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The three words "eternal hatred" gave Liu Yiyi a great shock, and after the shock, she thought for a long time, maybe what the doctor said was true, and such an opportunity would not be there again in the future.
Many times she said to herself that it was still too late, and it was too late to turn back. But in the end, the material memory still answered in the negative.
Black and white, so clear, people can't lie to themselves! The doctor called again and again and asked, "Is this your final decision?" I never ask for people, only people ask me, it is because of you and I call, it is others who ask me to call, it is difficult to go to the blue sky. Liu Yiyi didn't want to hurt him with clear words, so she gave him an answer every time she was vague but firm.
Another time the doctor called and said, "For the sake of the previous relationship, can you do me a favor?" Liu Yiyi immediately said, "Yes." The doctor said, "This can only be helped if we meet." Liu Yiyi said: "Isn't it okay to arrange on the phone?" The doctor said, "How terrible is it to meet?" Liu Yiyi agreed and asked him to come to the dormitory at night.
She figured out that the dormitory would be attended by people at any time, and the doctor would not be overly entangled. Just after dinner, the doctor came, and Wen Ya and Yi Fan were interested in leaving.
Liu Yiyi said: "It's okay. They winked and laughed. Wen Ya said: "Doctor, you are almost there, we all call Yiyi a postdoctor." Yi Fan said: "Doctor, be kind to us, we can't spare you if it's not good, she is the treasure of all of us." The two laughed and left.
Liu Yiyi said: "I thought you came after dark." The doctor said, "If you're not careful, you'll come early." After talking for a while, Liu Yiyi wanted to finish things as soon as possible, and said, "How can I help you?" The doctor ran to the door and latched it, and Liu Yiyi said, "What do others think you are doing inside!" The doctor had no choice but to pull the latch open and leave the door open.
The doctor said, "There's a question I really don't understand, and I can't figure it out. You don't even think it's okay for someone like me, so who else are you looking for, and where is he? I really thought about it for a few days and didn't figure it out, you do me a favor and let me let go of this mental baggage. Liu Yiyi said: "I don't know either." The Wise Man said, "Everything has a cause." What do you think I'm bad about? Liu Yiyi said: "You are good at everything." The doctor tapped lightly on the table and said, "Won't help, won't help." Wouldn't you want to say a few words to free others from their confusion? This is also humanitarianism. Liu Yiyi said: "It's me who is not good." The doctor understood, "I guess, you had a boyfriend before, and he whistled at you again." Liu Yiyi said: "Definitely not." The doctor said, "That's only the last explanation." But he didn't go on.
Liu Yiyi said: "I don't know, you say." The doctor said, "You know." Liu Yiyi's heart jumped, did he know about himself and Xia Weikai?
"I really don't know," she said. The doctor paused, chuckled softly, and then laughed again, "There may be some things I think of too ideally, and I shouldn't think like that." Liu Yiyi calmed down and said, "What do you think, that's your right." "These thoughts may be far from reality, and for a senior girl, you may not be able to think of her like that," the doctor said. With such an open society and such freedom, how can some things be possible? Liu Yiyi's heart was beating hard, her face was feverish, and she felt out of breath.
The doctor looked at her and said, "Am I right? Seeing that Liu Yiyi was silent, he said, "That's right." Liu Yiyi said with some shame: "I'm not as good as you think." The doctor said, "Am I asking too much?" Liu Yiyi said: "I am you, and I will think like that." Isn't it self-sacrifice to be qualified to think but not to think about it? The doctor was across the table, one hand on his head, staring at a book spread out on the table.
He rolled his eyelids up several times, glanced at Liu Yiyi, as if to explore the true meaning of her words, and then stared at the book again, no longer moving, as if attracted by the story in the book.
After a long time, he said a little sentimentally: "I love someone seriously, I will care about her, I hope she is a real lady." Otherwise, what do I think this is really for? You deserve to be happy. Liu Yiyi said: "I only felt pressure. The doctor said, "Because you're not a lady anymore." Why don't you wait for me? You should wait for me. Liu Yiyi smiled in her heart, have you waited for me?
Why should I wait for you? The mouth said, "How do I know that there is still a doctor like you in the world?" "She put
The "doctor" bit very hard and long, and the doctor didn't care. The doctor said, "I really thought that you—who were in Anyin that night—weren't really necessary. Liu Yiyi said: "I don't want to disappoint you. The doctor immediately said, "That proves that I still have a lot of weight in your heart." It's just a pity - I'm gone, I understand. He stood up and sighed: "I see, I'm leaving." He sat down again and looked at Liu Yiyi: "I understand, I'm leaving." Finally walked to the door, stopped, looked back, and sighed: "I really feel sorry for you." He opened the door, looked back again, sighed, and walked away.
