(xxxvi)
In the dark environment of the Qing bar, the female singer has a slightly hoarse voice, a clear and pleasant guitar sound, Liu Zhixi is sitting by the window of the Qing bar, the sun outside the house is a little dazzling, she lowered her head and pulled the brim of her hat. A tall, lanky man, wearing trendy sunglasses and a white Adidas T-shirt, pushed the door open.
On his body, there is a faint smell of cologne, Liu Zhixi is a girl who is very sensitive to smells, she used to be deeply infatuated with the carved transparent soap smell on Su Huai's body, simple and clear. Later, she liked the men's perfume smell on Leng Jiang's body, and Leng Jiang's fragrance type was often replaced, and each one made Liu Zhixi fall into it. And Xin Chenxi does not prefer to use fragrance, his body has a clean and refreshing big boy charm, which makes Liu Zhixi feel very kind.
"Zhixi", the man walked straight towards Liu Zhixi, with a light smile on his face, cordial but not disproportionate, polite but not unfamiliar. "Nuan Yang, I finally see you", Liu Zhixi put down the goblet in her hand and smiled. Liu Zhixi secretly looked at Nuan Yang, his smile was clean, his eyes were clear, tall and thin, he was the type that Liu Zhixi was obsessed with in her girlhood, she was not very handsome, but she had a unique temperament and personality charm.
"Zhixi, it's nice to meet you", he clearly found Liu Zhixi's inquiring gaze, and took the initiative to greet him, his eyes were friendly, without the slightest banter or frivolity. Liu Zhixi lowered her eyebrows slightly, a little shy, they were best friends on the Internet, but when they really met in real life, she was a little apprehensive and cowardly for some reason.
"Hello Nuan Yang, I'm really happy to know you", Liu Zhixi raised her eyes slightly, trying to restrain her cautious gaze, and two rays of light shot out of her eyes. The sun outside the window is bright and warm, like an inexhaustible planet exuding great energy, and the tall French plane trees flutter a few leaves below zero, so that the passers-by suddenly react, it is already autumn.
"Nuan Yang, your name is so nice, warm sunshine always gives people warmth and hope." Liu Zhixi tried to put aside the embarrassment and pretended to be relaxed. "I love my name too. It's just that people's lives are really unpredictable, and what we encounter can't always be what we like. For those we don't like, the eyes around us and the pressure from society also force us to accept it. Even if we are reluctant, we still have to grit our teeth and accept it unconditionally, and we have quietly grown up in such pain. Nuan Yang's gaze fell on the goblet held by Liu Zhixi, the gaze was fluttering and subtle, but there was an invisible force, pressing on Liu Zhixi's hand, as if to crush the cup.
Liu Zhixi and Nuan Yang face to face, looking at each other, they didn't have a lot of caution between lovers, just ordinary long-lost old friends, chatting and having fun. Liu Zhixi's mobile phone rang suddenly, it was Jiang Xiaohan, he sent a message saying that he had just learned to make durian ice and invited her to taste it in the store.
Nuan Yang looked at his watch, stood up, and went to the bar to pay the bill. When going out with the opposite sex, Liu Zhixi has always disliked letting the other party pay the bill, but this time she didn't refuse, she remembered that Luo Cheng told her that letting the boys pay the bill is to respect their face. Liu Zhixi has always disagreed, but Nuan Yang's actions did not disgust her, but she had a feeling of taking it for granted, and this feeling undoubtedly pulled into the distance between them in real life.
Walking out of the narrow alley, the golden sunlight fell on them, looking from a distance, like wearing a layer of golden clothes, Jiang Xiaohan came to meet him, smiled and took Liu Zhixi's backpack, but the warm sun was stunned for a moment. "Cold, Leng Jiang?" He blurted out, but his voice was so low that he couldn't even hear it clearly.
"It's delicious", Liu Zhixi scooped up a spoonful of ice with a spoon, the fine smoothie was spread with milk, the soft and glutinous flesh of the durian covered the ice surface, and the smoothie was stirred and fused with fruit and milk. Jiang Xiaohan smiled with crooked eyebrows, like a satisfied child who had received the gift he had always dreamed of.
"Xiao Han, how much is this?" Liu Zhixi asked casually while enjoying the food. "This, no money, I'll invite you", Jiang Xiaohan's eyes flashed with joy. "Then what's the matter, I didn't give you the medical expenses last time", Liu Zhixi insisted, she has never been a person who loves to take advantage, although her life was poor when she was a child, but her grandmother warned her that things that do not belong to her cannot be thought of as a difference, nor can she be delusional that happiness will fall from the sky, and all the gifts in fate should be obtained by their own efforts and down-to-earth.
