"Why?" At night, Liu Zhixi lay on the bed and couldn't sleep for a long time. I remember that not long ago, she was still immersed in Leng Jiang's gentle confession, and she was secretly cheering for Leng Jiang, who was sweating like rain on the basketball court, why did he become Lin Sujin's boyfriend now? Could it be that his feelings for him are just a deception, or is it a play that does not need to be taken responsibility? She didn't believe that he was that kind of person, but judging from Lin Sujin's intimate actions today, it seemed that he gave her a positive reply.

"Dididi." The mobile phone placed next to the pillow made a vibrating sound, and her heart was suddenly lifted to the sky, with a sense of insecurity for fear of heights, but also accompanied by nervous pleasure and anticipation. She quickly swiped the interface, it was a text message from Su Huai, Su Huai didn't show up all night today. Returning home from KFC, Wenli and Su Qian were eagerly making up for the boy with the boy, as if they wanted to make up for the love they had lacked for the past seventeen years. The boy's name is Shi Yue, a simple name, like his character, silent and strong as a stone, clean and humble as moonlight.

Shi Yue was wearing a brand-new Adidas jacket with a shy smile on her face, while Wenli and Su Qian discussed how to make Shi Yue, who dropped out of junior high school and went to the coal kiln to pull mines, return to school. Su Qian suggested that he go to vocational high school, learn a technology, and then go to work in his own company after graduation. Wenli advocated that he should go to high school, and if he couldn't keep up with his homework, he would spend a lot of money to hire a tutor, and try to be admitted to college, whether it was public or private, a key university or a pheasant university, and finally have a college diploma.

Liu Zhixi's mobile phone showed a message from Su Huai-

Zhixi:

I'm gone, thank you for being with me for more than two years, it was the happiest time of my life. I like you, this phrase has been repeated in my heart a thousand times, and now, allow me to say it one last time. Shi Yue is back, he can be happy for his parents, and I should go. As much as I love and miss this place, and I don't want to leave in every possible way, I can't be so selfish, Shiyue has left my parents, and it's time for me to go back to serve them. I know that once I make this decision, my life and destiny will be turned upside down, but some things, like a rabbit in our hands, always try to escape from our palms and run into the unknown. By the way, the wish I made in Tanzhe Temple is to be with you, but I know that this will always be just a wish. I like you, but that's all, let's not contact each other anymore, don't communicate anymore, we'll be okay, forget about each other. After all, forgetting may be the best antidote for me now, and that memory, I'll let it only appear in my dreams. I wish you well. - Su Huai.

Su Huai is gone, completely disappeared from Liu Zhixi's life, their past, like a bubble, once reflected a beautiful brilliance in the sun, giving her a gorgeous dream, but it was shattered at the touch of a button. She went to his biological parents' house, a dilapidated house at the end of a shabby alley. She and Zeng Xiao walked to the door, a dusty woman with inferior makeup, standing barefoot on the damp moss and smoking a cigarette, seeing the two of them young men, their eyes showed disdain, and they spit out smoke with disdain. Liu Zhixi asked timidly: "Excuse me, does Su Huai live here?" The woman squinted her eyes, the breath from her mouth sprayed onto her face, she couldn't help coughing lightly, the woman's eyeshadow was not evenly applied, and it looked like two huge dark circles under her eyes in the sun. Seeing this, Zeng Xiao pulled the corner of her clothes and motioned for her to leave. Her tears suddenly fell, she stepped forward to take the woman's hand, and said earnestly, "Do you know him?" If you do, please tell me where he is. The woman pulled out her hand with gaudy nail polish and smashed her mouth, "I don't know any Su Huai, I just know that there used to be a beautiful boy living here, I like him, but he doesn't love me, he rejected me." ”

"Where is he now?" Liu Zhixi couldn't help crying, "Please tell me, I can give you money." She took out a beautifully made wallet from her bag, counted a thousand dollars, and stuffed it into the woman's hand. The woman waved her hand, thinking that the money was not enough, so she took out all the money in her wallet and gave it to the woman. The woman continued to spit out the smoke ring, looking at her unhurriedly, as if watching a wonderful performance, Zeng Xiao saw Liu Zhixi so panicked for the first time, she couldn't bear it, and touched her arm again. The woman looked at them playfully, but Liu Zhixi was unconscious, at this moment, there was only one task in her mind, which was to find Su Huai, she was like a blind robot, mechanically repeating the target command, indifferent to everything else.

"He was in a coal mine in the suburbs, and his father died very young, leaving only a crazy mother." At the end, as if she had seen enough of the lively performance, the woman turned around and entered the house and threw a word to Liu Zhixi.

