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The bleak autumn wind swept the layers of fallen leaves, Liu Zhixi wore a thin coat, standing at the door of the milk tea shop outside the campus, holding a cup of warm milk tea in her hand, the cold wind stirred her hair, and her face was slightly ruddy in the wind. It was already the first semester of the sophomore year of high school, she and Zeng Xiao both applied for the liberal arts class, Su Huai entered the best science class in the school, and Lin Sujin became a specialty student and went to the art class.
Zeng Xiao held a stack of test papers and strode towards her, still with a simple and stocky smile on her face, "Zhixi, you did well in the exam this time, you are the 14th in the whole grade of liberal arts, your English is really amazing, you took the first place in the whole grade, and your strength crushed Su Huai." The glass door of the bubble tea shop reflected her beautiful face and slender figure, but she didn't bother to pay attention, lowered her head and kicked a small pebble on the side of the road.
With a clatter, the stone fell from the incomplete manhole cover on the road into the sewer, and Liu Zhixi couldn't help but think that no one would care if an ordinary stone was missing, but if it was a valuable diamond, it would be completely different.
Zeng Xiao saw that she didn't respond, and gently patted her shoulder, the scale and proportion were just right, neither frivolous nor out of place.
Liu Zhixi came to his senses and told Zeng Xiao what he had just thought, he laughed after hearing it, and said: "Diamonds are precious, but they are scarce, I think it's better to be an ordinary stone than to be a high diamond, although let others trample themselves under their feet and pave a way forward." ”
After hearing this, Liu Zhixi's locked brows were untied, and her two bright eyes were full of smiles, as if someone had lit a lamp in her pupils, and the light was shining.
"Zhixi!" A sweet female voice shouted, and Liu Zhixi looked back to see that it was her new tablemate Jia Xin, Jia Xin was chubby, but her facial features were very upright. She speaks and does things quickly, but it is difficult for others to guess her mind.
Jia Xin ran over and grabbed Liu Zhixi's arm, "Zhixi, your English is really good, can you pass on some experience?" Lin Sujin was wearing a light green coat, like a lilac girl who came out of Dai Wangshu's "Rain Alley", walking gracefully, and the fresh and indifferent fragrance exuded from her body made people intoxicated.
"It's beautiful." Jia Xin said to Liu Zhixi, Liu Zhixi nodded, but the corners of Jia Xin's mouth showed a hint of teasing.
In the evening, the owners of Country Garden will hold a social party, the main purpose is to say that in order to promote feelings, in essence, it is a variety of "fighting", parents fight for status and financial resources, and children fight for achievements and talents. Liu Zhixi has never participated in such an event, because it is embarrassing to participate, what reason does she have, is she a member of the Su family?
The obvious answer is no. On the lawn outside the villa, the lights are colorful and decorated, the hostesses talk about gossip news together, the male protagonists gather to talk, the nannies and community staff are busy preparing food and drinks, and the children are in a group of threes and twos, and from time to time they let out hearty laughter.
Liu Zhixi nested in her bedroom, under the light of the soft eye-protection lamp, writing English test papers, but her attention was always difficult to concentrate, and her soul seemed to be sleepwalking, floating far away, floating into outer space.
The noise of the party gave her a headache, and she poked her temple with her index finger and applied some grass paste they had bought from Thailand, but it still didn't work. She simply stood up and wanted to take a break in a secluded place in the community.
As a result, as soon as he went out, he met Wenli, who was wearing a crimson trench coat and delicate makeup on his face, tall and elegant. Liu Zhixi's heart "smacked", as if she had been hit hard by something, and her stubborn heart was smashed out of an excrement outlet, and the surging tide burst out of the embankment.
Wenli suddenly took her hand and walked towards the crowd with her. Lin Sujin's sweet singing voice came from the center of the crowd, and there were applause and applause from time to time. When I got closer, Lin Sujin was wearing a blue evening dress, sitting in front of the grand piano, and her two white hands were playing skillfully and beautifully on the keys.
It was the song "Endless Road", the melodious piano sound was like a dose of poison, the toxin was transmitted from the ventricles through the blood vessels to every tissue and cell in Liu Zhixi, she desperately sought an antidote, only to find that everything in the past and the painful past was a false proposition.