Liu Yiyi let out a long sigh and sat down weakly, thinking about this confident and narcissistic man, a little pity for him and a little pity for himself.
Seeing that it was still early, she wanted to go downstairs to take some breath. On the stairs she saw the Doctor walking up, and when it was too late to avoid it, she said, "Forgot what?" The doctor said, "I have a few more words to tell you." Walking outside together, Liu Yiyi said: "There are people everywhere. The doctor said, "Go to the basketball court." Liu Yiyi said: "It's too dark." The doctor didn't speak, and kept walking that way, and Liu Yiyi had to follow.
Under the basketball hoop, the doctor said, "Sit down." He sat on the granite of the pressing shelf, patted a piece of granite next to him, and signaled.
Liu Yiyi didn't want to get so close, and said, "It's cold, it's cold up there, I'm afraid of the cold." "Just standing there.
The doctor stood up, gasping heavily, and for a moment he grabbed her hand and said word by word, "You just spoke of sacrifice, and I think I should, should be, a little, sacrificial." As long as your previous history is not so complicated, as long as you are a good lady in the future, then we, we, should look forward. Liu Yiyi was a little irritable in her heart, this matter can't be finished!
She withdrew her hand and said, "There are so many conditions! The doctor was stunned, expecting that she would be moved by her sacrifice and crying, but he did not expect her to say this, and said angrily, "Is this still a condition?" That is to say, your previous history was particularly complicated, and you don't want to be a lady in the future? Look left and right, look up and down, you don't look like a naughty girl, am I wrong again? Liu Yiyi quietly took a step back and said: "I'm not as pure as you think, you better go find a pure one, I don't want you to make such a big sacrifice for me." The doctor said, "The sacrifice is of my own free will, I am willing to sacrifice." But you have to tell me what happened before, and don't let me imagine it. The more I thought about it, the more I thought about it, the more detailed and vivid it became, as if it was a well, unfathomable, unfathomable! What man can endure this torture? Liu Yiyi said: "Can women endure this kind of torture? The doctor said, "Then you mean that you are going to think of me in turn?" Liu Yiyi said: "It's not anyone's privilege to care. The doctor said, "She's still going to care about me, it's funny." Liu Yiyi felt that this was an opportunity and said: "I don't have the right to care, I'm leaving." "Turn around and go.
Halfway down the pitch, the Doctor catches up and says, "What the hell is going on?" I'm confused. Liu Yiyi said: "Then you have to ask yourself." The doctor said, "Why don't you come with me?" Liu Yiyi said: "Then you have to ask yourself." The doctor said, "I've retreated so far, why don't you come with me?" Liu Yiyi said: "Why should I go with you?" I felt that the words were too hard, and I softened my voice and said, "Your standards are too high, I don't deserve it, you go find a lady." The doctor said, "Didn't I lower my standards?" Liu Yiyi said: "You are not willing, you have a set of theories, that is your thoughts, and you will bring it up in the future if you lower it now." I don't want or believe that a man will change his mind for me. The doctor said, "What's wrong with my theory?" Liu Yiyi said: "Your theories are all right, but the world is wrong." The doctor said, "You laugh at me out of place?" I don't care about your ...... That one...... That state, but I have to care about your mentality. This is not feudal, this is my lesson! Liu Yiyi said: "I didn't say that you are out of place, you are right, the world is wrong." The doctor said, "Who wants to find a girl with a overlapping history to be a wife?" Who? Even if he gritted his teeth and recognized everything, could he believe that she would become a Buddha for herself? Men are deceiving themselves, and women are deceiving themselves. I am so different from others, so the other party will become a Buddha for my own sake and deceive himself! Liu Yiyi felt aggrieved for a woman, in the first man, she had to use her body to prove love, and in the second man, she had to use purity to prove love, is it so difficult for a woman to be a man?
As for himself, he originally longed for purity, but now, he has to make a tenacious defense for impurity, like a judge sitting in the defendant's seat.
This is not my own idea at all, but I have to take it as my own idea, I am really wronged!
She rushed up to her in anger and said, "Don't imagine that others will become a Buddha for you!" With that, he walked away resolutely and quickly.
When he walked to the edge of the court and saw the Doctor still standing, he shouted, "I'm leaving!" He shouted and seemed relieved, and walked away without looking back.
The Doctor stayed in the middle of the court, confused. He thought about it, and he was right, how could it be such an ending?
He walked back slowly, and after walking for a long time, he was startled by the flashing lights of the car in front of him, and heard a sharp horn again.
Then his heart flashed, and he gasped, and said to himself, "No, no. Could it be," he glanced at Liu Yiyi's dormitory,
"Is this a good fox again?"