"Su Huai! Su Huai! Liu Zhixi and Zeng Xiao went to the coal mine in the suburbs, and the woman told them the name and address of the mine. In a noisy environment, dark and damp dwellings, a group of shirtless strong men wearing hard hats worked deep underground along the narrow and inaccessible roadway, and from time to time miners pushed ore trucks full of raw ore to the surface. "Bang!" The violent explosion sound made Liu Zhixi coldly startled, fortunately Zeng Xiao has been silently accompanied, she feels that Zeng Xiao is her only support at this time, she is like a drowning person, grasping the last hope of survival that can be held.

She rushed into the crowd like crazy, carefully identified them one by one, the faces of the miners were all black slag, they looked at this girl in surprise, and some even made meat jokes, Liu Zhixi had no time to take care of it, she just wanted to find Su Huai, she understood his love and suffering, even though she had no love for him for a long time, but she regarded him as her best friend and dearest family member. Zeng Xiao rushed forward, grabbed her, and said in a deep voice: "Zhixi, he is gone, he is not here, don't look for it!" Liu Zhixi suddenly fell on his shoulder, crying bitterly, his hand hesitated to hug her, but it still only fell on her long hair. Since he doesn't want you to find him, you do it, as the final fulfillment of him. He whispered softly in her ear.

"Zhixi! Check it out! As soon as she entered the house, Wenli couldn't wait to stop her. She looked at the pampered woman in front of her, even though she was no longer young, she still had the feelings of a little girl. Once, she hated her so much, she left her alone at the gate of the strange compound, left without keeping her promises, and never came back. But now she thinks that if she hadn't abandoned her, she wouldn't have met such kind parents, and she wouldn't have had a poor and happy time with her grandmother. She will not have the opportunity to know Su Huai, she will not experience such a bumpy and unforgettable time, even if she is still empty-handed, but she has really experienced the taste of luck.

Liu Zhixi followed Wenli's voice and entered the cloakroom, Wenli took out a bohemian dress like a trick and made strokes in front of her. "Good-looking", she replied a little perfunctorily, "Try it", Wenli handed her the dress, "For me?" She glanced at the label of the skirt, which said "4986RMB", and she couldn't help but take a step back and excuse herself. "It's okay", Wen Li glanced at the living room, Su Qianzheng and Shi Yue were watching the news program, "Your Uncle Su is a good person, he doesn't mind." "But," Liu Zhixi smiled bleakly, "but I don't mind." ”

After Su Huai left, Lin Sujin rarely came to Su's house again, and sometimes the two families had dinners, and the atmosphere was not as good as before. Su Qian wanted to liven up the atmosphere and also wanted Shi Yue to integrate into their circle, and often took Shi Yue to various occasions, while Wenli has always played the role of a good wife and mother. Ms. Liu still resembles an outsider, as if she were just a bystander, and she has learned to smile politely at dinners, to use knives and forks skillfully, and to occasionally play the guitar and sing a few songs at parties.

It's the annual owners' association again, Liu Zhixi stood in front of the window, listened to the boiling voices outside the house, and gently plucked the ukulele who had been at the foot of the wall for a long time and had fallen into the dust. She suddenly heard a song coming from outside the house, and carefully identified it as the song "Endless Road", it was Leng Jiang, and her heart tightened. Someone gently knocked on her window, she closed her eyes, the past replayed in her mind, tears like a spring rain curtain, staged a spring river flower moonlit night. She didn't answer, the knocking sound became louder and louder, she simply opened the window, Leng Jiang stood outside the window, he hadn't seen him for a while, his face was more three-dimensional, and a green stubble appeared on his chin. He looked a little haggard, but when his eyes touched Liu Zhixi, his eyes instantly became lively and bright.

"Zhixi." He called softly, his voice slightly hoarse. Liu Zhixi's heart was like a night of cold rain, damp and chaotic, she turned her face away, unwilling to look at him. "Zhixi, forgive me, okay?" He lowered his voice and said sincerely. "It doesn't matter if you forgive, Leng Jiang," she said lightly, "because I never cared, never cared. Leng Jiang's eyes were like flames extinguished by cold water, and he pursed his lips, wanting to express something, but he didn't say a word. Lengjiang! A sweet voice came, it was Lin Sujin, "It's time for us to play!" He picked up the guitar and left in a hurry, leaving Liu Zhixi with a hurried back, but he didn't know that this back had once held up her whole world.

"It's not like I've lost everything to you, Liu Zhixi." Before going to bed at night, Liu Zhixi received a message from Lin Sujin, she was a little surprised, she had never compared herself with Lin Sujin, but she inexplicably became a model for others to compete.