And what really reaches her heart is the love that she has never faced and resisted before, yes, she loves Leng Jiang. In Liu Zhixi's heart, there is a scorching fire burning, and she hopes that this fire can burn herself to ashes, so that she can reunite with those she loves.
She also hoped with some resentment that the whole world would be turned into a sea of fire, so that all those insidious and ugly would be burned. She pulled her hair back, picked up a ukulele, and jumped onto the stage, the spotlight instantly hit her, and she plucked the strings briskly according to the techniques Leng Jiang taught her, singing the song that could no longer be familiar.
"Lengjiang, there is no end to this road, but I still have to go on." Liu Zhixi closed her eyes, walked alone on the way home, closed the valve of tears stiffly, and whispered to herself.
"Why are you crying?" A familiar male voice whispered softly in her ear, Liu Zhixi opened her eyes, and the smell of good smell came to her face, it was him, her heart was like countless willow branches blowing, and the catkins in the sky were like bright stars, blurring her eyes.
"Leng Jiang, you're back. Yes, is that you? Liu Zhixi was so excited that she was incoherent. Yes, Zhixi, it's me. He gently held her cold little hand, the warmth spread from his fingers to every inch of skin, Liu Zhixi's heart, a pure mountain lily quietly bloomed, and this fragrance does not belong to the spring of this world, only to the moonlight of Leng Jiang alone.
"Do you like this?" Leng Jiang took out a red satin box from his pocket and asked Liu Zhixi mysteriously. "What is it?" Liu Zhixi tilted her head in thought. Leng Jiang smiled shyly and slowly opened it, it was a pendant, and the stone on the pendant was shining brightly, very beautiful.
"This is a diamond with your initials engraved on it." Leng Jiang stared at Liu Zhixi, his eyes full of gentleness. Liu Zhixi happily took it, and looked carefully in the hazy moonlight, and there were indeed three English letters LZX on the pendant. At the end, as if she remembered something, she waved her hand and returned the pendant to Leng Jiang.
Leng Jiang's eyes, under the bright moonlight, shone with charming brilliance, and he whispered: "Zhixi, I like you." Liu Zhixi raised her head suddenly, he leaned down, staring into her eyes seriously and affectionately, her face was hot, she didn't dare to look at him directly, but buried her head in a panic, the intoxicating fragrance of the lily in her heart.
She took the pendant again, and had a thousand words in her heart, but she didn't know where to start, so she simply said "um" and fled. They didn't notice that there was another figure in the corner, like a video camera, recording the whole process of their conversation.
Jia Xin wrote this line of English in his notebook and touched Liu Zhixi's arm, "Zhixi, is this sentence grammatically correct?" ”
Liu Zhixi stopped the rustling pen, glanced at the notebook, and knocked Jia Xin's head hatefully, "In the subjunctive mood, regardless of the personal pronoun and the number case of the subject, the predicate verb is always used were." ”
Jia Xin pursed his lips and smiled, "That, Zhixi, is Lin Sujin on good terms with Su Huai?" Liu Zhixi pretended to cough, cleared her throat, and said, "There is still a year and a half to go before the college entrance examination, don't gossip, study hard." ”
Jia Xin hooked Liu Zhixi with his slightly thick arm and pouted: "Lin Sujin is too arrogant, is it great to be beautiful?!" Liu Zhixi replied helplessly: "We have to work hard, Lin Sujin is not a vase, she has real talent and learning." After that, she continued to work on trigonometric functions and parabolas in her math homework.
After the third class in the morning, it was time to do radio gymnastics, and Jia Xin excitedly pulled Liu Zhixi to the playground. In Liu Zhixi's mind, dialectical materialism and metaphysics were still being replayed, slowly pouring into the playground with the flow of people, Jia Xin was so eager that he stomped his feet, and muttered: "If you don't hurry up, you won't be able to catch up." ”
Liu Zhixi raised her eyes and looked, and a familiar figure appeared on the rostrum, it was Su Huai. Su Huai is wearing a snow-white school uniform, clean and neat, with a tall back image of an oak tree painted by Shu Ting, with a friendly smile on his face, like a scorching planet in the shining sunlight, emitting infinite energy and charm.
Pan Quangui, the director of the teaching office, took the microphone and flew straight away, pointing fingers at the bustling students in the audience. He said that from today onwards, recess exercises will be changed to waltzing, and boys and girls will automatically form teams, one with one, and freely combined. As he was talking, there was a whisper from the audience, and then it erupted into fierce applause, and it turned out that Lin Sujin stepped onto the rostrum.
