn't ruin his interest. The doctor drank a small bottle of Coconut Island Deer Turtle Wine, his face turned red, and he became even more excited and said, "Have you ever heard of the saying that there are people in our wealth who are divided into three classes?" Man, woman, female doctor. Liu Yiyi said: "I heard that the fourth class is a male doctor. The doctor laughed and said, "We are the spiky heads of the first class." If there is a fourth class, we are the first class. And he said, "They are all doctors, and the difference between men and women is so great that there is a sea." Female doctors, especially those who are not married, are all problematic people. "He said that there are two female doctors living in a suite, and they can't get along well, and you live or die. One poured urine on her face while the other was asleep. There is another one who is very good at dressing up, today he said that he was going to marry a certain director, and after a while, he said that he was going to marry a certain manager, but he always couldn't get married. The doctor said: "There was a time when it seemed that she was really going to marry a big man, and on Valentine's Day, she gave her a blue enchantress for five hundred dollars, and she showed everyone the remains of the enchantress." I saw that she was so excited, and I thought to myself that this marriage might not be possible, and sure enough, it didn't work out. Liu Yiyi believed what he said, and after believing it, he was very sad. It is the same hard work and success, but the meaning of success in the love field of men and women is so different. The essence of life is survival, and the essence of survival is the game, on the battlefield, in the shopping mall, in the officialdom, and in the love field. She felt that the word "game" was very accurate and very true. She looked at the doctor's red face and thought that this man was her opponent. The doctor didn't realize the change in Liu Yiyi's mood, but he still talked excitedly and told the "six don't want to". He said: "The biggest advantage of relying on you is to make people feel at ease. You don't have those sneaky behaviors, otherwise how can you find the feeling of love - no, it's wrong, the feeling of love is always found, as long as he needs her, there will naturally be feelings, I'm talking about the feeling of marriage. Who can find the feeling of marriage in a girl who is constantly being monitored? Liu Yiyi said: "Are you saying that I can only keep to myself?" Then I'll show you when I tweak. The doctor shook his head again and again and said, "You won't, you won't, aren't you enough with me, me?" ”

After eating and shopping for a while, when she returned to the hotel, the doctor stuck to her, and Liu Yiyi said, "You promised me, haven't you forgotten?" The doctor said, "If you don't let me walk a hundred steps, won't you let me walk fifty steps?" After tossing for a while, Liu Yiyi felt that her emotions did not come up, and she perfunctory him. The doctor said, "There is nothing to do, and there is nothing that can be done in front of you." At night, at Liu Yiyi's insistence, I slept in one bed and turned off the lights to speak. As he spoke, the doctor crawled over and said, "I don't do anything else, can I lie down here?" Liu Yiyi gave up half of the bed for him to lie down. After the doctor lay down, she felt that she should show a kind of shyness and not let him lie down so easily. And I felt how easy it was to break the shyness. "I was really touched by my restraint," the doctor said. As he spoke, he took off Liu Yiyi's underwear. Liu Yiyi hugged her hands and feet tightly, but the doctor was still very persistent, and said, "I will definitely do what I promised." Liu Yiyi no longer insisted. was hugged by the doctor, Liu Yiyi thought, this kind of persistence is actually meaningless, but he didn't feel that irrepressible passion. In the darkness, she tried to recall the scene with Xia Weikai at that time, many pictures overlapped, like clouds and fog, and she couldn't remember which time there was any special impression. But in this blur, suddenly a feeling flashed out, like a torch being lit, burning in the boundless darkness, that is, the emotion that I had been activated. The doctor caressed her and complimented her on the proportions of her body, where it should be and where it shouldn't, all just right. "Then I'm satisfied," he said. I don't know if he's satisfied with his body or his caressing. Liu Yiyi suddenly wanted to ask what the girl named Zeng Yun was. She held back, it was so embarrassing. The doctor said, "I have this kind of beauty to myself, and it is also a great happiness in life." The hand wandered up again and said, "Actually, morning and evening are like that, so why not hurry?" Liu Yiyi pressed his mouth and said, "Don't discuss this issue." ”

The doctor fell asleep, but Liu Yiyi was exceptionally awake. Xia Weikai left a physical memory in her heart, a memory that she had no clear consciousness before, but tonight it was so clear and so strong. A woman feels a man with her physical intuition, and this feeling guides the direction she chooses. In any case, these are two different men, the difference is so obvious that it is impossible to find the exact expression, but it is clear, so obvious, as obvious as black and white. This feeling is a force, a powerful irresistible force that can pull itself through or push it away. Liu Yiyi felt that she was being pushed away, and this power was so clear and so strong. Thinking like this, Liu Yiyi moved her body away from the doctor, gently groped until her underwear was put on, opened her eyes, and stared hard at the darkness in front of her.