On the May Day before the college entrance examination, Wenli and Su Qian took Shi Yue and Liu Zhixi to Yunnan for a tour. When the plane landed at Kunming Changshui Airport, Liu Zhixi looked at the green trees and flowers all over the street, and felt quite happy for a long time. As soon as I got out of the airport, there was a guide waiting with a rose in his hand, and Liu Zhixi took a red rose, and there was crystal clear dew on the delicate petals. She couldn't help but take a deep breath, the aromatic smell made her refreshed, and the breath of the attack lingered in her heart, she suddenly remembered the "Red Rose and White Rose" that she had discussed with Su Huai, Su Huai's face seemed to be so close, but suddenly, she realized that it was just her own memory, and what she could touch with her hand was just nothingness.

The tour guide held a parasol and led them outward, sure enough, it was the spring city of the world, the temperature outside was neither hot nor cold, the sun was soft and bright, and the cool breeze swept away the difficulties of their journey. Shi Yue was wearing the latest T-shirt launched by "Nike", and his short haircut made him look clean and neat, he accepted Wenli's suggestion, hired the best tutor in the city, and was riveting his full strength to prepare for the exam. Liu Zhixi looked at her half-brother with her spare eyes, although she missed Su Huai and cherished his warmth and companionship, she did not reject Shi Yue, on the contrary, she had a feeling of pity for him. She knew that his previous life had been very hard, not only materially, but also very little spiritual care. Sometimes, she even felt sorry for him, because if it weren't for the hospital's negligence and mistakes, she might never have met Su Huai in her life, but this kind of suffering was borne by Shi Yuelai. However, when she thought of Shi Yue's suffering, her heart would increase to a great deal of pain, because she knew that now all this was on Su Huai's shoulders.

Sitting on the cool tour bus, the tour guide introduced the local customs with a pleasant voice, and Liu Zhixi's eyes looked out of the car window, like a camera to capture quickly, and the scenery with local characteristics was contained in his heart. Shi Yue sat beside her, still taking the time to memorize English words, he suddenly touched Liu Zhixi's arm with the tip of his pen, "Sister, if I was a boy, I would love you, is this sentence grammatically correct?" Liu Zhixi looked at him with some surprise, this was the first time he called her "sister", but in fact, in her heart, she had already admitted this younger brother.

"Stupid, this is the subjunctive mood...... As soon as the words fell, she was suddenly stunned, and she remembered Jia Xin. The girl who called herself the goddess of the chubby world was jealous of Liu Zhixi because she liked Su Huai, and there was an unpleasant quarrel between them, and it ended with her transferring to another school. She took out her mobile phone and drew out the QQ interface, Jia Xin's avatar was not lit up again, but Liu Zhixi found that she updated her talk - losing is gaining, and the willows are bright and bright.

The bus drove on the wide road, and the street scene flashed in front of me, like a passer-by in the dust, just staying in the impression. Even though the beautiful scenery is like a glimpse of a shocking rainbow, throwing stunning reflections, their names only hang at the corners of their mouths, and they cannot be pronounced clearly. Liu Zhixi looked out of the car window boredly, and the tour guide took out the fresh pineapples he had just bought, and introduced that the pineapples in Yunnan were delicious and sweet, and they could be eaten directly without soaking them in salt water. Liu Zhixi tasted it, the plump flesh was delicate and sweet, and when she bit it gently, the refreshing and sweet juice filled the entire mouth, and the lips and teeth were fragrant, sweet but not greasy, and the aftertaste was endless.

Her mind was pulled back to that year, she and Su Huai, Lin Sujin went to Thailand to play, the streets of Chiang Rai, everywhere you can see mobile vendors selling small pineapples, the yellow, orange and orange pineapples are not as big as her fist, she saw the cute and pocket-sized shape, she was attracted to the eyes, stopped in front of the stall and did not move. They stand comfortably on the street, from time to time there are blonde foreign friends passing by, they greet them in English, while sharing the delicious little pineapple, smiling heartily, as if all the entanglements and troubles in life have nothing to do with themselves, as long as you enjoy the beautiful scenery and enjoy the food, life is like a flat avenue, with the pace of joy continues to extend, until there is no end in sight in the clouds, giving people infinite yearning reverie.