"Well, if you're really embarrassed, tell me a story as a reward." On Jiang Xiaohan's fair face, there was a smile that was more dazzling than the sun, and Liu Zhixi secretly thought in her heart that if she was a few years younger, she would definitely fall in love with him.
She knows very well that her feelings for Jiang Xiaohan are attachment, like, and sustenance, but not love, she longs to see him and wants to share the bits and pieces of her life with him, a large part of the reason is because of his appearance, which resembles the person who has been thinking about him for a long time.
"What story would you like to hear?" Liu Zhixi greedily sucked the sweet juice, and after eating the last bite, the taste of durian lingered in her mouth. "Let's tell me the story of you and the man named Leng Jiang who looks very similar to me." Jiang Xiaohan looked at her expectantly, she frowned slightly, the cut in her heart ventricle that was cut out by the knife had already scabbed, but it was abruptly exposed to the sun again.
Seeing this, Jiang Xiaohan slowly suppressed his smile, walked over, and patted her shoulder gently. Liu Zhixi had an illusion, as if she was exposed to the scorching sun, and Jiang Xiaohan was a high wall, blocking her from the scorching sun. It's just that she never thought of climbing over this side of the wall to see the scenery over there.
"When I was very young, I didn't see my dad, it was my mom, a single woman, who took me with me. One day, my mother took me out to play for the first time, and she took me a far, far way. Later, she asked me to stay in front of a yard and wait for her, and she promised me to go and buy me lollipops. But I waited for a long, long time, it was windy and rainy, and she didn't come to pick me up. Then a young couple came out of the yard, and they took me home and told me that I was their child from now on. My adoptive parents were very kind to me, and my grandmother was very kind and loved me. But on my fifth birthday, my parents took me to the playground, but I was in a car accident halfway, and they gave their lives to protect me", Liu Zhixi took a breath and said a long series of words, her eyelashes were stained with crystal tears.
"Grandma didn't blame me for being a broom star, but was doubly nice to me. I was very impressed that that winter, in order to get justice for my dead parents, my grandmother took me to a high-end community to find the driver who caused the accident. It was cold, we shivered from the cold, but the security guards wouldn't let us in. Just when I was almost desperate, a boy came up to me, kept us warm in the communication room, and gave me a box of Ferrero. Later, I learned that the boy was Leng Jiang, and this was our first meeting", a faint smile appeared on Liu Zhixi's face, as if recalling a very beautiful past.
"Later, while visiting Thailand, I drowned, and it was he who saved me from everything. I don't remember when I fell in love with him, falling in love with him is a happy thing, every time he appears, it makes me blush and my heart beats, but it is sweeter than honey. However, he often makes me cry, but these tears are not floods and beasts, but nectar springs", Liu Zhixi's face showed a flush. Her eyes suddenly dimmed, "It's just that now, he is someone else's boyfriend, and we are destined to part ways", Liu Zhixi showed a smile, but the smile was extremely bitter, but Jiang Xiaohan still saw a bud in it.
Coming out of the dessert shop, it was close to the evening sunset, Liu Zhixi's long hair was covered with a layer of luster, and the gorgeous sunset was like a burning flame, reflecting the two flames in Liu Zhixi's eyes. Jiang Xiaohan sent her to the door of the mall and watched her leave, her back was a little thin, but her back was very straight, like all the difficulties couldn't defeat her. It's just that in the middle of the night when no one is around, those tear-soaked scars will ache faintly, reminding her that some of the past is not easy to cross.
"Zhixi, if he can't be by your side, can I fill the vacant position in your heart?" Jiang Xiaohan's eyes were as gentle as a quiet lake in the night, and like a fluorescent lake, wrapping his love in light colors and freezing those hurried years.
Liu Zhixi looked at him seriously, she was a little suspicious at first, but his bright eyes made her sure. She admitted that her heart was a little shaken, he was too similar to him, but it gave her a completely different feeling. Leng Jiang always breaks her heart, and Jiang Xiaohan always brings her joyful surprises. They are very much like an angel who has fallen into hell and tries to take her back to heaven, and the other is a favorite of God, as holy as a child who does not know anything about the world. "Yes, I'm sorry", Liu Zhixi still couldn't convince herself, it was precisely because she loved Leng Jiang that Leng Jiang was irreproducible.