Director Pan began to praise vigorously, "Ahem, Su Huai, a sophomore in high school, and Lin Sujin are well-known golden boys and girls in our school, oh, oh no, handsome men and beautiful women, oh, it's still not right, they are everyone's role models, not only excellent grades, but also versatile, now the two of them will lead the dance, and everyone will learn waltz with them." ”
There was an uproar in the audience, Liu Zhixi's face was still a light smile, she unconsciously looked back, Zeng Xiao was standing behind her, showing her a sincere smile. She stretched out her snow-white hand, Zeng Xiao was stunned for a moment, and then shook it knowingly, and the two of them formed a dance partner.
Jia Xin angrily stepped on the plastic runway under his feet, without saying a word, just burying his head. When Director Pan asked the cadres of the Student Affairs Department to play music, Jia Xin found that he was alone, and the other boys had already found a dance partner.
The cheerful music played from the loudspeaker of the radio station, and Liu Zhixi quickly learned some appearances, and she and Zeng Xiao also cooperated very tacitly. Jia Xin quietly walked to the end of the team alone, watching everyone indulge in dancing and joy, and a few tears flowed from the corners of his eyes.
She wiped away her tears with her chubby fingers, raised her head suddenly, and looked hard at the pair of beautiful people on the stage, her black pupils were a little hideous, as if she wanted to use her strength to suck them both into her eyes.
Back at the villa in the evening, the nanny and aunt stewed cordyceps soup, Wenli sat at the dining table, although she stayed at home and did not go out, she still carefully put on makeup, the newly made curly long hair draped over her shoulders, and wore the popular long trench coat. She said to Su Huai with a smile: "Hurry up and wash your hands, this cordyceps soup was brought back by Lin Sujin's mother when she traveled to Tibet." ”
Su Huai put down his schoolbag, stretched out his long arm, and made a shooting motion, "Mom, our school is going to have a basketball game, I'm the captain of the school team." Wenli's eyes were full of concern, and there was a little pride and pride.
Liu Zhixi followed Su Huai into the house, Su Huai smiled and showed a mouthful of good-looking white teeth, "Mom, Zhixi is also very good, this monthly exam, she took the third place in the whole grade of liberal arts." Wen Li glanced at Liu Zhixi, and there was a sharpness hidden in her gentle eyes, like a dagger, to peel off Liu Zhixi's heart layer by layer, as if to expose all the emotions buried in her heart to the sun, so that people could judge and point fingers.
Wen Li pouted and said: "What's the use of the top three in liberal arts, just like Lin Sujin, with good grades, good singing and dancing, and a superior family background, in order to be worthy of my son!" Su Huai, who has always been good-tempered, couldn't help it a little and said, "Mom! ”
Liu Zhixi smiled relievedly, and under the pretext that she still had homework to write, she hurriedly left the dining room and returned to the bedroom. After closing the door tightly, she sat down on the ground, tears like salty and wet seawater, dripping into her mouth, very bitter, but more bitter than tears, it was her heart. She silently said in her heart: "No, it must not be." ”
The alarm clock pointed to half past eleven, Liu Zhixi was still immersed in reading, and in the garden outside the window, there was a slight movement. She opened the window, heard the soft sound of the piano, carefully recognized it as the song "Endless Road", a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, put on her coat, and quietly went out.
Under the clear moonlight, Liu Zhixi's face was fair and smooth, giving Leng Jiang an illusion, as if the girl next to her was not a person in the world, but an angel. He had an urge to kiss her, but he felt that she was a pure white lotus, and he could only watch it from a distance, so he forcibly suppressed his thoughts, and just cast his deep gaze on her beautiful face.
"Leng Jiang." Looking at the moonlight like water, Liu Zhixi called in a low voice.
"Huh?" Leng Jiang gently agreed.
"Where have you been after all this time?" Although she sensitively felt that this might be a secret, Liu Zhixi still couldn't help but ask.
"I was originally a wandering soul, and I had no fixed place to live." Leng Jiang replied lightly, his indifferent tone was like an autumn mist, but it couldn't hide the dark hills after the mist. "I'm studying at the city's conservatory, and my dad bought it for me." Finally, he added.