"Su Huai, where are you? I miss you. Liu Zhixi said softly in her heart, she had repeated this sentence thousands of times in her heart, but she couldn't tell him in person, he was like a drop of morning dew, which had moistened her dry heart, but now, he was mixed into the vast sea of people, and she could no longer clearly and accurately identify which drop was him, so she had to sigh and be helpless. A peddler with a flat shoulder on the side of the street walked by, tall and thin, wearing a straw hat, walking in a somewhat familiar manner, Liu Zhixi's heart shook suddenly, staring at the figure, but the car was speeding by, and when her eyes pursued it again, the person had long since disappeared. "Impossible." She smiled miserably, and the sadness in her heart swept through her heart like a torrent, leaving only her eyes full of devastation.

After a long day's travel, they arrived at the Guanfang Hotel, which is located in a cluster of villas, with a family living in a villa and a butler and cook. After Liu Zhixi bathed, wearing cool pajamas, returned to the bedroom, the bedroom was dressed up very emotionally, the automatic curtains have been closed, the light of the wall lamp is very soft, the temperature of the air conditioner is just right, the vase on the table is also inserted with purple and red flowers, exuding bursts of luxuriness, even the clean and tidy bed, with rose petals to piece together exquisite patterns. THE BUTLER CAME UPSTAIRS AND KNOCKED ON THE DOOR TO TELL HER THAT THE CHEF HAD PREPARED A SUPPER, AND SHE BLEW HER WET HAIR OUT WITH A HAIR DRYER, WORE THE GUCCI SLIPPERS THAT WENLI HAD GIVEN HER, AND WENT DOWNSTAIRS TO THE RESTAURANT. The three of them were already sitting at the dining table, but they didn't move their chopsticks, obviously waiting for her, Wenli's eyes were no longer the panic and hostility that they used to fear of the East Window incident and the secret being revealed, her eyes were overflowing with love. Wenli felt that she was a happy woman, Su Qian's past was not guilty and magnanimous, so that she really felt the feeling of love, and now she has both children and a worry-free life, and she is at ease to be a happy wife and mother. It's just that she never thought that everyone has their own past, and there are stories and unspeakable secrets that can't be delved into.

The chef served the hot cross-bridge rice noodles, and also matched with ginger, kelp shreds, cloud fungus, mustard and other auxiliary dishes, meat and vegetable matching, attractive appearance, Liu Zhixi happily eaten, but still pay attention to the appearance of Swen, a bowl of rice belly, eat satisfied, she packed up the dishes and chopsticks, greeted them, picked up an English magazine, went upstairs to review English words. Although it is a trip for leisure, the purpose of travel to reduce stress is to better cope with the college entrance examination, so Liu Zhixi does not dare or want to relax excessively and fall behind in her homework.

"Zhixi, Yunnan is very beautiful, it has a clear blue sky and turquoise trees, there is a tropical rainforest Xishuangbanna with lush vegetation, there is a cool and pleasant Shangri-La, there is a very distinctive ancient city of Lijiang, and there is a magnificent Dali of Cangshan and Erhai Lake. The jade of Yunnan is wonderful, there are many varieties, the color is moving, there are yellow dragon jade, southern red agate and jadeite, under the fine carving of skilled craftsmen, they are exquisitely shaped, different forms, crystal clear, warm and greasy hands, wear on the body can beg the Buddha for protection, bless peace and health, everything goes smoothly. Liu Zhixi opened her mobile phone Weibo and saw Nuan Yang privately message her, Nuan Yang is a friend of her who has never met on the Internet, sometimes, she will have a sense of astonishment, she feels that Nuan Yang is like an important person in her life, he knows her and understands her like that. She sometimes hopes that Nuan Yang is Su Huai, and hopes that he is still paying attention to her not far away. Sometimes, she secretly hopes that he is Leng Jiang, because she can't deceive herself, she actually loves Leng Jiang, but she can't convince herself.

Her fair, slender fingers slid over the interface, and sent him the photos she had taken in Colorful Yunnan during the day. In the photo, she is smiling, standing in the golden sunlight, her clean eyes are as pure as angels, and her hair is tied into a ponytail at random, she is a girl next door. The photo was taken by Wenli for her, and it is obvious that she inherited Wenli's beauty, but she is a little repulsed by this closeness. She loved Wenli from the bottom of her heart, but just because Wenli was her biological mother, she felt that she wanted the crow to feed back. But if this relationship is put aside, she feels that she will not have any affection for her anyway. What she misses the most is from more than ten years ago, when she came out of the yard in the afternoon, held her in her arms and gave her a family of adoptive parents and adoptive mothers, who did not hesitate to exchange their lives for her safety at the critical moment of a car accident. She is most attached to the years with her grandmother, although life is hard and not easy, every penny has to be used on the blade, everything must be used to the fullest, even going to KFC to buy a pack of fries is a luxury, but she feels that her soul is so rich, and her life is full of laughter.