"Oh." Liu Zhixi didn't know how to answer, so she had to respond silently. "It's a basketball game, our school is against your school." Leng Jiang turned his face sideways, revealing a good-looking silhouette. "I'm the captain, come and cheer me on when the time comes!" Liu Zhixi remembered what Su Huai said at night and nodded.
Su Huai would spare an hour to practice basketball every afternoon, while Jia Xin always tried his best to skip the self-study class and go to the court to watch the game. The next day, Jia Xin will definitely talk to Liu Zhixi about Su Huai's ball skills, she sees every bit of progress in his eyes, every smile and every trace of annoyance, she is like a treasure.
Liu Zhixi looked at her kindly and reminded her not to focus on unrequited love and forget the most important study. But she understood Jia Xin so well, before those things happened, didn't she also attach herself to Su Huai, looking forward to every conversation and interaction between them, his hands were so warm on the skating rink, and the coat he handed her during the exam gave her so much emotion and heartbeat.
After saying goodbye to Zeng Xiao, Liu Zhixi walked alone from the dilapidated old campus to Country Garden, and met Jia Xin at the door of the villa. The security guard in the community didn't know Jia Xin and refused to let her in, so she stubbornly stayed where she was.
When she saw Liu Zhixi, she shouted, "Zhixi, do you live here too?" As soon as Liu Zhixi wanted to deny it, the security guard on the side greeted her politely. Liu Zhixi had no choice but to nod, and Jia Xin waved his hand exaggeratedly, "It's so rich, why haven't I heard you mention it before?" ”
"Zhixi, why don't you enter the house?" Liu Zhixi looked back, and under the brilliant sunlight, it was that bright face, it was Su Huai.
"You guys, what?" Jia Xin's head is like a rattle, looking at Su Huai for a while, and Liu Zhixi for a while. Su Huai stood under the golden sky, standing solemnly like a statue, he showed a smile that was even more brilliant than the glow, and there was a glimmer in his eyes as he looked at Liu Zhixi.
Although the distance is a little far, the smile is like a ray of light, which makes people have to look sideways. Liu Zhixi's heart suddenly hurt a little, this gentle teenager, sunny, wise, and affectionate, once illuminated her entire sky, but even the dazzling sun will have sunspots, this teenager changed her youth.
Even though she didn't know where the train of her life was going, she knew that his love had nourished her dry soul. It's just a pity that now she is a firefly, only looking for that fragrance in the night, and what accompanies her is the lonely cold moon in the night.
"We are dragon and phoenix fetuses." Liu Zhixi had an idea, smiled mischievously, stepped forward, and grabbed Su Huai's arm. Jia Xin looked at them in surprise, his expression as serious as if he was visiting paleontological fossils in a museum. Su Huai smiled a little embarrassedly, and stretched out a hand to put his hand around Liu Zhixi's shoulder, "Yes, I'm my brother, and she's my sister." ”
"What, it's obvious that I'm older than you." Liu Zhixi pretended to be angry, let go of her hand to avoid Su Huai, and winked at Jia Xin: "This is a secret, don't tell others." Jia Xin pondered for a long time, eating and laughing, his eyes bent like a crescent moon in the sky.
"Zhixi, can I go to your house to have fun?" Liu Zhixi was stunned for a moment, and Su Huai immediately answered: "Of course you can, welcome." Liu Zhixi smiled gratefully at Su Huai.
"Wow, your house is so big, and you have a garden." Jia Xin sighed as he walked, the three of them were walking towards the house, and they ran into Lin Sujin head-on. Jia Xin looked at Lin Sujin, glanced at the latest girl's fashion on her, pulled Liu Zhixi's hand, and whispered, "Why is she here?" ”
Lin Sujin's hearing was very quick, and he caught it at once, and smiled brightly: "Why are you here?" Jia Xin's cheeks were bulging, and she was a little annoyed and a little proud: "I'm a friend of Zhixi." ”
"Oh......" Lin Sujin replied meaningfully, "but she's not the master here." WITH THAT, HE TURNED GRACEFULLY AND LEFT THEM WITH A BEAUTIFUL BACK AND THE SMELL OF GUCCI PERFUME IN THE AIR. Liu Zhixi noticed that Jia Xin made a disdainful grimace at Lin Sujin unconvinced.